Monday, January 23, 2012
I want you to know that right off the bat.
My Mom started having mini strokes about 4-5 years ago, which, of course, affected her mind. She went to live with my older sister, then into assisted living. Mom continued having mini strokes, and developed other problems.
When I retired 3 years ago, we started visiting Mom twice a year - we live practically on the (USA) east coast and they lived in the middle of the country.
When I visited Mom a year ago, she was in constant pain, and I don’t think she recognized me. Her dementia had progressed. Nevertheless, I read scripture to her, including her favorite verses. That comforted me, and maybe her.
On Valentine’s Day, my sister called to say that Mom had gone home to Heaven.
A couple of days later, my brother-I-never-had died waiting for a transplant. Then, within another 5 weeks, two dear ladies from church died. I didn’t realize it then, but I was beginning a slide into deeper depression (I was already on anti-depressants) that intensified until October.
I resumed emotional eating, and hardly exercised: bad combination.
My two medical-field daughters urged me to see a psychiatrist, so I did. I was massively depressed, highly agitated, and becoming paranoid. My psych listened to me, asked questions, and then told me that I have Bipolar Disorder. Apparently all the deaths earlier in the year (and so close together) created the precipitating factor to turn my depression into BD.
So ok, now we’re up to the part where my BD meds have me in a good place again, but I managed two VERY stubborn sinus infections and somehow tore my meniscus (cartilage in my knee). Now we’re up to early December. My out-of-state kids were coming for Christmas (that was nice), but with my knee torn up, I couldn’t exercise. Sigh. “When it rains, it pours”.
DH and I already had arranged to go to Utah to watch Weber State University beat the stink out of three of its basketball opponents in January. We tacked on a visit with my sister in Texas, too. So, surgery is put off until the end of January.
BUT, this is not a ‘poor me’ blog. I’m giving you background so when I say that God is GOOD, you’ll understand that it’s not just a trite saying. God put my Mom out of her pain and misery. He sent me to a professional (psychiatrist) who is a woman (that’s a good thing for me) who ONLY treats people over the age of 60. Yea! Someone who understands me!
I’m trying to eat better, but it’s always hard for me to do when we travel – so I have to work harder. After my surgeon ok’s it, I’m going to resume exercise. And I WILL lose all the ugly pounds I’d re-gained. I'm quite upbeat - what a turn-around from a few months ago.
Thursday, December 22, 2011
Praise the Lord! My (newly graduated) daughter got a job in her field (LPN)! Thank you, Lord!
Also, my (southern) dau and her family arrived safely yesterday for a week. DH and I took our granddaughter and grandson with us to the animal shelter today. I had my Grdau with me in the kitten room, and put her to work. She seemd to enjoy it.
Blessings on you all.
Tuesday, December 20, 2011
I want to wish all of you a Merry Christmas. I won't be online as much the next seven days - my daughter and her family will be here for Christmas.
Be safe, be happy, and remember that Christmas is for celebrating the birth of Jesus Christ.
Monday, December 19, 2011
My Wonderful Spark Friends,
I saw the ortho doc this morning, and have an MRI scheduled for tomorrow. Then I see him again for a consult about the MRI, but not until Jan - his 1st avail appt to see me again. THEN we'll schedule arthroscopic surgery, as my dr feels that that is called for. (The MRI is just to see what all is damaged).
Due to some stuff in my life, I won't be able to get surgery until early February - but at least I am confident that I can get it then. Meanwhile, my knee brace, cane and ice pack are my new (long-term) best friends. : )
While I wouldn't have chosen to have developed Bipolar Disorder or a torn meniscus, and especially at this time of year, at least God provides the medical help I need, and I am most grateful to Him. Re: the BD - I'm doing VERY WELL, thank you.
I'm so thankful God loves me so much that He sent His only begotten Son to come as a fully-divine/fully human man to take my punishment on the cross. God loves each one of you as much, too. The cliche is "Jesus is the reason for the season" but it is so true.
Have a Merry Christmas, everyone.
Saturday, December 17, 2011
Sad news first - my knee is not responding to the shot, and I'll be seeing the ortho dr again on Monday. I'm afraid all that's left is surgery, and I'm not looking forward to the recovery time. I very well may not be able to participate in the 5K run in (probably) April to support the no-kill animal shelter where we volunteer. BUT, I'm going to take it one day at a time.
Happy news: My youngest graduated last night from LPN school. She does still have to take state boards to be certified, but she made it thru the year's schooling!
getting pinned - has diploma in hand.
proud graduate after ceremony
Nah, Mom's not very proud. HA!
I have a busy weekend, starting today with a noon basketball game with the 6th graders (my grandson), then a party for DD at 2 at our house. Tomorrow is Sunday School and church, followed by another basketball game at 1, then 4:30 at someone else's house for small group meeting. Whew!
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