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Sat night, 3/5

Saturday, March 05, 2011

Today was Mom's Memorial service - a celebration of her and her life. Three of us daughters spoke of memories, and made everyone laugh at some point in each of our comments. Mom had the gift of hospitality, and everyone at (what was her former) church agreed that my Mom put arms, legs, and love into everything she did, and was very obedient to the Lord.

One man spoke to me at the luncheon, and told me that when he and his wife went out on a mission, Mom was the first person from that church to support them.

Another lady told me that her son admitted as an adult that when he was in his teens, my Mom had a tremendous impact on him. Can you imagine? That's just a small part of who my Mom was here on earth.

My sisters and I (and several church members) agreed that Mom is probably dancing in heaven now, and maybe even peeking under a bed to tell an angel that they missed a dust bunny. emoticon That was another side of Mom.

Well, rather than go on and on and on, I'll close shortly - but I want to tell you "THANK YOU" for your prayers, and Mom's family could feel the power of the Holy Spirit.

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IUHRYTR 3/6/2011 7:59PM

    Your mother sounds like a supportive, loving lady. I'm sure you have a great many memories of happy times together that will carry you through the sad times. That she had such an affect on others is a testament to her character, and to her life. emoticon -- Lou

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2WHEELEDSHARON 3/6/2011 12:32PM

    That's so sweet. Sounds like your mom was hiding wings while she was here!

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MISTYRIVER64 3/6/2011 9:50AM

    Those memories and more of your Mom will see you through the coming days and weeks. Love and hugs to you Nancy

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Sat (Mar 5th) Morning

Saturday, March 05, 2011

First, thank you all for your prayers for me and my family.

Yes, the anti-anxiety pill works well - more just taking the edge off so I can deal with things (and that's just fine with me).

I'm dealing better and better with my loss of Mom. Of course, with her medical conditions, I was losing her more and more the past couple of years, but many of you know how death of the physical body is still a blow.

Anyway, I want to leave you with the knowledge that with God's help, I WILL make it thru today fine. God is such a tremendous comfort.

More later, or in a few days.

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CONTENTCHRIS 3/6/2011 4:40PM

    Prayers for you emoticon May God be with you dear. emoticon

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MISTYRIVER64 3/6/2011 9:42AM

    Our hearts and prayers are with you and your family, Nancy. emoticon

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DAYHIKER 3/5/2011 1:05PM

    I am glad that things are getting a little better for you, Nancy. It's hard--I went through it with my dad three years ago and I still miss him. There is such comfort in the Lord and in the knowledge that your mom is safe with Him but it's still hard.


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Wed, 2/23

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

My friends, I am struggling to get back on track on living healthfully and losing some of the pounds I gained during February. I'm an emotional eater, and believe me, I've had enuf emotion this month to last a looooong time, thank you very much.

In my previous blog, you read that my Mom died on Valentine's Day, and that it was a huge blessing for her. Objectively, I was happy - she's no longer in pain, she can walk again, her mind is whole again, and most of all, she's looking into the very face of Jesus. Oh yeah, I WILL see her again, when I get to Heaven.

Regardless of all the 'good' about Mom's passing, I've been hit, and hard. Valentine's afternoon I laid down for a nap, and instead got hit with what I thought was a heart attack. First I tried my Albuterol inhaler - when that didn't help at all, I chewed an adult aspirin and told my DH that we needed to go to the hospital. Won't give you all the nitty-gritty details, but after several tests which were good, they admitted me so I could have a stress test the next morning. That also was good, so the dr's diagnosis was anxiety.

I already had an appt with my family dr last Friday, and asked her for an anti-anxiety pill....so I'm taking that each day for awhile.

I won't claim to know WHY I'm taking Mom's death so hard; I trust the Lord to take care of me and tell me what He wants me to know and when. I know that God is in control, of EVERYthing, including me, as I yield myself to Him on a constant basis.

Mom's being cremated, so her 'old house' won't be there for the Memorial Service, and that's fine. I remember when my Dad died that I looked at HIS 'old house' (body) - I said, "that's Dad's house, but Dad isn't THERE". I knew he was in Heaven already.

I was sick much of January, so didn't exercise like I used to; but I ate pretty well. Then I was getting back into exercising, and Mom died. I felt numb for a number of days, but am getting back on track - thanks first of all to the prayers of my many Christian friends, and secondly, I know I have to also thank the Xanax. I firmly believe that God gives us dr's and medicine to help us - not that I will be dependent on Xanax for long, but I'm using it to get past this rough spot. Sometimes God heals us without 'outside help' but God also uses the medical field.

Guess this brings you up-to-date on me. I've told my special SP friend already, but felt that I owed the rest of you some explanation.

Thank you for your prayers for me and my entire family (I have 3 sisters).

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IUHRYTR 2/23/2011 11:49PM

    It is so difficult when we lose a loved one and many of us are torn over it like you are. Part of us knows they are past their pain and suffering while part of us misses them and wants them back. When my mom died on Dec. 21st a few years ago I was okay for the most part. Emotional, sure, but okay. Then, a couple of years later it hit me hard. The stress and emotions came roiling to the surface and I, too, needed temporary help. But we do come to grips with our loss and will always miss them, especially our mothers for some reason, but we also can rely on all the memories of the happy times we shared with them and the lessons of life they taught us. Continue being strong and separate your weight loss efforts from your mourning. Don't throw away any more of the positive progress you have made. emoticon emoticon emoticon -- Lou

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MISTYRIVER64 2/23/2011 6:02PM

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Why I won't be on SP much for awhile

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

My sister called (from TX) Monday to tell me that God gave Mom the best Valentine's Day present ever - He took her home to be with Him. I'm rejoicing in that, and the knowledge that she's once again of sound mind and (new) body. Mom had been increasingly ill for a few years, so this is a blessing for her.

But I'm also grieving, so would appreciate your prayers for my family and I.

Thank you very much,

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SOLUCKY12 2/18/2011 5:46PM

    Your mom is in such great company. My friend's mom died Valentine's Day and we had her service yesterday. It was a beautiful day here and now my friend will be going through those days after everyone goes back to their lives. When I lost my mother, going back to work and trying to get on with my life seemed harder than preparing for the services. Losing a mom is so hard on daughters! I think that is why so often we turn to comfort food after a loss.

How great that you are able to celebrate your mom's life and know that she is with God and will have a new and better life without pain and discomfort. We all pray that you will be comforted by your family and friends during these difficult times. Know that we are here when you need to reach out to your spark friends.


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BOHEMIANCAT 2/17/2011 7:36PM

    Yes, my prayers are with you. Even though you might expect it could happen any time, you are not prepared.

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IUHRYTR 2/16/2011 9:36PM

    Sharing your sadness and your joy. -- Lou

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MILLISMA 2/16/2011 5:24PM

    Nancy, so sorry to hear. You're right that she is at peace but it doesn't take the grief or the pain away. Sending hugs and prayers.

Mary Anne

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MOMABEAROF2 2/16/2011 4:18PM

    Sorry for you loss! emoticon

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    I am sorry for your loss. Sending prayers your way. Just know we are all here for you.

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    Oh, Nancy, no day is a good day to lose someone we love (for us, anyway). I think you're right in realizing that it was a good day for your Mom. My mom and dad are in their 80's and so very often now, I wonder when my phone call will come. LOVE and HUGS to you as you go through this time in your life.m emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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DAYHIKER 2/16/2011 9:09AM

    I am so sorry for your loss, Nancy, but also rejoicing that your mother knew the Lord as her Savior. It's such a comfort during the hard times when you are feeling the loss so strongly.

Love & prayers,

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Free Ice Storms to a 'good' home!

Saturday, February 05, 2011

Ok, can anyone give me a GOOD reason WHY we have to have ice storms? Yeah, I already know the mechanics of why, but WHY DO WE HAVE TO HAVE SO MANY! I'm sick of 'em alread!

It's been a 'bad' winter so far - cold, and ice storms, and we're only in early Februrary. I know, it IS winter, but enough already!

Thanks for letting me blow off steam. Too bad I can't aim that steam at the sidewalks and driveways, not to mention the streets. emoticon

Today we went to another of Josh's basketbal games. They won. : ) Grandma is so proud. Josh stole the ball at least once, and participated quite well. I made sure to tell him how proud I am, and that I noticed the steal. They just have a couple more games this month, then are thru for the season. It's been great seeing how much at least most of the boys have improved this season, and I hope they will all play together again next year.

Tomorrow is try-outs for 'majors' baseball. (Josh is in 5th gr). I have no doubt he'll make a team - he really IS GOOD. And frankly, Josh plays baseball better than basketball, so I'm really looking forward to the (little league) baseball season, even tho' the games are played outdoors. emoticon One game last year was played in the 100 degree heat, with no shade for those of us on the sidelines. Many of us learned to bring (and use) umbrellas.

While on our January trip, I crocheted a bunch of wash cloths and matching bath bags; then filled them with the soaps, shampoos, etc we got at motels. They'll be soon going to the battered-women's shelter in York. Since I've been home, I've been working on chemo hats. And, I have yarn for another pair of socks for me, have promised DD a hat with a pre-make hole for her ponytail, and there are a couple of other things I hope to work on soon, too. All-in-all, I'm keeping very busy.

Tomorrow afternoon, I'm going to my favorite yarn store for the afternoon of knitting, snacking (I'm already planning to be good about it), and picking up some sale yarn. I want to make another Fair Isle hat for myself - will give away the one I made. I don't like the way it fits. Tomorrow night DH and I will watch the Super Bowl. He's rooting for the Steelers (we do live in PA), but I think I'll cheer on Green Bay - just to be contrary. emoticon Besides, our son-in-law likes GB. I really don't care WHO wins, but it will be fun to watch a pro-ball game.

I'm regaining my pre-sick energy level and have resumed treadmilling. I'm up on time, but haven't yet gotten quite back to the speed I was.....no hurry. I'll get there. Need to be more dilligent with strength exercises, tho' - just lazy.

Y'all have a safe, fun weekend.

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IUHRYTR 2/6/2011 8:32AM

    You and Josh should be proud. He sounds like he is a fine young man. I hope you continue to feel better and thank you for caring about the women. I don't have your skill at making things but have been collecting unneeded cell phones and recycling them for cash for a local shelter for women and children domestic violence victims for years. Every little bit helps. Keep up the good effort. -- Lou

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    Nice blog! Thanks for sharing it! I'll be rooting for Green Bay! It's fun to have a little rivalry! emoticon

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MISTYRIVER64 2/5/2011 6:30PM

    My dear IAMWINNING - you sound like a very kind, generous person but PLEASE - do not give away any of those ice storms. I am sure they would miss you too much. lol lol lol

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