Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I will shortly take my dau to the dr to get the results of the blood work - has she miscarried again? The test will tell. I continue to rest in God's hands and leave it to Him. It's not a once-and-done thing exactly.....doubts and questions arise and I have to be vigiliant to turn it all over to Him and not entertain the doubts and questions.
On a brighter note, I got MY blood work results from the dr, and just took the RealAge test. I tested out to 53.5 yr - I was born 62 yrs, 3-1/2 months ago - so that's great. I owe some of the good results to SparkPeople - the helps and information the site provides, and to you all who inspire and encourage me. Thanks.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
I got out of the shower in time to hear the phone this morning. When I answered, it was my youngest, crying so hard I could hardly understand her. I told her to get to the hospital (her DH was at work) and we'd meet her there.
HJ has miscarried multiple times, and can hardly even get pg: she has poly cystic disease - and no kids. She just had a pregnancy confirmed a few days ago and was bleeding today.
Her DH arrived shortly after we did, and after they had performed an ultra-sound (non-conclusive) HJ was told to come back in 2 days for blood work to see if she is still pg or not.
When she called this morning, I immediately started talking with The Great Physician - not asking 'why' but only thanking God that HE IS IN CONTROL OF ALL THAT HAPPENS TO US, and asking that He help HJ. I prayed w/her in the hospital, and even tho' I was praying for HER, God granted me peace. My heart aches for her, but I know that God has a purpose for this.
In the book of Jerimiah, Chapter 29, verse 11, God says (to all of us) that "I know the plans I have for you, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." (NIV) Notice that nowhere does it say that our desires will all be fulfilled. God has plans for each of us, and sometimes He allows even (great) pain in our lives in order to mold us and make us useful to Him.
Another of my dau had a miscarriage, then at 7-1/2 mo pg, her baby was stillborn. It was a time of great sorrow (an understatement); but I prayed much w/her and for her. In time she said to me, "Mom, I wish God could have found another way to prepare me, but I know He used Aidan's death to prepare me to work with other mothers every day at the hospital." (She works on a post-partum floor).
J knows that mothers who have just lost a child (miscarriage, stillbirth, death shortly after birth) just "can't hear" someone who hasn't also lost a child. Now J goes into those mothers' rooms and says, "I know exactly how you feel....I also lost a child". What a ministry, and how wonderful that she has allowed God to use her.
I don't pretend to know what God wants of HJ. I just KNOW that He has plans for her, and He will use these experiences to mold her for His purposes.
A side note for those of you who may wonder, my dau J has since given birth to a beautiful daughter and another son. Do I even need to say that they are my delights?
One day I'll be in Heaven, and I'll get to meet my grandchildren. What a comfort that is.
Friday, February 19, 2010
I have re-doubled my efforts at exercise this past week. And I thank God for helping me to carry out my determination. Sometimes I have to stop and remind myself that I don't have the handicaps so many do, and that I shouldn't complain.
Jesus said, "I am come that you might have life, and that you might have it ABUNDANTLY" - He hasn't renigged on that. Also, Philippians 1:6 (I think - I'm too lazy go look it up again) promises that God started His good work in me and will continue to do so until my completion when Christ returns. He's not done with me and HE DOESN'T GIVE UP ON ME!
Have a wonderful weekend, y'all.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
In His graciousness, He didn't send us the predicted snowfall. We got a SLIGHT covering of wet snow last eve, but nothing like the 1-8" predicted. I am SO thankful today! The sun is shining brightly, and I've done some exercises (now for the 'other' exercise I need for today), and I'm determined to watch my eating better today.
For breakfast, I finished off my leftovers from dinner last night a the Olive Garden. Ummm-mmmm! Protein, grain, dairy. GREAT FLAVOR!
I'm planning to not snack this morning - saving those calories for later today. Snacking is a habit I need to control, rather than letting it control me.
I'm planning to work on (hopefully finish) a project I'm doing for a friend, and maybe even start another that I've been putting off. I'm a great procrastinator.
Have a great day, y'all.
Monday, February 15, 2010
It is supposed to start around the evening rush hour (why not!) and by tomorrow, we're to have upwards of 6 inches of new snow.
Trying to find something good to say about it, I told my DH this a.m. that it will be nice to have a white covering over the dirty snowbanks along side the roads. Also, this WILL help our water table. That's the best I could come up with.
Happy Presidents' Day, folks. We celebrated this a.m. by going bowling with one of our dau (the other couldn't make it) and her 2 boys plus one of their friends. Josh (my grdsn) and Antonio are 4th graders, and two sweet boys. Tyler (kindergarten) did quite well....sort of. LOL He uses the lane bumpers or he wouldn't knock down any pins. The 'gang' of us had a good time, and don't you know, bowling racks up a lot of calories burned! : )
I gained another lb this week - and don't really know why. Maybe changing up my cardio a little will help. Went bowling today, plan to TRY to jump rope tomorrow b4 getting on the treadmill, and will have to dream up some other ideas. When I'm on the treadmill, I warm up, then walk at 4 mph, drop back a little for a few minutes, then try 4.5 mph. Yes, I know some of y'all think I'm such a sissy, but I'm doing SO MUCH better now than I could 6 mos ago. I think my increased exercising (and eating better) contributed to being able to bowl 3 games in a row w/out wearing out. I used to manage only 2 games b4 I cried 'uncle'.
My DH took me to dinner Sat night (instead of Sun) but apparently everybody else went then, too. We wanted Olive Garden, but there was a TWO HOUR wait!! And that was arriving there shortly after 4:30 p.m. Who'd a thunk it? So, we're going to try again tonight.
I've been good w/my eating so far today (yes, I've had lunch) and will attempt a decent showing at dinner tonight, most likely bringing some of it home for tomorrow's lunch. Or maybe I'll indulge and have the leftover for breakfast. I'm not stuck on having only cereal, eggs, or other 'breakfast' food for breakfast. If it's good for some meal, it's good for breakfast, too.
I thank God for the various things He's been showing me lately about myself. I'm not ready to share specifics, but just know that I have been 'spoken to' by God about some of my attitudes. And I can see His powerful work in relationships. Praise the Lord! God promised to finish the good work He started in me; He doesn't give up on me! (Philippians 1:6)
God bless you all.
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