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Tuesday, July 16, 2013

I lost a relative recently. One I was closer to in my childhood and more distant in my adulthood. It was extremely stressful, being a sudden and unexpected occurrence. Then sitting vigil for two days, hoping against all hope and finally accepting the outcome when the time came.

Of course funerals and the whole process tend to equal food and in my family the food tends to lean toward comfort. Trays and trays of high caloric, ultra carbs, meats, and heavy desserts. Basically a minefield for someone who is trying to maintain their lifestyle changes. Add to it the emotional duress of supporting a very large family in a time of crisis and it just becomes too difficult to stay strong and say no.

But somehow, I did.

I kept on track with my caloric intake and though I imbibed a few more spirits than I usually do, I accounted for them. I wasn't as active that week as I would have liked, but I was able to be very social and to support my family (close and extended) which was emotionally rewarding.

I've taken my time to grieve, been very gentle to myself when it gets emotionally tough, but I haven't fallen back into my old habits of stress eating and indulgence.

It's weird to have a tragedy highlight something good, like sustainable change. Yet there it is. I can make it through this tough time and as I continue to change myself I can help the people around me change and maybe eventually those family functions won't be so filled with pitfalls and bad choices.

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CBLENS 7/17/2013 10:09AM

    I am sorry for your loss, and family gathers like this do bring out foods that are temptations. Glad you were able to keep strong and not use it as a crutch. Stay Strong!

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4KWALK 7/16/2013 9:49PM

    My sympathy to you. But how proud you should be that you kept strong and remembered how to avoid those minefields.

Very inspiring to know that one can get through such intense stressful situations like that and not fall into the old traps.

Thank you for sharing your story.

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FEMISLIM 7/16/2013 7:44PM

    Sorry about your loss.

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KNYAGENYA 7/16/2013 9:51AM

    I'm sorry for your loss. You did a great job taking care of yourself.

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Wednesday, May 01, 2013

A lot of the stress I was feeling a few weeks ago has finally dissipated. I wouldn't say I'm stress free, but my levels of stress definitely dropped.

I'm working on my attitude at the moment. Now that my job situation and vehicle situation are entirely sorted I can work on myself.

My first goal is to walk the dog at least 4 times a week. We take a route that's 1.3 miles and we can finish it in about a half an hour. I'm also going to continue with my PT when my back acts up or my legs feel tight; amazing how the lower body can have such an impact on the back. Eventually I want to work up to something more aerobic.

My second goal is to continue making healthy choices while eating. Keeping track of my calories threw me for a loop (I was making poor caloric choices toward the end of the day just to meet my quota). I'm going back to being conscientious of what I'm eating without too much emphasis and exactly how many calories a day. This way I eat more fruits and vegetables and make better snacking choices.

Lastly I just want to be good to myself. I've cut down on the amount of time I spend playing mindless games (which have a time, place, and purpose, but I don't want to anesthetize myself). I'm doing more creative projects and aiming to audition for a theatre group this summer. After months away from my hobbies I realize how sustaining they are, how they can refresh the parts of your mind that need rest and release.

I'm going to continue and struggle through the rough bits, because the end goal is more important than the setbacks and I can look back to this point and see that positive momentum to reclaim it.

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4KWALK 5/1/2013 8:14PM

    I would say you have a really good handle on things here. So glad to read that your stress levels are down. You are learning how to SPARK to help yourself the most with food choices and hobbies.
Wishing you the very best as you figure out how to use these tools for your benefit.
I liked your blog - it gave me much to think about. Thanks emoticon

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Road Blocks

Thursday, February 14, 2013

I have hit a road block on this journey.

I had lost some weight, about 5 pounds, but then it all came back in a week.

I can't tell exactly where I'm going wrong (or where I was going right in order to lose that weight in the first place). My life in the periphery isn't helping at the moment. Lots of job stress and other situations that are keeping me distracted and anxious.

I know it will be okay, but I am struggling right now.

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CBLENS 2/14/2013 2:33PM

    Your stress is probably your biggest factor to not loosing. Try to manage your stress, there are lots of helpful techniques on Spark. Good luck

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MIRFA71 2/14/2013 12:56PM

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SUSANELAINE1956 2/14/2013 12:47PM

    It has happened to me more than once. Just keep doing the healthy things and it will work out. Stress makes weight loss so difficult. emoticon

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The Start

Saturday, February 02, 2013

I've been struggling with my weight for a very long time. Most of the time I ignored the fact that it was a problem. At some point I embraced my bigger body and developed a sense of confidence to go with it.

Confidence aside, I still have health problems related to my weight. I still struggle with shopping for the kinds of clothes I like in my size (zebra print is not anything I aspire to, but it seems to be on everything plus sized).

I can't say exactly what inspired my desire to change. I've been floundering for a long time, but I decided it's time to make change. In big ways and small I've been adjusting my lifestyle so that I can be the best possible version of myself.

I'm hoping sparkpeople is going to help me with this change and help me sustain the momentum to succeed.

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MSKIZ69 2/2/2013 8:32PM

    You're in a great place to get started-and everyone will be happy to cheer you on your fitness journey. Welcome!! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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