Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Well, my computer is graciously allowing me to blog so hopefully I remember what it is I'm supposed to say.
It's been a little nuts around here. I've been doing some online schooling and that's been going well. I pat myself on the brain now for doing online this semester and I'll tell ya why.
I originally did it because hubby was due for a back surgery on February 13. We've been waiting quite some time for the VA to kick in and get hubby that surgery and at last we thought we had made progress. We thought. The doc changed his mind and sent us to someone else.
At least, that's our theory. He called us into Travis AFB to say "I can't get a hold of the other surgeon to help me so I'm sending you to Sacramento to a real doc. Thanks for playing!" Soooooo, trying to get the VA to pay for the referral and not have to get a NEW MRI and a NEW muscle junction test and a NEW... Just give the man his surgery! He's had a broken (literally) back for seven years! Fix it!!
AND, he's been stressing about the job situation. It finally made the news that his unit will be no longer. The date is set for his job to be gone by September, but he and his boss have been diligently working on assigning people to other bases or jobs as they come available. To say morale at the base is at an all time low is probably and understatement. I guess one guy had a Congressman come up, shake his hand and say "thanks for serving son I really appreciate it" and when the guy said "really sir? Then can you help us out by cutting your pay with ours so it doesn't hit as hard?" Well, you can imagine what the fellow did. Gave him a look and turned right on his heels.
This is why I personally am a firm believer in you can't vote for a Commander in Chief of the Military (aka President) when the person has never even served. It's like putting a McDonald's manager in charge of Microsoft. The ideas may be great, but unless you've been working there and know what you're doing, don't apply. It's why I voted McCain. He's served and I wish he would've run again (without Palin preferably)....Obama has not. I wonder if I could start a petition for that.
BUT....here's what's making ME nervous. Hubby and I just bought this house. Now, we probably could make it on his VA disability and unemployment and what I bring in and survive. But, he's looking at jobs in Washington or Travis AFB. I'm thnking to myself "why"? My thoughts are we need to take care of his back and heck maybe he can sort of retire for the next 2-4 years pending what he owes (we have separate accounts now......and I LOVE it) Maybe I could get a job to help out more while HE stays home. The middle one will have her license this summer...But to contemplate taking a job in Washington and living with his parents. I don't know.....I smell trouble all over that. I don't think it will happen, but I don't particularly care for the thought of it either.
My daughter had her 21st birthday. She had her friend from Chicago visit her. He seems nice. A little too "charming" but nice :) Let's put it this way, I can see WHY she's gaga over him and my heart aches a little for her. All you Mom's out there are nodding with understanding, I'm sure of it.
ANYWAY, we took her to the casino AT midnight with her two friends. We bought her her very first legal drink. As, like I said, we weren't feeling well she never even finished it. LOL BUT she did get to gamble a bit and won $70!! Happy Birthday to her!!
She was feeling better after a rough night of nausea. We have this weird thing. If we don't get a full 8 hours of sleep, we vomit. I know. weird, but there it is......it's always been that way and everyone thinks we're nuts but it's true and very consistent...if we're up late **puke** especially ESPECIALLY if there's any stress such as finals week or ya know, losing a job.....need I say more? LOL Anyone ever heard of this at all or is it just me and my girls that have this lucky thing? So, to say we are not much of party animals LOL I've just always had kind of a heart palpitation thing with slight queezie....but Panda, she just gets sick on little sleep.
So, with all that going on and with a cheer competition Every Single Weekend in February my Day 1 is back on. But, I don't feel "bummed" because I'm not being lazy or sedentary. On the contrary, I walk, I am always moving, I still try to watch what I'm eating.....even in Vegas. My weight is starting to fluctuate back down to 175 which is good cuz it was creeping right back up to the 180s fast.
OH and the cheer competitions: undefeated. AND my friend's daughter on the other side of the country has been doing cheer comps too. This is her first year so it was really REALLY cool to be texting each other from across the country, both of us watching our daughter's team take first.
Yes. A LOT of rambling. but, I'm all caught up and ya now know why my emotional roller coaster has left my blogs and statuses a little sporadic.
Oh, I downloaded My fitness Pal or something like that to my phone. All my friends and several Sparkies have been mentioning it so I thought what the heck....only it wants my Facebook info. Can I do it without FB because I NEVER want them to see what I am (or mainly NOT) doing. LOLOLOL
OH!! I almost forgot. Hubby bought me a daily calendar and I've been writing in it this past week on every hour what I'm doing. Now, I've looked at it and was able to determine if I had any wasted time (no) LOL but I did have mismanagement of some time. So this week I will be trying to schedule my calendar a little better with stickers and a menu. I even made an appt in there to do my run as soon as I drop off my kids at school and BEFORE my own homework (I had kept trying to prioritize wrong) Let's see how this week goes :o) I will make this work dang it.
And I'm starting to feel better from this sinus head cold thing. One full bottle of Robittusen in two days later.
ah yeah....that's all I can remember right now. I'm off to bed and I'll get back on here tomorrow after a quick run.
Wednesday, February 06, 2013
I haven't been stuck on day 1 so that's a good thing. I've been walking with hubby (as much as he can with his back) and trying to get my body's strength back up. Yesterday I was able to do the week 1 of C25. It wasn't so much the gasping for air this time, but rather calf cramping during the first half. I kept pushing though and completed it. I'm debating on continuing day 2 & 3 in a row since the girls and I leave for Vegas on Friday. I don't want to say "oh I'll do it there" because hellloooooooo it's VEGAS?! Talked myself into it. Week 1 day 2, in the fog...today.
My family has been strangely supportive lately. Yes, I used the word strangely. Although I'm not used to such things, and maybe there are ulterior motives to the support, it feels very nice. My Kate, who is my very tall ballerina, wants better arms. She has accepted the fact that our family produced very tall, very "big boned" women but still wants to look good and really, I can't argue that. We did the Biggest Loser workout together and even though I was gasping and begging Bob for a little mercy on the "low intensity" workout my daughter was not impressed. She's looking more for arm sculpting. So, I'll find some nice dumbbell routines for her arms. The youngest Nicole comes home from cheer and says "you want to workout with me?" and was not pleased when I told her I just worked out.
My husband even took the time to go in the bedroom to let me work out. That's right. The man gave up his living room tv set. But............................there's more.
I had been in kind of a kanundrum about self identity lately. See, you all know I just love color and the 80s. and I do. This is me:
**sears, I may to to buy this...**
**either woman actually....ruthless people**
**I wanted to be Madonna (1983) OR
**still awesome today**
However, some days I dream of being this:
**so clean, so classic**
**okay, who WOULDN'T love to look this way?**
We were shopping at Target the other day and I told him. "I was going to buy this purple purse because I just love it, but this black and white purse is the person I want to be: all classic and clean. So, I didn't buy either. What do you think?" He looked at me. I couldn't tell if he was exasperated or perplexed that I'd spring this dilemma on him. He immediately threw the purple purse in the cart. "It's you" he said and kept going.
I suppose it is. But I still look at that black and white, the cleanness of it. Then I look at my shoes, all hot pink and ready to run. I'm a nut....40something and I still don't know who I am.
Maybe I can be both. It's possible to mesh one world with another right? Well, I have 40 pounds to figure out how to get out of the life of sweats and into something a little more "fashionable".
Let's see...if I were to mesh the two together. Self, meet self. It would probably look like:
So that is what happens when I meet myself. I love her! Mission accomplished.
Tuesday, January 15, 2013
Does anyone know where the new year went? I was supposed to begin some me time. I had all sorts of plans, Well, mainly to finish what I started with juicing and C25 but those are huge goals. Maybe sign up for a run as a reward, but somewhere I got lost and I can't seem to find that road that leads to somewhere else...
Okay. Breathe. Look around. Sift through that confetti-head you call a brain and let's figure this out.
Over"h"aul goal is 135 with a cute, yet strong bod and lifestyle.
More moderate goal is: getting healthy. Finish juicing. and C25.
Short term goal: survive this week.
Today's goal: figure out what's going on and what happened.
See? easy. Okay.
What happened? Self sabotage. Oh you bad bad girl.
You let life get in the way of you. tsk tsk.
I did too. I found myself huddled over peanut butter and crackers yesterday as I tried to figure out how to console daughter for the loss of her bird. That bird should've lived 20 years...he made it 3. Poor thing died of starvation and we don't know how. He was fed so much...almost too much. I sat over the counter watching Oakland declare a state of emergency for 14 shootings in 3 days and wondered if the media is hyping up shootings for the President..... I ate another cracker as my relatives split up after 15 years and I thought of everything Tom and I had been through... I thought of everything I had to do today. The list ... that forever in your head list of things to do. just an odd odd day, week..YEAR
SNAP OUT OF IT!!!!
These having nothing to do with your progress! What am I DOOING?
Get off this computer.
Put on your yoga pants...yes, this entails getting OUT of your one and only pair of blue jeans.
Put on your running shoes.
Take the dog out for a walk...heck take all three.
Just get MOVING!!
There, that takes care of today. So I will. I will report back here tomorrow now that I have my computer back and tell myself and whomever is listening how I did survive today. More than survive today. I will LIVE today.
I don't know if I can slow time down or even stall it...but if I'm going to be whisked away in time, I best be moving in it. right? right. right.
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
All over Spark, Facebook and any social media around, stores, shopping malls, and even the good ol' calendar...Januray 1st is always .
Of course, I am withut exception. I had began my juicing excursion and getting to the "easy" part when hubby took his Christmas leave. Now, mind you I am NOT blaming him. I am responsible for my own actions. I blame me. I didn't have to eat at four different restaurants in four days because all my kids were doing their thing and we were "empty nesters" for the week. But, I did. Man, am I paying for it today. Not only did I see a significant increase in weight (right back up to where I started on this journey) but the left kidney has been flaring up the last two days in a not so gentle reminder of how I am neglecting myself.
my daughter (the youngest one who runs with me and eggs me on) went out and bought me 3 naked juices for Chirstmas. LOL What a support system :o(
I was going to start my challenge this morning. However last night we ended up in the ER again for my husband's back. I am begining to think this is his way of making a grand exit from a party. We spent nearly six hours there and arrived home by the time most people were getting up via cab. I went to bed and slept til noon when I went and picked up my girls from their party. I made my morning zinger juice (my favorite...the one with kale, apples, carrots and ginger) During the day though I came across the realization that once again there was really no food in the house! LOL so, I ended up having a chowder bowl with the family and will begin my real day one on day 2.
Oh by the way.......Seahawks in the playoffs Saturday!!
Normally, today would be a day of reflections and goals. I decided I will do that tomorrow. Between the ER and the Old Sac shooting (I'm thanking God and all the spirits around me that my brother had decided NOT to go see those fireworks) I am just exhausted.
You know the best thing about January ? Getting back to normalcy.
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