Thursday, February 06, 2014
It's been years since I've felt hopeful for more than a few weeks, and my son is only 7. And he's about to be a big brother this year. (This could end up having been a very bad idea).
My son has been tested for ADHD (doesn't qualify for the diagnosis, but has symptoms of it), and we've had his IQ tested. He has a fairly high IQ and is very bright. He also processes things faster than 89% of boys his age. And he can be very loving a sweet.
He also has been in speech since he was 3.5 years old, and his speech has greatly improved. But, he still tends to emotional react with noises and being physical. He's not a big conversationalist (neither is his daddy).
But, after seeing a handful of counselors over the last 1.5 years, and being tested, and reluctantly being put on a mild medication (which the doctor didn't feel would help - but it does help somewhat) - we are still loosing hope (or at least I am).
My son is still has quite a bit of issues keeping his hands to himself, and has trouble listening at school. He wants to play and have fun, but sometimes he gets too aggressive and hurts kids.
We have talked to him over and over again about his behavior; we've tried taking away privileges; and we've tried rewarding him for good behavior. But, at the same time, we can't get his teacher to tell us how he's doing on a daily basis (to be able to effectively reward him, and we can't just take his word for how his behavior was for the day because he's lied to us before).
I am so stressed and in a state of panic, as the school has talked about putting my little guy in in-school suspension at another older school. He's really not that bad.
But, he knows that he's viewed as a "bad" kid at school, as most days of the week he clips "down" in color. But, it doesn't seem to change his behavior long-term either. But, he and a few other kids tend to be on the "not-so-great" behavior side.
We would love for him to be the "perfect" child and not get in trouble. But, we feel like we are already doing everything we can. We know that mainstream school is not the best for him right now, but we don't have any other options. We can't move (already did that this last summer), we can't afford private school, or to home-school him. And he needs the socialization. He needs to learn how to get along with others and how to interact correctly with them.
And he was doing better, and I feel like we are almost at square one.
Why does my son have to be like this?
Why did I get this child?
I know others are in even worse situations, but I am truly hoping that I am not the only one struggling. I feel like I am though. We are trying to get him to learn to prevent him from going down a much more dangerous path when he gets older.
How do I get through this?
I am so stressed (and have been for the last 1.5 years), and I know it's not good for me or the baby.
Feeling alone and defeated.
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Since I last checked in with everyone.
1) We moved to the country and moved into a wonderful new home last summer.
2) My little man is doing much better at his new school, and he is excelling in academics...only in 1st grade and can already handle some 2nd grade work. Totally excels at Math! So proud!
3) I was able to loose around 10 Lbs last fall, but now I have to put my weight loss on hold...
4) We are having a BABY!
We are pretty excited. We are due at the end of July/ beginning of August.
I hope to update everyone more often.
Hope everyone is doing well, and living the life they always dreamed of.
Tuesday, August 13, 2013
Today is the day. Am I attempting the impossible? Maybe. But, I am sure as hectic going to try.
Please check out my new blog to find what it's all about...
And it would mean the world to me if you could possibly donate whatever you can, but if you cannot donate, please tell everyone you know about my mission! Thanks!
PS - And if anyone knows about blog layouts or designs, I need some help. My blog looks pitiful, but I have never started a blog before. So, any help or guidance would be greatly appreciated.
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Maybe. But, I am sure as heck going to try.
Starting August 13, 2013, I will begin a journey of a lifetime. Not just to get in shape, improve health, or increase my happiness, although if I complete this journey, those things will also be accomplished.
Starting on August 13, 2013, I will take my first steps with the goal of walking/running 1300+ miles. Not for me, but for Ronan and all the other children fighting cancer.
I also plan on setting up a blog to document my journey. I am hoping to raise as much money as I can for the Ronan Thompson Foundation. And I hope my personal journey reaches as many people as possible and people are inspired to donate or help in any way that they can.
Will this be easy? Heck no (especially since I live a very sedentary life). But, I love this little boy, who I never met, and his mama, and I want to help in any way that I can.
If you are interested in learning about Ronan's story, please read his mother's blog @
Thursday, July 11, 2013
I want another child so much, and I actually had my IUD removed yesterday (it had to come out - it was 5 years old, and yes my husband knows). But, I got some BC because I know my husband is not quite ready for another child. He actually doesn't really want another one, but he's thinking about it.
But, I am afraid that if I get pregnant again, I could lose my job and insurance. And we just moved and my husband does not make enough for me to not work.
Is having another baby worth losing the comfort and security that I have right now? Or am I just being crazy? I work for a company with only 30 employees. They were really nice about my pregnancy 7 years ago, but I am scared that won't be as kind, especially since the company might be selling (or at least part of the company).
I don't know what to do...listen to my head or my heart?
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