Wednesday, March 03, 2010
Hubby began swing shift recently and I really didn't think it was going to affect anything. Until recently. I noticed that I had planned out all these workouts but for some reason seemed to not GET to them and I thought it was simply because I didn't have time. I would begin something and tell myself "yup, going to do that exercise......"
After a couple of days it hit me: I was avoiding spectators. With husband on swings that meant he was home in the morning. The girls get shuffled off to school and hubby gets up. Then when hubby goes to work, the oldest gets home. When she goes to work, the other two trail in and by that time, well, it's homework, dinner, and start over.
Finally on Monday I thought: This is not going to work. I just need to do this and make my own time. After all, I AM doing this for me, right?
Okay then!! On Monday, I ran the C25. That was easy enough as I just told the girls I was going for a run. Then, I came home and did the hard part. I ventured upstairs to restart my Slim in 6 program. I push play and begin. Kids came up and down the stairs, but I keep pressing on. Occasionally one of them giggles and I keep pressing on. The oldest daughter's boyfriend comes up, and although mortified, I keep going. He watches for a minute and says "yup, work those abs" before I say "bugger off". and finish with a cool down.
There, I did it. I had conquered my fear of working out "publically".
Yesterday was a bit harder. I was very sore and did get in some workouts, but not as much as I hoped so I made up for it today.....
Did the C25, shins immensely sore, but pressed on and came home to do Slim in 6. Kids cheered me on and then comes in the oldest's boyfriend...AND SHOWS ME A VIDEO OF ME WORKING OUT!!
At first, I was horrified. There I was....large and in charge doing those dreaded lunges.
Then I quickly thought about it.
That lady was scared, mortified even, of working out in front of people for this very reason; but she did it. That woman continues to work out even when people tell her it's silly or she's becoming too obsessed with it, or that it won't work. That woman is doing something for herself for the first time in a long time. and yes, although that woman was larger and perhaps even silly looking, she was DOING it. She was going through the physical and emotional barriers to emerge as a healthy person.
I just smiled at the video and asked for a copy.
That woman will remind me that it's okay to step up and say "I'm going to do this!"
I will NOT fail myself!! I will eventually look good, or at least better. If not, I will be healthy, strong, and proud. Traits not all can just inherit, but must work for. This woman will no longer be terrified, but rather, intensified! She will keep on!
This, after all, is MY time.
Thursday, February 25, 2010
The power of 90 days. Three monts, almost 13 weeks. Seems so short, yet sooo endless when doing something big such as weight loss.
I called in a mulligan. After being on hiatus for so many weeks I thought the only way to ease my scrambled mind was to simply start from scratch. I'm glad I did.
So, here goes:
I am back at W1 on the C25 program and I ran in my new shoes. The shoes did provide assistance on shin pains. They was still pressure and hints of pain on the shins, but didn't crumple me to the ground like before. I can live with that. While on my run, because I wasn't in pain, I could focus on my breathing. AND, while focusing on my breathing, I found....I could think. And I did. I ran and thought about my oldest daughter. Hoping she graduates. I thought about my husband and his moods: how he hates his job, hates California and keeps trying to hint to move (jobless or not)back to Washington and wondering if I should worry about his drinking....and that got me to thinking about how we lost our house in Washington and how much the girls love it here and sacrafices and my eye surgery and money and quitting school and ....
I didn't get any answers, but it felt nice to sort through the drama in my head. I didn't realize I was carrying around so much weight!! And not just on my body!! It was just a nice feeling of, well, clarity, I guess.
After coming home and digging through more of the chaotic confetti of the mind, I found my motivation poster. It's rather simple. It's a Chadwicks catalog with pretty knit dresses, simplicity & vogue patterns, and shoes.
OH The SHOES!!
I created my calandar and this is what it looks like:
M/W/F: C25- running first thing sets my tone. This will play nice in the California summertime.
Tues: AB Ball. I have a big medicine ball with a pretty intense AB routine.
Thurs: Prevention Walking DVE. I thought this was going to be easy. I should know better! She makes you sweat!!
Sat: Pilates (ABs)
Sun: Yoga with my Slim and Limber
Daily: Slim in 6 Series. This will play nicely as it seems to set the tone for the day. I want to do the ABs daily too, but we'll see.
**Wii fit maybe in the evenings.
Hmmmm, that's a lot. But, so far that's what I've got. As far as the diet, that was tricky. Do I go vegetarian? What one diet works better than another? I settled on a book called "The Fat Smash Diet". My oldest had originally picked it out, but reading it, it makes sense and as I have a huge issue with portion control, it was doable. It sounds flexible enough with a family of five...Also, it too was a 90 day program. Oh the power of 90!!
So there it is. All layed out nicely. Up on my wall, written on my calendar. My family thought I was becoming obsessed with this before? Ha! Wait until I do lose a few pounds and gain momentum. Maybe I will get so motivated, I become a coach! Eh, let's start off getting out of the gate. Focus Corinna, Focus!!
Oh, Chadwicks has the swimsuit (skirtini) I want. There's a contest/challenge in one of my teams. Gotta remember to download that. I'm going to go do that now.
Then my Wii...
Friday, February 12, 2010
That's my brain. Colorful, wistful, but totally scattered everywhere.
I've been neglecting to do goals. I don't know why. Timing, I guess but that's also my new motivator. I have a wedding to attend in Vegas in July. Then there's camping with family I haven't seen in a year in July. July. That's the finish line and the goal weight of 135? timing says "nope. it ain't happening girlie."
With that I'd normally quit. I've done soooo bad the past few weeks and I'm really kicking myself in the tush. I know better! Every day I think "I'm gonna do this" and another passes in a blur.
Today, Friday the something something I say write my goals...baby step goals.
1. 2 pounds a week until July puts me at a respectable noticeable difference :o)
2. No soda! No Whiskey in the soda!! (that one is hard only cuz I LOVE the taste) Save it for Vegas baby!!
3. Get back to exercising! I'm so surprised that I've managed to keep the weight in the 180s (barely).
4. Motivation poster
5. make a fitness calendar. I have 20 fitness DVDs that I stare at and wonder which one to do. Put them on a calendar. It will add variety and organization.
Now that the hips have been taken care of and such, time to get to work. I've got a goal in mind. Two pounds. I can do that...The Bigglest Loser does 10 in a week and that's with 6-8 hours of workouts!! I can totally do 2 with an hour or more a day. Go girl go!!
Two pounds, come back tomorrow and push play again. Do it! You want it!!
Go make your motivation poster, hang it on the wall, eat your oatmeal, push play, run go....
Saturday, January 23, 2010
That's right. I said it. It's been such a crazy week and man, I actually look forward to working out tomorrow!! I was just advised to give my hips a rest and to check into new shoes. There was some concern that one leg is shorter than the other, but we may just have to look at a lift for that.
In the meantime, it just means this is going to be toughter, harder, and I must be more determined and WANT this. and I DO!!
Thus, Tomrrow....Burning it Up baby!! Yeah!!
Ms. Cori is back!!
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