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Tuesday, October 25, 2011

Several weeks ago DH and I thought the bathroom scale wasn't working right, so we bought a new one. I cried when I got on it - it weighed me 10-15 pounds MORE than my old one did. I'll get around to changing my SP page, maybe yet tonight.

Obviously that did nothing to help my state of mind (for details on that, read my blog "Confession and TMI"). Well, I'm an emotional eater, so guess what I did.....yeah.

I'm slowly working my way back from eating like that, and now that (knock on wood) my latest respiratory infection seems to be getting under control, I'm planning to resume exercise.

Update on my mental illness. I'm not clinically depressed - well, it's a part of it. I was diagnosed this morning by a psychiatrist as being bi-polar. So, in addition to the anti-depressant, I'm now taking a mood stabilizer and something else. But I was very favorably impressed by the psy. dr (I refuse to spell it out every time), and I have a follow-up visit scheduled already.

So, you ask, how does God fit into all this? Well, let me tell you: He's right here inside me. He let me get so bad off even I realized I needed professional help. He provided a psy. dr who is a woman (always a plus in my book), who ONLY treats patients over the age of 60. emoticon Isn't God GREAT!!!!

God comforts me, guides me, leads me to others who encourage and comfort me (some of them are on SP), and He reminds me that He will NEVER leave me, that He will ALWAYS be with me THROUGH a situation, and First Timothy 1:7, "For God did not give us a spirit of timidity (fear), but a spirit of (His) power, (His) love, and of a sound mind (or 'self-discipline'). I believe God's will for me is to have a sound, disciplined mind, but that I need to arrive there with psychiatric help. I see no contradictions. So PRAISE THE LORD!

Later in evening - I'll reply to Missy (YATMAMA) here - bi-polar folks have deep depressions and extremely high 'highs' - an anti-depressant alone would tend to push one into worse mania. Mania is not necessarily really, really happy - it could be really, really irritable, maybe even violent. But I don't know it all.

Mood stabilizers are called for. And from what else you said, it may be that your m-i-l actually was allergic to anti-depressants. But, I still have plenty to learn about bi-polar disease.

Thank you one and all for your prayers and encouragement. You mean a great deal to me., my SparkFriends.

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DISGRUNTALGOAT 10/28/2011 5:02PM

    I have a few relatives that are bipolar. They all stay pretty stable while they continue to take their medication. It works well!

I know how you feel about the difference in the weight on a scale. My mom's scale is always about 10 pounds lighter then everyone else's scale, so I used to always use her scale. :)

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    I am so glad that you are open with your situation. It has really been a help and a comfort to know that I am not alone in my state. I am currently changing to a different medication for my adult ADHD and I sure hope it works!

You are such a dear and I am glad that your life is being blessed in this way!

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LINTPICKER 10/26/2011 6:59AM

    God is good and he leads us to the people in our life that we need. I pray that all goes well with the new Psyc and that you get the help you need. Blessings to you.

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FLEMIDG 10/25/2011 11:49PM

    I am so glad you found out what your problem is and that you are getting help from a doctor you trust. God is so good. He puts people in our lives just when we need them. I will be praying for you. God bless you.


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YATMAMA 10/25/2011 8:29PM

    I rejoice with you!! One question that came to my mind, though, is that when my mother-in-law was diagnosed as bipolar, they made a very big deal that she should never take antidepressants again. Later, they had that listed as an allergy, though. At first I thought anyone diagnosed as bipolar couldn't take antidepressants. You've educated me a bit!! Thank you for that. You keep rejoicing, my dear friend, and glorifying God. He is worthy!!!


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SNUGLBUNIE 10/25/2011 8:28PM

    Glad to hear you are getting back on track and that the appointment with your psy. dr. went well and you happy with her. WOOHOO, good for you Nancy!!!

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"Lions, and Tigers, and Bears, Oh My!"

Friday, October 21, 2011

We were 'in the neighborhood' the other day when the Zanesville, OH man let all his exotic animals loose then shot himself......we actually drove thru town that afternoon.

So the stories of "Lions, and Tigers, and Bears, Oh My!" were of great interest to us.

Yes, too bad so many animals had to be killed, but folks, the alternative was too risky for the humans in the area; especially since it quickly turned nighttime and rainy.

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SLS-NY2IN 10/27/2011 11:45PM

    We have been to Zanesville and also to Ceaser's Creek campground. How far is that too a tiger????? Thank God that the animals were taken down before someone was killed. It was a tradegy though and signs of our times.

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SNUGLBUNIE 10/24/2011 5:26PM

    Totally agree with you Nancy!

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DISGRUNTALGOAT 10/23/2011 7:33PM

    I read about that in Yahoo news. It was sad. Sad that, the man shot himself. Sad that the poor animals had to be shot as well. I understand why they had to do what they did, but it is still upsetting that so many animals had to die.

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MISTYRIVER64 10/23/2011 8:55AM

    So understandable why the authorities took the action they did but how sad that the world had to loose those beautiful animals. It's terrible also, that the keeper of those animals had lost his way and that no one was there to rescue him. In his twisted mind, he may have thought he was doing the animals a favor to release them rather than have them die in their cages of starvation after his death - not realizing what a terror he had released on the surrounding population and wildlife

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THROOPER62 10/22/2011 6:25PM

    Very sad

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IMREITE 10/22/2011 11:26AM

    Some of the larger animals already ate some of the smaller ones. the were acting quickly also to prevent the animals from hurting not only people, but also small animals.

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DMILLER33 10/22/2011 6:47AM

    It was a tragic situation all around. I feel for his wife and all her losses.

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FLEMIDG 10/22/2011 12:12AM

    Yes, I saw that story on tv. Too bad the animals had to be shot, but I can understand why.

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PURPLELVR7 10/21/2011 9:33PM

    It was very sad that the animals had to be shot, but think of the outrage if they had started attacking humans for thier dinner.
This was a no win situation

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LIVINHEALTHY9 10/21/2011 8:37PM

    That was just a heartbreaking story all around. How selfish was that man letting all those animals loose knowing they would be killed.
Just unbelievably sad and it didn't have to happen. It makes me ill thinking abut it.

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My Fingernails or His Hand?

Thursday, October 20, 2011

I want to share something with you that I read this morning. Something that really resonates with me.

From “Our Daily Bread” for 10/20/2011 My Fingernails or His Hand?

“Tough times can cause us to get our perspective turned around. I was reminded of this recently as I talked to a fellow-griever – another parent who, like Sue and me, lost a teenage daughter to death suddenly and without warning.
She told me she had been missing her daughter terribly, and she told God she felt as if she were hanging on by her fingernails. Then she felt as if God reminded her that His hand of protection was there to hold her up – that she could let go, and He would catch her.
That’s a better perspective, isn’t it? This picture reminds us that when troubles come and we feel least able to hold on to our faith, it’s not up to us. It’s up to God to support us with His mighty hand.
Psalm 37:23-24 says: ‘The steps of a good man are ordered by the Lord….Though he fall, he shall not be utterly cast down; for the Lord upholds him with His hand.’ And Psalm 63:8 tell us: ‘My soul follows close behind You; Your right hand upholds me.’
In tough times, we can become so preoccupied with our role in ‘clinging to God’ that we forget about his promised protection. It’s not our fingernails that sustain us – it’s His loving, upholding hand.”
Written by Dave Branon

Isaiah 41:9-10 “I (God) took you from the ends of the earth, from its farthest corners I called you. I said, ‘You are my servant’; I have chosen you and have not rejected you. So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”

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IUHRYTR 10/21/2011 4:24PM

    If we can't count on our family, and with our friends so far away to help us every day, who else can we turn to for encouragement and support but God? -- Lou

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POETLKNG2LOSE 10/21/2011 11:27AM

    Thank you for that thought. A lot of times it feels like we're hanging on by a thread when He has us all the time. Like last night when i was feeling terrible and He told me that I was not going to die from it. he got me through it.

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SNUGLBUNIE 10/21/2011 5:40AM

    Nancy, how true :) Thank you.

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FLEMIDG 10/21/2011 12:48AM

    This was a beautiful blog, thanks for sharing. I know that God has been holding me up. He puts things in place continually so that I can know that He is guiding me and helping me.


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Confession and TMI (too much information)

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

I'm clinically depressed, and my formerly faithful anti-depressant quit working. I've been on another for a couple of weeks, but it isn't doing the job yet (can take up to 6 WEEKS). But I have an appointment with a psychiatrist next week - and I was delighted to learn that it's a WOMAN, and that she ONLY treats people OVER the age of 60. (Let's hear it for being old!)

I don't want to live on such an even keel that I'm never real happy or sad (robot/zombie). All I'm looking for is something to take the edge off so I can deal with life. Like I dealt with Mom's death in February - I grieved (and still do), but it didn't overwhelm me. This morning I cried because I forgot to take my bedtime medicine last night. I couldn't cope with things this morning and wanted to crawl into a hole, pull a rock over the top and pretend the world didn't exist.

Anyway, this isn't quite the way I meant to reveal what's up with me, but what the heck! Now you know more about me than you probably ever wanted to know (TMI).

I'm not looking for pity; just prayer, understanding, and patience. I will get through this - I'm much too onery a person to not get thru it! And yes, I do still laugh at myself.

For those who think that 'good Christians don't have such problems' - well, that is NOT true. We do have problems, but God has promised to be WITH us THROUGH the problem. Rarely does God instantly heal broken bones - He expects us to make use of professionals. That's true for mental illnesses, too.

God uses those 'bad' things that happen to shape us for His use. I'm so glad I have that certainty in my life. God loves me (and you and you and....).

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YATMAMA 10/22/2011 9:07PM

    I am so proud of you. Proud to bursting. You are doing all the right stuff, dear friend. You have sought professional help. You have immersed yourself in the Word of God. You have prayed and sought the strength of others praying for you. You have reached out and shared the good times and not so good times. That takes great courage and I applaud you!! You will emerge from this dark season with greater strength, filled with power, love, and a sound mind. *HUGS*

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BIG_SCOTS_LASS 10/22/2011 5:39PM

    As a sufferer of periodic depression, I can relate to your current mood. I'm not on any medication for my condition, as it's cyclical and not severe enough to warrant meds right now, so I just have to deal with it the best I can when it pays me a visit. Sometimes I feel like I don't have the energy for anything and can't face the world, but I have to keep going and push through until I come out the other side. It's not easy and sometimes it feels unachievable, but I do it and when I get through it I'm often left wondering what all the fuss was about. It's unfair, the tricks our brains and bodies play upon us.

I don't have a lot of time for God, I'm afraid, but I do believe in inner strength and you have it. If your faith gives you the strength to get through this, then more power to you. I hope your new medication starts to work for you soon and you have success with your psychiatrist.

Take care,

Charlie x

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CALIPIDGIOUS 10/21/2011 7:25AM

    I have been there myself! It is marvelous that you recognize what you need and that you allow yourself to get it! It will get better and I am sorry that its been tough.

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KABOOPER 10/20/2011 12:49PM

Waiting is hard...I thought I would share these:
Psalm 27:14, “Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.” (NIV)
Isaiah 40:31, “But they that wait upon the LORD shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings as eagles; they shall run, and not be weary; and they shall walk, and not faint.” (KJV)

I hope you find your way out of the fog soon, try excersize. I know you have probably heard that before, but even if you just turn up a song you love and boogie around the room. it will lift your spirits! or a nice long walk in a beautiful park.
Praying for you!

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NEWNAC304 10/20/2011 10:19AM

    Thanks for sharing with us. I hope you're feeling better soon. emoticon

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MISTYRIVER64 10/20/2011 9:33AM

    Nancy - think of your big Spark family putting their collective arms around you and giving you a huge hug. I hope that by sharing your problems, it helps lessen the load. Lots of prayers and good wishes are going your way today, my special friend.

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CONTENTCHRIS 10/20/2011 7:58AM

    Thanks for sharing . I could never find one that helped with my depression and bouts of bipolar crud . So I take nothing. I have done the stressbusters team and eat well... BUT I still have my bad days and just try to press onward. I hope the meds can help.
Sincerely ,Chris

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SNUGLBUNIE 10/19/2011 8:39PM

    Thank you for sharing Nancy and it's never too much information. I too was like you years ago and I added alcohol to make matters worse. Today, I am still on Paxil and will be for the rest of my life and that is okay. It makes me sane and even balanced. My prayers are with you always my friend and God is definitely there with you. emoticon

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Assuring Grace (Faith)

Tuesday, October 04, 2011

This is the sermon I missed due to illness. I finally got a copy of and listened to the tape.

Assuring Grace How to defeat your doubts and develop faith

Matthew 9:27-31 “As Jesus went on from there, two blind men followed him, calling out ‘Have mercy on us, Son of David!’ When He had gone indoors, the blind men came to him, and He asked them, ‘Do you believe that I am able to do this?’ ‘Yes, Lord,’ they replied. Then He touched their eyes and said, ‘According to your faith will it be done to you…’”

Hebrews 11:6 “And without faith it is impossible to please God because anyone who comes to Him must believe the He exists and He rewards those who earnestly seek him.”


God tests our faith through difficulties.
I Peter 1:6&7 “In this you greatly rejoice, though now for a little while you many have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that your faith – of greater worth than gold, which perishes even though refined by fire – may be proved genuine and may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.”
Our disappointments are God’s appointments. Isaiah 48:10 “See, I have refined you, though not as silver; I have tested you in the furnace of affliction.”

1st Lesson: If I want to live by faith, I must learn to rejoice continually; not FOR but IN trials.
James 1:2-4 “Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.”

God tests our faith through assignments or commands.
Exodus 16:4 “Then the Lord said to Moses, ‘I will rain down bread from heaven for you. The people are to go out each day and gather enough for that day. In this way I will test them and see whether they will follow my instructions.”

2nd Lesson: If I want to live by faith, I must learn to obey God immediately and leave the consequences to God.

God tests our faith through dollars/abundance.
Luke 16:11 “So if you have not been trustworthy with someone else’s property, who will give you property of your own?” How I handle riches has direct correlation with my spiritual strength, confidence and discernment.

3rd Lesson: If I want to live to by faith, I must learn to give generously. No one can out-give God.

God tests our faith through delays.
Deuteronomy 8:2 “Remember how the Lord your God led you all the way in the desert these forty years, to humble you and to test you in order to know what was in your heart, whether or not you would keep His commands.”

4th Lesson: If I want to live by faith, I must learn to wait patiently.

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