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Me depressed? No, and here's why

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

This is a tough week for me. I have three daughters and all three have (family) problems; also one of my nieces (and her parents). some temporary, some more long-lasting, some more serious than other problems. I won't go into details, but suffice it to say that several of my family are being tested. I am grateful to the Lord for His unfailing love and guidance. He loves us, has plans for each of us, and He has promised to never leave us nor forsake us. I strongly believe all that.

I'm holding tightly to the Lord of my life; my King. I have no idea how or when He will resolve the various problems, but He WILL. Hopefully each of us touched by these things will grow in Him; and we will be used by Him to touch others for God's glory.

I awoke this morning feeling sorta depressed. I cut my antidepressant in half in Feb, w/my dr's approval, and started thinking maybe I should up the dosage again. Then I let God in my head, "There's no need of that". God IS sufficient for me. HE IS IN CONTROL (of everything, even when we don't see it). Ultimately, nothing can happen to me or those I love unless God filters it thru His fingers. If He has allowed something, then there is a purpose, and God's purposes are never for bad.

In years past, 'bad' things have happened: my Dad died, my Mom can no longer feel her feet (so she cannot stand or walk any more), my in-laws have both died, my dau had a stillborn baby, etc, etc. Thru all things, God was working and He has sustained us.

No only does my dau (who had the stillborn boy) acknowledge that God was shaping her to minister to other mothers in a similar position (my dau is a RN on the maternity floor of a hospital), but I have made it a long-term project of mine to crochet fetal demise pouches that are given to those mothers. It's a tangible bit of something the mother can take home from the hospital, giving much comfort.

So am I dancing about, singing and being happy that things are 'bad' right now? No; but I AM praising the Lord for the fact that He is in control, and that He loves us, and that He WILL resolve things in His way, in His time. As a human mother (you know the type: we think we are supposed to 'fix' everything!), I sometimes feel frustrated that I cannot DO ANYthing about some problems, except to pray. Guess what?!! Prayer is the BEST thing. Praying and LEAVING THINGS IN GOD'S HANDS.

So, while I'm not 'happy' at the moment, I do have JOY.
God's blessings on you all.

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IUHRYTR 4/28/2010 8:55PM

    You have the joy of knowing that all things will work together for good. I'm sure the counseling your daughter provides and the fetal demise pouches that you make for the mothers will both be forever rememebered. Keep the faith! -- Lou

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DEBNICU 4/28/2010 7:35PM

    Sorry to hear of all of the tough things in your life, but your unfailing love you have for our Lord will get you through. Very inspirational message.

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Monday eve

Monday, April 26, 2010

In order to be honest and open w/y'all, I need to confess a failing. I have been eating too many sweets the past few days. It's self-indulgent, and emotional eating.

I have also been doing some good things: eating more fruit, getting exercise, NOT GIVING UP!

I treadmilled this morning - it's been lightly raining since Saturday, I guess, and tomorrow may not be any better. Then I followed up with some exercises - I'm using the daily videos from January's bootcamp. Today's was lower body. I followed up w/a couple more leg exercises, designed mainly for sciatic nerves. I'm still having hip pain (less often than before), and am doing the sciatic nerve exercises to make sure that isn't involved - but I don't really think it is. What're the muscles that run from your lower back down the back of your thigh? Hamstring? Anyway, I think maybe when the dog knocked me downstairs that I bruised that. I can walk ok, most of the time, but sometimes when I sit for a long time my hip joint hurts that nothing else!

I rejoice that God has sent me so many good, Christian friends on SP. You know who you are; THANK YOU.

Have a blessed evening.

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JACQUISPAGE 4/28/2010 4:53PM

    Praying for you this evening emoticon

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IUHRYTR 4/28/2010 10:14AM

    Yea for you making the effort! Hope your hip pain goes away soon. Not fun, is it? -- Lou

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THINAGIN2 4/27/2010 1:45PM

    Falling down the stairs can't be good. Those bruises can be a real bummer but it sounds like you might be moving and that is good. Take care of yourself!

We all have things to confess! Mine is Good and Plenty candy, I can't leave it alone.

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PEGGYJEAN13 4/26/2010 9:03PM

    Falling downstairs would be a good way to cause problems! I hope it was nothing worse than a few bruises and pulled muscles. Take care of yourself, okay?


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Saturday's musings

Saturday, April 24, 2010

Answered prayer: My friend's brother D (see Apr 16th blog) came thru surgery well, and will soon be discharged from the hospital. The dr's feel everything is good, but because of one reason or another, healing will be slow. Thank you for your prayers for him; and please continue to pray for healing in God's timing.

This morning is pretty, but we're due rain showers later, maybe even a thunderstorm. Again tomorrow, and apparently chances of same for the first few days next week. Remember the line from "Camelot" where King Arthur is talking to Gueneviere (Spelling??) about living in Camelot? He said it only rains (or was it snow?) at night and in the morning it was all gone. Well, picky me, I'd like to see that: rain between the hours of say, 10 pm and 4 am. Of course, that would be bad for those folks who work at night, wouldn't it. emoticon God certainly knows what He's doing regarding the weather, even when it doesn't suit us.

And I'm still working on the sundress for my only grandddaughter. (She lives in Mississippi - MS ) We only get to see them about once a year, and I started making dresses for her when she was three. Now she's 7, and expects there will always be a new dress when we visit or they come see us. I don't really mind - I'm glad I can bring that bit of joy to her. Although I'm not going to this time, I have also sometimes made matchig shoulder bags. That tickled her pink.

I need to 'frog' (un-knit) a couple of rows of the capelet I'm making for my Mom - I made a mistake I could not fix otherwise. emoticon Where, (you ask) does the term 'frog' come in? It comes when I have to 'rip-it, rip-it' out what I've already done. The term is not an original w/me.

Ta-ta folks. Have a wonderful weekend.

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PEGGYJEAN13 4/24/2010 12:30PM

    You have a lot of talents. I can sew, but lost all knowledge of crochet I had from my grandmother. As they say, if you don't use it, you lose it! I lost it.

Have a good weekend.


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Friday night

Friday, April 23, 2010

A few comments/thoughts before I hit the sack. (yawn)

I've had a pretty good week. I did subcome to stepping on the scales this morning, and was pleasantly surprised at the number. My official weigh-in day is Sunday.

I spent a lot of time exercising/walking/treadmilling this week. It made me feel good, and also felt good mentally for having done it. I need to remember that feeling and build on it. emoticon

Tomorrow is going to be a BUSY day - both grandsons have ball games we want to attend, and we have a couple of errands to run in the morning. Then, we want to visit someone in the hospital in the evening.

I spent over and hour sewing the dress for Katie. It's a new-to-me pattern, and there are a few things I'll do different if/when I make it again. But all-in-all, it's turning out well. She expects me to bring a new dress whenever we visit (from PA to MS)......I created that monster when she was 3 and I first made a sundress. But I love being able to do it.

Sorry, I'm just too tired to write more. Have a good night's rest.

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PEGGYJEAN13 4/24/2010 12:31PM

    Doesn't it feel good when you can look back on a week and say "I did good"?

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CLAVINOVA 4/23/2010 11:28PM

    Glad you had a good spark week - that walking and treadmill really makes a difference! Have fun at the games and good luck with the dress!

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QUEENBME2 4/23/2010 11:26PM

    Well done!

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Monday eve

Monday, April 19, 2010

I was soooo good this morning - now we'll see how the evening goes.

I ate some cantaloupe then treadmilled for 45 minutes. Can't remember what else I did before my hair appointment, but came home and painted my fingernails. After lunch we volunteered in our grandson's 4th gr class (will again tomorrow) and then I sewed a little. I've barely started Katie's sun dress, but really need to get on the stick and get it done. I tend to procrastinate, I'm afraid.

After dinner I went for a walk in my neighborhood - only about 15 mins, but a walk just the same. Up and down the slight hills I live in.

So, after I treadmilled, I ate a slice of whole wheat toast w/peanut butter and preserves. For lunch, I had a slice of leftover pizza, an apple and a fiber bar. Supper (my DH is such a good cook) was a grilled skinless chicken breast and lots of (mixed) veggies, along w/a sweet potato. So far, so good. Now is the worst time for me - after dinner. I tend to nibble or gorge. I have plans to not do that tonight, although I will have a 60 calorie cup of mousse my dau gave me.

Have a restful night, y'all.

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IUHRYTR 4/19/2010 10:12PM

    Evenings are difficult for me also but usually a bowl of healthy cereal with skim milk does the trick. Glad you had a good day.-- Lou

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PEGGYJEAN13 4/19/2010 7:35PM

    Sounds good so far. I have 16 oz glass of skim milk and an orange every night. It's something I look forward to every night. I'm thinking maybe light popcorn one of these nights with light cranberry juice. What is your favorite "good for you" treat?

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