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Thursday, October 14, 2010

Here I am sitting here listening to Spanish music (not understanding a single word) in the hopes of grasping something out of this class and I thought; "I really need to write down my thoughts" If for no other reason than to calm this confetti scattered mind of mine down.

The last time I was on here I just had some drama in my house. Unfortuneately, it is not the first time. Without getting into too many details, it involved a gun, my kids and the cops. I handled it very well until those fateful words: "why do you stay with him when he's like this?" I felt like one of those "losers" on COPS. I think I may have actually died a little bit. It was at this time I realized... I AM an emotional eater.

I found myself eating brats and thinking "I really don't LIKE brats". And I don't. It's strange to think I didn't KNOW that before. I wondered what other foods I was doing that with....probably a lot. I was eating because it FELT good even if something really didn't TASTE good.

However strange this new binge eating habit has not affected my weight too terribly much. I don't know if it's because of the gym class I am taking (but haven't been tracking) or what, but my weight is only 2 pounds more than on my tracker. I don't want to change it until I get heavy back on my Spark program.

I am the only leader on my poor team. They probably are aware I have abandoned them by now! LOL I have got to get my thoughts back together and a schedule of something. I've got to meditate.......SOMETHING!! Will anyone help me lead? I'm afraid I'm not a very good motivator at this time....

I'm still struggling with things. I miss running...even if I ran 30 seconds at a time, it was a time to think thoughts and try to sort through them. I think about running almost daily and feel....well, in a rut. I know it won't give me answers I am seeking, but, I guess I'm hoping it leads to a direction of clearer thoughts. I wish I could just ask the all knowing "what am I supposed to do here'? Maybe I should go get my new running shoes ( I never did get them, but threw away those awful Reeboks). and hope an epiphany emerges.

Until then, I am trying to be aware of what I put into my mouth. Not for just the weight factor, but, just realizing that it really WON'T make me feel better. Food, I guess, can be just a big of a mask as the alcohol he's hiding behind. One of us is going to have to come out from behind our mask. I think I'm just afraid to find out what I might find.

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ENDUROVET 10/19/2010 6:40PM

    Best wishes, love & prayers to you...
(doesn't it suck how Real Life gets in the way of our self-improvement efforts ;-) ?

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LOREN009 10/15/2010 7:09PM

    Thanks for posting so honestly... We all go through stuff like this! Remind yourself that you DESERVE to feel good, and feeling good happens when you put good food in and listen to what exercise your body wants (including lots of rest sometimes!).


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    Oh, girl, sounds like you've got a lot of stress to deal with. Glad you're looking at things "from the outside", in a sense. Even just a walk is good to clear your mind sometimes. Take care!

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KIM_POSSIBLE77 10/15/2010 10:50AM

    I'm so glad that I was able to talk to you last night. I know after reading this and not being able to talk to you would have killed me.
First let me say that you are by NO means "one of those woman". With everything that you all have been through this too you will get past. I really think that if you stick to what we talked about last night then you will make out in this! Build yourself to be the strong one, that means Sparking, taking you time and I really think that if you lead by example he will follow you. Hecks he has been following you for years now! LOL Cut out all the crap and take charge of YOU...I know you just as well as you know yourself. Who else is there that knows just when to call or text me, that would be you.
Next time you want something to eat think about this moment....make your vision collage and post it inside every cabinet door, on the fridge door. I am here for you every step of the way!
I love you sister dear!
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TERRIJWALL224 10/15/2010 9:15AM

    Hey sounds pretty stressful. Sorry tto hear that and I hope things get better...one thing you can control is what you are putting in your mouth. (funny that i am telling you this as I myself am an emotional eater and had a frenzy of it last weekend). But you can be strong!
Maybe you can put a request out on the team threads for a co-leader...I am currently struggling to lead a team too and I know how time consuming it can be...especially when you don't feel like a cheerleader anymore.
Just know we understand and are here for you no matter what!

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BAKER1009 10/15/2010 8:41AM

    The most important thing is that you are looking out for yourself and for your kids. Don't worry about what anyone else says, as long as you are doing what is right. Things get rough. As adults we like to think we know everything, but we don't. Go with your gut feelings, take care of what you need to and keep your chin up. Chin up and keep moving!
Brats...yuck, lol! Slap yourself a few times and snap out of it girl. You're strong, and I know that because I've seen what you are capable of doing!!!


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HEATH2 10/14/2010 10:24PM

    It sounds like we are both going through a slump of some kind in the motivation department and it sucks! So Im really in no position to try and motivate anyone at the moment since Ive been doing so horrible BUT I will say that you have always been extremely motivating to me! Im sure that whatever you are going through you will pull through and come out tougher and ready for more. I hope that it happens soon for you. This weather also seems to be rough when it comes to motivating us and keeping us on track. Everyone is here for you, stay strong and keep your head up! emoticon

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HEAVENLYANG21 10/14/2010 9:40PM

    It sounds like you're going through a really rough time. Hopefully things even out soon for you. I am definitely a stress eater. Which is a bad thing especially with school. I had to realize that in order to drop weight with studying..... I am hoping now that I'm done with the class portion of the program I'll be able to continue to drop weight. The fact that you're acknowledging the fact you're an emotional eater is a huge step in the right direction! kudos.

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One Lightbulb at a time!

Thursday, September 09, 2010

I've been re adjusting my schedule and haven't been able to breathe just yet. However, I came across this in my email and just had to share.

I wonder if we could do this for food too?

One Light Bulb at a Time

A physics teacher in high school, once told the

students that while one grasshopper on the railroad tracks wouldn't

slow a train very much, a billion of them would. With that thought

in mind, read the following, obviously written by a good American ..

Good idea .. . . one light bulb at a time .. . . .

Check this out . I can verify this because I was in Lowe's the other day for

some reason and just for the heck of it I was looking at the hose

attachments. They were all made in China . The next day I was in Ace

Hardware and just for the heck of it I checked the hose

attachments there. They were made in USA . Start looking ..

In our current economic situation, every little thing we buy or do affects

someone else - even their job. So, after reading this email, I think this

lady is on the right track. Let's get behind her!

My grandson likes Hershey's candy. I noticed, though, that it is marked

made in Mexico now. I do not buy it any more.

My favorite toothpaste Colgate is made in Mexico .... now

I have switched to Crest. You have to read the labels on everything ..

This past weekend I was at Kroger. I needed 60 W light bulbs and Bounce dryer sheets. I was

in the light bulb aisle, and right next to the GE brand I normally buy was an off-brand

labeled, "Everyday Value." I picked up both types of bulbs and compared the stats -

they were the same except for the price..

The GE bulbs were more money than the Everyday Value brand but the

thing that surprised me the most was the fact that GE was made in MEXICO

and the Everyday Value brand was made in - get ready for this - the USA in

a company in Cleveland , Ohio .

So throw out the myth that you cannot find products you use every day that

are made right here..

So on to another aisle - Bounce Dryer Sheets....yep, you guessed it,

Bounce cost more money and is made in Canada . The Everyday Value

brand was less money and MADE IN THE USA! I did laundry yesterday

and the dryer sheets performed just like the Bounce Free I have been using

for years and at almost half the price!

My challenge to you is to start reading the labels when you shop for

everyday things and see what you can find that is made in the USA - the

job you save may be your own or your neighbors!

If you accept the challenge, pass this on to others in your address book so

we can all start buying American, one light bulb at a time! Stop buying

from overseas companies!

(We should have awakened a decade ago)

Let's get with the program.....help our fellow Americans keep their jobs and create more jobs here in the USA

I Passed this on ......... will you???????


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MLAYESKI 10/27/2010 5:22PM

    Just ran across this post...my Hubs and I look and try our best to find made in USA and will go to several stores just to find it! emoticon

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LOREN009 9/9/2010 8:03PM

    Just a note... if it says made FOR a company in the USA, that doesn't mean made IN the USA. Chances are good that your Great Value light bulb was imported and possibly repackaged.

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FRENCHYFEVER 9/9/2010 6:59PM

    Very good advice! I've been doing this for a long time now and hope more people will do the same. Kudos to you.


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Another Sparkie Share: The ABC's of Corinna

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

Thanks, Kim.

Hey everyone! 10 pounds gone!! Down to 186.1 EVEN WITH VEGAS!!

**does the Wii Hula Dance** emoticon

A - Available or married? - Al Bundy Married (that's a reeeeeaaally long time)

B- Book? - Puentes something or other...(Spanish class)

C- Cake or Pie - Cake, I'll eat the INSIDE of a pie, but everyone says that doesn't count.

D- Drink of Choice? – Coffee!!!!!

E- Essential Item? - computer

F- Favorite Color? - Red Robin Neon Colbolt Blue (say that 3x fast)

G- Game to play or watch? - Play: Texas Holdem and watch FOOTBALL

H- Hometown? – Spanaway WA (same as Kim's!!)

I- Indulgence? – Starbucks (yummmm COFFEE)

J- Job? – Mom, Full time Student , and as Roseanne would say "Domestic Goddess"

K- Kids and names? Miranda Panda 18, Maureen 13, and Trinity 12

L- Life is incomplete without? - My family and friends ....and mabye Starbucks.

M- Music group or singer? – If it's from the 80s, I probably have it....

N- Number of siblings? - one of each

O- Oranges or apples? - Oranges....naval.

P- Phobias/Fears? – LOTS of em...including the phobia of phobia **shudders**

Q- Favorite Quote? – I know God only gives us what we can handle. I just wish he didn't trust me with so much. (Mother Teresa)

R- Reason to Smile? - cuz there's no reason not to :o)

S- Season? -End of Summer ...it is, isn't it?

T- Tattoos? – I want to get one on my ankle...hmmm pain as a reward. wow.

U- Unknown fact about me? – Cant sleep with my feet covered, even in winter and can't sleep without my body covered even in 110 degrees.

V- Vegetable you love? – All of them...though just tried frozen something green (mustard?) blek...

W- Worst habit? –Not finishing what I've started. **sound familiar everyone??**

X- X-Rays you've had? – This would almost be easier to answer what I HAVEN'T had done.....just saying. Guess they couldn't come up with a better X question.

Y- Your favorite food? - anything I don't have to cook////yes Kim ...that sounds good to me too.

Z- Zodiac? – Scorpion


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CAMROLA 8/25/2010 10:26PM

    This is great! Nice getting to "know" you better. Must try this myself soon : )

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THANKFULL1 8/25/2010 9:52PM

    10 pounds gone! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ACROSONIC 8/25/2010 1:50PM

    emoticon on the 10 pounds!

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HEAVENLYANG21 8/25/2010 8:15AM

    Nice....Congrats on losing even with Vegas. I'm pretty sure I'd gain. I should fill this out too eventually!

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JMCADE 8/24/2010 11:47PM

    great! woohoo on the 10 pounds. good to have you back with the Starfish

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HEATH2 8/24/2010 11:24PM

    - Unknown fact about me? – Cant sleep with my feet covered, even in winter and can't sleep without my body covered even in 110 degrees.
....ME TOO!!!! lol
ok my turn....

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from fellow Sparkie... HAD to share this :o)

Thursday, August 05, 2010

Thanks TerriJWall224 :o) These are grrreat!

1. I think part of a best friend's job should be to immediately clear your computer history if you die. (Cutiepie, you got this covered, right?)

2. Nothing sucks more than that moment during an argument when you realize you're wrong.

3. I totally take back all those times I didn't want to nap when I was younger.

4. There is great need for a sarcasm font.

5. How the hell are you supposed to fold a fitted sheet?

6. Was learning cursive really necessary?

7. Map Quest really needs to start their directions on # 5. I'm pretty sure I know how to get out of my neighborhood.

8. Obituaries would be a lot more interesting if they told you how the person died.

9. I can't remember the last time I wasn't at least kind of tired.

10. Bad decisions make good stories.

11. You never know when it will strike, but there comes a moment at work when you know that you just aren't going to do anything productive for the rest of the day.

12. Can we all just agree to ignore whatever comes after Blu Ray? I don't want to have to restart my collection...again.

13. I'm always slightly terrified when I exit out of Word and it asks me if I want to save any changes to my ten-page technical report that I swear I did not make any changes to.

14. "Do not machine wash or tumble dry" means I will never wash this - ever.

15. I hate when I just miss a call by the last ring (Hello? Hello? Damn it!), but when I immediately call back, it rings nine times and goes to voice mail. What did you do after I didn't answer? Drop the phone and run away?

16. I hate leaving my house confident and looking good and then not seeing anyone of importance the entire day. What a waste.

17. I keep some people's phone numbers in my phone just so I know not to answer when they call.

18. I think the freezer deserves a light as well.

19. I disagree with Kay Jewelers. I would bet on any given Friday or Saturday night more kisses begin with Miller Lite than Kay.

20. I wish Google Maps had an "Avoid Ghetto" routing option.

21. Sometimes, I'll watch a movie that I watched when I was younger and suddenly realize I had no idea what the heck was going on when I first saw it.

22. I have a hard time deciphering the fine line between boredom and hunger.

23. How many times is it appropriate to say "What?" before you just nod and smile because you still didn't hear or understand a word they said?

24. I love the sense of camaraderie when an entire line of cars team up to prevent a jerk from cutting in at the front. Stay strong, brothers and sisters!

25. Is it just me or do high school kids get dumber & dumber every year?

26. There's no worse feeling than that millisecond you're sure you are going to fall after leaning your chair back a little too far.

27. Sometimes I'll look down at my watch 3 consecutive times and still not know what time it is.

28. Even under ideal conditions people have trouble locating their car keys in a pocket, finding their cell phone, and Pinning the Tail on the Donkey - but I'd bet my ass everyone can find and push the snooze button from 3 feet away, in about 1.7 seconds, eyes closed, first time, every time!


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VIKKIC87 8/29/2010 6:01PM

    awesome list!!! it's funny because it's true! :D

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LOVESLIFE48 8/29/2010 5:50PM

    Very funny (and true!!!) Thanks for sharing!! emoticon emoticon

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KIM_POSSIBLE77 8/29/2010 5:44PM

    Girl I totally have your back on that only if you promise to do mine! Love you Sugar!

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FISHKNEES 8/24/2010 10:39PM

    awesome...Thanks for sharing ...your list made me laugh emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MICHELLELEE150 8/9/2010 1:38AM

    I totally relate to # 27!

Hope you have a good week, and thanks for stopping by my blog.


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CHEFFYJOJO 8/5/2010 4:30PM

    these were great ive got people sitting in my kitchen looking very strangely at me wondering why im chuckling to myself
think im gonna have to read the list out now !!! emoticon

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PHOEBEN9 8/5/2010 4:29PM

    Lol fantastic list :D

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RENE54 8/5/2010 3:14PM

    I loved it. Gave me a good smile for the day! Thanks for sharing.

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AIDELADE27 8/5/2010 2:26PM

    These are too funny! I wish I could comment on them all but then my response would be 17 million pages long. Thanks for the laugh!

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I'm such a slacker!

Wednesday, August 04, 2010

Life seems to be barreling right over the top of me. It's not like I haven't been moving or working, but I haven't been tracking or Working OUT this week. Which sucks because I'm supposed to be on my 6 weeks or bust challenge! UGH!

Today I will be making 40 pounds of potato salad for Humdinger BBQ's sale at the Air Force Base. I have about that same amount of laundry to do. Getting house and menu's ready for our Rush Concert and our trip to Vegas next week. Holy moly! I hope Rush sings my theme song: Time Stand Still. Cuz right now I am FEELING it.

So, I apologize in advance for not loggin in and attending the message boards. My husbnad is a very demanding kid and needs his attention time! LOL He was actually complaining that "you were working out 3 hours last week and that..." I just looked at him sideways. Probably becasue my first reaction was "I'm doing this for you......" But, instantly I knew, I was doing this for ME. I just smiled and rolled it off my shoulders. A trick of the trade after 22 years, ya know?

Going to go make my potato salad. Start smoking the pork, do some laundry, kitchen and if it cools down enough tonight I will go for a run. Or if hubby desires a walk with him. He seems to like those. You would think the guy would get bored of me after all these years....you would hope! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA I'm joking really. **shhheeeeeze**

Have a fantabulous day everyone! I'm hoping to have my web page set up this week for "Flab2fabs". I have the Team BB (not allowed to solicit here) up but I'd like to get my OWN page up. Looks more professional I'm thinking.

Now I'm just rambling....procrastinating if you will! LOL

Thank you again all my wonderful Sparkies. I must confess I'm truly addicted to each and everyone of you.....hey, new theme song: "hopelessly devoted to youuuuuuu"

tee hee!! Keep pushing play everyone and well, just keep pushing!! We can do this! Even when hubby is cooking stuff like this:



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5FRUITSNVEGGIES 8/5/2010 10:35AM

    have fun in vegas! my husband loves rush!

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VTCRICKET84 8/5/2010 7:31AM

    seriously, 40 pounds of potato salad?! wow! sounds like it'll be a fun bbq though! hope you are excited about your trip to vegas :)

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THANKFULL1 8/4/2010 10:20PM

    Yikes girl! With all that your doing....YES you are working out, and then some!! emoticon
Have a blast, and we will look forward to seeing ya back here!
bsafe! emoticon

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DRJJ2004 8/4/2010 10:15PM

    Wow!! You go girl...get all that stuff done and then have a great time!


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XHASTEDMOMOF2 8/4/2010 9:15PM

    Rush concert and a trip to Vegas!!! I am sooooooooo jealous!!! Hope the potato salad turned out fantastic!!! BBQ looks really yummy!!! Hope you can get back to working out!!


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HEAVENLYANG21 8/4/2010 9:09PM

    Good Luck!

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VIAFREE 8/4/2010 8:42PM

    Idle Time or Busy Hands, which do we prefer? I see you already know the answer to that one.
Like I, seems multitasking comes second nature to you. You go girl!
Aren't we amazing beings us non males to be so good at so many things. No wonder they love us so, even if we do workout 3 hrs or more, we still find time for them and some.
Have a safe and fun trip.

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MJCLARENDON 8/4/2010 8:25PM

    WOW!!! Good luck with the potato salad! What AF base will you be at? I'd kill for some good bbq (although I'm from CA, so we don't really "BBQ", we "grill", ha ha!) Sounds like a busy time, have fun!

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RUTGERSM0M 8/4/2010 8:22PM

    emoticon You have your work cut of for you.

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1NIMUE 8/4/2010 7:21PM

    Great posting!

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