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Feeling More Like My Old Self

Thursday, August 07, 2014

The last few years have been tough. Job uncertainty, family issues, sickness and death have been all around me and the stress has been taking its toll. I've been eating way too much and drinking more than usual, taking in too many empty, useless calories. I've been feeling more like that chubby, tired woman who joined Sparkpeople back in 2009 and less like my idol SheRa. I recently committed (for like the gazillionth time) to eating less and to eating better and although its only been 2 weeks I'm down 3 pounds but more importantly I'm feeling less puffy and more toned.

I've worked out consistently all through my troubles. My gym time is my "me" time and it keeps me sane. I realized I have all this muscle under this layer of fat and if I can only get it off I can be where I was back in 2010 when I actually had biceps! Its funny. I spend the majority of my time not really thinking about what I look like. Even when I look in the mirror I see myself from 2010 at my peak of fitness success. I didn't realize that I was looking more like my before picture these days. What a shock to the system, right? I couldn't believe I was inching my way back up to my start weight. How the heck could I do that to myself? I'm ashamed and embarrassed, but that sh*& stops here.

No rough patch ever stopped SheRa! She will not be conquered, she will not be stopped. I will push through the hunger pains, stay hydrated and try not to eat so dang much. I guess its true what they say: It's not about the destination, it's all about the journey.

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ISHIIGIRL 9/9/2014 8:14AM

    Hey Libby! I am right there with you! You sound like you have been facing very similar things that I have. As long as we don't stop trying, we haven't lost! Great reminder to keep going as it is always a journey.

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NGCHILD 8/7/2014 2:33PM

    I know what you mean -- one step at a time. Everyone has the same destination in mind, but the journey is harder for some than others. Mine is currently trekking thru the SAHARA. OMG.


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LiveFit Phase 3 Baby!

Monday, May 19, 2014

Week 10 of the 12 week LiveFit program is here. I am hungry, sore and exhausted. Other than that the program has flown by!! I can't believe how quickly time has gone by. I did has some problems following the diet around weeks 5 and 6. It was my birthday followed by my son's birthday so there was some celebrating going on and I have to have me some cake. But I didn't stop there so I'm not where I was planning to be a this time. Time to pick myself up and get back to it.

Had my annual physical last Friday and everything looks good except for my stress levels which are through the roof and my blood pressure which is way too low. How I can be stressed to the max and have super low blood pressure I don't know. My doctor isn't concerned since I don't feel light headed or faint when I work out so I'll just keep doing what I'm doing. Low blood preassure is better than high right?

Heading to the home stretch! Whew!

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LOWFATFOODIE 5/22/2014 5:41PM

    Way to go! so inspired to keep at it! Can't wait to hear your final results after the fat-burning phase!

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NGCHILD 5/19/2014 10:42AM

    Way to go Libbie!! You are rocking it!!


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LiveFit: Phase 1 completed, Phase 2 begins

Monday, April 14, 2014

My third rotation through Jamie Eason's LiveFit Trainer is flying by! I lost 8 pounds during the first 4 weeks by eating well and doing strength training. No cardio for 4 weeks! It was surprising to see that much of a loss. My other two rotations with LiveFit had me gaining weight during the first 4 weeks, so I'm happier this go around.

Phase 2 starts today. I've already logged in my cardio for the day and will go to the gym after work for my strength workout. Phase 2 is harder because the workouts are now over an hour and a half long. I don't have the time to do it all at once so I'll be hitting the gym twice a day 4 times a week to get it all in. I'm happy to be starting cardio again because last week I didn't lose any weight. I'm hoping the cardio will be the jump start I need to get back to losing.

I'm still 8 pounds heavier than I was last year (yes, SheRa put on 16 pounds over the last year) and I'm not happy about that. But I can lose it! You can't let injuries (for me it was a ripped deltoid muscle and a strained calf muscle) destroy all your hard work. You can't let bad eating habits creep back into your life (I did and you see what happens). If something is no longer working you need to change it. I'm concentrating more on diet than exercise these days. The injuries I've been dealing with tell me that I've been working too hard in the gym to compensate for bad eating habits and it wasn't working. So now I'm changing things up and moving forward. I didn't fail, I just need to look at things in a fresh way. I will NEVER give up. You can all count on that!

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ISHIIGIRL 4/27/2014 10:05AM

    Im thinking of jumping back into LiveFit. How is phase 2 going for you? 8 lbs is very encouraging and God knows I need to do something different. By the way, how is it going with your son?

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My Kid Is Stressing Me Out

Tuesday, March 11, 2014

My stepson, Bud, graduated from High School last June. He decided to take a gap year because he didn't know what he wanted to study in college. I know my stepson and I was against the gap year from the beginning, but I was overruled by my husband and his ex-wife. emoticon My husband's ex lives in Europe. She moved there 2 years ago for work and has no plans of ever coming back. The plan was for Bud to go to Europe for a few months and do some traveling. A fantastic opportunity as how many teenagers can say they've traveled all around Europe? Anyway, he goes, has a great time with his mom, comes back in October and plants his butt on my sofa and has not moved since. I cannot get him to get a job and I can not get him to move on his college applications. My husband's idea of handling the situation is to ignore it until it fixes itself. I encourage, I prod and I nag to no end. Bud sleeps for 12 hours and then plays video games for 12 hours. I don't believe this is the definition of a "gap year". His TV broke about a month ago so I thought maybe that would provoke him into getting a job. Nope, now he plays games on his computer instead. If I have to wait for his computer to die I may have a nervous breakdown. My friends tell me to step back and let my husband handle it but that's the problem he's not. I've yelled, screamed, cried and begged to no avail. emoticon He promises he'll do something but he drops the ball soon after he starts dribbling. I am physically feeling the effects of all this stress. I have panic attacks, headaches and I've been self medicating with potato chips. This has got to stop before I lose my mind. I just want to throw his computer out the window! I told my husband that I can't take it anymore. Bud better get it together or he can be on the next plane to Europe and sit on his mother's sofa for a while. He's a super good kid, but I didn't raise him to be a lazy bum. L-A-Z-Y!! You know when he did his laundry last?? November!! ARRRGGGHHHH!! emoticon I will not cave and do it for him. No way!! The gap year was a big mistake and I think my husband agrees with me now. I know ( I hope) this phase shall pass, but my sanity sure is suffering. Pray for me! emoticon

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IAMSHE-RA 3/12/2014 9:02AM

    Thanks guys. I've been the full time "mom" figure for Bud since he was 9 years old. His mom is physically out of the picture, but keeps in touch regularly. She's been sending him (guilt) money and I've asked her to stop or at least cut the amount down cuz all he's spending it on is pizza and computer games. She was actually surprised when I told her what he was spending it on! Really?! Don't you know your son? Gah! Anyway she said she'd try to help and I've asked my husband to make sure his college applications are done by this Sunday. I'm not holding my breath, but he said he'd do it. I do NOT want an extension to the gap year!

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NGCHILD 3/11/2014 10:49PM

    I agree.....tough love Libby Lou! I will pray for an end to your couch potato and for strength and patience!!

I disagree with the gap too. Big BIG mistake. Your hubby needs a wake up call as well. Does he want a constant mooch for the rest if his life??


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    This appears to be a time for tough love. Unfortunately, if dad is not willing to engage in tough love and tell Bud to get the hell out and do something, school, job, volunteer work, you will come across as bitch step mom. Unfortunately this appears to be one of those things you need the serenity to accept because you cannot change it. Bud is acting like a bum and dad is enabling him. Oftentimes this is motivated by a spoken or unspoken threat to move in with mom if you don't treat me right.

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RIDLEYRIDER 3/11/2014 8:53AM

  Yup, I'd buy him a one-way ticket to mooch off his mother, but that's just an outsider's opinion. Your husband is enabling his behavior and may soon see that he needs to get his act together, for your benefit, not just his. Good luck with this, as I fear the gap year may get extended......

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Work Advice Needed Please!

Thursday, January 30, 2014

I've just been given the opportunity to manage a co-worker. While it is a great opportunity for me I'm thinking of turning it down. Not because of the work involved, but because I've worked with this woman for over 10 years and we have a very good relationship. Back when I interviewed for this job she was one of the people who interviewed me! Also, she had the opportunity to manage me a few years back and refused. Oh and she's been with the company for over 25 years. I'm flattered but I think I need to pass. I don't want to ruin a really good working relationship with someone especially when there's not much for me to gain. (I took on a management role last year with no title promotion or pay raise, although I did get a raise this year). Part of me is ambitious and really wants to grow, but I know how I would feel if one of my equals was suddenly asked to manage me. I'd be insulted and feel put out. I don't know if I can deal with it. Advice please!!! Thanks!

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LOWFATFOODIE 2/1/2014 2:31PM

    I'd go with your gut instincts. I see no immediate upside either. The only thing I'd do to hedge my bets is ask the work friend if she was planning on leaving anytime soon. 25 years is a long time- could she be retiring soon?
If not, I'm with you. At the very least, some OTHER manager is trying to pawn off someone onto you. Don't know if this friend is a low-performer, but bigwigs don't move people around for NO reason. someone likely wants to look better by having one less employee to manage or wants you to look worse by sticking you with more work or someone they don't work well with.

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IAMSHE-RA 1/31/2014 9:06AM

    My husband doesn't understand my moral dilemma. He doesn't understand why I didn't jump at the opportunity. It's a delicate situation and I'm really not gaining anything by taking this on. There is no promotion and there is no pay increase associated with this in the short term. In the long term I may see a reward, but for now, it's just more work and the possibility of losing a friend with no added benefits. Does the pros outweigh the cons? Not sure yet.

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NGCHILD 1/30/2014 1:57PM

    Could you approach her and ask her what she would think about you accepting the promotion? If it will help your career, you should give it a shot. If you are really friends with her, she should understand.

Give it some thought and pray on it. I will be thinking about you!


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PIXIECUTE 1/30/2014 11:54AM

    There are no guarantees in this world - your friend has been with the company a long time which could mean she'd leave sooner rather than later. Don't pass up good opportunities for fear of hurting your relationship because relationships & people at work constantly change and evolve - it's part of any business. If this is a fun opportunity that will help you GROW in your career, you owe it to the hard-working, ambitious side of you to take it. Negotiate a good pay increase (don't take it without monetary compensation!)... and lastly, talk to your co-worker before it's announced. Do all you can to not boss her around i.e. be a firm but fair manager. YOU can dictate how that relationship will be.

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