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Thursday, March 18, 2010

The two sides of my brain are fighting again. It goes a little something like this:

emoticon It's absolutely gorgeous outside!
emoticon I've gained weight.

emoticon My garden beds actually look pretty cool!
emoticon My shoulder hurts.

emoticon No one's here, I will work out today.
emoticon I'm sleepy and going back to bed....for DAYZ!

emoticon Maybe I'll make a cup of coffee and enjoy the new bench hubby made for a bit first.
emoticon I have too much crap to do.

emoticon Oh look! Tucker Man is enjoying the sun in my sun-flower bed...I'm planting Tuckers! tee hee!

emoticon Dumb dog...I worked my butt offf planting those seeds.

emoticon I'm kinda hungry and should eat something for breakfast, other than coffee.
emoticon Why? You'll gain another pound cuz ya can't poop! Take some ex-lax and lose four pounds woman!

It just goes on and on and on...

I was talking to hubby about my running progress and the insights I found out about breathing. The military way is to do 3:2 ratios. 3 steps breathe in, 2 steps breathe out. I was also very very very subtly hinting that we could use the medicine ball for his back. I got the " I really don't want you to run. Running is BAD for you. You CAN'T run and it's just really not a good idea. I'm asking you not to run. Just do cardio for your ass or something, but don't run."

I don't think I realized that even though I KNEW he wasn't supportive, that it meant anything to me. It truthfully kind of bummed me out. For a couple of days I even considered just dropping out of everything: Spark, C25, Slim in 6. One part of my brain told myself, "You ARE too old for this, maybe running IS bad for you, just be happy he sorta likes you the way you are and accept it." emoticon

But, I CAN'T accept it. It turns out I'M not happy with the way I am. I kept telling myself I was doing this for me, but I don't think I truly believed it until I felt alone. So, once again I have called "mulligan". I am putting together my iPod podcast. No more jacking the kid's mp3 player! I've got my own!! and after we come back from Washington I will resume the Slim in 6, diet, and C25. All in private. It will be my secret obsession. I do like running. It may be painful still, but I know in time my body will adjust. As of now, it's the calming of the mind I enjoy. It's almost a clarity of thoughts that resume when I run. I don't know if it's because it's just my "me" time, although the thought process doesn't work like that when I do Slim in 6. It's just, I don't know...a nice half hour. And, if all goes well I may even venture out and ask my daughter to drive me to San Francisco to do the Bay to Breakers in May. It's a 12K....huge by any standards....but, it's San Fran and people are known to walk it...I just may do it...to JUST DO IT. emoticon I don't know about that one yet. emoticon

Thanks for listening! emoticon
Sorry to bore you. emoticon

Going to a wedding in 9 days! emoticon
Give me my 3 points. emoticon

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MICHELLELEE150 4/14/2010 12:29AM

    Loved your blog. I "lol'd" at the "give me my 3 points" bit!

But good on you for not giving up. And if running is your "me" time, I totally get that. Take care of yourself while you do what you love, and rock on.

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CIARANFURNESS 3/19/2010 5:53AM

    Great blog! Have those thoughts myself sometimes! But you are doing so well, so keep it up - dont listen to your hubby - boys are stupid! :)

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CIARANFURNESS 3/19/2010 5:53AM

    Great blog! Have those thoughts myself sometimes! But you are doing so well, so keep it up - dont listen to your hubby - boys are stupid! :)

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LOREN009 3/18/2010 9:40PM

    Don't apologize in your blogs... if people are bored, they don't have to read it! I enjoy them.

Yay for LIKING running! I know what you mean on the mental benefits. It's my only non-guilty ME time.

If you hurt, make sure to take it easy, but keep doing what makes you happiest.

Have a great Friday!

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KIMMAS82 3/18/2010 9:34PM

    Hehehe!! Planting the dog. . . give me my points. . . HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

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TEACHEROF4TH 3/18/2010 8:37PM

    Loved your blog and the honesty of it all! Hang in there!

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SASXONTHEMOVE 3/18/2010 8:04PM

    Everybody has days like this.
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I'm glad that you are not stopping! It's hard, really hard when a close loved one isn't encouraging, and is even discouraging. But find out why? Is he worried about you getting injured? Is he insecure and knows that you are going to have a rockin' body and may just leave to find a man with a rockin' body to match yours? Is he just being a jerk?


Go to San Fransisco for that 12K in May. Do your Slim in 6, eat well, drink your water, run and walk and have FUN!!

Beautiful picture of your 'planting Tuckers' emoticon

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KACOPHANI 3/18/2010 6:49PM

    A small slice of light soy-based cheese. Now really, is it worth it?

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ANGELLYBELLY 3/18/2010 5:28PM

    Im curious if you are using a treadmill?
I find that walking (about 3.8mph) on an incline (about 7) keeps my heartrate up as high as if I was jogging at 5.3 mph pace, and it is less stressful on my body.

While I think it's a good idea to push yourself..I do not know what the "right" way to exercise if yo uare feeling actual "pain". You certainly don't want to injure yourself.
When my chiro said "dont' run" I stopped running. And when I got the green light to run again.. I took it slow.
The important thing is that you don't let the negative talk win out. and that you keep doing the good stuff til they form a healthy habit..til those healthy habits become a healthy lifestyle.
You can do this.
And if your husband isn't as supportive of your choices as you'd like..well you've got us :)))

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RHEADANIELLE 3/18/2010 5:22PM

    We all have them day girl, when you don't know if your are going or coming but the lord helps us to figure it out eventually, the only thing I know is that when we do the right thing for our bodies we end up feel better.

I whine alot most day, I don't know why I just do, maybe because I don't want to exercise and sometime feel like I have to, but as soon as I do it and it is over I feel much better.


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KEX820 3/18/2010 4:40PM

    My good and bad sides are fighting like that right now too. I've got a stick . . . Wanna lay down a beating? "Bad bad thoughts, I'll show you".

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YOOVIE 3/18/2010 4:17PM

    do it do it do it do it DO IT!!!!!!!!!! you totally can!!!!!!! It will make you so happy!

also- I lmao'd @ planting tuckers lol

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Warning! Mutant fat cells plot resistance!!

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

I think that title pretty much sums it up.

I went running yesterday. Well, what we newbies at C25 call running. I'm on Week 2 Day 1 which are 90 second joggin intervals. Six of them. I know, I counted. I couldn't do the full 90 seconds yet as I have discovered I can only hold my breath for about 80 seconds. Hence, breathing maybe something to review.

I don't know if ya'll saw the lovely bruise/knot on my upper thigh. As if that weren't enough to convince my family that Blind Batty still lurks beneath the RP infested eyeballs, but yesterday I came home with a twisted ankle. I have no idea how I did it and I really don't think it's "twisted" as much as "just pissed off". My husband looks at me trying not to limp and says: "you know, it may be more beneficial for your health to get a tummy tuck and liposuction..."


I don't know how he plans on me being a runner after that....maybe I'll be light enough to run was his sweet thought thinking? Yes, I will dis-illusion myself into that thinking :o) emoticon

AND....what of the mutant fat cells? How will I ever conquer them if I go in for lipo? That's not conquering them, really...that's more like, oh, a nuclear bomb on the body. I want to do this....I WILL DO THIS!!

I will eventually become a runner. A REAL runner that looks cute in shorts and runs in marathons. I try to envision a finish line when I jog and people cheering me on...."go Blind Batty...yeeeaaaaayyy"

I wonder if all runners hurt or if it's just me and my mutant fat cell ridden body. Does the pain ever go away? Like ever? Or is it a "it was all worth it at the finish line" like giving birth or something....I'll let you know when I find out. Right now...the pain is a part of my life..I can't envision lipo being less painful....you just get better drugs. Maybe that's what I need... emoticon

In the meantime, I will deal with the pain and ikky sweat. The hearing aids go out and I sweat baby sweat. Ankle was iced and ready for tomorrow's run. Today is AB ball, light yoga, Slim in 6 and some Wii. So, let me get the kids their snack, start dinner, another load of laundry and get to working my workout. I have a battle...the battle of the bulge (very cliche, I know!!)

done ramblin.....3 points please.

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HOPEFULHIPPO 3/10/2010 4:28PM

    awww thanks everyone! I just really have to working on breathing. LOL and Pink, if I ever find a doc who will understand our plight, I'll let you know!! **winks**

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 3/10/2010 3:11PM

    The pain will go away. Running is hard on the body, joints and muscles. Stick with it, the rewards are amazing.
Sorry about the ankle. RICE - Rest, Ice, Compress and Elevate.
Look forward to reading more about your C25K training!

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    You know what? I may not look good in shorts or run a marathon, but I consider myself a REAL runner! Anyone who gets out there and tries is a runner. So you know what? YOU, my dear, are a REAL runner! BTW one of my clients is legally blind and deaf as well, but she tandem bikes marathon lengths (or whatever the name is for cycling)! So you'll be out there running for longer distances in no time. I'm sure your husband wants to save you the pain and the challenge of training, but it's all so worth the effort in the end! :0) Keep up the AWESOME work!!!

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PINK_ME_UP 3/9/2010 8:31PM

    LOL now make sure you are sharing those drugs with me emoticon

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KAY-SUPREME 3/9/2010 6:34PM

    I was drunk and overly enthusiastic about giving someone a hug.. and I stepped wrong and fell off of a step in the kitchen down into the family room and twisted my knee horribly. Every time I run, I'm reminded of this, but I keep going.

So you have to keep going.

P.S. Don't hold your breath when you run.. it's bad news bears.

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In a lovely day of unsedentary moves....

Sunday, March 07, 2010

I really do not like yard work. I KNOW that's a negative start to a comment and what not, but for the past 24 years my husband talks me into yardwork and for the past 24 years I pretend I like it, but only cuz I have to. LOL

It's a running joke at my house that if we lived in a condo, we wouldn't have to do yardwork...and someday I will get my condo.

Some years, I really try. I know it can be a great bonding moment for us and I know how much he loves it. I'd rather be on the computer, in a good book, maybe even working out or running....

Now, I have convinced myself over the past few years that gardening can be theraputic...I mean, look how much he loves it. So, I joined the gardening team, picked out some flowers and veggies with him and the girls and we were going to do this! He builds the veggie boxes and I spent the day weeding and what not when 5 oclock came around and I say "time to clean up"

Kids disappear, Tom and I are putting things away. I am babbling as I put the planter boxes aside and fail to somehow see the green LARGE mower next to the green green grass......

That's just the start of it....I'm pretty sure I wouldn't own on of these in a condo. Hey, do you suppose you get like, extra fitness minutes for the earning of one of these?

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HOPEFULHIPPO 3/10/2010 7:15PM

    I really do try to enjoy it. And some days, I really DO enjoy it. But, I still think a condo would be more adventageous. LOL

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KIRSTEN 3/10/2010 6:44PM

    My dad used to say there are 2 kinds of people: ones who call it "gardening" and the others who call it "yard work"!

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HOPEFULHIPPO 3/8/2010 2:50AM

    Pink Me Up: This is on my upper thigh....I tried to crop it to where you didn't have to see my panties or "unmentionables" but there it is. You can see my sweats that I pulled down on the bottom if that helps...but basically upper right hand thigh. Ouw!!

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COLE771 3/7/2010 4:35PM

    I'm not big on yard work either. I like how it looks when I'm done, but I'd really rather be doing something (anything) else! Today, it's getting ready to rain, so I'm cleaning out cupboards - no complaints here! :)

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PINK_ME_UP 3/7/2010 4:30PM

    OUCH...where is that on your body?

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HOPEFULHIPPO 3/7/2010 4:22PM

    Isn't it though? I think I'm most "proud" of it because a) it was while doing yardwork and b) because I don't bruise. well, I thought I didn't. emoticon

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    Oh wow, lady, now that's a pretty bruise! ;0)

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My time....

Wednesday, March 03, 2010

Hubby began swing shift recently and I really didn't think it was going to affect anything. Until recently. I noticed that I had planned out all these workouts but for some reason seemed to not GET to them and I thought it was simply because I didn't have time. I would begin something and tell myself "yup, going to do that exercise......"

After a couple of days it hit me: I was avoiding spectators. With husband on swings that meant he was home in the morning. The girls get shuffled off to school and hubby gets up. Then when hubby goes to work, the oldest gets home. When she goes to work, the other two trail in and by that time, well, it's homework, dinner, and start over.

Finally on Monday I thought: This is not going to work. I just need to do this and make my own time. After all, I AM doing this for me, right?

Okay then!! On Monday, I ran the C25. That was easy enough as I just told the girls I was going for a run. Then, I came home and did the hard part. I ventured upstairs to restart my Slim in 6 program. I push play and begin. Kids came up and down the stairs, but I keep pressing on. Occasionally one of them giggles and I keep pressing on. The oldest daughter's boyfriend comes up, and although mortified, I keep going. He watches for a minute and says "yup, work those abs" before I say "bugger off". and finish with a cool down.

There, I did it. emoticon I had conquered my fear of working out "publically".

Yesterday was a bit harder. I was very sore and did get in some workouts, but not as much as I hoped so I made up for it today.....

Did the C25, shins immensely sore, but pressed on and came home to do Slim in 6. Kids cheered me on and then comes in the oldest's boyfriend...AND SHOWS ME A VIDEO OF ME WORKING OUT!!

At first, I was horrified. There I was....large and in charge doing those dreaded lunges. emoticon

Then I quickly thought about it.

That lady was scared, mortified even, of working out in front of people for this very reason; but she did it. That woman continues to work out even when people tell her it's silly or she's becoming too obsessed with it, or that it won't work. That woman is doing something for herself for the first time in a long time. and yes, although that woman was larger and perhaps even silly looking, she was DOING it. She was going through the physical and emotional barriers to emerge as a healthy person.

I just smiled at the video and asked for a copy.

That woman will remind me that it's okay to step up and say "I'm going to do this!"
I will NOT fail myself!! I will eventually look good, or at least better. If not, I will be healthy, strong, and proud. Traits not all can just inherit, but must work for. This woman will no longer be terrified, but rather, intensified! She will keep on!

This, after all, is MY time.

Thanks kids.

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HOPEFULHIPPO 3/6/2010 2:05AM

    You said it Phoody! LOL

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HERCULEA 3/4/2010 10:01PM

    This post is hilarious! That boyfriend is a stinker. It's hard to work out in front of people, especially teenagers. If you can maintain your focus (and your sense of humor) after that experience, there's nothing stopping you now!! emoticon

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LOREN009 3/4/2010 8:39PM

    I struggle to make myself do lunges even when no one is watching! You rock!

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HOPEFULHIPPO 3/4/2010 6:39PM

    IAJoeb, it turns out it wasn't the time...but the spectators....or rather fear of. :o)

It's amazing what "fear" puts you through. Not wanting pics taken, not exercising (because you aren't skinny enough to? LOL) Crazy. I guess it's true... a healthy lifestyle IS more mental than anything.

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MIAJOEB 3/4/2010 5:25PM

    Keep doing it! You know you could find the time.

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2010TRIATHLETE 3/4/2010 2:16PM

    emoticonYou keep on rocking!

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COLE771 3/4/2010 11:39AM

    That's awesome! Keep it up! I ran the track the other day and have some strong feelings about running in front of thin people. But like you said, I did it. I have to get past that stuff and then maybe someday, I['ll be one of the "thin ones"! :)

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PINETREEGIRL 3/4/2010 12:25AM

    Good for you!! That's the attitude that will get you power abs and strong long legs!

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WANDAC2013 3/4/2010 12:00AM

    You go, girl!!!!! emoticon

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SUNNYFICTION 3/3/2010 11:46PM

    Great blog! Take YOUR time and run with it (literally)! Good job, keep doing it!

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More for me than anything....

Thursday, February 25, 2010

The power of 90 days. Three monts, almost 13 weeks. Seems so short, yet sooo endless when doing something big such as weight loss.

I called in a mulligan. After being on hiatus for so many weeks I thought the only way to ease my scrambled mind was to simply start from scratch. I'm glad I did.

So, here goes:
I am back at W1 on the C25 program and I ran in my new shoes. The shoes did provide assistance on shin pains. They was still pressure and hints of pain on the shins, but didn't crumple me to the ground like before. I can live with that. While on my run, because I wasn't in pain, I could focus on my breathing. AND, while focusing on my breathing, I found....I could think. And I did. I ran and thought about my oldest daughter. Hoping she graduates. I thought about my husband and his moods: how he hates his job, hates California and keeps trying to hint to move (jobless or not)back to Washington and wondering if I should worry about his drinking....and that got me to thinking about how we lost our house in Washington and how much the girls love it here and sacrafices and my eye surgery and money and quitting school and ....

I didn't get any answers, but it felt nice to sort through the drama in my head. I didn't realize I was carrying around so much weight!! And not just on my body!! It was just a nice feeling of, well, clarity, I guess.

After coming home and digging through more of the chaotic confetti of the mind, I found my motivation poster. It's rather simple. It's a Chadwicks catalog with pretty knit dresses, simplicity & vogue patterns, and shoes.


I created my calandar and this is what it looks like:

M/W/F: C25- running first thing sets my tone. This will play nice in the California summertime.

Tues: AB Ball. I have a big medicine ball with a pretty intense AB routine.

Thurs: Prevention Walking DVE. I thought this was going to be easy. I should know better! She makes you sweat!!

Sat: Pilates (ABs)
Sun: Yoga with my Slim and Limber

Daily: Slim in 6 Series. This will play nicely as it seems to set the tone for the day. I want to do the ABs daily too, but we'll see.
**Wii fit maybe in the evenings.

Hmmmm, that's a lot. But, so far that's what I've got. As far as the diet, that was tricky. Do I go vegetarian? What one diet works better than another? I settled on a book called "The Fat Smash Diet". My oldest had originally picked it out, but reading it, it makes sense and as I have a huge issue with portion control, it was doable. It sounds flexible enough with a family of five...Also, it too was a 90 day program. Oh the power of 90!!


So there it is. All layed out nicely. Up on my wall, written on my calendar. My family thought I was becoming obsessed with this before? Ha! Wait until I do lose a few pounds and gain momentum. Maybe I will get so motivated, I become a coach! Eh, let's start off getting out of the gate. Focus Corinna, Focus!!

Oh, Chadwicks has the swimsuit (skirtini) I want. There's a contest/challenge in one of my teams. Gotta remember to download that. I'm going to go do that now.

Then my Wii...


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DAWNMARIE4825 2/26/2010 9:09AM

    I love running there is something about the "me" time you get while running. You don't have to talk to anyone and you can just zone out. Of course I run on a treadmill and that is way easier than outdoor running but I figure by the time summer rolls around out here I will be good to go. I will complete my first 5k sometime this summer. Keep up the good work sounds like you have everything in order and under control. I am finding it hard to fit so much exercising into my schedule but I manage to do the s in s everyday.

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LEZETTE125 2/26/2010 8:11AM

    i LOVE HOW you have planned everything all out.... that makes every thing work better......i can't wait till nice weather so i can begin jogging again... today my car was frozen shut and it is snowing out side no jogging for me.. keep up the great work and we all can do this... emoticon

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LOREN009 2/25/2010 9:03PM

    Wow your plan sounds great... really motivating! And if you have to take a day off, you've got plenty of other stuff scheduled, so it won't be a big deal.

Also - that dress is BEAUTIFUL.

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