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Making Up for Lost Time

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Since the beginning of June I have been trying to blog, but getting so caught up in my emotions, I had to stop. I haven't been able to think straight and of course I haven't been able to eat right. and now I am supposed to go away this weekend and I am having a difficult time 'wanting' to go. If I didn't know any better I would think I am bi-Polar but I had that checked out and was told I'm not. :-) I guess that is something for me to be happy about.

I am so overwhelmed right now that I was practically begging God to take away my emotions, to make me NOT CARE so much so I could have a life of order and control... a life where I can diet and exercise without falling apart crying and wanting to go to bed and sleep out my days. I know this isn't the place for this, but I also know that if I don't get back onto SparkPeople...I will make excuses not to use this sight for anything. I need to put some structure back into my life otherwise my eating will get so bad and I will undo everything I went through to get down to this weight.

I called my friend and asked her WHEN is she going to the GYM and could I go with her. I am thinking, if I have a schedule, and I feel accountable to someone else maybe I will not let my emotions destroy my weight loss and I can continue on a positive road while I go through this "crazy" stuff.

Also, I want to try to track my eating again (something I haven't done in a long time) as well as my walking.. and I need SparkPeople to do this. As I mentioned before, I have been listening to those self-help audios (on dieting, self-sabotaging, relaxing and confidence) and my family thinks they have been helping because this episode hasn't been as bad as the others I've had....lol

Anyway - I am gonna try to blog more often, just to let some of this "air" out my head and to make sure I am on SparkPeople to put in my daily food intake and what not.

Take Care & May God continue to to pour down His blessings on us every day!

  
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ANNROSE126 6/20/2012 11:34AM

    YOU ARE RIGHT!

EVEN USING ALL THE TOOLS IN SPARKPEOPLE.COM, SUCH AS THE NUTRITION TRACKER, REALLY DO TAKE LEARNING AND TIME AND EFFORT.

I'M STILL FINDING MY WAY AROUND THE TRACKER ALONE.

AND IT'S TRUE I HAVE HAD TO GIVE UP QUITE A FEW THINGS IN MY LIFE TO EVEN WALK AT LEAST 30 MINUTES EACH DAY FOR MY JUNE CHALLENGES.

THEN IT TAKES MORE TIME TO COOK RIGHT AND TRACK EVERYTHING IN SP.

AND THEN MORE TIME TO CONNECT WITH A FEW SPARKERS IN SP EACH DAY OR WEEK.

AS I SEE IT, GETTING THE WEIGHT OFF IS MORE IMPORTANT THAN EVER FOR ME NOW SO I'M THROWING MY TIME AT IT.

THIS EFFORT FOR ME IS NOT FOREVER.

ONCE THE WEIGHT IT OFF, I COULD PERHAPS REDUCE THE EXERCISE EFFORT TO 30 MINUTES 4 TO 5 TIMES PER WEEK.

AND I'LL HAVE MORE ENERGY SO DOING OTHER THINGS TO MAINTAIN WILL SEEM EASIER?

I HOPE SO ANYWAY.


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MICKEYMAX 6/20/2012 7:15AM

    YOU HAVE COURAGE, baby, plenty of courage. I feel your pain and i think it is awesome you are able to capture the feeling, and also reach out to your friend about the gym. Those are amazing. Emotions are a struggle for all of us, I think.

After to very close together major deaths in my family, I told my doctor that everyone seemed to be handling it well, except for me. I also shared with her that everyone else there was medicated. She told me she was not gone to give me anything to get through emotions I should be feeling. huh? What about all of the others docs? Maybe they didn't care? I'm not much into drugs, so it is better for me this way, but sometimes a girl wouldn't mind a little extra crutch.

I am praying for you to enjoy yourself and to find the tools you need.

Go GIRL! I look forward to an update. I think blogs are for whatever you need them to be. No labels. NO right no wrong. Just keep going.

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BLUE42DOWN 6/19/2012 3:45PM

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Just being able to vent and express those emotions can make a lot of difference. Sometimes we get too caught up in not wanting to feel so emotionally about things - but that way leads to trying to hold them in, trying to deny them, and all the unhealthy methods of doing so.

Try asking God for the strength to carry the burden of those emotions rather than to take them away. After all, as His creation, that means He gave you the ability to feel those emotions for a reason.

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CMCBRIDE37 6/19/2012 12:54PM

    I love the cartoon! So me.

I have been faithfully tracking my food...but I have been down this road many times. And right about HERE is where I start self sabotaging. I am trying to hunker down and not allow myself to do that.

Good luck to you and use the free tools that SparkPeople provides. I keep thinking Weight Watchers online costs money so I should be thankful for the free tracking that is available and by golly use it! I am really good at food tracking (except out of town) but I need to start tracking exercise (and in order to do that I actually have to exercise)!



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Making Plans

Friday, May 25, 2012

Ok, I booked our Weekend-Get-Away to Boston for the end of June...whew! This is really getting ...um...I don't know what word to use for exciting, overwhelming, hopeful and frustrating...lol I am really enjoying these get-a-ways each month, I just wish someone else would plan them, make all the reservations, pick all the dates and then PAY for them...lol

March was surgery, April was Chicago, May was DC, June will be Boston, July will be Columbia SC and August will be Atlanta. Hopefully by September, I will have reached a GOAL weight and I can plan a trip to some relaxing Beach/Pool/Spa place where I can be in the water all day, get massages and facials and then take long walks or go dancing. (Can you tell my husband will be going with me on this trip...lol)

Anyway ~ I need to start my day - T.G.I.F. everyone!!

  
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TRACYZABELLE 6/5/2012 7:05AM

    YAY!! Enjoy!! emoticon

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BLUE42DOWN 5/25/2012 1:56PM

    TGIF right back atcha - and it sounds like you need the get-away to destress from planning the get-away. emoticon

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On Track

Wednesday, May 23, 2012

When I had the surgery back in March, my doctor told me I could hope to lose between 60 to 80 pounds my first year...and I was really excited when I heard those numbers. 60 to 80 pounds in 12 months...Wow!!
50 pounds later and not even 3 months post surgery, all I am wondering - will these last 10 - 30 pounds be difficult or could I actually lose more in my first year? Again...WOW??!!
This definitely isn't something I thought I would be thinking about so soon!!



Have a great morning ... I know I will!
(Blessings Abound!)

  
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BLUE42DOWN 5/24/2012 6:06PM

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It may very well slow down, but just stick to the better eating habits and let it slip away in its own time.

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TRACYZABELLE 5/24/2012 1:28AM

    U rock!! 3 weeks in I was 25 down... not sure what 1 month holds for me as I cna not weigh in at home my scale starts at 400

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LINDAMARIEZ1 5/23/2012 7:15AM

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Weekend Get-A-Way!

Sunday, May 20, 2012

Getting ready for bed because it's back to New York in the morning. I actually had a lot of fun walking all over D.C. sight-seeing...never did any of that before when I visited previously. Took a lot of pictures too, so we'll see if I post any of them (this time I remembered to bring my camera) - I'm really bad about things like that...taking pictures or carrying a camera.


Anyway... time for bed. Have a safe and blessed night!
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TRACYZABELLE 5/21/2012 12:50AM

    Safe trip to u!! Great exercise walking~~

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BLUE42DOWN 5/20/2012 2:48AM

    May you sleep well.

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There's Got To Be a Better Way!!

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

I can't wait to get to that point in my life where I don't think about FOOD or EATING every minute I am awake.

  
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TRACYZABELLE 5/18/2012 5:22AM

    Since my surgery I have NO HUNGER it is so odd

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ANNROSE126 5/16/2012 10:36PM

    ditto for me

Regards, annrose126

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LACRESHABROWN1 5/16/2012 4:17PM

  When you reach that point let me know how long it took you to get there.

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