Friday, February 26, 2010
If you've read my other blogs from this week, you know it's been tough. But God grants grace and mercy (and sends friends who encourage and pray for me and my dau).
Yesterday morning we went to the animal shelter and right away I started sneezing. I just thought it was the out-of-date antihistamine not working (I'm allergic to cats). But no, I've suddenly come down w/a cold. NUTS! I hate having a cold - I'm not a good patient. I'm taking extra Vit C and Cold-Eze - they help me some.
Due to excuse-making, I haven't been good about exercise (or diet) this week. I DID spend 70 minutes on the treadmill early in the week, but nothing since. sigh. I'm disgusted w/the way I feel and certainly am not LOSING weight. My size 16, set-on waist pants are tight again. I guess when I gain a lb it all goes to my stomach.
Starting today, I'm getting back on the program - but a bit carefully. Having a cold means I won't overdo the exercise, but I WILL get SOME!
Thank you all for your kind thoughts and prayers for Heather/Brian and the rest of us. HJ seems to be doing ok, all things considered.
Our weather: Some of you know I live in so-central PA. THANKFULLY, we haven't been hit hard w/snow this storm. But the winds are another story. Steady winds are in the mid-20 mph range with gusts going as high as 50+ mph. The little snow we've gotten (and what was still on the ground from earlier Feb storms) has been blowing all over the place, making for hazardous driving.
Still, I'm thankful it isn't worse. People not too many miles NE of us are about buried in snow again, along w/the strong winds. Brrrr.
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
Thank you for all the prayers for Heather. Please continue, as she did miscarry for the 4th time. She just can't get past her 1st trimester. I think she finally agrees that she needs to be seeing a hi-risk ob instead of her regular gyn. It's possible there is something that can be done to increase her chances of carrying fullterm.
My heart is aching for her, but my hope is in the Lord, the Creator of Heaven and Earth.
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I will shortly take my dau to the dr to get the results of the blood work - has she miscarried again? The test will tell. I continue to rest in God's hands and leave it to Him. It's not a once-and-done thing exactly.....doubts and questions arise and I have to be vigiliant to turn it all over to Him and not entertain the doubts and questions.
On a brighter note, I got MY blood work results from the dr, and just took the RealAge test. I tested out to 53.5 yr - I was born 62 yrs, 3-1/2 months ago - so that's great. I owe some of the good results to SparkPeople - the helps and information the site provides, and to you all who inspire and encourage me. Thanks.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
I got out of the shower in time to hear the phone this morning. When I answered, it was my youngest, crying so hard I could hardly understand her. I told her to get to the hospital (her DH was at work) and we'd meet her there.
HJ has miscarried multiple times, and can hardly even get pg: she has poly cystic disease - and no kids. She just had a pregnancy confirmed a few days ago and was bleeding today.
Her DH arrived shortly after we did, and after they had performed an ultra-sound (non-conclusive) HJ was told to come back in 2 days for blood work to see if she is still pg or not.
When she called this morning, I immediately started talking with The Great Physician - not asking 'why' but only thanking God that HE IS IN CONTROL OF ALL THAT HAPPENS TO US, and asking that He help HJ. I prayed w/her in the hospital, and even tho' I was praying for HER, God granted me peace. My heart aches for her, but I know that God has a purpose for this.
In the book of Jerimiah, Chapter 29, verse 11, God says (to all of us) that "I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (NIV) Notice that nowhere does it say that our desires will all be fulfilled. God has plans for each of us, and sometimes He allows even (great) pain in our lives in order to mold us and make us useful to Him.
Another of my dau had a miscarriage, then at 7-1/2 mo pg, her baby was stillborn. It was a time of great sorrow (an understatement); but I prayed much w/her and for her. In time she said to me, "Mom, I wish God could have found another way to prepare me, but I know He used Aidan's death to prepare me to work with other mothers every day at the hospital." (She works on a post-partum floor).
J knows that mothers who have just lost a child (miscarriage, stillbirth, death shortly after birth) just "can't hear" someone who hasn't also lost a child. Now J goes into those mothers' rooms and says, "I know exactly how you feel....I also lost a child". What a ministry, and how wonderful that she has allowed God to use her.
I don't pretend to know what God wants of HJ. I just KNOW that He has plans for her, and He will use these experiences to mold her for His purposes.
A side note for those of you who may wonder, my dau J has since given birth to a beautiful daughter and another son. Do I even need to say that they are my delights?
One day I'll be in Heaven, and I'll get to meet my grandchildren. What a comfort that is.
Friday, February 19, 2010
I have re-doubled my efforts at exercise this past week. And I thank God for helping me to carry out my determination. Sometimes I have to stop and remind myself that I don't have the handicaps so many do, and that I shouldn't complain.
Jesus said, "I am come that you might have life, and that you might have it ABUNDANTLY" - He hasn't renigged on that. Also, Philippians 1:6 (I think - I'm too lazy go look it up again) promises that God started His good work in me and will continue to do so until my completion when Christ returns. He's not done with me and HE DOESN'T GIVE UP ON ME!
Have a wonderful weekend, y'all.
Get An Email Alert Each Time IAMWINNING Posts