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Saturday, August 31, 2013

Well here I am again. I am returning to Spark People. I never should have left. Life happens and I let things get in the way. It seems I've done that all my life, and now I find myself returning, not only to Spark People but also to my faith. I am looking forward to the exciting journey.


Trying to get past the pain

Saturday, January 02, 2010

Well it's a new year. There is not really anything new to me except I've moved 200 miles from home. I am trying to move past the pain of a 41 yr. marriage ending in divorce. I'm frightened at the thought of starting over, and wondering how I'm going to make ends meet. Right now, I'm working on a business plan for a catering business that caters to two-four people at a time in their home or whatever romantic place they choose. It's called Two You, With Love. My other choices were Party of Two and Table For Two. In the mean time I'm cleaning houses and taking care of my horses. I haven't ridden for awhile. They are both still spooky about their new home.
I've started back on my food and exercise plan and know that I will achieve my goals.
The hardest part is the loneliness. Especially at night. And I just have a hard time doing things and going places by myself. It is just awkward. I know that I will get through this, it's just I don't know when. Maybe it's like getting older one day you were 16 and then you turn around and you're 58 and you wonder when did THAT happen.

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WYOWILDDEE 1/4/2010 1:02PM

    Hey Little Buddy! Great names for the catering company and what an awesome idea. Wish you were closer it is such a cool idea! I even think it would make a great wedding gift. Things are going to get easier and then you will look back and think... heck, I made it and can't imagine why I thought it was rough... look how good I am doing now! I know you and I know you will succeed, you have the patience and perseverance, who else would have the time and fore thought to do the tea bag thing! Love you my dear friend.

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SABLE77 1/4/2010 6:43AM

    You can do it, stay strong and focus on the good things that are happening in your life now.
Try to go out by yourself, go to a movie, do something you like to do for yourself. It is going to be hard for a long time but you will overcome.
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LORIAPO 1/2/2010 10:25PM

    Hang in there.
It has to be quite overwheming after being married so long. I can only imagine.
Keep reaching out and keep working on your goals.
And have faith that God is looking out for you and he will meet all your needs.

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HTENIGMA 1/2/2010 9:03PM

    Take care of the business stuff and your critters, but remember to take care of YOU, too. And try very hard NOT to stay home just because you don't have someone to go with. If you are in a church situation, see if there's someone whose company you enjoy. Get involved in a volunteer capacity as you have time. Reach out, and keep yourself busy and active.

{hugs} I know this isn't an easy time, but you've already done the first, hard steps. Keep on keepin' on, and you'll have it. :)

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Trying to maintain

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

I've lost 32 lbs. and gained 6 of it back! So I know what I have to do. I am leaving for Hawaii this Saturday and I know that I can stay on track. We will be doing a lot of walking and lots of activities so I'll not be thinking about food. My daughter and her family are going with me to Hawaii. It would have been my 41st anniversary and I didn't want to be alone and cry, so we are going to have fun.
Since I left my husband, I have not kept up with SP or much of anything else. But now I'm starting to come out of hiding and I'm ready to continue with life. I will write more later.

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SABLE77 10/29/2009 11:08AM

    Have a great trip and enjoy yourself. You deserve it!

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Nothing is forever

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Well, my concerns about my husband going to Mexico were well founded, he went there with his lover. I filed for divorce . I've put up with his affairs for 15 yrs. and I just couldn't wait for God to fix him. I tried to wait. I'm tired, hurt and so alone. I just want to get some peace and have all this go away. How do you throw away 41 yrs.?
I guess there really isn't a place called Happily ever after.

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TDWANDD2MYK9 7/22/2009 3:28AM

    your not on your own. the first step is the hardest and it looks like you've taken that first important step. to-day is the first day of the rest of your life! chin up and have a good one! you will be happy again it may not be to-day but it could be to-morrow. Susie

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TDWANDD2MYK9 7/22/2009 3:26AM

    your not on your own. the first step is the hardest and it looks like you've taken that first important step. to-day is the first day of the rest of your life! chin up and have a good one! you will be happy again it may not be to-day but it could be to-morrow. Susie

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    I too agree. This is a hard journey you are about to embark on. Stay strong my friend and know you are not alone in all of this. Take care Debbie

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ANITABREAK2 7/22/2009 12:52AM

    I agree with SABLE77. It's going to get worse before it gets better. But it does get better. emoticon


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SABLE77 7/21/2009 10:47AM

    Hang in there girl!
Be strong and surround yourself with friends and family and your animals.

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What is wrong with me?

Thursday, July 02, 2009

I go along on fire, doing the food thing right, doing the exercise right, and then all of a sudden a quick turn in the trail and I'm on the ground. What is the matter with me? I've been really anxious about my husband leaving for Mexico for 2 weeks so I know that is a big part of it, but I'd love to know why I am so self distructive!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm NOT staying down, I am going to stay on the program I've outlined for myself and I AM GOING TO REACH MY GOAL. I"m done being a victim to my weight.
Thanks all for letting me vent.

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SABLE77 7/3/2009 7:49AM

    Hang in there!

Its hard to keep on track all the time, try not to feel guilty when you hit a roadblock. Life will throws road apples at you so when you get hit with a wet one just shake it off and keep going :)
I tend to clean house and get crabby with the family when the stress levels hit me as well as checking out the fridge for comfort food.
I am really trying to reach for healthy snacks that are sweet to help with the cravings. I have tried the low calorie snack bars that are 100 calories each and eat them slowly and that seems to help.
You can do it!

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