Sunday, June 10, 2012
I was so encouraged by the comments on my last blog that not only have I persevered with my diet but I have mustered up the courage to blog again!
I have lost 10 pounds since that writing. I have been doing some heavy gardening, but have not started working out yet, mainly because I have been too fat to fit into any of my workout clothes. But now I think I can comfortably put on some and venture out. Imagine the weight I would lose if I wasn't afraid to take my heavy body out in public to exercise!
I am determined to overcome this fear this week. My goal is to go out in public at least once and exercise. I know there is stuff I can do at home, but I used to go to the YMCA everyday and there is no good reason for me not to be going. I am just playing mind games with myself.
My beginning weight was 212 and now it is 202. Don't tell my husband! He still doesn't know how much I weigh, although I'm sure he has figured it out by now! LOL
I want to get down to 135. I am 5 feet 5 inches and small framed, so I have 73 more pounds to go. Less than the weight of my German Shepherd. But so many sacks of potatoes that if I think about it that way, I'll get discouraged. I've made a drop in the bucket. And the drops will slowly but surely add up. And the whole time I've been dieting, I've felt empowered, like I am doing the right thing for today and not living in disease mode. In late stage Huntington's Disease, ironically, one of the problems is excessive weight loss. At one point, my mom got down to 88 and we had to take all kinds of measures to raise her weight. But I have many years until I face that and it is OK for me to stop protecting myself with fat and to live in a healthy body while I am still in the early stages of HD.
I'm going to keep doing what I am doing, with the addition of the exercise and of course more water. I am encouraged by my drop in the bucket!