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WORKING TO PUT SPRING BACK INTO MY HEART

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

PRIORITIZING MY HEALTH OVER ALL THAT LIFE THROWS AT ME IS STILL AN OVERWHELMING CHALLENGE.

ANOTHER TRIP TO THE EMERGENCY ROOM THIS WEEK AND HOSPITAL VISITS WITH UNCERTAINTY WITH MY DH HEALTH PUTTING MY HEALTH FIRST FOR MYSELF AND FOR HIM IS STILL DIFFICULT. I ALLOW MY FEARS AND ANXIETY TAKE OVER AND THE FOOD CREEPS IN TO COMFORT ME.

I HAVE MADE SOME EFFORT THIS PAST MONTH TO CLENSE MY SOUL AND BODY BUT NEED MORE OF A MAJOR EFFORT TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE. THE SNOW MELTING, THE TEMPERATURES MORE MILE WITH THE SUN SHINING AND SKIES BLUE LIFT MY SPIRITS SOME AND I WILL CAPITALIZE ON THAT FOR NOW.

  
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GODS_TEMPLE 3/21/2014 6:30PM

    Prayer, prayer and more prayer. Remember, we can do all things with God's help.

That doesn't mean we wont stumble and fall, but He is always there to catch us and put us back on our feet. emoticon

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LE7_1234 3/21/2014 2:09AM

    Sorry you have to deal with this.

If you find yourself reaching to food for comfort, try to at least slow down long enough to actually enjoy it. Remind yourself that you're doing the best you can for yourself in the moment.

It's not a cure for the calories, but I find sometimes the reminder is enough to help me switch to a better comfort mechanism.

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MCFITZ2 3/20/2014 1:07AM

    Sending a hug. Having an ill spouse is so difficult to deal with. Just do the best you can at the time and accept that it is all you can do. Don't beat yourself up with woulda shouda done this or that. Try to remember that keeping yourself healthy is one of the best ways to help him.
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JILL313 3/19/2014 11:30PM

    Hi Yvonne, I understand how you feel. . .when we have sick loved ones it's the "loving Caretaker" in us that always puts their needs before our own. When my son was going through a "nightmare" of a medication change I literally didn't have time to shower or do my hair very often. I went to several Dr. appts. with him looking like something the "cat drug in" but it was a lot about the stress and sleepless nights that made me not even take care of myself or ,y needs anymore. Thankfully things are going better with him hence me also. So sorry your don't have much relief from being your DH caretaker and when you do you're probably so stressed and tired you don't care at that moment about taking good care of yourself. Is it possible you could hire a nursing student to come watch your DH while you take a half day off to simply get away even if it's you sitting in a coffee shop and reading, writing, etc. Right now losing weight isn't your top priority anymore and I hope when your life calms down more you can once again regain your focus. Believe me I'm not judging you in any way as I've been there myself more than most people know. Right now all you can do is what you can and not feel guilty you're not Superwoman 24/7 emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon . . .

Love You,

Jill

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IOWAGRAMMA 3/19/2014 4:07PM

    It is hard to put yourself first when the reality is that there are times when others do come first in the daily scheme of things. I understand exactly what you are saying...that's where I am myself right now (and I suspect many of us are). Jackie said that our egos take us back to the familiar, and believe me, I know that first hand, too. Do the best you can and take care of yourself as much as possible! Hugs, Jeannie

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LADYSTARWIND 3/19/2014 2:29PM

    When we have the stress of a health issue, it is always difficult to focus on our goals.... And, I believe our bodies innately turn to "desiring calories", hanging onto to e-v-e-r-y--s-I-n-g-l-e one of them, and storing as much water as we possibly can!! LOL

As others have said, for now give yourself a breather and focus on very simple small goals: eat well as much as possible, drink plenty of good fluids, and in about a week...reset from where you are at then...more small healthy goals.

Take Care! We are thinking of you!
patti

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SPEEDY143 3/19/2014 2:23PM

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GGJUNEBUG 3/19/2014 1:48PM

    IF anything, try to reach out for at least one healthy meal a day even though you continue to turn to comfort food. I know how hard it is, but if I force myself to at least eat one fruit or one serving of veggies a day and have at least one glass of water, then I would have made an effort to eat/drink healthy on a small daily basis.

Praying for the best concerning your hospital/health concerns.


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JAOTAO 3/19/2014 1:02PM

    Take care of yourself Yvonne ... I understand totally. What could you do for yourself to help comfort you that isn't food... Our egos always go back to the familiar... Prayers for you and your family. Love, Jackie

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LESS TALK MORE ACTION

Saturday, February 22, 2014

FEBRUARY 22, 2014

TRYING TO GET OUT OF WINTER SLUMP AND AFTERMATH OF PERSONAL TRAUMAS HERE AT HOME.

REMEMBERING THAT NO ONE WHEN THEY SEE OUR SIZE CONSIDERS ALL THAT YOU HAVE BEEN THROUGH AND HOW TOUGH IT IS. ALL THEY SEE IS SOMEONE WHO HAS NOT TAKEN CARE OF THEMSELVES...... I AM CHALLENGED TO LOSE THE WEIGHT AND SHOW THOSE PEOPLE AS WELL AS MYSELF THAT THEY CAN NO LONGER USE MY WEIGHT AGAINST ME AND I AM WORTH SO MUCH MORE THAN MY PHYSICAL APPEARANCE.

WHEN WE WALK ALONE THROUGH MANY TRAUMAS FOOD IS THE EASIEST THING TO GRAB ONTO WHEN YOU LACK SUPPORT BUT OTHER THINGS MUST BE PUT IN PLACE THAT CANNOT TURN ON US AND MAKE US A TARGET FOR OTHERS WHO ARE NOT COMPASSIONATE OR KIND IN THIS WORLD.

I WILL GET PAST THIS WINTER DEPRESSION AND ALL MAJOR ISSUES THAT MAKE PUTTING THE FOOD DOWN MORE DIFFICULT. SEND ME PRAYERS AS I PRAY FOR ALL OF YOU.

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PLUMERIA26 2/26/2014 12:16PM

    You can do it! DOn't quIT! It is hard when you see people looking at your weight and judging you. Nevermind them! It is a constant struggle, especially when you have bad habits that need to be changed that have been around for decades! It's not going to happen overnight. We just need to keep trying, take one day at a time. Don't worry about yesterday or tomorrow, just make good decisions today. Each good decision adds up! I think that going on the spark message boards, reading others posts and responding helps to keep me motivated when I'm not feeling motivated at all. Keep it up! emoticon

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JUSTYNA7 2/23/2014 5:53PM

    One choice.
Just do it.
Water, walk, eat a vegetable, say NO! to a temptation.

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ERINBAKER2007 2/23/2014 1:20PM

    You can get through it! Winter is almost over! I have to keep telling myself that. Just about 1 month until Spring! Lets break through the winter slump together! emoticon

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NANCYPAT1 2/23/2014 12:31AM

    You can do it - it may be a challenge but it is possible.

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GODS_TEMPLE 2/22/2014 11:18PM

    Prayers are being said. emoticon

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MCFITZ2 2/22/2014 7:10PM

    Your right. Too often people make a "knee jerk" evaluation on appearance alone. Not fair to be judged by someone's prejudices. Hang in there. emoticon

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JAOTAO 2/22/2014 5:57PM

    Hugs to you Yvonne ... may the sun shine down on you and lift your spirits. You are dealing with lots. Keep believing... Love, Jackie

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IOWAGRAMMA 2/22/2014 1:46PM

    Indeed, you WILL get through them and come out smiling on the other side. Winter is hard for so many people. emoticon

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JIBBIE49 2/22/2014 1:09PM

    Hugs.

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STARTING OVER

Tuesday, January 28, 2014

SOMETIMES NEW YEAR'S EVE IS SAD. THIS ONE I AM MAKING GLAD SINCE I NEED TO HAVE A FRESH START IN MY LIFE AND ALTHOUGH JANUARY STARTED ROCKY I AM DETERMINED TO MAKE THIS A LANDMARK YEAR FOR ME IN A POSITIVE DIRECTION.

I AM PREPARED TO WORK AT BRINGING THE JOY AND HEALTH BACK TO MY LIFE RATHER THAN PUTTING ENERGY INTO PEOPLE, ISSUES, HOUSES, ETC.......OF COURSE THOSE THINGS STILL MATTER TO ME BUT MY PRIORITIES NEED TO BE PUT INTO ORDER.

I BLESS THIS SITE. WITHOUT THIS SITE I WOULD BE LOST IN THE ABYSS OF LIFE'S EVENTS AND CIRCUMSTANCES WHICH SOMETIMES GRATES UPON THE SOUL WITH NO MERCY. I RETURN TO THE COMFORT OF THE SPARK FAMILY WHICH I FOUND NURTURES ME MORE COMPLETELY AND BETTER THAN FOOD. TO HAVE FOUND THIS SITE HAS BEEN A BLESSING.

LOVE TO ALL OF MY SPARK FAMILY.

THIS WILL BE OUR YEAR TO CLAIM AND MAKE OUR OWN FULL OF HAPPINESS & ACCOMPLISHMENTS.

LOVE
YVONNE

  
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BESTSWEST 2/20/2014 12:04PM

    You can do it

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JUSTYNA7 2/15/2014 12:56PM

    You can do this!

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LE7_1234 1/30/2014 1:22AM

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Here's to a fresh start!

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GODS_TEMPLE 1/29/2014 6:34PM

    Name it...and claim it! We can all do this.

Happy and successful 2014!

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VTMAID 1/28/2014 7:03PM

    Yvonne...it is so nice to have you back with us. You sound so much more upbeat now! Yes, this will be our year!
Hugs,
Karen

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JAOTAO 1/28/2014 6:20PM

    You have the support of many of us, Yvonne ... keep the faith ... don't lose heart. Better days are ahead. Love,Jackie

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IOWAGRAMMA 1/28/2014 4:58PM

    Yvonne, I think we will all do well this year. So happy to see you Sparking and making progress in your journey to improved health and happiness! ((Hugs))

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FAVALL 1/28/2014 4:40PM

    We are hear to support you, Yvonne, on your journey to good health. May your efforts be blessed!



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GORIANA 1/28/2014 2:07PM

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DIFFICULT DECISIONS

Monday, July 29, 2013

DUE TO A HEALTH EMERGENCY I HAD TO MAKE SOME DIFFICULT DECISIONS THIS WEEK.

I HAVE TO REALIZE WHAT MY PRIORITES ARE...MY HEALTH...AND REALIZE I CANNOT TAKE ON MORE THINGS IN LIFE THAN I CAN HANDLE SO I MUST GIVE UP WHAT IS ENDANGERING MY HEALTH AND OVERWHELMING ME.

I NEED TO FOCUS ON THE FACT THAT IF I DON'T MAKE ME THE FULL TIME JOB THAT I AM I WILL NOT LIVE TO HAVE ANYTHING ELSE. SO FOR TODAY I WILL HANDLE THE HEALTH AND LIFE ISSUES ON MY PLACE WITH 100% COMMITTMENT.

1. RESTORE HEALTH
2. RESTORE LACK OF HOME
3. BE GRATEFUL EACH DAY FOR GODS GIFTS TO GIVE ME PEACE

LOVE AND CONCERN TO MY SPARK FAMILY FOR THEIR HEALTH AND HAPPINESS.

  
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TRIANGLE-WOMAN 9/1/2013 7:36AM

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Let us know how things are going.



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CONNIEDETHOMAS 8/31/2013 7:56AM

    May the Good Lord give YOU the mighty Strength, Power and Wisdom to make
the Healthiest Choices when it comes to Food and Exercise. Help her Lord to
reach out for help when she needs it. Above all Lord.... help your beloved child
here not to beat herself up if she slips a bit. For you Lord are the perfect one not
Us. AMEN.

WE LOVE YOU !!!! YOUR FRIENDSHIP AND SUPPORT HAD MENT SO MUCH TO US.
LET US RETURN IT TO YOU WHEN YOU NEED IT
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Connie in WV
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MARILYNROBERT 8/18/2013 11:23PM

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JFROGSPYDER 8/6/2013 4:13PM

    Yvonne ~ I see that you are deciding to take care of "you" too!!!! These are such hard decisions, but we have to put ourselves first until we are back in good health & at a healthy weight!!!! I SO appreciate the comments & encouragement that you posted on my page!!!! Thank you so very much!!!!
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LOPEYP 8/2/2013 7:26PM

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MCFITZ2 7/31/2013 7:50PM

    Health first. emoticon

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DSCROW 7/31/2013 7:23PM

    If you don't take care of you, you have nothing left to give. Be at peace with what's on your plate and take care of today. Tomorrow's issues are for tomorrow.

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KAZZIE531 7/30/2013 6:41PM

    YOU GO GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!

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JILL313 7/30/2013 12:30AM

    Hi Yvonne. I'm really sorry to hear you've had scary health issues recently. Like others said it's high time to make getting yourself as healthy as possible your #1 Priority now. Nothing else right now is as important as that. Make and follow through on a new Healthy Plan to feel better with less medical problems. I know eating healthy with less and exercising more is difficult but so is being deathly sick or an invalid, etc. so do Now not Tomorrow what you can for yourself. I'll be praying for you my sweet friend. Life isn't always a "Bed of Roses" for us but then I've never been promised that it would be. Getting through Life well and enjoying each day isn't always as easy as it sounds.

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BELDONDOG1 7/29/2013 9:16PM

    Make yourself the number one person in your life--you need it, you deserve it! (hugs)

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GORIANA 7/29/2013 5:11PM

    Good luck getting everything in order.

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IOWAGRAMMA 7/29/2013 2:52PM

    Your priorities are clear and just right for you!! Without our health we have nothing, as you've pointed out. Hoping and praying for the best for you! Jeannie

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HDHAWK 7/29/2013 2:04PM

    Your health does need to come first. WIthout your health you don't have much else.

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CONNIEDETHOMAS 7/29/2013 10:25AM

    You are so correct!! Your health must come first.

Lord please give strength, guidence and comfort
to your wonderful child here. Light a lamp to Help
her down this path of getting healther. Amen

Much love and support!!
Connie in WV
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LADYJ6942 7/29/2013 10:17AM

    Keep on pushing, you are making good choices and things will fall into place. Hugs

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JAOTAO 7/29/2013 10:09AM

    Dear Yvonne ... yes, the body must be a fit container before we can do anything. I support you in nurturing and restoring yourself to wholeness. Be gentle on yourself... Love, Jackie

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MLDRLD 7/29/2013 10:09AM

    Thinking of you as you make difficult decisions at this time and as you re-commit to your priorities.

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ROLLER COASTER RIDE OF SOUTH BEACH

Wednesday, July 10, 2013

Dearest Spark Friends,

This has been a crazy week for me seeing I have these three people living in my body at the same time...lol...funny, not so funny.

Like the old movie starring Joanne Woodward "The Three Faces of Eve" I watched the part of me with all this good info from spark and gathered through my life guide me through the diet do's and don't. emoticon The attentive one of me followed through, shopping, preparing and attempting to be 100% spot on. emoticon The rebellious one of me argued, debated, made excuses, upset the other two of me when confronted with a crisis this past week proceeded to play the old tapes inside of me and I beguiled and succumbed to eating some carbs when I should have had none. emoticon

I reinstate my resolve this week to attempt to destroy or at least put into a cage the rebellious side of me who is driving me to INSANITY. That is doing the same thing and expecting different results. So here I go again fighting my own demon and hoping someday that rebellious little child in me realizes she is killing herself. emoticon

Will keep you posted.

Love and Support to all of my Spark Family emoticon emoticon

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ALL4BMI 8/11/2013 4:09AM

    Know what you mean.

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CAMILLIAN2 7/15/2013 10:15PM

  I love you!!! Don't beat yourself up. Tomorrow is a new day.

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NIGHTASBYDAY 7/14/2013 1:32PM

    have the carbs but make sure they are the good kind of carbs for you emoticon blog

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LIVEDAILY 7/14/2013 10:43AM

    Good luck to you on your SB quest! And congrats to you for placing on the Leader Board for this week!!
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JILL313 7/11/2013 8:26PM

    Yvonne, Changing our eating habits is hard for almost everyone. . .and I know in your heart you want to switch it up so you'll feel better. . .I had a really hard time getting through the first Phase of SB. I did slip up a couple of times but got right back on it. Somehow I made it through and did lose 8 excess pounds. If this First Phase is too difficult maybe you should start with Phase 2 which isn't as strict and the food choices are larger. Just an idea, as you'd still be eating less carbs, sugar and fat so if you figure out it's doable just jump into Phase 2 first. I know you can do it and I'll be here ready to encourage you. Take one meal at a time and be sure to have tons of sugar free Jello on hand (also try the Ricotta Cheese Dessert) emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon as if it wasn't for eating that all day long I know I would have never made it as I have a big sweet tooth.

Hugs & Love,

Jill

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IOWAGRAMMA 7/11/2013 1:21PM

    I bet you get it figured out and deal with it, Yvonne. I'm sure there are many of us right there with you. When you get yours tamed, please and do something about mine! LOL! Hugs, Jeannie

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STITCH4EVER 7/11/2013 10:26AM

    GET THE BOOK! IT WILL FIRE YOU UP SO MUCH THOSE OLD CARBS WILL KNOW BETTER THAN TO COME KNOCKING ON YOUR DOOR!
ERIN

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JAOTAO 7/11/2013 9:47AM

    LOL - I know what you mean Yvonne. I sometimes feel the same way. Though if the rebellious child is in your arena ... talk to her and see what she wants. Something is trying to get your attention. Happens to me as well... Good for you! I support you in continuing your healthy journey!

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CONNIEDETHOMAS 7/10/2013 5:22PM

    Lol...I so enjoyed reading your blog.
I never thought of it that way.
I will from now on. Mine is a she devil.
Make sure you have a good key for the cage.
You take care.
Connie in WV
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ENDUROVET 7/10/2013 4:32PM

    Ha! I can so very well relate to this...

Currently I am rationing out a package of Pretzel M&M's, 4 at a time... (If my boy were home, he'd have taken care of that temptation for me ;-)

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WOUBBIE 7/10/2013 3:23PM

    LOL! I totally know what you mean! I feed my inner child a tidbit of her favorites when she whines, but she's learned that 4 M&M's a day is all she'll EVER get. I had a heart-to-heart with her some time back and explained that feeding HER junk food made ME feel crappy, and then I don't treat ANYONE nicely, not even her. So, Inner Child mostly plays nicely these days. Good luck to all three of you!

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(I switched the middle one to a big grin face. The halo made me think too much of deprivation!)

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QUIERRA 7/10/2013 1:38PM

    Way to go Yvonne. emoticon

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