Monday, January 28, 2008
I haven't been able to get online as much lately. I used to have more time from work to check in when things were slow, but we hired some new folks and I'm training them while keeping everything else moving. Then my home computer died! we're still working on fixing that. Anyway, just wanted to let everyone know I'm still going strong and getting my water, fruits and veggies! hope to be a regular again soon. :)
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
I have anxiety (specifically, OCD) and I go to therapy for it. I've been thinking about something my therapist told me. It was when we were discussing all the negative thoughts I have about myself. I'm sure I'm not the only one with this problem.
She told me I should try to be a better mother to my inner child, instead of trying to be some sort of drillmaster toward myself. In other words, stop being so hard on yourself and have some understanding!
This has helped me a lot with self-image, and still is. Where I used to think: "Gods, I'm such a FAILURE, I can't even do X, Y and Z," I now take a different tactic. I say "Poor thing, you're tired and don't feel like doing that. Why don't you read for a half hour and chill, then you can do one thing on the list, and at least that gets somewhere! Then you'll feel better and we can try the next task." The key is being positive with yourself.
Now, I'm doing the same thing with my nutrition and exercise. No more BIG FAILURE lights flashing in my head are allowed! Instead, I lovingly pack myself healthy lunches and snacks. I added weights back to my routine this week, and scheduled three workouts instead of two, just in case I didn't feel like it one of the first days...now I have a backup day. I say to myself, "You can have that brownie after you've eaten your vegetables."
I don't feel so deprived or stressed over things. This is a HUGE step forward. By turning negative self-talk into positive inspiration, I really think I can do this long-term!
Monday, January 14, 2008
So, I learned something really important about myself: I can't focus on weightloss. I beat myself up too much, and/or get too happy over a loss and lose control or "reward" myself by overeating. I feel too restricted, too, and deprived.
I stopped tracking and decided my ONLY goals for the new year were the following three:
1) Five servings of fruits and veggies per day, at least
2) 8 cups of water per day, at least
3) 20 minutes of exercise per day, at least
Since then, I made all three goals five out of seven days last week. AND I lost 2 lbs. I didn't count much of anything aside from making sure I ate and drank my healthy stuff, and guess what? It filled me up, and I felt so good about eating right, I didn't crave sugar or fatty stuff.
So, I feel like I'm finally "getting it." I'm not rewarding weight loss, either. I'm giving myself money to spend on fun stuff for every day I meet those three goals. The weight loss WILL happen, but that shouldn't be my goal. My goal should be more long-term than that.
Thursday, December 27, 2007
So, my plans to get back on the wagon earlier this month didn't go so well. I went out of town and before I went, I made goodies for everyone including me. Then I ate out of town. Then I ate when I came back. I finally weighed in yesterday and WOOO....ten-pound gain.
But I like new beginnings. It's almost January. I need to stop focusing on the poundage and start focusing on consistent, nutritionally balanced eating and healthy exercise. I'm going to start rewarding myself based on days rather than pounds.
Back on the wagon...
Wednesday, December 12, 2007
There is food EVERYWHERE. My office has tins of cookies and chips and popcorn and stuff all over the place and more keeps coming. I have to bake this week, too, since I'm taking treats to my extended family for x-mas. Time to get my portion control in gear! All this bad eating has made me lazy, too.
I did walk the past two days, and tonight I'm going to get some more activity in. I need to do what I can to maintain and get activity until my traveling is over (Monday) and then get back with the program. I feel really bad for blowing it this far...but I'm only going to feel worse if I don't keep trying!
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