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Example of emotional eating!

Thursday, March 03, 2011

so i had a bad day. well bad week rather, i have some family stuff going on with my mother whom is a drug addict. ( I'm sorry if this is too much to be talking about on here but i think i just have to get it out)...
the story
my grandma raised my little sister and i because our mother is a drug addict she has been in and out of our lives our whole lives.. (more out then in).. she mostly lived in prison. she had been out for about the last two years living with my grandmother she relapsed a couple times in that time frame. well over the weekend she stole my unhealthy grandmas car and took it to some crack house and got it stuck so we (my husband, sister and i) drove out of town to get it unstuck and back home to my grandmother and well we left her there and sadly that's were shed rather be... as a mother today i can never understand where she was coming from i would never leave my kids. my whole life revolves around them..so to everyone else i try so hard to pretend that her actions dont bother me anymore, i mean why should they I've only been going through this my whole life you would think that i would be used to this.. so i put on a "its her life why should i care front" but deep down it hurts just as bad is it did when i was a littler girl. just so everyone that's reads this knows I'm not looking for sympathy i just needed to get this out and move on so i can get over it and its really hard for me to express myself and open up to people but writing it on here doesn't seem as scary for me...

so I've been over eating this past few days for emotional reasons and i want so bad to get past this because this has alot of reasons that i am the way i am now so i was hoping that if i get it out i will feel better and stop hurting myself.. i weighed in today and instantly got depressed i worked soo hard last week and messed it all up over the weekend i had not lost even a pound so i was thinking that i might try one of those low carb diets for a while. when really i just need to learn how to cope with emotional stuff and just keep doing what I'm doing and i know i will reach my goals for the long term!

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SPACEYKP 3/4/2011 11:08AM

    First off, you should be proud that you are brave enough to open up and share your story. Writing, either publicly or privately, can be a great way to get your emotions out and clear your head so you can make the right choices for you and your family. My husband went through a similar childhood with his dad and ended up being close to and mostly being raised by his grandpa. It makes me proud to know that he didn't choose to follow his dad's example. And it makes me proud to see that you are doing the same thing. Even though you don't understand why your mom did what she did, you're choosing to use it as motivation to give your children a life and a mother that they deserve to have.

Sometimes when I feel like emotional eating might take over, I try to get out and go for a short walk. I take the time to think about what is going on so I can work through the emotions instead of eating them. And it helps me out. As for the low-carb diet, I've tried those. I did Atkins for two whole weeks. I lost 7 pounds, but I dearly missed bread so I gave up on it. If you think you can really stick to a low-carb plan for the long term, then it might be good to try it. On the flip side of that, carbs are really good mood enhancers. So not eating enough could make your emotional eating worse. Instead of doing the real low-carb diets, maybe try just cutting a serving or two of grain-type carbs out of your day. You'll still want some whole grains, but avoid refined carbs and white carbs and eat more good carbs from fruit. Citrus fruits and vitamin C supplements can really help you deal with stress and improve your mood too.

Just remember to keep moving forward and one day you'll get to your goals!

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is it wrong??

Monday, February 28, 2011

okay so when i grocery shop i buy healthy foods lean meats, veggies, and fruit for snacks. if there is junk in the house I'm going to be more tempted to eat unhealthy and all i want to do is stay on track..
so my husband is already skinny as can be and he loves junk food, but since I've got serious about losing weight i dont buy it or even want it in the house... so i guess I'm asking is it wrong to not have those kinds of foods in the house for others?? i dont want to be selfish just healthy..

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EDITOR 2/28/2011 7:37AM

    Make hubby keep his junk food in his car. Out of your sight and free for him to munch. Gee, I think it's the least he can do and the best for you.

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SIMPLE-DIMPLES 2/28/2011 3:50AM

    I don't think it is wrong at all. I have nothing but healthy foods in my house. If guest come over and they are hungry I offer snacks like baked Lay's chips, Baked tortilla chips and salsa, or I offer to cook. There are recipes I noticed here that are snack intended so try and make a few of those or offer a full meal. If people bring food say thank you and well take it the next day to work or your families. I've done that a lot LOL. Tell your family especially not to bring food over unless it is healthy and explain to them your version of healthy bc some people don't get it. Hope this helps. emoticon

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TIBURONA 2/28/2011 2:36AM

    Get your husband a lock box and you can forget that anything in it exists. There is temptation all around us everyday. The choices we make are our own and for our own health. There are things around my house that others eat and that I choose not to. I also have things I like that I treat myself with so my diet has some variety and spice. It is all about choices, IMHO and demanding a sterile diet for everyone else does not make me a fun person to be around (any zealot can get on other peoples nerves). So, I choose to strive for a happy medium. One person's junk is another's happy snack.

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PATTIBL 2/28/2011 1:54AM

    I think it is fair to only buy healthy foods. My husband supports me on my journey and understands the temptation that buying them causes. If he wants them, he may get them and have a bit at the office but my house is off limits. Even though your husband is thin, eating healthier is wise for people with or without a weight problem. It helps prevent future problems like high blood pressure and chlorestral that is not limited to overweight people.

Just my opinion but I say buy the good stuff!

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ELZLOVESCATS 2/28/2011 1:53AM

    I don't think it's wrong at all. I even asked my family to help me clear the junk food out of the house. I just explained to them almost exactly what you said. If it's in the house, I am going to eat it! After all the support I shower on them, I consider this a small sacrifice! They can eat junk food elsewhere if they like, just not at home please!

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feeling awesome!!

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

so i weighed in today and I'm finally back down to 178 it made me really happy to be out of the 180 again and this time its for good!! I've been working really hard and it payed off... now my next goal is to get to 170 by march23..

Just logging into sparkpeople everyday helps me alot, as soon as i wake up i log on and it motivates me to do the right things through out the day. So i just want to thank everyone for the support and taking this lifestyle change with me...
WE CAN DO IT emoticon

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GRAMMAP1 2/24/2011 12:27AM

    Good for you. I would feel awesome too, were I making that kind of progress. emoticon emoticon You are doing great!!

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weekends are so hard..

Saturday, February 19, 2011

Well today was a good day with the family. I do really well during the week but on the weekends i have a hard time with tracking and eating right i have kickboxing on saturdays and sundays but I'm kind of upset with myself for not making the right choices... today i had a sugar cookie at my mother n laws house 3pcs of pepperoni pizza then we went to the movies and i ate popcorn m&ms then we went to mcdonalds and i had a fish sandwich ugh yesterday we went out to apple bees and i ate light all day so i had steak off the under 550 cals menu but picked at my sons chicken fingers that he wasn't eating....
on the up side we got a kinect and i got the biggest loser which I'm going to start on monday and dance central soooo much fun and I'm still getting a work out
tomorrow is another day and i will do better!!

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MICHELE0008 2/20/2011 9:34AM

    Yeah sometimes it's hard to keep on track with all the unhealthy choices available! But you had successes...choosing the under 500 cal meal, your kickboxing classes and most of all looking forward to your future by getting the Biggest Loser for Kinect. So put the weekend behind you and concentrate on your victories to come! emoticon emoticon

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I can do this!

Monday, February 14, 2011

Hey all,
this is my first blog ever i just thought that if i started it will help me keep my goals in mind.
I've been on my weight loss journey since january 2010 starting at 208lbs. By may i was down 30lbs and it felt so good.. i was fallowing a weight watchers plan and did cardio kickboxing "which is awesome" weight watchers gets expensive. my reason for wanting this so bad was mostly for me. i want to be better, feel better and look better and i was also getting married that september.

I've struggled with my weight as long as i can remember and always had a poor self image not to mention no confidence. with planning my wedding, working full time and taking care of the family i fell back into bad habits "fast food" mostly. i started skipping kickboxing classes and so on. i managed to gain back about 4lbs. i can say i have made changes that stuck. i wasn't in it all the way but I'm still here and its time to make it happen.
i have always had a problem with finishing things that i start. I'm ready to take control of my life. i fell off a little but I'm not going to give up I'm going to keep going forward if i fall i will pick myself back up and keep going. i just know i can do this and so can you!

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SPADIVA77 2/14/2011 11:26AM

    I wish you all the best on your journey to a healthier you! You are not alone in your struggle to lose weight! Just know you can do it!!

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SEXYMAMA201 2/14/2011 11:07AM

    Keep at it !!!!!!!!!! you can do it :)

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CALGARYDAVE 2/14/2011 11:04AM

    Hang in there. You can do it!

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