Monday, May 17, 2010
My computer broke down and I didn't have Spark.
My husband was home and I couldn't workout in front of him.
The stress was enormous.
There wasn't enough time.
There wasn't enough good food...
My shins hurt....
None of it sounds acceptable, does it? I was at 189 last Tuesday. And gratned, I was in pain from running I know that I could've done it. I know I could've done more. I think that's what eats at me.
That and in 5 days, I have gained 5 pounds.
When it takes me a week to LOSE one freaking pound, I know better than to sabatoge myself...and I did.
No worries. It's another hurdle. It just means I need to work harder this week. I need to focus, believe, and commit!!
But, I AM glad to be back on Spark. It does help in the mornings to get on here and "listen" to what others feel, say and do. It is my mental motivation to go downstairs and push play. It is my mental motivation to put on my C25 shoes and run up hill....just to see if I can.
For that I thank you...
Which....now being at 194....I need to go downstairs and push play, then put on my shoes. I have ALOT of work to do to get back into the 189 mark. Ugh, to think... my goal WAS 187......now it's just getting back down..
Tuesday, April 27, 2010
I love the number 3. All 3 of my girls were born on a day ending in 3. My hubby's bday ends in 3. I had 3 dogs, 3 birds, and 3 fish at one time...just worked out that way.... It takes 3 months for society to feel affects of the financial world. Everything seems to happen in 3s....good things..bad things...wierd things....small things.
AND.... if you really want to get wierd about 3s. My birthday ends in 8. Makes me the odd ball, huh? Nope. Take my 8 and subtract the number of people in my family (5) and what's it end in? ....yup....the glue that holds this 3 family together.
And incidentally, but NOT concidentally, I am on Week 3. Week 3 of my plateu breakthrough and repeating week 3 of C25.
I have lost 3 pounds so far....a pound a week. It'd be NICER if I could lose 3 pounds a week! But, I'm aiming for 2. I want to be around the 170s when I go camping for the 4th of July.
Oh Oh OH!!! I forgot to tell you. So, determined as I am NOT to fall back into my 2 week plateu, I ran into a speed bump. My husband on Sunday asked me to go for a walk with him. First of all......that's the 3rd time he's gone on a walk with me (there's that 3 again!!) and that's CRAZY since he doesn't "do" exercise. It's been FABULOUS!!! We have these trails that go all around town and we talk and it's been nice. On this particular day it was warm and I slipped on my flip flops not thinking. .. not remembering that I am allergic to a) heat, b) sweat, and c) pressure.
sooooooo.....after half way through our walk I realized I had done something BAD. The flip flops (which are my first pair owned EVER in 40 years) that worked so well for me last year....TURNED on me!!! My feet began to rub against the rubber. The rubber already heating up from the ground below me was heating up my already iritated feet. Long story short...I walked on two blistered feet for the 2nd half of the 3mile trek.
NOW....not wanting to give up my plateu. MONDAY, I popped those bad boys, soaked them in epson salt, took about 1600 mg of Ibuprophen and attempted Week 3 of running. Needless to say, I reminded myself of Michael on the Biggest Loser running. It was the straight faced, stiff kind of run. The run that people look at you and grimace. Most of it was done via a not so brisk walk and I certainly never completed a round of 3 minutes. But, I stuck to my guns.
You can only even IMAGNE the earful I got when hubby found out. "moronic" I think was the phrase. He was absolutely right for sure, however, I really really really know myself and if I slack off for even ONE day...well, I'll be writing another day one blog.
and I can never be a runner if I do that.
Friday, April 23, 2010
Here it is: the two week mark.
I've tried to focus on my challenges, my weight, tracking my nutrition, but mainly.. I tried to focus on why I was losing my motivation.
I still haven't come up with that answer other than life keeps pushing at me.
I have taken my oldest to the Drs for a fat tumor in her shoulder. It's no big deal other than it causes a lot of pain from what I understand. Today is an MRI.
I'm required to water up 300 balloons for My Middle dauther's suprise birthday party for her friend. AND...as she is my awesome neat freak, I will scrub the house beyond any deep cleaning Friday day.
My youngest ended up in a full arm cast from a trampoline accident. I now understand why hubby doesn't want one in the backyard. She didn't break her arm, but rather bent the bone like a soda can.
All these "extras" seem to push in to my "me" time and THAT'S what I have noticed. Then I think: "I'll get to running before dark" only ...then, it's time for bed.
On a positive note: I DID manage to get my husband out after dinner for a full mile walk. He complained a bit, but I think secretly he kind of liked it. It felt good. It wasn't my run, but it felt good.
I got on the scale and it went UP 194.4 (last Tues)
I actually wasn't too bummed about it. The only reason I was at 190.9 was the 2 day fast I had completed....so I think it's pretty natural to have gained 4 pounds back. Other people complain about gaining one or two pounds....I gain 5-7 at a wack and LOSE 1-2 at a time. crazy, but I'm tellin you: Mutant Fat Cells!!!
I didn't put it on my tracker yet. I think I will keep pressing on and once I get BELOW the 190.9 is when I will track....What do you think? Like a goal of some sort.
well, I just wanted to say "hi" to everyone and let you know. Tuesday will be my 2nd week of this plateu breaking goal. I'm going to run today and maybe get in my Wii time. Monday begins the Slim in 6 series as I've found my DVDs under my oldest daughter's moving boxes. (kids)
Even though I didn't get in ALL my runs, I'm going to press on. That's the key isn't it? My brain keeps naggin at me that it's "not in the proper order and you must start over!!"....my brain is OCD while my body is not. Go figure!! LOL THAT's what I need to fix....
I soooo want to be one of those runners I see on these Spark Pages!
"love ya guys! Hope you have a funtabulous day"
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I am great out of the gate. I feel energized, my thought are focused. I'm ready to run. I know I can win! The gun fires and off I go.....
Everyone talks about the plateu weight. Well, I have a plateu time frame. I'm a go getter n not finish. I don't know why and I guess I never really noticed until now.
My plateu time frame I'm seeing is two weeks. Two weeks has been a joke in my house since "The Money Pit"* came out. I only realized recently that it was also how many marks were on my Slim in 6. How many "X"s on my C25, it was the number of times on the calandar everytime I had tried to quit smoking... about how long it takes me to start and finish ANY thing I set out to do.
When I came back from Washington, I resolved that I would break THIS particular plateu. I know if I can beat the "two weeeks" and in my mindrame, eating right, excercising and well....everything I do should just follow after that...right? I mean, I am at almost 9 months without a smoke. This should be an interesting theory to prove to myself. Maybe that's why my mind SEEMS so chaotic. I keep starting things and lose focus. Not even motivation, just focus. The very thing I tell my daughters to keep hold of dearly for their future. Sighs.
How to do this....how to do this. Finaggle time with goals. **looking around the room....lost in thought**
I know. a BIG arse calandar...somewhere where I have to see it daily. I will mark the Slim in 6 and the C25 on the calendar as an appointment. I have to keep appointments right? Then...weekly weigh ins just like the Biggest Loser. AND, I will blog this in a journal daily...it is supposed to help and goodness knows my mind needs all the help it can give for my body.
Hmmmmm....I think that's what I was supposed to be doing anyway....well, then..I guess it comes down to this.
Let's just break the plateu. Take it one day at a time and see if I can actually finish what I start.....no, don't SEE if I can finish what I start.
I'm GOING to finish what I start.
*The Money Pit
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