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struggling, but will pass this 2 week barrier !!

Friday, April 23, 2010

Here it is: the two week mark.

I've tried to focus on my challenges, my weight, tracking my nutrition, but mainly.. I tried to focus on why I was losing my motivation.

I still haven't come up with that answer other than life keeps pushing at me.

I have taken my oldest to the Drs for a fat tumor in her shoulder. It's no big deal other than it causes a lot of pain from what I understand. Today is an MRI.

I'm required to water up 300 balloons for My Middle dauther's suprise birthday party for her friend. AND...as she is my awesome neat freak, I will scrub the house beyond any deep cleaning Friday day.

My youngest ended up in a full arm cast from a trampoline accident. I now understand why hubby doesn't want one in the backyard. She didn't break her arm, but rather bent the bone like a soda can.

All these "extras" seem to push in to my "me" time and THAT'S what I have noticed. Then I think: "I'll get to running before dark" only ...then, it's time for bed.

On a positive note: I DID manage to get my husband out after dinner for a full mile walk. He complained a bit, but I think secretly he kind of liked it. It felt good. It wasn't my run, but it felt good.

I got on the scale and it went UP emoticon 194.4 (last Tues)

I actually wasn't too bummed about it. The only reason I was at 190.9 was the 2 day fast I had completed....so I think it's pretty natural to have gained 4 pounds back. Other people complain about gaining one or two pounds....I gain 5-7 at a wack and LOSE 1-2 at a time. crazy, but I'm tellin you: Mutant Fat Cells!!!

I didn't put it on my tracker yet. I think I will keep pressing on and once I get BELOW the 190.9 is when I will track....What do you think? Like a goal of some sort.

well, I just wanted to say "hi" to everyone and let you know. Tuesday will be my 2nd week of this plateu breaking goal. I'm going to run today and maybe get in my Wii time. Monday begins the Slim in 6 series as I've found my DVDs under my oldest daughter's moving boxes. (kids)

Even though I didn't get in ALL my runs, I'm going to press on. That's the key isn't it? My brain keeps naggin at me that it's "not in the proper order and you must start over!!"....my brain is OCD while my body is not. emoticon Go figure!! LOL THAT's what I need to fix....

I soooo want to be one of those runners I see on these Spark Pages!

"love ya guys! Hope you have a funtabulous day" emoticon

  
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HOPEFULHIPPO 4/23/2010 4:40PM

    Hey, look at this. I got it from a Sparkfriend (Rainrun) and it seems to go perfectly with my blog...at least the part of the OCD mind and body NOT....LOL

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I don't know why it doesn't allow links...eh...copy and paste, I guess! emoticon

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SUNNYFICTION 4/23/2010 4:32PM

    Yeah, trampoline = BAD! My sister broke her leg on one and was in a cast from the top of her stomach down to her toes.

You've had a lot of stress lately! But you're doing well - you're persevering!
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ABKWELL 4/23/2010 4:15PM

    Keep up the good attitude! It's so hard to get time for yourself when kids and husbands always seem to have one crisis or another. I have to keep reminding myself not to self-medicate with food when the going gets tough. It'll get better, I hate plateaus too! emoticon

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JUSTME444 4/23/2010 3:43PM

    I love your blog - the mutant fat cells - that's what I have - gotta be the problem! I'll have to ask my dr to diagnois it with me - so I can have a name for it! LOL

I'm with you on not tracking yet - my scale shows me up like 4 pounds & I REFUSE to change my tracker - 'cause it CAN"T be! HA HA I'm just gonna wait til the scale figures out what its problem is & starts weighing me correctly again. emoticon

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The Plateu.....

Tuesday, April 13, 2010



I am great out of the gate. I feel energized, my thought are focused. I'm ready to run. I know I can win! The gun fires and off I go.....



Everyone talks about the plateu weight. Well, I have a plateu time frame. I'm a go getter n not finish. I don't know why and I guess I never really noticed until now.

My plateu time frame I'm seeing is two weeks. Two weeks has been a joke in my house since "The Money Pit"* came out. I only realized recently that it was also how many marks were on my Slim in 6. How many "X"s on my C25, it was the number of times on the calandar everytime I had tried to quit smoking... about how long it takes me to start and finish ANY thing I set out to do.

When I came back from Washington, I resolved that I would break THIS particular plateu. I know if I can beat the "two weeeks" and in my mindrame, eating right, excercising and well....everything I do should just follow after that...right? I mean, I am at almost 9 months without a smoke. This should be an interesting theory to prove to myself. Maybe that's why my mind SEEMS so chaotic. I keep starting things and lose focus. Not even motivation, just focus. The very thing I tell my daughters to keep hold of dearly for their future. Sighs.

Ugh.

How to do this....how to do this. Finaggle time with goals. **looking around the room....lost in thought**

I know. a BIG arse calandar...somewhere where I have to see it daily. I will mark the Slim in 6 and the C25 on the calendar as an appointment. I have to keep appointments right? Then...weekly weigh ins just like the Biggest Loser. AND, I will blog this in a journal daily...it is supposed to help and goodness knows my mind needs all the help it can give for my body.


emoticon Hmmmmm....I think that's what I was supposed to be doing anyway....well, then..I guess it comes down to this.

Let's just break the plateu. Take it one day at a time and see if I can actually finish what I start.....no, don't SEE if I can finish what I start.



I'm GOING to finish what I start.
Starting.....now.










*The Money Pit


  
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LEZETTE125 4/22/2010 11:01AM

    the alarm goes off every morning at 5 am and i am tempted to push snooze and some times i do some times i push snooze 2-3 times... ( but i have my alarm set 25 minutes early..) so by the time i get my lazy butt out of bed it is 5 am really.. i would rather stay in my warm comfy bed but i want to be healthy, fit, skinny more than i want to be comfy and fat...... you have to make a choice ever day and just do it... i have tried not doing it in the am and waiting till i got home from work and i loose ambition i need to just get it done with right away or i won't do it. you can do this quiting smoker was way harder to do and i did that 6 years ago and now you have done it .. it can be done... it will be done.... emoticon emoticon

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PINK_ME_UP 4/14/2010 9:07PM

    You can do it...and there are lots of people here to support you and encourage you when you think you can!

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YOOVIE 4/13/2010 1:37PM

    Dont think about it. Dont overplan it. Just stand up, walk forward, and do it, mindlessly.

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SUNNYFICTION 4/13/2010 1:29PM

    I think we've all been there - starting out perfectly and then just...pfft.
But you've got a plan of attack! Follow Nike's advice and just do it, lol. Good luck, my sweet sole sista!

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NEA704 4/13/2010 1:03PM

    It's totally possible!
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You've made it past those 2 weeks for not smoking (and way beyond! way to go!). You know you can do it for other things. Make one extensive goal at a time...keept to your Slim in 6 plan for at least 3 weeks...then really take yourself to task starting the next goal (C25K, weekly weigh-ins, whatever works!).

Everything is doable...put right there in front of your nose and you can't help but succeed!

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JM3019 4/13/2010 12:48PM

    I do the same exact thing. Such a great idea to continue to push yourself past the quitting point.

Good luck!

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Just smiling today...

Friday, March 26, 2010

I have done pretty horrible things to my body this week. I admit it, even my girls admit we ALL have been bad. No rhyme or reason, we were just "bad".

Upon discussing this over our Velveeta Mac n Cheese dinner last night, I was pleasantly surprised to hear a voice say; "we need to get back to healthy eating mom." Ok! I hadn't realized my family was enjoying the food placed before them. We discussed why and it's true, you just "feeel" better. On top of this, my youngest says "when we come back we have to run together, mom, now that we have our own iPods." I agreed when I heard the shocker....my OLDEST who HATES running. I mean with a deep dark purple passion pipes up, "you know, I've been doing better at running in PE....and now...well, I like it. So, when we come back, I'll run with you."

I fell out of my chair.

The support that I thought was non-existent was not only there, but apparently "inspring". ME?! Inspiring! LOL

Continuing our conversation I bring up "fine, but no more videos from that boyfriend of yours" She laughs and says "but, MOM....you were so DETERMINED to do those lunges and squats! It truly was the cutest thing EVER!!"

ok, I had to smile.

Then I got on the scale this morning for all my weigh ins...I knew for sure I had exploded and finally hit the 200 mark. I was finally ready to place my name under the Biggest Loser casting couch.

192.5

I lost a pound? really?

That just carried me through the rest of the week :o)

Hope you all have a big ol' smile of sunshine too!! emoticon emoticon



OH! as a sidenote. Forgot to post my assignment for myself on one of my challenges.
**Watch your portion control and practice evening out your calories for the day
**Coffee is a treat!
- Have 5 days that include intense cardio by April 1st.
- Choose 3 exercises that you want to get vastly better at by summertime and report them by April 1

Ok, I think .... no, I KNOW I can do this :o) emoticon

  
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TEACHEROF4TH 3/28/2010 2:24AM

    Good job on inspiring your family!

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PINK_ME_UP 3/27/2010 9:04PM

    That is awesome!!!! It's nice to be inspiring isn't it?
You CAN do this!!

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CORINA-MOMOF4 3/26/2010 7:59PM

    :) Thats great! My oldest also hates to run and I'm proud of her as she's started running recently too.

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1972ROSES 3/26/2010 2:51PM

    Great job. Way to make life healthier for your kids too. That is awesome and so rewarding to realize what a gift you are giving them.

KUDOS!

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CHRISGETTINGFIT 3/26/2010 2:44PM

    Wow, sounds like things are really looking up for you!!

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Can I have some cheese with this whine?

Thursday, March 18, 2010

The two sides of my brain are fighting again. It goes a little something like this:

emoticon It's absolutely gorgeous outside!
emoticon I've gained weight.

emoticon My garden beds actually look pretty cool!
emoticon My shoulder hurts.

emoticon No one's here, I will work out today.
emoticon I'm sleepy and going back to bed....for DAYZ!

emoticon Maybe I'll make a cup of coffee and enjoy the new bench hubby made for a bit first.
emoticon I have too much crap to do.

emoticon Oh look! Tucker Man is enjoying the sun in my sun-flower bed...I'm planting Tuckers! tee hee!



emoticon Dumb dog...I worked my butt offf planting those seeds.

emoticon I'm kinda hungry and should eat something for breakfast, other than coffee.
emoticon Why? You'll gain another pound cuz ya can't poop! Take some ex-lax and lose four pounds woman!

It just goes on and on and on...

I was talking to hubby about my running progress and the insights I found out about breathing. The military way is to do 3:2 ratios. 3 steps breathe in, 2 steps breathe out. I was also very very very subtly hinting that we could use the medicine ball for his back. I got the " I really don't want you to run. Running is BAD for you. You CAN'T run and it's just really not a good idea. I'm asking you not to run. Just do cardio for your ass or something, but don't run."

I don't think I realized that even though I KNEW he wasn't supportive, that it meant anything to me. It truthfully kind of bummed me out. For a couple of days I even considered just dropping out of everything: Spark, C25, Slim in 6. One part of my brain told myself, "You ARE too old for this, maybe running IS bad for you, just be happy he sorta likes you the way you are and accept it." emoticon

But, I CAN'T accept it. It turns out I'M not happy with the way I am. I kept telling myself I was doing this for me, but I don't think I truly believed it until I felt alone. So, once again I have called "mulligan". I am putting together my iPod podcast. No more jacking the kid's mp3 player! I've got my own!! and after we come back from Washington I will resume the Slim in 6, diet, and C25. All in private. It will be my secret obsession. I do like running. It may be painful still, but I know in time my body will adjust. As of now, it's the calming of the mind I enjoy. It's almost a clarity of thoughts that resume when I run. I don't know if it's because it's just my "me" time, although the thought process doesn't work like that when I do Slim in 6. It's just, I don't know...a nice half hour. And, if all goes well I may even venture out and ask my daughter to drive me to San Francisco to do the Bay to Breakers in May. It's a 12K....huge by any standards....but, it's San Fran and people are known to walk it...I just may do it...to JUST DO IT. emoticon I don't know about that one yet. emoticon

Thanks for listening! emoticon
Sorry to bore you. emoticon

Going to a wedding in 9 days! emoticon
Give me my 3 points. emoticon

  
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MICHELLELEE150 4/14/2010 12:29AM

    Loved your blog. I "lol'd" at the "give me my 3 points" bit!

But good on you for not giving up. And if running is your "me" time, I totally get that. Take care of yourself while you do what you love, and rock on.

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CIARANFURNESS 3/19/2010 5:53AM

    Great blog! Have those thoughts myself sometimes! But you are doing so well, so keep it up - dont listen to your hubby - boys are stupid! :)

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CIARANFURNESS 3/19/2010 5:53AM

    Great blog! Have those thoughts myself sometimes! But you are doing so well, so keep it up - dont listen to your hubby - boys are stupid! :)

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LOREN009 3/18/2010 9:40PM

    Don't apologize in your blogs... if people are bored, they don't have to read it! I enjoy them.

Yay for LIKING running! I know what you mean on the mental benefits. It's my only non-guilty ME time.

If you hurt, make sure to take it easy, but keep doing what makes you happiest.

Have a great Friday!



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KIMMAS82 3/18/2010 9:34PM

    Hehehe!! Planting the dog. . . give me my points. . . HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!!

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TEACHEROF4TH 3/18/2010 8:37PM

    Loved your blog and the honesty of it all! Hang in there!

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SASXONTHEMOVE 3/18/2010 8:04PM

    Everybody has days like this.
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I'm glad that you are not stopping! It's hard, really hard when a close loved one isn't encouraging, and is even discouraging. But find out why? Is he worried about you getting injured? Is he insecure and knows that you are going to have a rockin' body and may just leave to find a man with a rockin' body to match yours? Is he just being a jerk?

But.......
DO.
I
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Go to San Fransisco for that 12K in May. Do your Slim in 6, eat well, drink your water, run and walk and have FUN!!

Beautiful picture of your 'planting Tuckers' emoticon

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KACOPHANI 3/18/2010 6:49PM

    A small slice of light soy-based cheese. Now really, is it worth it?

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ANGELLYBELLY 3/18/2010 5:28PM

    Im curious if you are using a treadmill?
I find that walking (about 3.8mph) on an incline (about 7) keeps my heartrate up as high as if I was jogging at 5.3 mph pace, and it is less stressful on my body.

While I think it's a good idea to push yourself..I do not know what the "right" way to exercise if yo uare feeling actual "pain". You certainly don't want to injure yourself.
When my chiro said "dont' run" I stopped running. And when I got the green light to run again.. I took it slow.
The important thing is that you don't let the negative talk win out. and that you keep doing the good stuff til they form a healthy habit..til those healthy habits become a healthy lifestyle.
You can do this.
And if your husband isn't as supportive of your choices as you'd like..well you've got us :)))

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RHEADANIELLE 3/18/2010 5:22PM

    We all have them day girl, when you don't know if your are going or coming but the lord helps us to figure it out eventually, the only thing I know is that when we do the right thing for our bodies we end up feel better.

I whine alot most day, I don't know why I just do, maybe because I don't want to exercise and sometime feel like I have to, but as soon as I do it and it is over I feel much better.

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KEX820 3/18/2010 4:40PM

    My good and bad sides are fighting like that right now too. I've got a stick . . . Wanna lay down a beating? "Bad bad thoughts, I'll show you".

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YOOVIE 3/18/2010 4:17PM

    do it do it do it do it DO IT!!!!!!!!!! you totally can!!!!!!! It will make you so happy!

also- I lmao'd @ planting tuckers lol

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Warning! Mutant fat cells plot resistance!!

Tuesday, March 09, 2010

I think that title pretty much sums it up.

I went running yesterday. Well, what we newbies at C25 call running. I'm on Week 2 Day 1 which are 90 second joggin intervals. Six of them. I know, I counted. I couldn't do the full 90 seconds yet as I have discovered I can only hold my breath for about 80 seconds. Hence, breathing maybe something to review.



I don't know if ya'll saw the lovely bruise/knot on my upper thigh. As if that weren't enough to convince my family that Blind Batty still lurks beneath the RP infested eyeballs, but yesterday I came home with a twisted ankle. I have no idea how I did it and I really don't think it's "twisted" as much as "just pissed off". My husband looks at me trying not to limp and says: "you know, it may be more beneficial for your health to get a tummy tuck and liposuction..."

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I don't know how he plans on me being a runner after that....maybe I'll be light enough to run was his sweet thought thinking? Yes, I will dis-illusion myself into that thinking :o) emoticon

AND....what of the mutant fat cells? How will I ever conquer them if I go in for lipo? That's not conquering them, really...that's more like, oh, a nuclear bomb on the body. I want to do this....I WILL DO THIS!!

I will eventually become a runner. A REAL runner that looks cute in shorts and runs in marathons. I try to envision a finish line when I jog and people cheering me on...."go Blind Batty...yeeeaaaaayyy"



I wonder if all runners hurt or if it's just me and my mutant fat cell ridden body. Does the pain ever go away? Like ever? Or is it a "it was all worth it at the finish line" like giving birth or something....I'll let you know when I find out. Right now...the pain is a part of my life..I can't envision lipo being less painful....you just get better drugs. Maybe that's what I need... emoticon

In the meantime, I will deal with the pain and ikky sweat. The hearing aids go out and I sweat baby sweat. Ankle was iced and ready for tomorrow's run. Today is AB ball, light yoga, Slim in 6 and some Wii. So, let me get the kids their snack, start dinner, another load of laundry and get to working my workout. I have a battle...the battle of the bulge (very cliche, I know!!)

done ramblin.....3 points please.

  
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HOPEFULHIPPO 3/10/2010 4:28PM

    awww thanks everyone! I just really have to working on breathing. LOL and Pink, if I ever find a doc who will understand our plight, I'll let you know!! **winks**

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HEALTH-E-CLARE 3/10/2010 3:11PM

    The pain will go away. Running is hard on the body, joints and muscles. Stick with it, the rewards are amazing.
Sorry about the ankle. RICE - Rest, Ice, Compress and Elevate.
Look forward to reading more about your C25K training!

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TERRIFICLYFIT 3/9/2010 9:03PM

    You know what? I may not look good in shorts or run a marathon, but I consider myself a REAL runner! Anyone who gets out there and tries is a runner. So you know what? YOU, my dear, are a REAL runner! BTW one of my clients is legally blind and deaf as well, but she tandem bikes marathon lengths (or whatever the name is for cycling)! So you'll be out there running for longer distances in no time. I'm sure your husband wants to save you the pain and the challenge of training, but it's all so worth the effort in the end! :0) Keep up the AWESOME work!!!

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PINK_ME_UP 3/9/2010 8:31PM

    LOL now make sure you are sharing those drugs with me emoticon



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KAY-SUPREME 3/9/2010 6:34PM

    I was drunk and overly enthusiastic about giving someone a hug.. and I stepped wrong and fell off of a step in the kitchen down into the family room and twisted my knee horribly. Every time I run, I'm reminded of this, but I keep going.

So you have to keep going.

P.S. Don't hold your breath when you run.. it's bad news bears.

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