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Don't bring me down, bro.

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

I got an email saying that a newspaper photographer would be taking pictures of my kick boxing class tomorrow night. I thought this was pretty cool so I shared it with a friend and told her that I was pretty happy that my 'following' has been giving me some amazingly positive feed back lately as well.

She responded by telling me that I was conceited and that all I talked about was fitness. We've been friends since we were 6 years old, you think she would realize that this is my career and of course I want to share accomplishments with my friends.

I realize my life sometimes revolves around fitness, but when you work 70ish hours a week there's not a whole lot of free time to do other things worth talking about... It's never my intention to be conceited or stuck on myself (and I apologize if I've ever come off as so). Fitness is my passion and doesn't it only makes sense for me to be happy about good things that happen in my fitness life? I feel like people keep trying to drag me down and I won't have it.

That being said, I would like to apologize if I have ever sounded conceited about the compliments or good things that have happened in my instructor life. Like I said, it's never my intention to come off that way.

The truth of it is yes, I sometimes have some very flattering things said about me and the work I do. Yes, it is nice to hear those things, that doesn't make me less of a person. I'm sure you guys like to hear you did a good job or for someone to tell you your pretty. Just because someone gives you a compliment doesn't mean it automatically goes to your head. I get excited when I get such good feed back because I have worked my way from being 180 pounds, obese, to be a fitness 'diva' (as my boss calls me) and being a person people can approach for work out and fitness advice. it is very exciting to be lucky enough to come so far and I am very humbled by my journey. Instructing was a thing I only dreamed I would be able to succeed at so seeing myself move forward in the fitness world is so exciting.

I've come a long way, I didn't think being excited about the good things was as terrible as she made it out to be.

  
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TRACKGAL13 7/17/2012 9:53PM

    Sounds like she is a little jealous but this is human nature!! Maybe with that attitude consider not talking a lot about what makes her feel insecure. Ask her about what's going on in her life. I know it's frustrating but some people you just have to be cordial with and cater to a little so you avoid any drama for YOU.

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PLANAR 7/10/2012 9:08AM

    Don't let her get you down, consider the source.

emoticon use her for your inspiration emoticon

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TURTLERAE55 7/10/2012 1:47AM

    It sounds like your friend dislike you because of your accomplishment.

Yes, keep your head up and don't let anybody get you down.

You go girl!!!!!! emoticon emoticon

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extra inches? say what?

Friday, June 22, 2012

Yesterday I took some measurements for the first time in about a year. I've gained an inch on my arms, an inch on my waist, an inch and a half on my quads, as well as about 3 inches on my butt. My first reaction was 'isn't this the opposite of what was supposed to happen? did I do something wrong?'

Let me put this in another perspective... I know it will probably sound like I'm making excuses for myself, but I guess for me it makes more sense to realize I have gained ALOT of muscle. which is part of the reason for the gains.

First of all, my arms, Let me flex for you and show you how awesome my lady guns look now. Definition is so there now. The quads, well when I ran for the team my trainer was always on my butt about how weak my quads were. Lifting has really improved my quad strength and as a result there is alot of new muscle there as well. Same story with the glutes. Even in my abs. My obliques have really filled out so of course there is going to be a bit of a gain, but you know what? even with an extra inch here and there I look a lot better than I ever did before. I am athletic and toned and I think that's way better. beating myself up and making myself feel bad over it would not be helpful. at the end of the day numbers are just numbers.



In addition to that, I've been realizing some things lately. I don't want any of you guys to feel like I'm putting anyone down or feel like I'm trying to say I'm better than anyone else. I'm not. These are just my personal realizations.

a year ago I would have been sobbing over the inches I've gained. I would have taken it as 'I'm a failure' and 'I'm a fat ass'. A few weeks ago when I went to visit my dad he remarked on how big and toned my quads got. A year ago I would have just heard 'your quads are huge' and translated that into 'I got fat, I'm a failure'. and as a result I would have started pushing my work outs harder and eating less to 'correct the problem'.

I was thinking about this and I realized my mindset has changed so much since then. I don't necessarily see these inches as a bad thing. I know some of you guys are probably thinking 'but your bigger, isn't that the opposite of what you want?' But, it's not all about size. I could not do half the things I do with toothpick legs. I feel like alot of people care so much about size they don't look past it to see the other side of the fitness world. As a society we are obsessed with numbers and size, I think I've finally moved past that and realized there is alot more to my fitness life than that.

I told my boss about the change in measurements and her first reaction was 'I'm so proud of you, you've come such a long way with your lifting and the changes are so glorious.' My coworker emily has a similar reaction.

To me fitness is no longer about vanity. It's not just about looking good, having abs, loosing weight, ect. Your size should not determine your self worth and your work outs should be about more than just losing weight.

I don't want to sound like I'm lecturing by any means. These are more or less the thoughts I've come across and the changes in my own mindset that I've realized.

in summery, I may not have a flat stomach, I may not be a size 2, or 110 pounds, but I am fit, I am athletic, My body can withstand marathon work outs and it can do amazing things! I am proud of it, I am happy with the things I can do. So, yes, I am bigger than I was, but how exactly is gaining a bit of muscle a terrible thing? I worked hard to gain these inches and I don't see any reason to be embarrassed, be ashamed, or feel like a failure. Today I squatted a new high weight of 105 pounds and I am dam proud of it.

I apologize for such a long post, I just wanted to share these thoughts with you guys =]

  
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FITFOODIE806 6/22/2012 3:42PM

    What a great post! No need to apologize at all!! I am in the same boat. We are DOING things and LIVING life. And strong at the same time! That's more important than some silly scale number.

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Father's day.

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Many years ago, right after my parents divorced, my dad unknowingly started to become a fitness influence. My dad has somewhat struggled with his weight his entire life. Naturally after my parents split he decided to do something about it. So he started taking walks. Preteen Tatiana, not knowing what a calorie was, started to join him. After awhile I look up running as well.

Eventually he moved. When I would come visit we would ride bikes or go for walks. One day he stumbled upon sparkpeople and introduced me to that as well. My dad ended up losing well over 100 pounds and I had lost about 50. He had been my main healthy inspiration at that point. he was the first one to teach me anything about health and fitness.

Awhile after he met his fiance. We all know how that story goes, after they had been together awhile he started to care less and less about health and fitness. His weight started to creep up gaining back all that weight and then some.

For me it was saddening to see my main fitness roll model fall like that. They've been together for almost 4 years now. During that time I came to terms with my dad's weight gain.

A few months ago something changed. My dad messaged me asking why I ever let him stop using sparkpeople. I laughed and told him it's because he met Wendy and they liked going out alot. This conversation was repeated several times. So my dad found his way back to fitness.

It's been about 6 months. My dad is down 80 pounds and I am so proud of the changes he's made. I've been bragging about him to all my fitness peeps. He has a ways to go yet but I couldn't be happier for him.

I called him a few days ago and asked if it would be ok if I made his favorite turtle brownies for father's day. He somewhat hesitated but told me I could on the condition that I only bring 1 brownie for every person. My dad is the best.

Happy fathers day to my biggest fitness inspiration =]

  
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JONEIL513 6/18/2012 12:07PM

    awesome blog! sounds like you two have a great relationship!

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ICHBINDOOF 6/18/2012 12:38AM

    Love you too dad =]

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PLANAR 6/17/2012 11:31PM

    You're the best! Love you!

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instructor update.

Tuesday, May 22, 2012

Tonight was my first 30/30 class. I was pretty nervous before hand since I haven't taught kick boxing in awhile and it was my first time teaching toning. I only ended up with one person but honestly it was great! I think that's one of the best kick boxing sections I've ever taught and the toning went so much better than I had expected!

As a SHA I have to plan programs and events for the residents in my building. I am hoping to be able to do a yoga rave in august. I was talking to my boss about it and she said that one of the department heads on campus would like to have a yoga rave during International Education Week and asked if I would lead it. It was such an honor to be the one chosen to instruct such a huge event! I'm figuring there will be between 50-100 participants minimum.

On top of that, I was asked yesterday to instruct a yoga session tomorrow morning for 20-30 of our student athletes. It's going to be amazing to work with this group and be able to really make an intense work out. I wish I had a bit more time to plan but I think I have a pretty good idea of where I'd like to go with the work out. If it goes well the athletics department is considering making this a weekly thing- so cool.

But wait there's more, yes one more thing. I was also asked to lead the yoga sessions at a conference at a conference on thursday. The conference is just to introduce people to the idea of a healthy lifestyle so the sessions will be pretty relaxed. It makes me really happy that I get to introduce so many people to yoga =]

  
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TRACKGAL13 5/23/2012 1:55PM

    Wow that is a very honorable job! Teaching others how to relax and better their minds and bodies. Good luck with those sessions keep us updated!!

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FITFOODIE806 5/23/2012 8:04AM

    You have so many fun things going on. I love the spectrum of working with college athletes to a conference about starting healthy lifestyles. Very cool for you!

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switch up.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Officially started my summer fitness plans today. The first order of business being to take an easy week. (not too hard since the gym is closed for cleaning and res life/moving will keep me pretty busy). The next few days will be pretty minimal but I'll start ramping it up towards the end of the week to get ready for my fitness classes next week.

As you know, I've already been working with a new meal plan and have a pretty good idea of where I want to go with my work outs. It's going to be really awesome working for res life and having such an open schedule for the summer. I sense some serious work outs coming my way!

I'll be teaching 3-4 classes a week at the gym on campus. I'll have one yoga class a week as well as 1-2 water aerobics classes (me and emily will be trading the second class every other week). In addition to that I will be teaching a 30/30 class (half cardio half toning). I'm really pumped to be back to teaching cardio formats. with the way its set up I can do pretty much anything with my 30/30 class. I'd like to make it somewhat experimental the cardio being anything from kick boxing to step aerobics and the toning being anything from dumbbells, resistance bands, pilates, resista ball, ect..

On top of the classes there is alot I want to do work out wise this summer. I'm trying not to be too ambitious with my plans and I know what I have in mind will sound like a crazy amount but I really do think it's doable.

I move into my new dorm on friday. Me and my roommate will be sharing a four bedroom apartment on campus. I'll be turning my spare bedroom into a work out room.

  
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LOWFATFOODIE 5/15/2012 11:55PM

    Sounds like a fun summer!

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PLANAR 5/15/2012 1:41PM

    Yeah buddy! emoticon

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