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The learning curve

Thursday, September 20, 2012

It is hard to imagine how often I have to remind myself that real nutrition doesn't come pre-packaged, conviently, or manufactured. Unless you count GMO's, but lets not go there just yet. The desk where I spend half of my work day is located, facing into a row of vending machines, bursting at the seams with enough pre-packaged junk to make a trail the length of the great wall of china. When I first started working here it was my go to source for a snack, and all the money wasted aside, I can't believe that, looking many times I have run to vending machines, enough to sadly say probably got me to where I am today, at only a few pounds shy of the heaviest I have ever been. I have made a vow, to make my pack my own healthy lunch for one week, starting tomorrow. (since the oppertunity to pack a lunch today has long past). I have been packing healthy veggies for two days in a row, I've almost eaten my way through a whole cucumber, an entire head of celery and 2 medium tomatoes. I have already felt like I had more energy in the past 2 days than I have in the past year. Enough to fix the dryer, and move the compost bin in the back yard so that I can prep the new space for a garden next year. I am working on my life, I never expected it to be so much of a learning experience, but it really is. If you don't keep working at it, it literally, and physically falls through your fingers. I have let things go, for far too long.

Last weekend I hiked 6 miles, part of a trail around Mt. St. Helens (WA, USA) and it was an incredible experience, this weekend I am hiking saddle mountain (OR, USA) for a second time. The first was 7 years ago, when I was at my skinniest. I am hoping to prove my celulose wrong this weekend, that I can hike past it! Wish me luck!

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MAHGRET 9/21/2012 8:22AM

    I love your attitude! It makes me feel positive about my own journey too.


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ANDREAG89 9/20/2012 10:28PM

    It really is a learning experience, isn't it?

Congratulations for making peace with yourself and recognizing how frustrating those vending machines can be. And more congrats on eating so well - it is amazing that when we put good food into our bodies that we feel so much and learn, like you said!

Great work on the hikes. What beautiful scenery you get to enjoy! Best wishes on the upcoming saddle mountain hike. Sounds like a fantastic time! Pack some healthy snacks for that hike! :-)

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The road ahead

Tuesday, September 18, 2012

We are back from surgery, and my spouse is as well as can be expected. The masses were much worse than they were expecting, with stage 4 endometriosis that was attacking her body. It was a very stressful ordeal, one that left me hardly eating, and feeling sick to my stomach the entire time. I stayed by her side through the whole ordeal, risking my health and my job.
Things are on the mend, both physically and mentally. With one of the larger hurdles being that I threw any hope for healthy living to the wayside while she recovered. My focus renewed, I am starting over (again) today. Working my way back to a healthier me.



Tuesday, July 17, 2012

On monday my spouse had a doctors appointment, she was told essentially that she has a large mass on her right side. More tests are to come, I took the day off from work to be with her. It is really tough, not knowing what the future holds for us right now. We are trying to get moved into our first house together and surgery might put a huge damper on that. I am trying to keep my head up, and to keep my health in mind also, as it would only hinder things for me to become ill during this time. Life is precious, and this is the only life we have together. Keeping strong is essential to our survival.

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KCWIND 7/17/2012 5:47PM

  Been in the same situation. Two years ago with my precious daughter. What I learned is to keep a positive attutude and be a sounding board. Your wife is scared and you are her safe place. My thoughts and prayers are with you both.

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CHRIMSONFYRE 7/17/2012 5:35PM

    I will be praying that your wife is healthy and that her mass is nothing major. My sister just had a mass removed from her thyroid and I was happy when they found it to not be cancer! I wish the same for you and your family!

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Thursday, July 05, 2012

The toughest part of all of this has been finding the motivation to stick with a diet and exercise plan. My job provides for opportunities to do lots of walking, and even has a gym in house that I should be using, but I keep making excuses not to go. There seems to be lots of unfinished plans for my weight loss journey, lots of "I want to do this" and "I should really do that". But not a lot of application of all of the great idea's, wants and needs. This seems to be an ongoing generalized life theme for me. Not sure how I am going to break through the cycle.

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STROMSP 7/5/2012 11:07PM

    It seems to me you've already taken the first steps, you are aware of habits that need to be changed and you are here, on SparkPeople. Change must start somewhere. And those are as good as any places to begin.

Next step, make a small change and allow it to become a habit so it's no longer something you have to "stick with", so that it's natural.

There are many people around here who have been in the same boat. Keep blogging, keep reading the message boards and pretty soon you'll be hitting your goals!

PS - Love the background image!

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