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Here I go again!

Sunday, November 03, 2013

I just reread my previous blog entries. Haven't accomplished all that I set out to do. I did get a bit sidetracked... not in a totally bad way. I joined a new gym and signed up for twice a week sessions with a trainer in mid April. I had pretty much maxed out whatever improvement I was going to make in physical therapy. I was still having a lot of trouble walking very far, couldn't stand up straight, still weak. I knew that I had to move into some serious muscle building to have any hope of getting back to some semblance of normal physical movement. That is what I have been doing the last 6 months... and I have made huge progress. Walking better... I can stand up straight now... my endurance is better. In that process though, I regained about 30 pounds. A good amount of that may well be muscle gain, as I still wear the same clothes. It was something I really needed to do. The muscle loss from 2 years in a wheelchair was severe.

So.. now again... time to work on the diet aspects of health. It was a rather mixed last 6 months. I did well for awhile, then something would trigger me into a binge situation. I want to try again. I will admit failure only once I stop trying!

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CAROLISCIOUS 11/4/2013 1:18PM

    Take what you learned and build on it to do better!

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Back in the fray

Sunday, January 13, 2013

What a year 2012 was. Four major surgeries, the last one on Dec 11th. My focus over the last 3 months, in my absence from Spark, has been on 2 surgeries, healing, rehab. Rehab is going to be an ongoing process for the next year. My goal is to get stronger and be able to walk with any assistive device... who knows.. maybe I will end up stronger than ever. It is also time to get back focused on proper diet and get some more weight off.

I can't give up on being healthier. It is so easy to fall back on old patterns of behavior... ingrained emotional reactions that trigger food cravings and poor eating... nothing else really matters, if health isn't part of my future.

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SILENTDAISY 1/18/2013 12:46AM

    Welcome back! I'm glad you've gotten your surgeries over and done with and can start with the rehab process!

Your team is with you every step of the way! I'll be rooting for you as you go through the process. emoticon

I'm sure as the weight comes off it will also help with rehabilitation.

My mother fell off a ladder back in 2011 so I've seen how much of a process recovery can be. I really wish you the best on your road to recovery and hope that SP can help you get a step closer to your goals.

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Behavior and attitude changes

Friday, August 24, 2012

A couple things that are different this last week:

I am not constantly thinking about food. I can drive by food places and not even give it a glance!

When it is time to eat, I am making better choices.

I am not tolerating food that isn't "good'... by that I mean, I am not eating food that is cold or soggy or just yukky. You know what I mean.... those limp french fries that even ketchup can't help or that cold, dry hamburger... or half wilted lettuce in a salad. I refuse to use calories on something that tastes like crap! I deserve better! If I am going to eat french fries, they better be hot and crispy! And even then, I can eat maybe 10 fries and quit, being satisfied.... so....

I am doing pretty well stopping eating when I am satisfied, not stuffed. This has, in effect, cut my consumption almost in half... and that is a very good place to start.

When I do eat, I am savoring it more... taking more time enjoying each bite of something that is good.... putting the fork down in between bites.. that kind of thing. Just took me about 15 minutes to eat a fiber bar that I would down in less than a minute in the past. I chewed each bite until it basically disappeared in my mouth!

I missed my water aerobics and gym time yesterday because of a long dental appointment and I actually missed it! I adjusted my work schedule today so that I could make the 2pm open water therapy time so that I would have 2 workouts this week. I also did about 8 minutes of the Nu Step today. As I am still working on rehab from bilateral hip replacements, these are the exercises that I can do for now. But I am doing gym time almost every day... 9 out of the last 10 days!!

These are the behaviors/attitudes that I want to continue to foster and get entrenched into my psyche... pushing aside all those old attitudes and behaviors. A big challenge... over 50 years of the "old" programming to overcome, but it can be done.

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-CHERYL 8/24/2012 9:14PM

    Sounds like your doing great! I am totally aware of the food I'm eating and will actually spit stuff out (discreetly of course) because if it doesn't taste great, its just not worth the calories! My favorite habit is sometimes I won't eat something because its just to difficult to figure out the calories on it!


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BOMBSHELLY 8/24/2012 8:48PM

    How inspiring! Great for you. emoticon

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Day at the Dentist

Thursday, August 23, 2012

Spent 4 hours in the dentist chair this afternoon. Half my face is still numb and liquids run out the corner of my mouth... you know how that goes! Maybe just some oatmeal later this evening. Back to the gym tomorrow!


Monday, Monday... so good to me... :)

Monday, August 20, 2012

Today is the seventh day of a streak.... 7 days in a row going to the gym for the workout that I can do. And you know what??? IT FEELS GOOD! In June, when I started my physical therapy after having both hips replaced this Spring, I couldn't walk 100 feet with my walker. I was a crying, exhausted mess! I felt like I would never again be able to walk independently or even be able to walk far enough with my walker to be able to go to a store by myself. Having always been physically strong, this was a rude awakening to me. Over a year in a wheelchair had caused serious deconditioning and muscle mass loss. There were days that I was convinced that I would be better off dead than living the way I was.

I started an aquatic therapy program and it made all the difference in the world. I was able to do exercises in the pool that I would never be able to do on land. I started feeling stronger, little by little. August 1, I was doing well enough to start "maintenance" and an exercise program on my own, going to the same gym where I had my therapy. I am limited on what I can do but I am making progress. My hip abductor muscles (outside the thigh) got super weak so doing that machine and up to 4 sets of 15 reps at 60 pounds. Then I am doing the Nu Step machine which is a non weight bearing cardio machine (if you push yourself). I started at a level 5 with about 100 steps a minute for 8 minutes 3 weeks ago. Yesterday, I did level 6 at 125 steps a minute for 45 minutes without a break! That is some progress! YIPPEEE! Today I did level 6 at 140 steps/min for 20 minutes solid, then level 7 for 5 minutes at 110 steps/minute and then 5 minutes at level 6 at 120 steps/minute. Trying to push into the next level and get my heart a going, which level 7 does at this point. Was nice and sweaty at the end and felt tired but good.

I can walk further now, with my walker. I can stand without supporting my weight on the walker for longer periods of time.... still not quite all the way up straight but a little better than before.

Progress... and hope for more.... a good Monday!

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AATKIN01 8/20/2012 10:02PM

    way to go and push yourself. you are an inspiration and thanks for sharing! emoticon

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