Friday, April 23, 2010
Here it is: the two week mark.
I've tried to focus on my challenges, my weight, tracking my nutrition, but mainly.. I tried to focus on why I was losing my motivation.
I still haven't come up with that answer other than life keeps pushing at me.
I have taken my oldest to the Drs for a fat tumor in her shoulder. It's no big deal other than it causes a lot of pain from what I understand. Today is an MRI.
I'm required to water up 300 balloons for My Middle dauther's suprise birthday party for her friend. AND...as she is my awesome neat freak, I will scrub the house beyond any deep cleaning Friday day.
My youngest ended up in a full arm cast from a trampoline accident. I now understand why hubby doesn't want one in the backyard. She didn't break her arm, but rather bent the bone like a soda can.
All these "extras" seem to push in to my "me" time and THAT'S what I have noticed. Then I think: "I'll get to running before dark" only ...then, it's time for bed.
On a positive note: I DID manage to get my husband out after dinner for a full mile walk. He complained a bit, but I think secretly he kind of liked it. It felt good. It wasn't my run, but it felt good.
I got on the scale and it went UP 194.4 (last Tues)
I actually wasn't too bummed about it. The only reason I was at 190.9 was the 2 day fast I had completed....so I think it's pretty natural to have gained 4 pounds back. Other people complain about gaining one or two pounds....I gain 5-7 at a wack and LOSE 1-2 at a time. crazy, but I'm tellin you: Mutant Fat Cells!!!
I didn't put it on my tracker yet. I think I will keep pressing on and once I get BELOW the 190.9 is when I will track....What do you think? Like a goal of some sort.
well, I just wanted to say "hi" to everyone and let you know. Tuesday will be my 2nd week of this plateu breaking goal. I'm going to run today and maybe get in my Wii time. Monday begins the Slim in 6 series as I've found my DVDs under my oldest daughter's moving boxes. (kids)
Even though I didn't get in ALL my runs, I'm going to press on. That's the key isn't it? My brain keeps naggin at me that it's "not in the proper order and you must start over!!"....my brain is OCD while my body is not. Go figure!! LOL THAT's what I need to fix....
I soooo want to be one of those runners I see on these Spark Pages!
"love ya guys! Hope you have a funtabulous day"
Tuesday, April 13, 2010
I am great out of the gate. I feel energized, my thought are focused. I'm ready to run. I know I can win! The gun fires and off I go.....
Everyone talks about the plateu weight. Well, I have a plateu time frame. I'm a go getter n not finish. I don't know why and I guess I never really noticed until now.
My plateu time frame I'm seeing is two weeks. Two weeks has been a joke in my house since "The Money Pit"* came out. I only realized recently that it was also how many marks were on my Slim in 6. How many "X"s on my C25, it was the number of times on the calandar everytime I had tried to quit smoking... about how long it takes me to start and finish ANY thing I set out to do.
When I came back from Washington, I resolved that I would break THIS particular plateu. I know if I can beat the "two weeeks" and in my mindrame, eating right, excercising and well....everything I do should just follow after that...right? I mean, I am at almost 9 months without a smoke. This should be an interesting theory to prove to myself. Maybe that's why my mind SEEMS so chaotic. I keep starting things and lose focus. Not even motivation, just focus. The very thing I tell my daughters to keep hold of dearly for their future. Sighs.
How to do this....how to do this. Finaggle time with goals. **looking around the room....lost in thought**
I know. a BIG arse calandar...somewhere where I have to see it daily. I will mark the Slim in 6 and the C25 on the calendar as an appointment. I have to keep appointments right? Then...weekly weigh ins just like the Biggest Loser. AND, I will blog this in a journal daily...it is supposed to help and goodness knows my mind needs all the help it can give for my body.
Hmmmmm....I think that's what I was supposed to be doing anyway....well, then..I guess it comes down to this.
Let's just break the plateu. Take it one day at a time and see if I can actually finish what I start.....no, don't SEE if I can finish what I start.
I'm GOING to finish what I start.
*The Money Pit
Friday, March 26, 2010
I have done pretty horrible things to my body this week. I admit it, even my girls admit we ALL have been bad. No rhyme or reason, we were just "bad".
Upon discussing this over our Velveeta Mac n Cheese dinner last night, I was pleasantly surprised to hear a voice say; "we need to get back to healthy eating mom." Ok! I hadn't realized my family was enjoying the food placed before them. We discussed why and it's true, you just "feeel" better. On top of this, my youngest says "when we come back we have to run together, mom, now that we have our own iPods." I agreed when I heard the shocker....my OLDEST who HATES running. I mean with a deep dark purple passion pipes up, "you know, I've been doing better at running in PE....and now...well, I like it. So, when we come back, I'll run with you."
I fell out of my chair.
The support that I thought was non-existent was not only there, but apparently "inspring". ME?! Inspiring! LOL
Continuing our conversation I bring up "fine, but no more videos from that boyfriend of yours" She laughs and says "but, MOM....you were so DETERMINED to do those lunges and squats! It truly was the cutest thing EVER!!"
ok, I had to smile.
Then I got on the scale this morning for all my weigh ins...I knew for sure I had exploded and finally hit the 200 mark. I was finally ready to place my name under the Biggest Loser casting couch.
I lost a pound? really?
That just carried me through the rest of the week :o)
Hope you all have a big ol' smile of sunshine too!!
OH! as a sidenote. Forgot to post my assignment for myself on one of my challenges.
**Watch your portion control and practice evening out your calories for the day
**Coffee is a treat!
- Have 5 days that include intense cardio by April 1st.
- Choose 3 exercises that you want to get vastly better at by summertime and report them by April 1
Ok, I think .... no, I KNOW I can do this :o)
Thursday, March 18, 2010
The two sides of my brain are fighting again. It goes a little something like this:
It's absolutely gorgeous outside!
I've gained weight.
My garden beds actually look pretty cool!
My shoulder hurts.
No one's here, I will work out today.
I'm sleepy and going back to bed....for DAYZ!
Maybe I'll make a cup of coffee and enjoy the new bench hubby made for a bit first.
I have too much crap to do.
Oh look! Tucker Man is enjoying the sun in my sun-flower bed...I'm planting Tuckers! tee hee!
Dumb dog...I worked my butt offf planting those seeds.
I'm kinda hungry and should eat something for breakfast, other than coffee.
Why? You'll gain another pound cuz ya can't poop! Take some ex-lax and lose four pounds woman!
It just goes on and on and on...
I was talking to hubby about my running progress and the insights I found out about breathing. The military way is to do 3:2 ratios. 3 steps breathe in, 2 steps breathe out. I was also very very very subtly hinting that we could use the medicine ball for his back. I got the " I really don't want you to run. Running is BAD for you. You CAN'T run and it's just really not a good idea. I'm asking you not to run. Just do cardio for your ass or something, but don't run."
I don't think I realized that even though I KNEW he wasn't supportive, that it meant anything to me. It truthfully kind of bummed me out. For a couple of days I even considered just dropping out of everything: Spark, C25, Slim in 6. One part of my brain told myself, "You ARE too old for this, maybe running IS bad for you, just be happy he sorta likes you the way you are and accept it."
But, I CAN'T accept it. It turns out I'M not happy with the way I am. I kept telling myself I was doing this for me, but I don't think I truly believed it until I felt alone. So, once again I have called "mulligan". I am putting together my iPod podcast. No more jacking the kid's mp3 player! I've got my own!! and after we come back from Washington I will resume the Slim in 6, diet, and C25. All in private. It will be my secret obsession. I do like running. It may be painful still, but I know in time my body will adjust. As of now, it's the calming of the mind I enjoy. It's almost a clarity of thoughts that resume when I run. I don't know if it's because it's just my "me" time, although the thought process doesn't work like that when I do Slim in 6. It's just, I don't know...a nice half hour. And, if all goes well I may even venture out and ask my daughter to drive me to San Francisco to do the Bay to Breakers in May. It's a 12K....huge by any standards....but, it's San Fran and people are known to walk it...I just may do it...to JUST DO IT. I don't know about that one yet.
Thanks for listening!
Sorry to bore you.
Going to a wedding in 9 days!
Give me my 3 points.
Tuesday, March 09, 2010
I think that title pretty much sums it up.
I went running yesterday. Well, what we newbies at C25 call running. I'm on Week 2 Day 1 which are 90 second joggin intervals. Six of them. I know, I counted. I couldn't do the full 90 seconds yet as I have discovered I can only hold my breath for about 80 seconds. Hence, breathing maybe something to review.
I don't know if ya'll saw the lovely bruise/knot on my upper thigh. As if that weren't enough to convince my family that Blind Batty still lurks beneath the RP infested eyeballs, but yesterday I came home with a twisted ankle. I have no idea how I did it and I really don't think it's "twisted" as much as "just pissed off". My husband looks at me trying not to limp and says: "you know, it may be more beneficial for your health to get a tummy tuck and liposuction..."
I don't know how he plans on me being a runner after that....maybe I'll be light enough to run was his sweet thought thinking? Yes, I will dis-illusion myself into that thinking :o)
AND....what of the mutant fat cells? How will I ever conquer them if I go in for lipo? That's not conquering them, really...that's more like, oh, a nuclear bomb on the body. I want to do this....I WILL DO THIS!!
I will eventually become a runner. A REAL runner that looks cute in shorts and runs in marathons. I try to envision a finish line when I jog and people cheering me on...."go Blind Batty...yeeeaaaaayyy"
I wonder if all runners hurt or if it's just me and my mutant fat cell ridden body. Does the pain ever go away? Like ever? Or is it a "it was all worth it at the finish line" like giving birth or something....I'll let you know when I find out. Right now...the pain is a part of my life..I can't envision lipo being less painful....you just get better drugs. Maybe that's what I need...
In the meantime, I will deal with the pain and ikky sweat. The hearing aids go out and I sweat baby sweat. Ankle was iced and ready for tomorrow's run. Today is AB ball, light yoga, Slim in 6 and some Wii. So, let me get the kids their snack, start dinner, another load of laundry and get to working my workout. I have a battle...the battle of the bulge (very cliche, I know!!)
done ramblin.....3 points please.
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