Monday, December 19, 2011
Sunday, December 19, 2011 Day 166
Elliptical Trainer 10 minutes 190 calories burned
Moving: carrying boxes 7 minutes 103 calories burned
Total Exercise Minutes: 17
We got another truckload of wood today and I helped unload it. Some pieces were so big that my husband left them on the truck until our son can help with them.
I am failing with my calorie-counts and binging something terrible. My husband didn't get me a birthday gift and we haven't been shopping for groceries. Our son has bought stuff, mainly entrées that he can pop into the microwave. I don't eat them because they have high sodium content and I go over my sodium allotment almost daily due to not having fresh fruit and vegetables.
Here is my problem. Years ago, December 1976, I came to this city on a proposal of marriage. I wasn't divorced from the wife beater and was waiting on the divorce papers to come through. I was living with my then, boyfriend. We had a strong physical attraction to each other, but I didn't know much about him. Soon after moving here, we went grocery shopping. When the order was loaded on to the counter, he said he forgot something and left me to pay for it. I didn't have a job, but I had a Veterans check coming in because I was taking night classes at a community college. I bought our groceries.
This happened again, but this time I told the cashier that I had forgotten something too and I left the order. He didn't come back to pay for it and I didn't pay for it either.
We went to see his parents and I pretended to fall asleep on their couch. He told his father that it wasn't going to work out between us.
I came home from class one night to find a cross necklace on the dresser. He told me he wanted me to have it, but it wasn't boxed and I was suspicious. While he was in the shower, I looked in his wallet and found a phone number and called it. A woman answered and I told her I was ___ _________'s girlfriend. I knew she was as upset as I was with him because he was lying to both of us.
The next night there was a snowstorm and he went bowling, but the league had been cancelled. He came home and told me I needed to find somewhere else to go. I had given up a job and going to college in my hometown to come to live with him at his apartment and I had nothing to return to. He left for the weekend and I had a jar of yellow mustard and a can of green beans to eat for two days. His mother sent his brother over with two hog maws (stuffed hog stomachs) on Monday evening and I saved one for him to eat. I talked to his parents and moved into his bedroom at his parents' house. Later I found a job and moved into an apartment in this city where I live now. I got the divorce papers in January of 1977 and got married in 1978 to my husband. God saved me in 1980.
Whenever there is a shortage of groceries, I feel those old feelings of starvation coming back into my thoughts and I binge. Thirty-five years have passed and it still affects me. So to any that read this blog, I am open to suggestions. We just came through a time about the government possibly shutting down and my response was to binge because there might not be another trip to the grocery store for awhile.
My husband keeps putting it off and I am making what is on hand, but it is hard to make a recipe without ingredients. It is like this a lot. He makes more money than he ever has, but he estimates we spend $600 a month for gasoline for him to get back and forth to work and for us to go to church. We don't go out to eat or go anywhere. I just want the binging to stop, but I always give in to my fears and self-sabotage all of my efforts at weight loss. Help!
Thursday, December 15, 2011
Tonight, my husband and I are wondering what will happen in just a couple of days. Again, there is talk of a government shutdown. My husband does not work for the government, but he works in a government building. If they shutdown, the building will be closed.
We talked some about what he would do. He said he would take vacation/sick leave that he has built up and go look for another job. His company will pay him, though he is working on a government contract where he is employed.
Our lawmakers will get their pay checks and time off to boot. If I was one to bet, I would bet that we are headed toward another credit downgrade as a country. I really believe that America is being destroyed by its elected officals.
I don't feel like blogging or being nice. Inside I am very, very angry. I feel like the US citizens are treated like hamsters on a wheel. We keep running on that wheel to keep this bloated government going and it is taking more and more from us to keep turning that wheel.
Wednesday, December 14, 2011
Tuesday, December 13, 2011 Day 164
Elliptical Trainer 15 minutes 275 calories
Total Exercise Minutes: 15
Sunday, December 11, 2011
This is a blog about God blessing us with wood.
(Sunday) Tonight: Mainly Clear Skies; another cold night. Low: 19-23 degrees F.
Tomorrow (Monday): Plenty of sunshine; a little bit warmer than Sunday. High: 43-48. Monday Night: Mainly clear skies, not as cold. Low: 23-27. That is our weather forecast.
I went to bed about 6:30 AM after tending the wood stove all night. I needed to be up by 8 AM to get ready for church. I was burning particle-board in the wood stove and it was hard to maintain a fire with the flat pieces of wood.
The mattress felt cold and damp when I crawled into bed. My husband was snuggled in on his side of the bed. I fell asleep and didn't wake up when the alarm went off. I got up about 8:15 AM and it was 65 degrees in the house. Our house was originally heated with electric baseboard heat. We had a heat pump and central air-conditioning put in a year after we bought the house, in 2009. The contractors wanted to take out the registers for the baseboard heat and I told them to leave them alone. I can still heat each room separately by a dial on the wall that has numbers on it for the temperature settings. I turned on the baseboard heat in the bathroom and took a shower and got ready to go to church.
When my husband got up around 9 AM, he turned on the heat pump. I told my husband that I spent the night looking online for free wood and found one place that offers free wood pallets, but it closes before he gets home from work. I had prayed for wood before I went to bed and was trusting in the Lord's Will. It takes a lot of effort to get wood, cut it, store it, drag it in, store it inside and to maintain the stove and clean out the ashes. I asked my husband if he thought it was worth it, but we have $200 left of his check and haven't bought groceries (our son has).
We had ice on the windshield of the pickup truck when we went out to go to church. There was frost on everything outside.
When we got to church, our speaker and his sister weren't there. My husband phoned the woman and she said her brother's furnace had gone out in the middle of the night, but they were on their way.
I asked another man there, if he knew of anywhere that was offering wood pallets or if he knew of any downed wood. He said, as a matter of fact, he did.
He rents a house in the woods. He said a man came into the woods where he lives and cut down trees along a fence row. He had cut them all to stove length, but he never came back to get any of the wood. He said he was going to ask his landlord about the wood today.
He called us this afternoon. My husband got directions from him to his house. Right now at 6:40 PM, my husband and son are unloading all the logs he got this afternoon. It is elm wood and cut to length for the stove. Some of it may need to be split, but my husband said there is probably 4 or 5 truck pickup truck loads of it! I mean falling off the sides of the pickup bed truckloads!!!!
My husband was so excited, he asked me to come outside and look at it before they started to unload it. When he said it was elm, I told him that morel mushrooms grow near elm trees and he said that Russell, the man that told us about the wood, said that people find bags of them each spring!! That is another thing my husband likes to do, is tramp through the woods in the Spring, mushroom hunting.
I hear him moving the truck now, so the wood is unloaded. Each piece is seasoned because the man never came back to get the wood and it is also solid hardwood!!!!!! It will last as it burns!
I hear the chain saw going. That was another blessing. My son and husband were working on the chain of the saw today. We have a gasoline-powered saw and an electric chainsaw. The chains come off of both of them. He took the gasoline-powered chainsaw along with him to the man's house and our friend worked on it. I am hoping the chain won't come off this time, but I leave that to the guys. I don't use a chainsaw.
Our speaker couldn't get a hold of his landlord this morning to tell him about the furnace going out and there are tenants that live above him. He called his brother who works in heating and air conditioning and he had to put a thermocouple on the furnace to get it to work. So he woke up to being cold too.
The amazing thing is that now his furnace is set for the winter and we have a supply of wood and who knows, maybe a supply of wild mushrooms in the Spring.
Thank You, Father, in Jesus Name, for Your care and daily supply of all that we need. Increase my faith, Lord. I ask it in Jesus Name and for the forgiveness of my sins and shortcomings, especially for the sin of doubting.
I built a fire in the stove and when my husband came in, he said that Russ had fixed the chainsaw too and it works fine now.
James 1:17 Every good gift and every perfect gift is from above, and cometh down from the Father of lights, with whom is no variableness, neither shadow of turning.
Russ just called and I was able to thank him. He and my husband are making plans to get together so my husband can get more wood.
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