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a door opened!!!!

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

for two months I have been without transportation...

during this time GOD revealed to me who my true friends are
he showed me who had my back

I saw for myself how peoples attitude will change when they think you will become dependent on them

I was shown that my own brother doesn't LOVE & CHERISH OUR MOM!!!

G od confirmed to me what I already knew that the people I chose to be my kids GOD PARENTS...really have my back!!!

THEY ARE SIMPLY THE BEST!!!!!!!!

I have been praying & talking to GOD asking him to show me a path because the devil had/has ben busy in my family...but I SHAMED THE DEVIL BECAUSE I WORSHIP A GOD THAT DOESN'T TURN HIS BACK ON ME ...THAT WILL MAKE A WAY OUT OF NO WAY ..THAT IS A WILL MAKER...GOD IS AWESOME!!!!

in the last few weeks I have really come to understand when they say pray and give it to GOD...& don't worry about it again

I have been unable to go to church but I read my bible....i just did all knew how to do and that was PRAY!!!

GOD opened the door for my daughter
GOD has blessed me financially when I was told I wouldn't make it
GOD allowed my asthmatic son to endure the heat to go to summer school on public transportation
GOD allowed him to have perfect attendance and a 98% in the class THE HIGHEST GRADE
GOD provided my mom a way to work
GOD gave her strength dispite her illness to catch the bus in the heat
GOD has allowed me to pay what bills I needed to pay
GOD fixed the problem with the school
GOD finally approved my fingerprints which now means I am now a
LICENSED NURSING ASSISTANT n md
GOD A HAS OPENED A DOOR FOR ME TO MAKE MORE MONEY

GOD IS MY SAVIOR !!!!


but just yesterday GOD allowed us to drive of the lot with a 2010 dodge caravan 25,000 miles....

my mom is worried about all of the money going out...but I know GODS IS GOING TO MAKE A WAY HE DID NT BRING US THIS FAR TO LEAVE US!!!

the positive events occuring in my life out weigh the bad....
I no longer have an excuse for getting to the gym
negative energy and people have been removed from my life
my mom doesn't have to stand at the bus stop at 10pm

I thank GOD also for my bad experiences because they help to make me a better person...

I thank GOD for the things HE HAS DONE & the things HE WILL DO!

PUT YOUR LIFE IN GODS HANDS & HE WILL DO THE REST..
the road may not be easy but I do kno GODS GRACE & MERCY WILL TRAVEL WITH YOU!!

AS LONG I GOT KING JESUS..I DON'T NEED ANYTHING ELSE!

but im still praying..i kno the devil is waiting for his moment to attack!!

special thanks to my kids GOD PARENTS & my BFF!!!

GOD IF HAD 10,000 tongues I couldn't THANK YOU ENOUGH!





  
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ANIHAKA 8/4/2012 5:31PM

    I enjoyed reading your positive blog. Well done to you it sounds as though all sorts of things have happened to benefit your life and you have found the answer which is to be grateful 4 everything that's happened to you the good and the bad.
Reading this has been a reminder for me to look for the silver lining in the clouds that very frequently enter my life. emoticon

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SCORPIO180 10/11/2010 4:49PM

    Tell em sis! emoticon

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SHAKITANWM 9/9/2010 11:55AM

    GIRL, THIS TESTIMONY BLESSED MY SOUL! I CAN'T EVEN SAY ANYTHING, I HAD TO WAIVE MY HAND!




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INSPIRE12 9/8/2010 8:41PM

    I can relate. I have seen God show up and show out in some of the ways I didn't see an answer. I had an employer walk away with a months worth of pay. I got arrested for hitting her. My son car was repo but god fixed it. I have my sons car back. i have another job. Most of all family and friends had my back. So I know there is a god. I just thank him. congrats on the new van and you wil be a wonderful nurse. Please feel free to email mail with any questions or problems you might be stuck on in nursing. I am a license nurse. I am currently sitting in class on sp. I am bridging to become an rn. Good luck. God Bless.

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WALKT30 9/8/2010 3:09PM

    Preach Girl!!!!!

If God brings you to it, he will bring you through it.....

Thanks for sharing that testimony...

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ROCKINFOX 9/8/2010 1:35PM

    That is awesome!!! I started attending small group and it's helped me think of things that I never thought about. I really need to follow God instead of trying to do my own thing. I know he has a plan for me and I need to stick with that plan.

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POKIEFUZZBUCKET 9/8/2010 12:52PM

    Congratulations! It feels great to be thankful for the good that we have in our lives - sometimes people seem to take the good for granted, which is a shame.
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TRAINER_T 9/8/2010 11:57AM

    emoticonGod is Glory and he is king. You will see more from him, as you have been obedient.
I am glad he has opened doors for you, enjoy your blessings

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FINEBABY72 9/8/2010 11:29AM

  What an awesome testimony! Keep go moving forward my sistah! emoticon

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ENERGIZED4LIFE 9/8/2010 11:10AM

    GLORY!!! God is Faithful!!!
Your Gratitude keeps the doors open!!!
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DALOV4U 9/8/2010 11:06AM

    I'm very happy for you, but you know what? One preacher on TV said that when you leave the wrong relationships and find the ones that works for you, your life will never be the same. Exactly what I did and my friends today are a total blessing in many ways. God will do more and more for you. Stay blessed.

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PLAYBLUES22 9/8/2010 10:51AM

    Thank you for your blog, just shows you we have an awesome God that provides all our needs before we even need them

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FITNESSVIXENN 9/8/2010 10:05AM

    Amen...yes yes he is always there to get us out...Thank you for sharing...me myself I am being tested as well with my faith...and guess what I am keeping my faith because I know he will work it out.Stay Strong! emoticon

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NUTRON3 9/8/2010 9:18AM

    So true!

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PAISHAR2 9/8/2010 8:45AM

    THANK YOU FOR THIS BLOG THIS MORNING!!!! I AM IN YOUR SHOES AND I FEEL YOU THIS MORNING!!!!!!! GIRL YOU GOT ME STEPPING IT OUT IN JESUS NAME THIS MORNING, I LOVE HOW YOU USE GOD AND NOT SELF, LIKE MOST PEOPLE DO. THEY SAY I I I I AND IT HAS NOTHBEING TO DO WITH i. GIVE GOD ALL THE GLORY AS YOU ARE DOING!!!!!!! PRAISES GOING UP AND BLESSINGS COMMING DOWN!!!!!


SHARON

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SPARKLE1908 9/8/2010 8:32AM

    What an awesome testimony!!! God is PERFECT!!!!!

Congratulations on all your blessings!!!!

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BIGDAD1211 9/8/2010 6:56AM

    Our Father would never leave nor forsake His Children! What an awesome God we serve!

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CURVYCC 9/8/2010 6:02AM

    He is an on time God. He comes when you truly need Him.

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LOVEANGELS37 9/8/2010 5:37AM

    AMEN!!! WE serve a MIGHTY GOD!!!

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Its BITTER SWEET!!!!

Wednesday, September 08, 2010

it seemed like yesterday we were always together...we went out partying, we went shopping together,u were at my house,i was at yours...we were joined at the hip if u saw 1 u saw the other!!!!!

now I LOVE you but at the same time I c for myself that you are a user that u you never cared you used me for convience...what I thought was a special bond only turned out to be...B.S.

when your son got locked up &u called crying I rode with 3hrs away
when you needed food I bought it...
when u didn't have money for your hair I did it on credit until your next pay....
when your mon said bad things about you I comforted you....
when your dad passed from cancer I was there....
when u didnt have gas money I helped u until pay day
(u make 60,000 in the federal govt) Im a single mother of 4
when you allowed you sons friend to move into your apartment and 2weeks later someone broke in and trashed your apartment....i helped you clean up
when you had to be rushed too the hospital I was there
when the dr told you u you had to have a hysterectomy I prayed for your health

I NEVER JUDGED YOU...
I WAS YOUR FRIEND!!

but I was CONVIENT!

IT WAS ALWAYS ABOUT YOU!!!!

after you lost your father you became a different person...
you deleted me as your friend on facebook...but still called me lil sis and smiled in my face....until I found out!! lol
but the sad part is I could feel us going/GROWING in 2 separate directions!

you became grand...

I NEVER BASED OUR FRIENDSHIP ON DEEDs !!

you would tell me things that would make others seem like the bad person but in reality its you that's the bad apple!!! you treat people bad you use them or at least me!

I can only say we had good times going out
you did help me by taking my mom to work a couple of times
but our friendship was one sided in your favor not that a friendship is based on who does what but GOD opened my eyes for me to cĄ

n order for me to move on with my life I must forgive you!
I forgive you for thinking your better than people
I forgive you for talking about me..
I forgive you for judging me...
I forgive you for not paying my mother the money u owe her
I forgive you for using me
I forgive you for THE LIES YOU TOLD AT MY JOB
but most importantly I forgive for NOT CHERISHING OUR FRIENDSHIP
I FORGIVE YOU FOR BEING A USER!

I pray for you I wish you the best

God I'm asking you to remove this person from my heart and mind..i pray that you bless her allow her to find peace with in herself that will allow her to stop mistreating people....Give her PEACE LORD!

LORD I'M PRAYING FOR CLOSURE BECAUSE I ALREADY KNOW THAT THE REST IS YOUR BATTLE...DON'T ALLOW THIS PERSON TO GAVE HOLD .. I ASK THAT U GIVE ME A PEACE OF MY MIND....

I will no longer be held back n my life.....GOD I FORGIVE HER and I give it to you!

T HANK YOU GOD FOR THE EXPERIENCE...LESSON LEARNED!
a FRIENDSHIP IS NOT 1 SIDED!!!

sO GLADE I DONT NEEF FRIENDS TO B COMPLETE

GOD COMPLETES ME!!!



  
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MEKMEK2 9/11/2011 3:22AM

    You was 100% in this post. I agree with you, I had to removed a friend from my life I know since we were 9 years old. she also changed when her grandma got sick. I feel to move in life you have to get the people who are Not real and fake out of your life.

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BAHAMIANJENNI 10/5/2010 12:56PM

    This is my FIFTH time reading this blog and I agree 100%. I totally wish that I didn't understand how you feel, and that these feelings didn't apply to both romantic and platonic relationships in my life. (Sigh)

Thank you so much for articulating my thoughts so clearly in this blog. God bless you as you stay strong and focused on Him.

Jenni

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SPROULLT 9/14/2010 2:54PM

    That was well said and it appear to be deep from the heart.. I hope the messenger received the message.........

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TRAINER_T 9/8/2010 11:59AM

    emoticonGood for you, for loving all people and it is the power of prayer and grace that is forever.

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FITNESSVIXENN 9/8/2010 10:12AM

    YES I MUST AGREE WITH NEWCARL YOU WENT TO THE RIGHT ONE GOD...HE IS TH EONE TO GO TO HE WILL HEAL YOU HEART AND HE ALWAYS MAKES A WAY...I WENT THRU WHAT YOU WENT THRU ALSO...SHE IS CUT OUT OF MY LIFE NOW...BLOWS MY MIND HOW PEOPLE ARE AROUND YOU ACTING LIKE THERE YOUR FRIEND..WHEN ALL ALONG THEY WANT TO BE YOU OR WANT WHAT YOU HAVE..JUST ENVING YOU THE WHOLE TIME..SAD...NOT KNOWING THEY CAN WORK HARD TO GET THE SAME...KEEP YA HEAD UP SISTHA emoticon

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NEWCARL 9/8/2010 7:21AM

    Wow, you are a very strong woman. You went to the right Person to ask for forgiveness and you shall be blessed for it. Some lessons are harder to learn than others and it seems that you have a grip on it. Pain has no bounds but healing doesn't either. My prayers are with you and your healing.

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CURVYCC 9/8/2010 5:55AM

    Excellent blog! Been there done that! WOW!!!

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RUNNINKAT 9/8/2010 5:19AM

    The only thing I can say is WOW! You are strong and amazing.

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Hmmm....it's been CONFIRMED!!!

Tuesday, August 31, 2010

YEAH ive been doing me!! lol
I have been on a train going no where pertaining to my health!!
It started 4yrs ago when my grandmother passed!!!!

so here I am officially 5 sizes bigger.I'm not upset about it because I could c it!!!

but I say it was confirmed yesterday!!!

when my dr told me I was carrying 2 tractor trailers on my body....i didn't want to cry but I wanted to tell him I didn't ask u that LOL!!

i already knew because of the way my breathing becomes labored when I walk I no longer can dance for long periods of time...we all kno the signs!! theres no point getting of mad I kno what I have to do!

my stomach looks bloated..I NEVER HAD A BIG STOMACH..THE FAT ON MY BACK HAS RETURNED...MY SHOES ARE GETTING TIGHT...ALL THE SIGN WERE IN FRONT OF ME..I DIDN'T LISTEN!!!

but because of my shape I'm able to get by without people saying she's fast I just get I'm thick..but the truth is I'm fat for my height!!

let me say I'm not depressed!!

it has not affected my self esteem but just opened my eyes to tell me..i have to...

STEP MY GAME UP ITS TIME TO BACK CONTROL OF MY LIFE & HEALTH!

I did it b 4 and I will do it again..by any means necessary!

so toady was day 1 I prepared some meals got some fruit sO I will always have something with me..back to drinking water only crystal light if I want flavor...no more fried food no more of anything unhealthy

Im planning a trip next year for my 36 birthday to jamaica and I won't be this size.....

I love me no matter what size just not as happy with me...i won't allow the dr or devil to put me in the spirit of depression or being unhappy

I have the blood of JESUS ON ME I AM 1 of his!

most people would be sad if the dr told them they were at there heaviest weight ever that includes during before after pregnancy...but I have God ...things happen for a reason...i believe this time when I get back to where I was I will appreciate it more!

I am Gods child and I will do this....pray with me and for me!

  
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SMSFUN45 9/2/2010 6:41PM

    God richly bless you. Small steps I will lose 10% of my weight. God is your source! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MSSTEPH16 8/31/2010 11:15PM

    Good luck on your journey. Reading your post was all the things that I say to myself. I knew about the weight gain and the doctor told me something similar. I am planning a trip to San Juan for my 36th birthday and my goal is to loose about 30lbs by then. So again good luck and we can do it.

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PRAYDANCRUNLOVE 8/31/2010 7:08PM

    Do you, girl! Welcome back to the fight.... emoticon, and we're right beside you, cheering you on, praying your strength, celebrating your victories.
Be strong. God is on your side.

Grace and peace,
Chelle

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JOH04071 8/31/2010 6:20PM

    I love your attitude. Good Luck!

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TRAINER_T 8/31/2010 5:13PM

    emoticonLittle steps of change end up being big results!
Do one thing everyday and you will succeed emoticon

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MAGGIEX3UK 8/31/2010 4:52PM

    you can do this girl! With the God that we serve all things are possible. He makes ALL THINGS new. I have a song you should listen to its called "Moving Forward" by Isreal Houghton, tell me what you think of this. emoticon

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GOSPELCLOWN 8/31/2010 3:57PM

    Let's start that healthy journey again. One day at a time with good choices and a great attitude. (You already have that.)

Thanks for blogging and sharing... God bless your efforts.

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LOSETHEWTIN08 8/31/2010 3:38PM

    That's the spirit! No need to beat yourself up. Make your action plan then put into action. You can and will do it. emoticon

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SOOKIE 8/31/2010 3:34PM

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40PLUSANDFIT 8/31/2010 3:33PM

    Girl, I am doing THIS again so I know you can.

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CBARRETT10 8/31/2010 3:28PM

  Philippians 4:13 "I can do all things through Christ".
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LITTLE_QUEEN 8/31/2010 3:16PM

    You can fix this and sounds like you are motivated and have a plan, to lose weight it has to be in your mind set, not a wish, but truly in your mind that you need to do it for yourself. Good Luck

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GODZDESIGN95 8/31/2010 2:59PM

    prayer you have...I lost a dear friend here on spark too. I had to turn it over to Jesus or I would have stopped and I know my dear friends would not want that for me. Lets just keep going one day at a time.

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BABY_GIRL69 8/31/2010 2:37PM

    Well since its been confirmed, you are already logged on. So all you have to do is press "play." Its fun, just start out small & you will reap BIG in the long run!

God bless & let's do it!

Dee

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SPARKLE1908 8/31/2010 2:30PM

    Amen!!!!!!!!

You can definitely do this!!!!!!!!

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MRSHARDEE 8/31/2010 1:39PM

  We are rooting for ya! emoticon

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BIGDAD1211 8/31/2010 1:25PM

    And If God is for us, who can stand against us?! You can do this my friend! I know you can! And if there is anything I can do to help, you know where I am!
God bless you! You will do this In Jesus Name!
Greg
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ROBIGG 8/31/2010 1:17PM

    Girl, you will do this! I believe in you! emoticon

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untitled!!!

Tuesday, August 17, 2010

Hey family

it has been minute i have been here but not as active as i have been!!!

this has been an interesting journey and i thank God for my family here and for all of those who have prayed, left me mssges, and just thank you for being a part of my life!!!

i want to especially let my spark BFF TOY BURTON KNO "YUR SIMPLY THE BEST"
we have talked about so much and helped me open my eyes to alot things and i appreciate it!

doing things the way we want instead of doing things Gods way will make life HELL!

in the past couple of weeks God has revealed to me who is fo me and who was in my life to use me and im glad he has REMOVED them.. im not regreting it nor am i looking back!!! things happen i our lives for reasons and i have learned not to question what God has allowed to happen in my life. just learn from it!!!

it amazes me how you can have a wonderful relationship with people you have never met face to face!

i just wanted my family to know i am back and i wont allow the devil to stop me!

peace and blessing

  
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ROCKINFOX 8/18/2010 1:58PM

    Great to see you back and going strong!! You can do this!!

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AICANDYDAGURU 8/18/2010 1:49PM

    Beautiful! Welcome back! emoticon emoticon

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MOCACHOC 8/17/2010 1:51PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonBack. Know that you've been missed. Just wipe the dust off your feet and keep pressin on. Just know that everyone can't have front row seat in your life. I like to save that ONE for Jesus. Boy, when he starts revealing stuff its hurtful, painful and most of all truthful.

Be encouraged and know that you are loved hear, no matter what.

Peace and Love

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KINGDOMHEIR 8/17/2010 12:57PM

    Amen and ditto to LSCHULER72 & TABIKATZZ comments... God has just helped me to clean my house (both my spiritual & literal)- LOL -- have a better outlook on the future. Here's to great peace on your journey as well. Blessings...

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LSCHULER72 8/17/2010 11:18AM

    Good to have you back! Your enthusiasm is contagious :)

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TABIKATZZ 8/17/2010 10:15AM

    Great to see you back. Sometimes God has to step in and clean house for us! Just keep hanging in there. It is all worth it!

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HOW COULD YOU???

Monday, April 26, 2010

i should be used to it and should have been on the look out for it coming because i knew it would only be a matter of time before he would show up and cause havoc in some way shape form or fashion!

it happens all the time not just to me but everyone!

He started out a couple of week ago with my daughter and i getting into a argument that resulted in us not speaking for a week but im not going to put the that entire situation on him some is her fault to because she is at the I THINK IM GROWN AGE OF 19!!!

Then the drama at the shop instead of being treated like adults and self employed independent contractors were being treated like we work in a commission salon and like we go to daycare!

What brings me to venting today is friday the transmission went out on my truck ...GREAT WHO THE HECK HAS MONEY FOR THAT AT THIS TIME?????? my daughter going to the prom my daughter missing school books that she has to either pay for or find or else she doesnt get her diploma the dress for the prom shoes purse etc......

my mom works at night and it's not very safe for her to catching the bus or subway at 11pm to get to work and if she did that would mean she would have to leave home at 730-800 to get to work on time!

my brother works the same hours but he is off on the weekends ....hold on to your seat when i tell you the rest of this....

My sons godmother said i could borrow her car but i was not able to get on saturday so i told my mom to call her oldest born child my brother who lives about 5mins from us driving 20mins from us walking so he is close NOT OUT OF HIS WAY!!!!!

ARE YOU READY FOR THIS B.S.?????

my mom called and he had the AUDACITY to tell the his mother who gave him life..carried him for 9mths...gives him money when he is broke....bought him food...SAT AT THE HOSPITAL WHEN YOU HAD TO HAVE A PACE MAKER IN FOR YOUR HEART...etc

my mom will /gives us everthing even though were grown my... mom is the best she has never i mean NEVER TURNED HER BACK ON US!!!

i was still at work so i called home to find out if he was taking her and she answered the phone CRYING!!!! YES CRYING!!!

SO YES I SHOULD HAVE KNOWN SINCE SHE WAS CRYING HE WASN'T GOING TO TAKE HER!

I WAS SO PISSED THAT IT GAVE ME A INSTANT HEADACE AND MADE ME CRY!!!

HOW DO YOU TREAT YOUR MOTHER LIKE THAT?

my client who i have become best friends with ended up taking my mother to work!

i found out later on from my kids what my brother said.. my mom didnt tell me because she knew i would go off and give him a good blessing out but HOW....

my brother told my mom "HE WAS NOT ABOUT TO BE A TAXI DRIVER"

it bought tears to my eyes that a total stranger can take your mom to work but you couldn't.....
you know your mom goes to work to have a roof over her head and her job has been acting crazy lately!

i could understand if you would have said mom I have plans but to tell her that!

I WAS PISSED!!!!

he has always been stupid selfish ignorant dum my list goes on.. he is not like me...my mom has done so much for me that i jump threw hola hoops for her but him!!!!

and im so tired of hearing thats how boys are and there different those are just EXCUSES!!!

he is that way because he wants to be thats just being selfish regardless of gender or age or who's relative it is!

i had to call my kids godmother to calm me down becuz i was going to walk to my brothers house and cut up those tires....YOU CANT TAKE YOUR MOTHER TO WORK YOU DON'T NEED TO GO ANYWHERE!

but her being the voice of reason brought me back to reality!

but my brother can call and always want someone to do something for him but you can't do anything for them and if he does do it he is going to complain and rush u!

what i do kno is yeah i will do what the bible says and pray for you but i don't have not a single word to say to him in my head I AM THE ONLY CHILD!

my sons godmother let me use her car someone not related to me but your own blood is some TRASH!

PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ANY COMMENTS TELLING ME I SHOULDNT FEEL THIS WAY OR ACT THIS WAY BECAUSE I ALREADY KNO THIS BUT WHEN IT COMES TO MY MOTHER my brother and i have nothing to be mad about or complain about!

my mother raised both of us worked 2 jobs my brother went to 12yrs of catholic school i did 6 years of catholic at the same time...my mom paid all the bills supported me while i had 2 kids in high school and to this day only makes 45,367 a year and has had the same job for 40 years....i have never seen or been exposed to any man my mom ever dated ..my mom never drank smoked anything...never cursed us..always encouraged us and you treat her like she is trash I DON'T PLAY THOSE GAMES!

I NEVER DID LIKE MY BROTHER i tolerated him....he was not a big brother that helped or spent time with his little sister like other big brothers i have gone for months not seeing or speaking to him but like i said i tolerate him!

I AM MY MOTHERS STRONGEST AND OLDEST CHILD NOT HIM!
MY mom was and is hard on me she always talks about her son this and her son that but i get the blues it pisses me off but i see thats how parents are! but i get things done!

I KNOW GOD HAS A BLESSING FOR ME AND I HAVE ASKED HIM TO HELP MY HEART ABOUT MY BROTHER but until then IM DONE WITH HIM!!!

the bible says that we help our enemies despite that they have wronged us but the bible also says don't BE A FOOL!!!

THANKS FOR READING!

PRAY FOR MY FAMILY!

THE DEVIL IS ALWAYS MINDING SOMEONE ELSE'S BUSINESS!!!

  
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HALLALUYAH 8/6/2010 4:14PM

    Yes the Devil does mind other people's business and everything else he can control...If we let him, BUT the thing is "HE HAS ABSOLUTLY NO AUTHORITY OVER YOU OR YOUR FAMILY...IN JESUS NAME"
So get away from this child of God Devil and go to the dry places where you belong, back off of her finance too, I bind you in the name of JESUS CHRIST of Nazareth, run...this lady will prosper in everything she does while she puts God first....God said that what is bound on earth is bound in HEAVEN and what is loosed on earth is loosed in Heaven...and you have been served notice enemy of God, so flee in JESUS NAME.
love Luyah

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ALLNTIME2009 5/3/2010 11:17PM

    Hey Lady!!!!

Now why in the world when I finally log back on to Sparkpeople, and come to your page do I find this!!!!!! But hey, to be honest, I know how you feel. All you can do is your part and pray that God handles the rest. Holla at me.

Reagan

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KROLES55 4/27/2010 2:16PM

    Praying for you today... So sorry that your brother is so ungrateful, perhaps one day he will grow and mature and realize what a precious mother he has. I am glad that you are there for your mom...

Stay strong

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MUSTANG0421 4/27/2010 6:43AM

    I'm glad you got that off of your chest! We all know that we can only control or change our own behaviors. Your brother sounds like a toxic person for you right now, distance yourself so that the poison doesn't affect you. I will pray for you and your Mom to be able to continue to tolerate your brother. I will pray that he will find value in his family's love. Be thankful for the angels God has placed in your life.

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ROCKINFOX 4/26/2010 5:07PM

    I'm sorry to hear about what you're going through with your brother. I'll be praying with you. emoticon

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COCOINAZ 4/26/2010 4:33PM

    You and your family are in my prayers. I have learned you can't change peoples ways. This is the person he has become, he is still family, you love him as family, but you don't have to like him. For people in my life like that, I tend to keep them at a distance and let them be them. Otherwise it'll be the next thing to get your upset. You and your mother will figure it out, and let her know that she can lean on you and you will come up with a solution together. He's going to need you or your mother soon, and when he does, karma is a ...well you know! Hang in there diva and don't give him the power to determine your joy.

Coressa

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NANC304 4/26/2010 3:29PM

    I'm sorry your brother is being so difficult. I'm not going to tell you to forgive him or anything like that. I don't plame you for being upset. I would be too. Remember that in the end he'll get what's coming to him.

I hope you feel better.

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WALKNLOVE 4/26/2010 3:10PM

    I know you are mad, but forgive him and move on.It's more for your benefit than it is for his.Trust me, he doesn't even know you are mad or that he did anything wrong.(Crazy,huh?)Let go & let God.Praying for you sister...and it sounds like you have a WONDERFUL mother.Plan a party for her on mother's day & bake her a cake,pick her flowers and write her a "love note" letting her know what a great Mom she is! She will appreciate the heartfelt gift from a very loving daughter!

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LOLOKIRK 4/26/2010 3:08PM

    The devil stays busy all the time. I will pray that you find peace and a resolution with your family situation. Thanx for sharing. Trust and believe some or all of your Spark Friends have gone thru similar situations.

Stay strong.

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JUICYBABY 4/26/2010 1:05PM

    I am praying for you. You know I am a text message away. . . Love you!!!

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WENDYSPARKS 4/26/2010 12:54PM

    I hope things work out for you and your family. I will pray for you.

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BIGDAD1211 4/26/2010 12:38PM

    I know I may be about to get beat up here emoticon, but you should continue to love your brother and keep praying for him. Ask God to work in his heart and to let him see that the love of Jesus is the only love we need. Jesus said that we should forgive those who wrong us 7 times 70! Don't let your brother's ways dictate how you treat folks. Let the Holy Spirit guide you in how to deal with him, but continue to love him. And continue to keep Mom lifted in prayer. God does provide for his children. Look how he sent an angel to make sure your Mom got to work.
I will be praying for your family my friend and for you. Remember how Jesus loved us even after all the things we did to Him. We can at least try to love those in our lives who drive us nuts! emoticon
In Jesus Name
Greg

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PRAYDANCRUNLOVE 4/26/2010 12:29PM

    Sista,
A vent is healthy. Now, utter a prayer, give it to God, and move ahead like the strong woman your mother raised you to be.
Grace and peace,
Chelle

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TAYLORLIV31 4/26/2010 12:20PM

    Girl, I feel you! What you and your Mom needsto do is to feed him with that long handled spoon. I went through something so similiar but it wound up killing my Mom. All the hard years that she worked and struggled and in the end, the main ones that brought her down were overwhelming when she died. It was almost as if they made more noise to make the rest of us appear to love her less.

I have come to realize that you cannot make sense out of crazyness. You can accept it or remove it from your life. Your children are learning how to be adults from the audience that it has on hand........don't continue the drama......get free of it and love, love, love that Mama of yours.......I sure wish mine was here......but I know she is here in spirit.

Keep on fight the good fight......and ditch the ones that God has to handle.....trust in due time.......God will answer that problem. emoticon emoticon

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TAMIA1575 4/26/2010 12:08PM

    I was going to go with the don't be a fool thing! Yes, we are to help our enemies, love our enemies...but at the same time girl... don't do for him. If he needs help in the form of someone to talk to or encourage him, then so be it. He needs money or something else...tell him you're sorry but you can't offer that type of help right now.

I don't know how you kept your cool, I would have been at his house pointing out all that your mom did and then asking him why he thinks he's so important that all must do for him but he can't do for anyone else?

Someone should let him know he's a selfish bad word...lol.

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KEYTA165 4/26/2010 11:55AM

    I feel you on the brother issue I REALLY FEEL you! I am going to pray with you that everything turns out for the good. Be Blessed! emoticon

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