Friday, November 21, 2014
Wow! It's been pretty long since my last blog... I didn't realize just how long its been. I've been quite busy and a lot has been going on here. Since I'm on an enforced solitude, I figured its a good time to catch up with a blog...
Enforced solitude you ask? Yep!
My doc is keeping me home right now. I'm not even supposed to go outside. Turns out I've developed pneumonia. It was pretty sudden. I was fine last Friday. Felt like I was getting a little head cold on Saturday and by Sunday I was in bad shape. First thing on Monday I went to see my doc. She wasn't too happy with me but understood why I didn't go to the emergency room on Sunday. By that morning, my lungs were pretty full of fluid. I had a follow up on Wednesday at which time I still wasn't making much progress. So she added some more meds and is keeping me home a little longer. Which puts me here... exhausted and totally bored! But, today I'm finally starting to feel a little better.
So, sickness aside, how am I doing?
As for my new program, I am loving it. It isn't easy nor can I always call it fun; but its worth it. I started with this new trainer in August. Since then I've lost 18 pounds. On the grand scheme of things, that isn't a ton of weight; but my progress has been significant in other ways. Here's what's been up...
During the first month I started a modified eating plan with my trainer. I thought he was crazy. This plan seemed ridiculous and like WAY too much food. I kept telling myself that I needed to listen and trust the process, so I am.
The first few weeks had me at the gym 3 days a week for about 30 minutes. It was a start and new for me. I had a lot of gym phobia, was pretty self conscious about it and had to work though it.
As time passed, we've been working on modifying my nutrition plan. Right now I'm on a really strict 4 week plan to help accelerate the weight loss then we're going to modify it again to start adding more foods back in to the plan to help optimize my bodies response to food and find out which foods work best for me. I'm sure this plan isn't for everyone and what works for me may not work for everyone. My trainer and I are working together for this. So far I've been 100% complaint with my stick plan. I've got 1 more week to go with it. I'm looking forward to having more variety in my diet again. What I will say for sure, since the start of this plan, I've found that I don't have cravings for anything. I don't miss any particular food. I've been walking right past the bowls of Halloween candy without even a second look. It's been an interesting challenge for me with this plan. I'm learning a lot more about food and how my body reacts to it. I'm learning how to prepare food better and keep it flavorful without processed sauces. At this point, I think I'm well on my way to a permanent change in my eating/nutritional lifestyle.
A few weeks ago, my trainer started pushing me on dealing with some of the emotional issues. He had me focus on me. That's just not something in my nature. I found that to be very hard. I was tasked with taking time to focus on just me. Find my root motivation, my goals. I now have a morning ritual for each day where I review my personal message and take a little time for me to get ready for the day.
Most recently, my fitness program has been significantly ramped up. For the last 6 weeks, I've been a regular at the gym 4 nights a week for an hour each trip. In fact, just before I got sick, I had upped my weights again. My trainer assures me, the best progress will come from me pushing myself. So, this sickness has me pretty bummed out. I suppose that just the fact I'm missing the gym and craving my return to it is a pretty good sign that I've made yet another positive permanent lifestyle change.
So, all in all, I'd say I'm in a pretty good place. I think I made the right decision and found a good trainer for me. He's not letting me back away from the tough stuff.
Now, if I could just shake this pneumonia....
Hey, at least I'm not in the hospital.
I hope you all are doing well. I haven't been here much I know. I'm still working on balancing my crazy work, gym time, family time and Spark time. Jut know I'm thinking of you and sending out happy thoughts for you all!
Spark on my friends! Find your path and follow it. It's well worth it!
Thursday, September 25, 2014
Okay, first, let me make it clear... I AM NOT defined by my scale. I am just frustrated by it. So please, don't send me rotten tomatoes or anything. I'm just expressing my opinion, venting a little bit and trying to sort out thoughts. I'm putting it here for me so that maybe someone else will see it and it will help them too. I'll say it one more time, I AM NOT defined by my scale.
Let me explain my frustration a little...
My whole life, it seems someone has been watching, talking about or tracking my weight. As a competitive swimmer we were always watching our weight. Just the smallest of gains could make a difference. I was a big fish in the little pond so to speak. I was never going to be Olympic caliber; but I was competitive in the top of our state. I stopped swimming in college due to an injury - not because I stopped loving it.
My dad used to call me "chubby". It was a sort of nickname. Please don't hate on my dad... I love him and he's been supportive in so many ways. I swear I was born with a little belly pooch. Even as lean as I was when I was in the pool 6 hours a day, I still had a little pooch.
Once my thyroid started to fail, I started gaining weight badly. Even when I was exercising - water polo, volley ball, flag football, archery - I still gained weight. My doctor's advice... eat less and lose weight. *sigh* where have I heard that before...
Let me see...
1. my doctor
2. my endocrinologist
3. my OB/GYN
4. my nutritionist (former, 2 of them)
5. my trainer (former, several of those too)
I could probably come up with a few more.
So, weight has been a nearly constant "in your face" thing for me.
Over the years I have tried many things. Do you remember in the 90s (I think) the whole Susan Powter Walk Yourself Thin?
Or how about the 6-Week Body Makeover?
I've worked with nutritionists, trainers, you name it. Sometimes I'd lose weight. Then I'd gain it back. Only to be told yet again that I need to lose weight.
But, right now, for the first time in a very, VERY long time. I feel like I'm making positive, permanent changes.
I mentioned before that I'm working with a new trainer. He's working with me on nutrition AND fitness. He's just what I need. He listens, kicks my butt and keeps me on track. I can't even begin to say how thankful I am to have been introduced to him and how fortunate I feel. I have never felt better in my life. I'm feeling stronger, more confident, more energetic and more positive than I ever have before. It's not like I'm normally a negative or sad person. In fact, I've been told I can be annoyingly positive.
Anyway, several people have said to me that I look good. People are noticing. In fact, one of my coworkers this past Friday said I look good that I've lost a lot of weight. Needless to say, I was looking forward to my normal Saturday morning weight in...
only to discover that I had GAINED 3 pounds...
I stood there staring at the scale with all the wind out of my sails.
I know I am making positive changes. It's a fact that my clothes are fitting better. I have these most awesome riding boots that I haven't been able to wear in 10 years because I couldn't zip them up over my calves. Now, I'm within an inch of being able to zip them. I can stand with my feet together and my ankles and knees touch - it's been a while since I could do that. Things that didn't fit over my hips fit over my hips now. Things are definitely changing all in good ways.
So, if my body is changing enough that people are noticing, my clothes fit better and I feel so much better; doesn't it stand to reason that I should be losing weight?
And that, right there, is the source of my frustration.
It just seems so unfair...
I'm trying not to let it bother me; but it sometimes creeps in and bugs me. I won't let it stop me or derail me. I most certainly won't let it keep me from my plans. There is no denying I am making the transition to a much, much healthier lifestyle. I FEEL great. I'm even getting over my gym anxiety.
Oh yeah... here's a good one... my yoga pants started falling off when I was on the elliptical.
That counts as a victory, right?
Needless to say, I'm treating myself to some new ones.
Anyway, onwards and upwards! Thanks for listening/reading. It helps me to sort things out. My trainer and I are working now to adjust my nutrition a little bit more to see if we can accelerate the actual weight loss. I think that right now I've got "fat" loss but muscle gain. I can't deny the new muscles or the lack of my rear "shelf". LOL!
I'm excited, I'm motivated and I'm feeling great! What more could I ask for? Well, other than a little bit of scale cooperation...
I'll keep working on letting go of that scale frustration. Pinky promise...
I hope you all are having a great week! Spark on my friends!
Friday, August 29, 2014
Where to startÖ
Well, itís been a hectic two weeks for me. Iíve been quite busy and havenít spent much time here in Sparkland; but never fearÖ Iíve been tracking diligently and still working out regularly. I just havenít had much time to blog or read. So, hereís a big update from me.
Itís been absolutely insane! Not in a bad way per say. Iíve just been super busy. Of course, when youíve got more work than days stupid things go wrong. For example, I was setting up a run with a plan for 2 x 24 samples. I had 2 packages of 24 array plates Ė thatís what it said on the box. But when I open itÖ guess whatÖ they were only 16 array plates. Thatís not goodÖ Thankfully our rep was quick in action and has a replacement sent to me and I was in a position to move ahead without compromising any of the samples or handling them differently than normal. Whew!
Iím also working on a manuscript for publication Ė Iím the primary author on this one. Yay! Itís been submitted for clearance now, so as soon as that comes through Iíll submit for publication.
Itís been interesting. I was really worried and intimidated at first. Honestly though, Iíve found the people there to be super friendly and helpful. Iím getting to be more comfortable which is good. I also discovered I can take the smaller weights with me into the main gym so I do a good portion of my workout there instead of in the weight room. There are just too darn many mirrors in there for my liking!
The gym also just got refit with all new equipment in the weight room and Nautilus room. The nautilus room isnít quite finished yet; but soon! The updated weight room is great! Iíve discovered that going after work 3 days a week is working out pretty well for me.
Thatís still its own workout! Iím telling you, sometimes itís like eating is my second job! Iím getting better with planning my meals. I spend a chunk of each weekend planning and preparing for the upcoming week. So far itís been going well!
Well, Iím doing pretty well! My energy is still way up there. My clothes are definitely fitting better. The scale is a great source of frustration though.
All Iíve done the past two weeks is gain then lose ONE pound.
Iím trying hard to just ignore it and keep moving ahead. But Iíll be honestÖ it takes a little wind out of the sails when you see the scale still stuck. Iím not letting it stop me or keep me from my plan at all mind you. I just have to wallow a bit then move onÖ
Iím going to try and get DH to help me get a pic. I swear Iím getting leaner and less fluffy; but itís hard to judge yourself. So I want to start taking pics weekly to compare. I have to be making some kind of progress. Otherwise I would feel so good and my clothes wouldnít be looser. Right?
LOVE HIM! Nuff said. He listens and doesnít laugh too hard at me when I have mini panic attacks or say something stupid. Heís been super supportive and encouraging all the way. He even helped me out with my gym anxiety.
Well him and my friend Irish (irishbeanergal)! Sheís also been a fabulous support and inspiration for me! I owe her some super, duper thanks! She also talked me down off the ledge when I panicked about going to the gym.
I know, Iím crazy! But yíall love me anyway!
And one more super, duper thanksÖ to my friend Mo (sveltewarrior)! Talk about having someone cheering in your corner. I couldnít ask for a bigger cheerleader and friend. Thanks for always listening.
You ladies are the best!
Okay, I think Iíve rambled on long enoughÖ Itís Labor Day weekend here in the US, so I wish you all a very happy holiday. Be safe and enjoy!! Spark on my friends!
Next week looks to be another busy but good week! I'll keep working on my balance so I can catch up with you all my friends!
Saturday, August 16, 2014
... and not a single one involves the scale!
So... it's been 12 days since I started working with my trainer. I've been pretty diligent about following the nutrition plan he's set for me. Not completely perfect, but pretty close.
Here's what's happened so far:
1. I can buckle my belt 1 notch tighter comfortably!
2. I'm wearing my bra comfortably on the middle hook. It was tight on the biggest!
3. I stopped drinking a big cup of coffee every morning. I just don't need it!
4. I have more energy!
5. I FEEL BETTER!!!!
All this and the scale only went down 0.8 lb this week. Even though the scale didn't move much at all, it's clear that this is working for me. My body is changing in good ways!
I just got my fitness routine from him middle of this past week. I've been a little intimidated about going to the gym, so I haven't started that part yet. I can't wait to see what happens once I add in the fitness component! I've got a plan and I'm fortunate enough that the post I work on has a gym which we can use for free. My plan is for 3 days a week, so weekends are kind of out unless I want to drive 40 minutes to the gym, I need to try and stick with weekdays. I'm looking in to some closer options for a backup plan too. So on Monday, I'm putting on my big girl panties and going to the gym.
For the first time in a long time, I'm really starting to believe that I can reach my goals. It seemed unreachable and I've spent a lot of time on the yo-yo train. A VERY frustrating place to be. I'm really glad I reached out and asked for help! That cautious optimism I had last week has gone from a flicker of hope to a full on flame! I'm really excited to see what next week will bring!
Wishing you all a wonderful weekend! I get to go pick up my daughter today. I've missed her terribly! So, I'll catch you all later! Spark on my friends!
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