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Starting isn't Easy to Do

Monday, November 24, 2014

This week has been a challenge, to say the least. I thought that not buying & eating garbage was a pretty modest goal to start with. I thought I was starting with a clean slate-- no junk in the house. I forgot about the pecan pies in the freezer.

For people without food issues a pie frozen solid in the freezer probably wouldn't have been an issue. I'm not those people. I have to consider these things and deal with it. It doesn't help to hate myself for not being one of those people.

Yesterday was grocery day. I got all the way through the store with a cart to be proud of. While I was waiting for D to finish his shopping I was tempted to wander another ten feet to the bakery, but resisted. D caught up with me & asked me if I'll get him some cake donuts while he picks out his bread. I caved.

I'm still disappointed I didn't speak up and remind D that I'm starting fresh (he honestly forgot). I'm disappointed in this rough start. I kept telling myself that I must not really want this or it would be an easier commitment. If I want this to work I need to stop all the negativity. I haven't given up.

The week ahead holds two big challenges Thanksgiving and my birthday. I'm not expecting deprivation or avoiding holiday foods altogether. That would be a setup for failure.

Good news, Thanksgiving is one of my grandmother's holidays. I tend to eat moderately around my ladylike grandmother.
My goal for Thanksgiving is to enjoy the family time with patience and bring no food home.

My mom is taking me out for my birthday. That could be complicated.
My goal for my birthday is a.) enjoy the day; b.) I will share meals with others (i.e. no binging alone); b.) anything left at the end of the day will be given away or discarded

I've not given up.

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

WALKINGITOFFNOW 11/26/2014 5:54AM

    It sounds like you have a good plan for your birthday. Enjoy yourself and the companionship of others. Every good step really does outweigh each stumble.

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TRYAGIN 11/24/2014 12:36PM

    You are off to a great start just working on cutting out junk food. emoticon

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GINGKO711 11/24/2014 12:31PM

    Don't beat yourself up over the past. One foot in front of the other!

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JOYFULME01 11/24/2014 12:25PM

  Don't give up! Every day is an opportunity to excel. Take things one day at a time and you will conquer this.

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In My Own Way

Monday, November 17, 2014

I keep trying to change my world all at once, doing everything I'm supposed to do and it doesn't work. A couple times I've tried changing one thing, but as soon as I stumble, it's written off as a fail and I give up. I'm going to try the small, less overwhelming approach again with some additional strategies. Maybe even some cognitive behavioral kung full thrown in. Last Wednesday I decided to stop buying the sugary snacks and desserts. The only exceptions are special occasions with family or friends. My hope is to head off the solitary binges and not feel overwhelmingly deprived at holiday dinners. Wednesday through Saturday I did very well, even with temptation all around. Sunday was a bad day. I was discouraged about life in general. Not only did I not achieve my goal, I downright binged. Today I'll be picking myself back up. It's not even a restart. It's recognizing that everyone has bad days, but it doesn't have to defeat me altogether. After I feel steady with this goal I'll add another baby step goal. For today I'm focused on not letting yesterday defeat me.

  
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RHOOK20047 11/18/2014 7:25AM

    Welcome to SparkPeople. We are all here for the same reason, no matter what our personal story is. We are here to help each other to get to that healthy point we want to be in our lives. It is not going to be easy, but it is attainable. I have found that changing things up is the way to start weight loss. Make small goals and they will lead to big successes. You have to make you #1 and tell yourself that you are worth it. If you don't take care of yourself you can't take care of anyone else. You can do it! We are here to help! Welcome and get active on this site. emoticon

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DWROBERGE 11/17/2014 11:28PM

    Keep focused for success.

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JACKIEWALKS4FUN 11/17/2014 10:58PM

    You have the right idea, you can do this. emoticon emoticon

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GEMINICHIK 11/17/2014 5:31PM

    Don't look back, only forward - best of luck!

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GEMINICHIK 11/17/2014 5:31PM

    Don't look back, only forward - best of luck!

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SPEEDY143 11/17/2014 3:19PM

    Fall down 6 times get up 7 emoticon Take it one day at a time... old sayings but makes so much sense... my favorite... Never Quit emoticon

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JOLIEN99 11/17/2014 12:10PM

  We all have bad days hun. I know it is hard not to just throw in the towel bc I have been there. Keep your head held high and say emoticon Good luck

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