Friday, September 12, 2014
We all do it. (no, not that...)
We all say we're going to get going, but something holds us back. Whether it be our newest excuse, life, time, or just simple lack of motivation we get ourselves in our own way.
I'm big on it.
and I'm just big.
I have been struggling for months now on regaining my mojo. I've invited my friends to Spark and watched them leave. I've joined teams and although I'm active on Spark, I'm just not active. for all the reasons listed above.
This morning as I watch our California temp gage creep up towards the 100 degree mark again I thought "well, running's out" but WHY? Why was it automatically so easy for me to just cancel that thought?
I can say it's easier. It's NOT easier waking up at 1 am with my heart pounding in my head because the sodium was off in my already high pressured blood stream. It's not easier walking hunched because my back aches from my sedentary lifestyle, but the MOJO is lacking, and that makes it easier to say "no".
That's right. I do have mojo. It's just hidden somewhere in my mushy arse called "cellulite land". I'm betting those pesky mutant ninja fat cells have them taken hostage somewhere.
I will find it.
and I will win this war!!
What is my victory? MY Victory will be showing all of you Spark peeps my gun show ... I've never been to the gun show....ever. Ever seen a middle aged freckled female with guns? Well you're gonna!
Victory will be my abs smaller than my boobs. Okay, this may never be possible without surgery or seriously padded bras, but at least to not look like I'm permanently pregnant would be cool.
Victory will be saying "I completed C25" "I completed 21 day fix"
I do love the feeling of saying "I did" over "I will"
So.... It may be reaching 100 degrees today, but I can still do major housework, I can still mow the lawn, AND I can still begin the completion of my 21 Day Fix. I have got to begin my mojo in the morning...not after I've deflated myself before bed.
I noticed the one thing I had last time I was on a good streak was my Vision Board. It was unique and hanging on my bedroom wall to see every morning when I awoke. I haven't had one since I left the apartments for here. I think it's time to bring that back.
What first step will you do to find your mojo today?
Tuesday, September 09, 2014
After texting back and forth, hubs and I did talk. I explained why I was so hurt by him. He said I was complaining about job, life etc for a week and it was too much. I explained I listened to it for over six years with support and expect the same. He actually listened and replied with "I was kind of an ass then huh"
so, that was amazing...I am also taking the advice of a Sparkfriend and getting some things checked out. It was something I had wanted to do for a while but awaiting his new job and insurance.
I'm not going to stop the running though. I have said it all year that I want to finish ONE goal: to complete SOMETHING and gain consistency. I still want to tackle that. I knew I wasn't going to be able to get in the run yesterday so I walked at lunch during work...I am ONE light short of a Glo Getter. I even jogged in place while watching Once Upon a Time to try and get that last dot connected, but I went to bed a few steps short I think...
Today, however, I will get my Glo Getter, a run, and maybe take the dogs for a walk. My cavalier's white leg is getting stiff again and as she is still a pup, means she desperately needs a walk.
and here's a weird thing:
So one of my co workers comes in and says "you just HAVE to look at this house!!!" and so I did because I just had to, right?
Only my girls fell in love with it.
I told hubs about it and was like "eh, not a good move if we plan on moving out of state in a few years...." he says "up to you babe" I hate that answer
but then his parents saw it and told him he HAD to buy it..
So now, the financial guy is looking at our finances and the Realtor is pulling comps on ours AND that house.
I'm going to go work on my poor house. I don't want anyone seeing it or taking pics until I get my poor neglected garden and laundry done.
The girls have been giving me grief over dinners and I was exasperated because they won't tell me what they want. All I get is "food, mom...healthy good food!!" but when I make something I get the "look".
So I made the youngest make a few meals ... I'll show her how easy it is, right?
She made this awesome kale torte, then a veggie scramble and it hit me
Light clean eating recipes to the rescue! My girls were after that only couldn't express it.
Tonight I'm making a Clean Chicken Salad in Pita bread with a red lentil soup.
If they gobble it up, I'm going to feel like a real proud dummy.
but I'll have a plan from there.
I scored a P90x for $50 at a yard sale. UNOPENED!
but first the 21 day fix challenge
Saturday, August 02, 2014
How'd your first go?
I guess it depends on how ya look at it.
I went for a run.
I went at 10 am so it was cooler as we are experiencing 100+ weather here in dead and brown California....
It was 88 degrees
I did half my work out, but I was sweatin' like a BEAST I tell ya...
I mean, look at that magnificent face!!!!
That, my Sparkies is a selfie of all selfies if I ever saw a selfie.
I was NOT however, able to do my 21 day fix or Jillian and I'll tell ya why.
I went to a swim party.
with the girls
which leads me to my other goals:
stay vegan/no wine
yeah...well here's where I thought "aw man" then went " well, no wait" because I have these conversations with myself see so sometimes it's hard to understand even what I am saying to myself let alone ...
WHAT I was saying is this:
Even though I DID have wine/beer I only had a couple and completely flooded it with water in between. I mean like 4 ox wine ... 12 oz water
I was completely sober when I had my daughter pick me up
As for the vegan thing.
I kept it real all day. Followed my plan. When I got there I saw Ms. Maha had fresh raspberries (score) salads (score) and guacamole (totally doable in small amounts)
so I loaded my plate up...mmmm spinach, strawberries...mushrooms...wait, that's not a mushroom...that's ....that's chicken??
but see, I still consider it a win because I didn't KNOW it was there. Of course I didn't like spit it up or whatever...I ate it but for where I am ... it was good.
see? success in my failures day 1.
Now my peeps....do I consider August 1 as a "rest day" for my DVDs and carry on or should I double up the workout on Sunday? hmmmm
I'll play that one by ear.
FIRST I have to work.
like really, go to work
Happy Saturday Spark Peeps!!
Go get your "rowr" on!!!
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