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Everything happens for a reason

Sunday, July 22, 2012

I admit that losing weight getting nice compliments and then screwing up and gaining all the weight back twice in one year is enough to send anyone into a why me mode. Why do I always screw up..why can't I learn from my mistakes etc.

However, both times I lost the weight super fast and gained back super fast and learnt nothing about the amount I should be eating or thinking about what I am eating and do I really want it.

I am not in any way recovered or seeing results. I can say that when I do binge or overeat for emotional reasons instead of it spiraling out of control for days it lasts a week end.

As I have written before it took two years to get my exercise into my routine. I treat it like brushing my teeth (yes I do brush my teeth at least twice a day). I exercise every morning (5-6 times a week). If I am late to work I will exercise as soon as I get in. My teens can make their own supper if they can't wait for me. They wait as they are far too lazy to do anything by themselves.

On Friday I didn't get to the pool so instead I did a Billy Blanks bootcamp and loved it. I actually did two dvds as I was convinced they were 25 minutes long and not 55...I was wondering why

Saturday night I didn't exercise and as I had eaten off plan the whole weekend and was rewarded with a terrible tummy ache I felt really blahh. Instead I just watched sugar the bitter truth and recommitted to being healthy and active.

I really enjoyed my food today. I have one more meal to go and I plan to make it healthy.

Mistakes are just that mistakes and if we do them over and over again eventually we will be able to move away from them and focus on what we can have and enjoy.

The trick I'm learning is to forgive myself.

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AMLDIXON 7/25/2012 1:30AM

    You are right. Mistakes are mistakes. We all make them, and they are decisions we need to live with. We just work harder right?

I haven't done BIlly in a long time. But loved it when I did. Do you know how many calories you burn? Maybe I'll integrate those in my exercise plan.

Good luck to you on your goals! Keep up the great work!

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SERIOUSLIM 7/24/2012 1:43PM

    I totally agree with your post.
It is nice to find validation of my own experience in writing, from a fellow sparker.
let's stay focused and the learning will sink in and develop as a habit.

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Tuesday, July 17, 2012

I wanted to blog that I started the Insanity 60 day workouts. It is tough but thanks to Jillian it is doable (sort of at a much slower pace). I am so excited about still being fit despite the extra pounds I piled on in the last year. I see it as a long learning curve.

Just found a great EFT video http://skinnygenesfit.com/ to try and deal with cravings. I honestly went from 8 to 0 in 3 tapping sessions.

I liked the end of the session even though I think this is too good to be true...try it.

I am kind of doing my own thing combining different ways of eating that work for me. I eat clean most of the time and I'm eating 3 meals and 2 snacks instead of fasting for most of the day and alternating between proper eating, starving and binging.

I have to stop dieting and start changing the way I think about food. I need to learn to eat like a skinny person.

Food is not love, food does not solve issues. My scale does not determine who I am and how much stress I have.

Back to Insanity...started talking about it with the guys at work and they didn't believe me that I was able to do any of the workouts...ha ha...that puts me in the category of "serious" exercisers.

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NICKJAROSH 7/20/2012 11:52AM

    go get em! Keep it up!

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IGOSSELS 7/19/2012 12:30AM

    Thanks guys. I really love this workout. I know I could not have done it a year ago even though I was much slimmer and I worked out like crazy in the gym...

I think that I was emotionally ready for this challenge now. I'm sore all over ;-).

I am hoping to put a list together of all my self sabotaging thoughts and tap them away.

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FIT-HEALTHY1 7/17/2012 3:16PM

    Wish I could hold out to do those workouts. Too much arthritis and a little too old. I have to go at something much easier on the old body. LOL. Good luck!

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SOMKHE 7/17/2012 3:13PM

    It's great that you started insanity, I hear great things about it. I personally want to do it eventually, but I'm starting from the much "easier" P90 and then building up :D emoticon

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Overeating but enjoying every bite

Saturday, June 09, 2012

This is a long journey. I know it didn't take one day to get where I am today so it won't take one weekend of abstaining from all my favorite foods to get healthy again.

I over indulged in good home made muffins and cookies but I didn't binge. I put the food away and I'm ready for a healthy nutritious week.

The funny thing is that my 16 year old needs to fatten up and when we talk about how he needs to eat a bit more he says Mum how can you eat when you are not hungry?

Food for thought..Pun intended.

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IGOSSELS 6/26/2012 10:14AM

    Judi, Jewish mothers worry...but I'm glad your 30 year old is fine.

My 16 year old doesn't care about food that's why he doesn't eat. Right now we were told to put him on a sugar free, gluten free and dairy free diet...Well my daughter was on dairy free for 3 years of her life and it helped her asthma but as soon as she started having it again she craves it. She told me not to put him on this diet as she thinks it will be worse.

I told my 16 year old that I am not a policewomen he can eat what he wants. I make an extra tray of healthier cookies so that my kids will pick at it in the kitchen..I do the same with roasted veg I leave the tray out and by dinner time most of it is eaten...

The last thing I want my kids to have is food issues. I want them to know food is there to norish us not to punish us ;-). I don't use food as a reward either. I buy treats for the weekend (ice cream) once they are finished they wait till the next weekend. We don't have "junk" around. I am the size I am because I eat too much.

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JUDI_CUTIE 6/10/2012 10:04AM

    I'm glad you enjoyed every bite, Loli. That is the way to do it! Guilt and regret are such a big waste of energy.

My older son was always too thin. In high school, they did a body fat test on his cross country team. I don't remember his exact number, but it was almost zero! Now he is 30 years old, and he is fine (or even a little bit heavier than he would like.) So try not to worry too much!

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OOLALA53 6/9/2012 6:22PM

    So, did you actually ENJOY a little too much of the muffins and cookies? I hope so!
Here is some unsolicited advice for your son, and I'm serious. If he wants to gain weight, have him purposely start counting calories and eating less than he needs for a few days or weeks. Then turn him loose. Repeat it a few times. He'll fatten up. It has worked for countless dieters over the years. However, if he does resistance work with heavy weights, he can still build muscle even when his calories are low. emoticon

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Fooling my mind or am I

Wednesday, June 06, 2012

I had a nice big breakfast and really didn't feel hungry for lunch. I ate anyway and finished it pretty quick. The way things are going the past few months, this would be an incentive to go back for seconds or just eat anything else. As I wasn't hungry to begin with I knew that not being satisfied wasn't real hunger.

I decided to make better choices at supper time. I ate 7 hours after lunch. Having picked on the food I was cooking...Can you resist freshly roasted balsamic beetroot and red peppers? Just out of the CSA box? I sat down to eat with zuccini, beetroot, pepper and two types of cheese on my plate. Ate it all and decided not to have anything else I was really full. I must say that this morning I had a nice dose of fruit (figs) as part of my smoothie. At lunch time I had a crunchy apple with my meal so at supper I decided to forgo the fruit.

I'm pleased with my food choices this evening and with stopping to eat when I did.

The most interesting part is how many distractions I had to use between lunch and supper to not eat anyting else...


I want to shout I swam a whole lap using the breaststroke

Friday, May 18, 2012

I woke up in a bad mood as most of my clothes don't fit and this week is my kid's Bar Mitzvah.
Went to the pool to swim off my mood. I usually do between 30-40 laps using crawl. My form isn't that great but I don't really care as long as I can swim.

Being a Pisces I find peace in swimming. To me it's like meditating. Back and forth count the strokes, think about my day/life/what I need to do etc, and of course keep count of the laps.

Today I was going to go for 30 laps. When I finish 30 I usually try swimming 2 more till I get to 40. When I got to lap 38 I decided to try swimming breaststroke and managed a 1/3 of a lap. At lap 40 I decided to go as much as I could and guess what I made it to the other side of the pool! yey me!

So happy.

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IGOSSELS 6/9/2012 5:50PM

    Thanks everyone. It is huge for me I did 2 this time and after my daughter told me that my arm movements were wrong..and told me what to do, it was easier. I might even go for 3 laps next week... emoticon

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SPARKL3 5/19/2012 8:36AM

    Terrific!!!!! I'm really happy for you, too! emoticon

My dad (who will be 85 this year!) swims laps at the Y three times a week! Wow. I don't swim all that well; I can't even hold my breath very well underwater. I think it might be fun to someday be able to swim like he does so we could swim laps with each other.....but I don't really see that happening because of his age.

I'm a Pisces as well, so I know what you mean about finding peace in being in or with water.

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JUDI_CUTIE 5/18/2012 10:10AM

    Woo hoo! Good job expanding your skill set!

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JACQUELINE-D 5/18/2012 9:27AM

    Excellent, well done!!!! emoticon

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KAYTEETOO 5/18/2012 3:44AM

    Nice one emoticon

You sound like me - I do 'doggy paddle' more than crawl but I can keep going for an hour or so if I have time. I also do that thing where you swim on your back by kicking your legs and kind of waving your arms at your sides (not sure what that's called!). Sometimes I think I'll try a little bit of breastroke but have never managed to do more than a few strokes before I feel like I'm about to sink!

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