Sunday, July 25, 2010
It was a long drive, and I'm not too sure I was ready for it now that I'm back! LOL
It was a beautiful drive. For the first time in years, Lake Kachess was full almost to overflowing, and even the construction on Snoqualamie Pass couldn't disguise the gorgeous scenery-- all those lovely rocky outcrops and streams amidst the evergreens. I wish I had taken a camera with me so I could share that with all of you. It's indescribable...
Eastern Washington is very hot this time of year, and I made sure I took my sunscreen-- then kept forgetting to re-apply! LOL Luckily, MOST of the time I was indoors...
When I pulled up to my sister's house, she was out at the side, picking some of the last of her raspberries and green beans. It's been so long since I'd seen her... three or four years, though we talk every week or so. The thing is, I see my own face in the mirror every day and I realize how much I've aged, but seeing it on her was a bit of a shock! LOL I was struck by just how much she means to me...
We talked for a bit, and it resulted in Vicki (my sis) getting on the phone and calling around to the family, and then the two of us went shopping. We got back, and my youngest niece showed up with her two kids from a previous marriage, the new man in her life, and their new baby. Then Dad and his wife showed up, and then it was my brother and his lovely lady--and after a little while the younger set had to leave. We were sad to see them go, but the kids wear us all out a bit...LOL
It all ended up with Vicki and I plus my sister-in-law and my stepmom making this wonderful spaghetti dinner-- homemade sauce canned from Vicki's garden, a HUGE ceasar salad, a spicy garlic loaf, and fresh-picked cherries for dessert. I know, I know, a LOT of carbs! LOL I think though that I ate half that salad by myself! LOL
The meal was hilarious-- My brother and stepmom go round and round with each other, making suggestions on how to improve each other, and when they'd slow down or run out of playful insults, my Dad (81 yrs old and still has that twinkle in his eyes) would put in a word to get the ball rolling again. I laughed so much my ribs are STILL sore! LOL
Dad gets tired a lot easier these days (since he was 55, he's had 5 heart attacks and survived-- He's 81 now, what a scrapper! Must be where I get it! LOL) He's been having a little problem with his heart rhythms lately, and the doctors have been playing around changing his meds and so on, so my stepmom took him home, to get some sleep, I think it was around 8pm. The rest of us went to sit outside in my sister's back yard and continue our conversation... it was a lovely evening, the sun was setting toward the front of the house, and there were some large robins still perching on the fence at the side, soaking up the last rays where we could watch them.
I stayed in the wrong motel.
The linens were washed in something I was apparently allergic to, if I laid down on the bed I couldn't breathe, and trying to get myself cleaned up without inhaling? Yikes! LOL The bed was also very hard, so even laying on TOP of the covers was like doing penance... and when I laid down and turned my head, I could see where my car was parked outside. There was a gap in the blinds!
At least the cable worked. Sort of. Lots of cartoon channels...
The next morning, I did a little shopping around, talked to some folks, and then met Vicki and her hubby Tom for an early lunch at the local Wendy's where their two daughters work, so they could talk to us during their breaks. Jeanette (aka my stepmom) joined us there. My oldest niece has manager's priveleges there, and wouldn't let me pay for anything... she's a good kid. Yep, still a kid, even if she is a mother of three...LOL
After we were done eating, Jeanette ordered food for Dad, who hadn't felt up to the drive. Vicki and Tom went home, and I followed Jeanette back to Dad's house and visited while he ate his lunch. Then we said our goodbyes, and I headed to the store to buy some ice so I could keep my food and water cold on the long drive back... and ended up having to stop at Vicki and Tom's on the way out because my blood sugar crashed!
I guess my body thought I needed another visit... LOL
It took me almost twice as long getting home as it did going out. I was sore from sitting (car seats just aren't my thing LOL) and I was tired, and it was hot and the air conditioning in my car doesn't work now, and I kept having to stop... I was exhausted when I got back.
But it was DEFINITELY WORTH EVERY MINUTE!
Now, I may not be able to post REGULARLY yet (still not settled, waiting on SSA again LOL) but I am feeling more like myself every day, and I am SO happy that I got to do this!
I want to thank all of my wonderful friends and supporters here on SP for all the comments and goodies and emails. It means more to me than I have words for... YOU ARE ALL SO
Thursday, July 01, 2010
I don't have much time, but wanted all my friends online to know I am currently doing very well.
I saw an oncologist last week, and she told me that my prescribed treatment at this point is to do nothing except monitor. So, technically, I am unofficially "in remission"--No chemo! YAY! LOL
Sad that because of my kidneys I'm ineligible for the research polls... they do statistical analyses to determine whether I'd be in a high risk category for a recurrence...hm.
I do get to have blood tests every 3 months for a while, plus a few exams six months down the line to see about healing and scarring, and another screening after a year to check for possible polyps and/or recurrences... but I feel pretty good and I'm really looking forward to getting healed up enough to get part of my life back! LOL
Right now, on line access is still sketchy but I'll post whenever I can--
Thanks to all of you who have kept track of me and sent all the wonderful goodies and comments... I LOVE you all!
Sunday, June 13, 2010
I'm not REALLY back yet, but I had the opportunity to use a PC for a little bit, so I'm taking advantage...
I want to thank all my friends who have been so supportive and concerned-- it's a special treat to feel so well loved...
My surgery went well, with no colostomy (YAY! lol) and I'm told by the surgeon that all the pathology results show there were no cancer cells that penetrated the muscle wall. The adjoining tissue and lymph glands showed no contamination, either so they 'got it all'... but because of the type of surgery (puncturing the abdominal wall) I was sent to a rehab/convalescent facility (aha a nursing home LOL) for some addition healing time and training on how to take care of myself during the six-eight weeks recovery period with out 'busting a gut' LOL... interesting experience, lousy food!
I was told that radiation treatments are 'inappropriate' in my case (I wonder if that's because of my kidney issues..? hm...) The surgeon told me that most of the research she has access to showed that with others who had similar pathologies, recurrence was not affected one way or another by the application of chemo so it's quite possible I won't need to worry about that. I still have to see an oncologist to discuss the issue though, so I will know more after my visit with the oncologist on the 24th...
Meanwhile, I'm staying with DH's parents for a few days and then will be going to an extended stay hotel with him and our animals for about a month, possibly a tiny bit longer-- my SS settlement is supposed to be arriving any day now and I'll need the time to look around and find the right place to call home...
I don't know when I'll have another chance to post--at least until some of that is settled-- but hopefully I can sneak in now and again--
I miss you all!
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
I just had a little bit of time before DH gets up and we start packing again-- and with only three days left, that haven is still being elusive! LOL
I got this SparkMail from a friend, asking me if I was really 'that strong'--and my "quick little reply" turned into this...
"Got a few minutes before I have to get busy again-- and I ALWAYS do my SparkMail first! LOL
I DO have a lot on my plate right now-- and I'm not all that hungry for it! LOL
I've been spending the last several years facing crisis after crisis, including more than one life-threatening event--and my life and time with others has become too precious to me to spend it wondering and worrying about what MAY happen. I'm constantly joyously amazed at the things that happen when you just BE WHERE YOU ARE... NOW is a MARVELOUS time to be alive!
I have moments when I'm a bit... shall we say, intimidated? Nervous? CRAZY... over it all-- I wouldn't be human! LOL But... hm. How do I explain...
My last conversation with my sis we were actually talking about it-- But we had the most incredible mother, she had a four year nursing degree and worked and studied her way into cardiac and trauma care, geriatrics and hospice services... any and every aspect of nursing care I can think of-- did I mention she was incredible? LOL
She taught us by example that you get through things better by just dealing with stuff as it comes, that you don't make things better by fretting-- and if you need to breakdown and cry, you wait until later, when you've finished with what you have to do-- and usually later, there's nothing much to worry about! LOL
That's usually when the tears come, though, if they're going to. Or you laugh yourself silly (Sis and I were laughing at Mom's funeral... I think you had to know Mom-- and you had to be there! LOL Odd as it may sound, her funeral has become a wonderful memory for me...)
The crying and the laughter-- It's just a part of the letting go process, putting things to rest as it were.
As much as I'm scrambling around trying to get moved before my surgery (I wish I had those two days back! LOL) I still find time to feel that calm center. There is a brightness inside me, a clarity... I'm good... Really good... inside where it counts...
Thank you, LOVNLAUGHTER, for bringing these thoughts to the foreground for me this morning... I may not get the rest of my email done, but THIS has been worth it! LOL
'LOVN' you right back,"
Makes a pretty decent blog, something I know I really want to think about. SOMETIMES, looking at what I've done and where I've been in the past can be a GOOD thing! LOL It CAN lift me up and face me forward, and remind me that I can only ever have an effect on the moment I'm in... and then I remember to make the most of it!
It's a GLORIOUS day to be, my friends-- Let's MAKE our own sunshine!
Monday, May 17, 2010
Yep. We're definitely moving again-- and what timing, huh? LOL
There are a few places I've been eyeing... today DH is taking me house hunting in earnest. Nothing like leaving it for the last minute, is there? That's kind of how he is, though-- his business comes first, and then he 'gets around to' actually living! One of the things I've always loved about him is the sense of spontaneity he brings with him... LOL
We were going to move by Tuesday this week, but we have 'til Friday now... which gives us a bit more time, but it also means that we'll be packing and unpacking directly into the surgery prep schedule: special diet, that nasty 'fake citrus' yuck that I have to drink so I can spend all night in the bathroom...! LOL We get to stop at the pharmacy while we're out and about today to pick it up. Hm. LOL
In case the settlement is not here today (is it EVER when you need it? I'm working on getting the Universe in line with my wants...LOL) I have a friend who is calling us today to let us know if he can loan us enough for the down payment, and I can pay him back--with interest, of course, he's a business man!-- when the money does get here. Plus, I can actually pay off the house if things work the way I hope.
I'll be in the hospital for at least 5 days, but I have no clue what I'm going to wear when I come home. Pants, especially jeans, are not an option! LOL Guess I'll have to beg, borrow or buy a few dresses... something LOOSE! LOL
I'm also still wondering how I can stay at home the first few weeks. I haven't come up with anyone, family is too far away, and the only friends I have who might be able to are either in Mexico or on the east coast or something... DH is going to be around especially in the evenings, but he needs to be taking care of his business too. He's thinking he might be able to hire a part-timer to do some of the outside work and installs etc for him so he can be there for me... it means giving up part of the profits on the deals as they close... that's a really big sacrifice, though, and will cut in to our expendible income at a time when we really need it. We're going to talk about it some more, when he gets up. (It's only 5:30 and he isn't big on mornings...LOL)
I'm doing those great ab exercises...
I like that they are intentionally meant to be done in small spurts throughout the day. The suggestion is doing sets of 100, five times a day, and working up to a total of 1000--but there is NO WAY! That would be like doing that many crunches-- with the FMS and lupus, I'd be out for the count in one set! LOL
Get this: I'm up to about five sets of 20, and ouch, is my tummy feeling it this morning! LOL
SMASHY1, from one of my teams, was asking me about it, so if anyone (especially you ladies out there...LOL) is interested, here's a link:
I'm getting a bit hungry now, and it's going to be a long day. Guess I'll go get breakfast so I can do a no-no and munch while I'm doing the rest of my email. It may be the last chance I get for a while!
That's one thing I'm going to do when the money does get here--my own PC, maybe a laptop, and a WiFi-- so I could post even from bed! LOL
I don't know if today will be my last post until afterward, but just in case--
I'll be back!
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