Thursday, January 17, 2008
This is how I feel!!
Well, my second attempt at physical therapy has not been a good experience. The spasms seem to be worse since I fell. I went to PT on Monday afternoon, Tues morning I got up to go to the bathroom and fell. I've been hurting worse ever since. So the doctor is sending me for a CAT Scan today and told me to stay with PT. This time they put me in the pool, which was really nice. It was the first time I was able to really relax. But then came time to get out of the pool. It took 2 of them to get me up the steps out of the water. I went into such spasm I couldn't get up the steps and I was so embarrassed. It's depressing to say the least.
Monday, January 07, 2008
Well, It's been 2 months since my surgery and this was the first day I didn't have much pain, or muscle spasms. Some of them were so bad they would make me scream. A few times I got really dizzy and felt like I was going to pass out. Very Scarey.
So I go to the doctor tomorrow and I'll tell them again what I 've been telling them since my surgery: something feels wrong. Terribel muscle spasms I can't stand anymore. I also want to ask him why I was in the OR for 8 hours instead of 4-5 like I was told and why I was in the recovery room for 5 hours. Something just doesn't seem right about this. My surgeon didn't come to see me until 2 or 3 day afterwards. And when he walked in the room, I was in tears because of the pain being so bad.
I hope today continues into tomorrow. I couldn't take another day of that agony. But if it comes back, all I can do is pray.
Sunday, December 23, 2007
I remember that night so well...as if it were yesterday.
The night was especially dark that night--not many stars. All of a sudden this light, brighter than any I'd ever seen even in the middle of the day when the sun is at it's brightest--brighter than that even. Scarred me simple, I tell you. Me and the other fellas with me, we all fell to the ground 'cause we didn't know what was happenin' and we didn't know what else to do. There we were in the middle of nowhere with no where to run and this light, almost blinding us came out of nowhere. It was a terrible sight.
Then after what seemed a long, long time, we stood up and looked around to try to see where all that light was coming from. As if that weren't enough, all of a sudden an angel of the Lord was standing right there in front of us. We were scarred silly I tell you! Why shepherds are the lowest people on earth and here's an angel from heaven right in front of us. I mean we thought something heavy was goin' on, like what in the world did we do that God sent an angel to us? We just couldn't figure it out.
And then the angel told us not to be afraid. Ain't that funny? Here we were scarred silly and he said don't be afraid! We finally calmed down enough to listen to what he had to say.
He told us he was sent to tell us some Good News! He said a Savior had been born that night. He told us we could go and find Him in Bethlehem and that He was there in a stable, wrapped in swaddling clothes and lying in a manger.
That seemed a little odd to us...a baby being put in a manger, but God had an idea behind the whole thing. Ya see, a manger is something they use to fee animals in. Jesus feeds our souls with His bread of life. And Him being born in a stable was not accident, no sirree! Back then, lambs were used as sacrificial animals in the temple. These special lambs were raised in Bethlehem just for that purpose. Their purpose was to be born in Bethlehem to be sacrificed. Jesus was the same way. He was born in a stable where sheep were kept and since He is the Lamb of God Who takes away the sin of the world, what better place on earth to be born, Isn't that amazing?
And then after the angel told us where to find Jesus, the whole sky was full of angels. I'm tell' you, it was a sight to see. Words just don't cover it like it looked. All them angels started singing, " Glory to God, Glory to God, Glory to God in the highest. Peace on earth good will to men." The night was just filled with praise to an awesome God who made the world and came as a baby, grew to be a man, take on the sin of the world and die for use on a cross and then be raised from the dead.
Anyway, we were all overwhelmed with joy and we decided to do what the angel said and go to Bethlehem to find Jesus. We hurried and gathered the sheep together and off we went.
When we got to Bethlehem, it was just like the angel said. Hey, we even got to meet His mom, Mary, and Joseph and we were the first ones to see Jesus, the Savior of the world. I'll never forget that sight. I've thought about that night many, many times and am still amazed. I realize, too, that God was showing His compassion by sending His Son for us. He sent an angel to us to tell us about Jesus and we--everywhere we went after that night, we told the Good News.
God's compassion is from His heart of love. He cared enough to do something about our need for a Savior. He understands every need we have. Because God has compassion for us, He wants us to have compassion for others and when we show compassion for others, it changes their lives. God understood what you needed, so He sent a Savior for you and me. That's good news. In fact, it's the best news anyone could ever hear. I needed a Savior and God sent Jesus. You need a Savior, too. And God sent Jesus for you.
Did you ever think about what kind of things we need to be saved from? How about hurt? Jealousy, wrong friends, anger when it's expressed for the wrong reason, bitterness, worldly views--we could make this list as long as time--but it's sin everyone of us to sin because we were born in sin.
Jesus was born in a stable; not in some fancy, expensive place. There wasn't any room in the Inn for Him. We, too, can be so busy with life that we have no room for Jesus in our lives. People can fill their lives with things, or worry about their image or popularity or position. Some people only make a little room for Jesus on Sunday morning. We can be so filled with ourselves that we have no room in Jesus.
Well, I got to get back to my flock, but itís been real good telliní you my story. Be sure to remember what Christmas is really about this year, okay?
Friday, December 07, 2007
I just saw this photo and couldn't resist showing it. Before you shoot, CALL IT A LIAR!!
Friday, December 07, 2007
I must admit, I've had some pretty bad days in my life, good ones, too, but today I think is the worst. The weather doesn't help my joints and I've been in pain for a month now since my surgery. It gets to you sometimes. No one is home but me all day and here I sit, trying to occupy or entertain myself until my hubby comes home and we go out to eat.
My back hurts. That's because I now have screws and plates holding me together! and straight. I think that's why I hurt: I'm not used to being straight. My spine was twisted and degenerating and now it's where it should've been but wasn't. A really weird feeling. When I look at the picture the doctor gave me, I am amazed at the "before" and "after".
I guess I'm feeling a little sorry for myself, too, because my left leg is still giving me problems and I have trouble standing when I first go to get up. It's been a month. That's long enough isn't it? Why won't it just stop hurting and let me get on with my life, back to work, back to things I couldn't do before, back to living!
As Charlie Brown once said, "Good grief!"
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