Tuesday, October 23, 2012
Back in 2008 I lost 45 pounds in 4 months using Spark. I had another account. I logged into it tonight and read my blog entries.
I have gained back 30 pounds. I have been trying to get on track again for months now. and it is just not sinking in.
I thought that reading those entries would remind me of what I did different. I had this notion that I ate perfectlhy everyday. Nope. But I did track everyday.
Something else I did everyday was exercise. Everyday.
I set goals each week that were attainable and I followed through. Now if I could get that commitment back again.
I hve been blaming it on the boyfriend that I have now that I did not have then. He is not exactly into health and fitness. and it not exactly supportive of me being that way.
Not against it. Just sabatoges me constantly. I would hope that it is not on purpose.
Somehow I need to get that commitment back regardless of what he is doing. I need to say no. and I need to do what I need to do. He does not come first. I do.
I COME FIRST. In my 41 years the only person that 100 percent looked out for me, is me. No one else. I want to be slim and I want to be fit.
End of story.