Friday, August 16, 2013
Massive headache ALL week, with almost no reprieve. I've tried every single thing I could find. I didn't know what caused it, so I tried Benedryl, Otrivin, 1000 mgs of Tylenol every 4-6 hours, EVERY other OTC pain killer, cold water cloth on my neck, as hot as possible hot water over my wrists, browsing the internet for ideas for hours, etc. etc. My friend, Paula, finally told me that when she gets headaches, she drinks strong coffee, apparently, it opens the blood vessels.
I was all settled in bed, early, watching TV, with my head splitting ~ and I thought, 'might as well' have a coffee. It won't make it any worse. Knowing full well that it certainly wasn't going to make it any better. I mean the 1500 mgs of Tylenol that I'd taken weren't even touching it. (Yes, I know I shouldn't take that much at once, and rarely ever do.) So, I had a double double STRONG coffee. Within twenty minutes ~ NO more headache and it didn't come back ALL night. This morning, I could feel it 'trying' to come on ~ so I had a couple cups of coffee and I haven't had a headache ALL day. After suffering all week with an awful headache, I will never stop drinking coffee again! Two cups in the morning, like usual, before I decided to start drinking tea.
The bad news is that I stayed home ALL week and didn't do any exercise (well, 10 whole minutes lol) because who can do 'anything' with a headache from hell. The good news is that I finally got back on my schedule of getting up between 8 and 9 in the morning because, once again, who can sleep with a headache that bad. So I am singing the praises of my friend, my morning coffee (and any time I have a headache)
Have a wonderful, fantastic, fabulous weekend!!! I am praying that my head will be on straight and the pain won't come back!
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
This weekend we went to Billings, Montana for a vacation. We usually go to Great Falls but merchants know Canadians do that, so they overprice everything for our convenience. hehe So, we went the extra 3+ hours to Billings because it is nicer, cheaper and has a Cracker Barrel. Heavy on that last one. ;) We got there very late Friday night.
Saturday, while shopping at the Cracker Barrel, after a wonderful breakfast ~ no, I did not behave myself while gone and I'm ok with that ~ we overheard someone talking about the State Fair being there. So ~ bonus!!! We had a wonderful time at the Fair on Saturday afternoon! We're planning on going back, next year. :) We also planned on going back after Christmas but that took until August ha ha ~ so time will tell. :)
We just relaxed, the kids swam a lot ~ and we visited Cracker Barrel numerous times. We didn't eat anywhere else ~ because, well 'why'? We did only eat 1 large meal per day with numerous 'snacks' so I didn't gain much ~ maybe a pound.
I have to tell you ~ I was so ticked off. We stayed at a Howard Johnson, which I thought was a good hotel, I think it used to be. ?? The room was ok, no problem with that ~ but no communication among the staff. One day, we hung the sign out to clean the room ~ and they didn't so we had to call. The next day we told the staff TWICE not to clean the room ~ and came back to them making the beds. LOL Things get screwed up so that was ok.
The problem was that they advertised "free swimming". When it came time to go swimming, there was a sign that said to check at the front desk first, which we did. They said that swimming is free BUT you have to pay to go on the water slide. Huh? Have you ever heard anything so stupid? Is this a policy at all HoJo's? I told them that was kinda like saying "Rooms are free but keys are $150 per night". No biggie, we paid it ~ but I really hate being lied to ~ or majorly misled.
Anyway ~ home now and, once again, following my food plan. I'm feeling vacation let-down and don't really want to be home ~ but it is what it is. :) Therefore, I'm planning on making it a good week. And wish y'all (don't you love that word. I do!) the same.
P.S. Thank you for asking about my mammogram. It was just fine. Don't know about the bone density yet. I have an appointment for a complete physical on the 28th so will find out then/ I think they would have phoned me if there was any problem, though. My mom had osteoporosis so I sure hope it's ok. :)
Tuesday, July 30, 2013
"A goal without a plan is just a wish" ~ Antoine de Saint-Exupery
This was today's Spark Coach message ~ and how true it is!
So far, this day is going great! Got up at a good time,. finished all my internet 'business' in short order ~ and meditated. Now ~ for lunch. :)
I'm going to track every mouthful of food today and attempt to get some exercise. We will see how that goes depending on how long it takes at the Radiology lab. I have to get my mammogram and bone density tests today. Sure don't like it ~ but it has to be done. So, I will go in with an upbeat attitude. I'm hoping the rest of the day goes as well as the morning. :)
Monday, July 29, 2013
“Shoot for the moon. Even if you miss, you'll land among the stars.” ~ Les Brown
I love that saying. :)
I had a pretty good weekend. Didn't have time to track etc. but stayed as close to program as possible. I was busy all weekend, helping find my daughter and her husband a new apartment. We scored beautifully! The nicest apartment they have lived in, by far and we found it before the baby comes. They can move in immediately! :)
Didn't really start today off well, slept much longer than I should have ~ which I can't change. But, I am doing all the other things I have written in my plan. So, I'm off to enjoy the day ~ hope you are, too!
Friday, July 26, 2013
"You are never too old to set another goal or to dream a new dream." ~ CS Lewis
I just finished sitting on my new deck, reading the last chapters of the latest Stephen King novel (not scary, just good). It was lovely. I am so happy I have the deck. Maybe, I will get my son to take some pictures this weekend and I will post them. Although, it's nothing fancy ~ just an ordinary deck ~ but it's special to me because now I can go outside any time I want and it feels so good.
I don't know why I love Stephen King novels so much. I have every book he's ever written (over 50) ~ and my favorite movies and TV shows are very dramatic and, sometimes, dark. I wish I knew 'why'. Maybe, it's something to ask my therapist. It doesn't make much sense to me, being that I suffer from chronic depression and have been on anti-depressants for many years. Depression is a battle I fight daily. Because of that, you would think I would stay away from this type of 'entertainment' but I really enjoy it.
In the last few years, I've had a lot of success with my depression, however. That's why I love my 'teachers' so much. Wayne Dyer and Eckhart Tolle. They have helped me change the way I 'think', which is the most important part. :) Rich (my therapist) tells me that if I stay off prescription narcotics, I will be even happier. I aim for that but often fall short of my goal because I have narcotics prescribed for me. I have, yet, to be strong enough to tell my doctor that I don't want them. I am afraid to be without them ~ yet, I sometimes get addicted to them. It's really a crazy circle. I, pretty much, have to just leave the outcome in God's hands.
Wow ~ it was not at all my intention to write all this information about me ~ there must be a reason, though, so I am going to leave it as it is. :) Not that I'm embarrassed or ashamed to have a therapist ~ far from it. I believe that most of the world would benefit from having a counsellor, even the counsellors themselves. I have more than one friend who is in the therapy field and also, have their own therapist. My best friend has worked as a social worker and as a therapist in the recovery field and she benefits from having someone to help her with her life problems. It's more that I feel I should have resolved this problem ~ somehow ~ and I haven't.
I quit drinking, the month before I turned 21. Yeah, it was that obvious that liquor was a problem, even at that young age. So, that means I've been in 12-step programs most of my life. But liquor was never, not-even-close, the problem that prescription narcotics have caused me. I am working on it ~ one day at a time ~ but, I guess, I feel that I should have it licked by now. I don't ~ and I have to learn to accept that.
There is no doubt, though, that this ties right into what I do want to talk about. Which is that I'm always having to recommit to the same things ~ and that the same things tend to go wrong on a consistent basis. Yes, this sure does tie into food and my SP plan. :)
I need to recommit to the 'basics'. Things I've talked about on my blog before.
~ I have to start getting up at an earlier time. Nothing drastic, even 9 o'clock would be an improvement. My circadian clock has been 'off' all my life. It was even a problem when I went to school. And, why I have always done better setting my own work hours. The very earliest my body wants to wake up is 8 o'clock, preferably 9. And, it doesn't want to go to bed any earlier than midnight. I've tried for years and years to change this ~ and it won't 'reset' to a normal pattern. I am more rested in 5 hours, if I go to bed at 4 am and wake at 9 than I am if I go to bed at 11 o'clock and sleep until 7, which is 8 hours of sleep. BUT ~ I need to get back to my 9 in the morning schedule. Lately, I've been waking up at 10 or 10:30 which doesn't leave much time until noon. So, my breakfast and lunch are kind of screwed up which makes it hard to follow a food plan.
~ I have to commit to only spending a small amount of time on the internet when I do get up. I've been spending a good hour or more online, which takes me to noon. I have to do my 'work' at Spark Coach, do my daily mediation and get OFF the internet.
~ I have to log my food each day. When I don't ~ even when I'm within my calorie count ~ I feel like I'm doing something 'wrong' and I tend to fall off program a lot faster.
~ I have to commit to making certain that the next day's dinner is planned out before I go to sleep each night. That is one of the things that always causes me problems. I don't have a plan. So, I fail to do the 'right' things.
~ Most of all, I need to find the correct balance of 'structure'. If I don't have any plan for my day, I always fail. I don't eat properly, I don't eat at the right times, I don't exercise, I'm always putting things off for a 'better time'. If I have too much structure in my day, I get very resentful about 'having to' do all these things. I want/need a break from routine ~ and by the time I find one, it's not a good solution. I know that both, too much and too little, structure is bad for me ~ and I need to find a balance. THAT is not going to be easy. I've been looking for a good balance for a few months now.
Those few things, that for most people are standard no-brainers, are enough for now. If I succeed in doing those things, everything in my life will get better. I know that ~ it's happened before. And ~ it is not going to be easy for me to get back on track. So, I will commit to those goals, for now, and add more later.
Time to go eat 'something'. Then some house-work before the boys get home. Thank God, I have already made supper (I doubt I will ever get used to the work 'dinner'. lol).
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