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Disneyland House :o)

Monday, April 14, 2014

Thanks everyone for the input. It really was great to see the opinions of things based on what information I gave you and I think it was just the right amount. I am one of those people that suffer from not making a final decision without the opinion of the world. Yes, I base things off of popular votes. I'm working on it.

In that retrospect, the girls and I LOVED the little bungalow. We toured it again yesterday with some of their friends (what troopers!). We all loved the size and it's charm. But, it turns out to lease it would have been $10K down at $1300 month with $100 towards purchase price, but you can't claim it on your taxes until you elect to buy (which is a huge hit considering hubby and I are buying house we're in) To buy would be about the same price/payment I'm at. No savings after all.

So, in as much as we LOVED the place and it was totally us "girls" all over it...I'm going to have to figure out to make this typical track house a little more charmier I think. And just hope that hubby really does keep paying his portion ( I hate relying on people, meh)

Then again, I could change my mind in less than 24 hours and make irrational decisions. Depends on the moon I think.

LOL

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Just so I'm clear I wasn't giving up on my journey. I'm just not obsessed with it daily. I think about exercising every day. I think about what I am eating every day. And through all this "stuff" I have surprisingly been eating okay. I did binge a couple of days but reached out to a friend to replace the comfort of food to help nip it.

I just have't been specific in my goals is where I have been slacking off. I have not done a DVD or ran....but I do walk...I try to keep my tracker lit up. It does seem to help the mind too. Again, I'm just not obsessed and have been slacking on my teams and Spark. I plan on getting back to that. A specific goal (running/weight) but I have to sort through all the muck first. does that make sense? I guess it is just priority. and my girls are ALWAYS my first priority.

I can't believe this journey is such a part of my life that I think about it every single day. LOL

I don't know if THAT can be healthy to always think healthy? LOL

Anyhow, I'm working a full day today and then I'm coming home to pack.

The girls and I are going to DISNEYLAND!!!

I've looked up "healthy treats" I'm going to pack some veggie snacks of course, hummus, sandwich stuff for teens in car, waters (maybe juice?) I look forward to the fireworks out my hotel window tomorrow with a glass of wine and the hotel has a gym to which my youngest says "YES!! We're hitting the gym mom!!" LOL My little trainer still.

Hope I'll have pics I don't know if hubs took camera with him or not...

I wouldn't mind more ideas of car snacks though and any tips while away. I'm pretty sure we won't be splurging too much. I'm on a VERY tight budget. We are mainly going to tour a University that my Kate will be attending. Disneyland day is a "bonus" :o)

I am thinking about some of those "veggie chips" for the kids.

Gosh, I haven't been to Disneyland since i was like........4?

The girls say it's changed a bit since then

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Keep Sparkin Sparkies!!

  
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MOTHEPRO 4/15/2014 9:30AM

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BIGPAWSUP 4/14/2014 8:09PM

    Congrats on making your decision. You have to do what is right for you.

Enjoy Disney. It's been 30 years for me.

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THINFITKINDVGAN 4/14/2014 8:09PM

    Kale chips, fruit, veggies, lots of water. Stop at grocery stores when you run low of snacks and buy produce to eat.

Have fun!

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I need advice

Sunday, April 13, 2014

The only person I've confided in was my bestie in PA who must just be exhausted from the drama that seems to follow. I know I am. LOL But I woke up on a Sunday before 730 with this question for you. As you many know from my status feeds, I have been trying to focus on what's happening around me and not to me. Hence my weight loss efforts seemed futile.

**had a full blog here, was a little too private, deleted it**

But here's where I need community advice.

We currently live in a very nice house $2K a month. Sidewalks, HOA, community pool, etc etc. It's 2500 sq feet 4bd/2ba with a tiny tiny TINY yard (which could be good with just us girls? but not two dogs)

We looked at a charming bungalow, 1930s totally redone on the inside. It's right across from the high school, 1400 sq ft 3bed/2ba. You can feel on the floor where the addition was added, but not a biggie. If I got it, it would be $500-700 less a month on a larger lot. The retail value would be hard to sell in five years though (as it's right across the street from the high school, I guess that's bad??) There's no sidewalks for me to run, but I could at the school or something, no community pool, but we have McBean Park. But it would entail moving. and We all know how much I HATE moving.

Is it worth it? I mean, I moved here with the intentions of until the girls graduated. Stability and all that. But 5=700 a month savings..... I can afford both okay. .My youngest is all for it. My middle is more like myself and has some reservations. would do it, buuut. She did like the front porch (cute!) but not the floor, no solar, etc. and the bedrooms felt smaller (lower ceilings..we have 9 footers here)

without seeing the homes ( and I did that on purpose ) what do you think on paper? Both homes really need about the same amount of upkeep as they are both "newer". the bungalow has all new electrical and plumbing so ....I could sell my current home for about 50-75 in equity from what we bought it two years ago. The bungalow is lease to buy.

Thoughts?



Anyhow, that's why I've been "evasive" and "elusive". Just a lot to think about and so much limbo. My journey to 169 has been put on hold for a moment while I figure this out.

  
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CDCSMITH2013 4/14/2014 5:58AM

    I would go for cheaper. It sounds like a nice place and there are alternatives for running. But then I love the idea of a bungalow. I can deal with a smaller space inside. It would help me purge some accumulated stuff.

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NELLIEC 4/14/2014 12:41AM

    Personally, I would go for the cheaper place, but I am not you. You need to do what is right for you and your family!

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HEALTHYLU1 4/13/2014 11:19PM

    Ok, this is based on very little information, but it sounds like moving would not be better for you. Either way, I think you could be happy, and of course, this outcome does not affect me. No matter what you choose, I maintain the warmest feelings for you and hope for your ever happiness and success,

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LYNETTEMOM 4/13/2014 7:05PM

    Moving is such a headache that I know which one would be my choice--
but I agree with the general consensus here that YOUR GUT had to be the decision maker.

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MJREIMERS 4/13/2014 5:42PM

    Which one "speaks to you" more? If it's not about the money, then you need to feel which one is home.

Don't let all this distract you from your weight loss mission! You CAN still lose weight despite all this "side stuff" going on. If I can lose weight, you CAN!

I could distract myself with just about anything, but once I set my mind to losing and becoming a healthier me, I DID it.

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BIGPAWSUP 4/13/2014 3:41PM

    If you really can afford to do either, you have to go with your gut. What feels right, down inside. And then do it.

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THINFITKINDVGAN 4/13/2014 3:39PM

    Honestly from the hip: I think you are distracting yourself with this issue and stalling your weight loss journey. It isn't the external house that you want to change, it is the internal one. How can that be done unless you fully commit yourself to YOU and figure out you and what makes you self-sabotage, etc.

I won't even address the external move issue because honestly, that isn't what the most important issue is here.

If you respond to this post realize people don't know that you've done so on your blog. Respond either by SparkMail message or on their pages.



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HOPEFULHIPPO 4/13/2014 3:13PM

    Don't get me wrong...it's very cute. We're going to go look at it again today with my bestie in tow via Facetime. LOL MY biggest concern (aside from moving) is the kids. I don't want them to feel like we HAVE to move. so, I think unless I know they are all over it, I'm okay with paying the extra here. I just also want to be prepped in case military screws up hubby even further.

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ENDUROVET 4/13/2014 1:54PM

    Staying where you have access to a POOL would be a big plus to me (aka Water Baby)... But as FFK sez, if you're truly NOT feeling it, I wouldn't go to the trouble of moving either! (I hate moving too, it's large part of the reason I fought so hard to hang onto my farm)
Sympathy for yr drama!
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FANGFACEKITTY 4/13/2014 1:46PM

    Saving that much per month is a huge incentive but if you're not feeling the love now you never will. Having to make excuses about how to accommodate the things you want is not a good sign. If there is no immediate budget crisis (or other crisis needing a move NOW) my vote is to stay put and keep looking until you find something that feels right for you. From your description here, this doesn't feel quite right to you, and the chief attraction is the lower payment. If an immediate move is needed, possibly look at renting short term in order to keep looking for that good fit. A house is too big of an investment to deliberately choose something that just doesn't feel right.

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The universe loves April's Fools

Tuesday, April 01, 2014

I swear I no sooner hit the period on the last blog when I could feel the stars twirling and laughing in its meniachal laugh.

I no sooner started a plan for myself when my family needed me. My husband is angry all the time, yelling and screaming, forever placing blame and the kids need me to cover them. Without getting into too many terrible details I actually at one point thought I would crumble under it all. I began to look at houses again (my comfort thing) and even fantasized about getting one on my own, feeling trapped. It was the pink apartment all over. I was feeling bad, both physically and emotionally. My hands and feet were burning and my heart always palpitating hard. I knew my blood pressure was out of control ... and truthfully I didn't care. I was really sure I had hit my mental and physical breakdown. My friend Kim was my solace on the other side of the country.

I posted a quick status on my Spark "family drama taking a break" when a Sparkie wrote "no, take care of YOU, you'll always have drama"

I thought I was one of those people who completely tried to avoid "drama" and I do. I placate, enable, graciously step back, and choose battles very selectively and yet ONE person always seems to draw it around my house...She was right. It was always going to be here as long as I lived under the same roof.

So as I have done before, and (thank you for the reminder) will now do again. I have to take care of me and the girls first. The rest will fall into place as she said. I set up my menu again as I was terribly emotional eating for weeks.

Today I hit play on my DVD. It was really hard to get back into it. It was, I'll admit it. First it's a grueling circuit anyhow. LOL But I knew I had to work on crushing the negatives from my mind and get refocused on feeling good too. A double workout if you will.

But my main goal for the month of April:

Run evreyday.

That's it.

I don't care if I finish my DVD or what else happens. I want to run every day for the month of April. I want this streak to be like my points logged in streak. I enjoy it (even when gasping and sputtering like diesel in unleaded car) It's MY time and dang it...I WILL get past three days. That and I just bought my tracker to replace my lost one. I'm ready for the little glowing lights on my foot.

So, let's get past three days is goal number two.

So I will try to, no I will blog every day this week (next seven days) just to get back into it and hold myself accountable. I think it will help to reshift my brain like before too. It's so easy Sparkies to let yourself succomb to the world within your world. I can't thank that Spark person enough for reminding me that you guys are here. I need to get "uncomfortable" to be happy. They probably don't even know how much they helped other than to make a comment. :o)

I know, a lot of emotional rambling. LOL


  
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MOCHA2470 4/11/2014 11:13AM

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JAMDRGN76 4/2/2014 11:42AM

    Awwww darling yes there will always be drama in everyhting but you are so important. You do have to be a bit selfish so that you can be healthy enough to face the drama. each day is different just deal 1 day at a time.

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FITFRIT 4/2/2014 12:33AM

    I'm sorry you are dealing with family drama. I too have that in my home. unhappy is all I seem to be in my relationship...it affects my eating terribly so I have to learn to let it go. Easier said than done unfortunately.

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LIVINGFREE19 4/1/2014 9:27PM

    Sorry to hear that you are going through so much stress, my friend.

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LYNETTEMOM 4/1/2014 7:09PM

    Do what you need to do for you---keep pushing in the direction that you want to go and one step at a time, it will become a reality. We're here for you, don't hesitate to pour your feelings out in your blogs or entries. Together we are all stronger.


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THINFITKINDVGAN 4/1/2014 4:49PM

    Looking forward to your next blog. You are totally capable.

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BIGPAWSUP 4/1/2014 2:25PM

    You know what you want-go get it!

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BLONDEDOG 4/1/2014 1:12PM

    Oh my gosh, getting past 3 days is SO hard for me as well. In fact I recently blogged about that very thing. I am on day 8! We can so freakin do this! No matter who or what wants to bring us down!

YOU ROCK!!!

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ARUNNINGKAT 4/1/2014 12:11PM

    I think that running every day is a wonderful goal! Life just seems better when you have gotten in your run. And your Spark friend was so right. You DO need to take care of yourself because the drama will always try to derail you. I have a hard time remembering this myself sometimes. A good run is top priority! emoticon

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again

Wednesday, March 19, 2014

I'm still here.

Struggling.....again.

Excuses....again.

My weight forever in the 170s.....again.

Frustrated......again.

Looking for motivation......again.

Scouring Pintrest and Spark.......again.

Determined.......again.

Pushing Play.......again.

Running.......again.

Thinking.......again.

starting over........again.

Remembering why.......again

Determined......again.

blogging.......again.

Goal setting.......again (169???) LOL

Day 1..............STOP!!!

Let's try this.
21 Day Fix and I faulter at day 3-4?

starting over.....again, but

Day 21, countdown begins

....now!




  
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FITFRIT 4/2/2014 12:34AM

    Gosh, reading some of your older blogs and realizing I could have posted these all myself. If you need to vent, have someone help with your accountability/whatever, I'm right here.

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ENDUROVET 3/23/2014 11:22PM

    99% of "Winning"consists of just showing up!

- Val's pithy proverb 4 the day ;-)

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LIVINGFREE19 3/23/2014 9:53PM

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JAMDRGN76 3/20/2014 2:55PM

    Keep going Again! you got this again. You can do this again

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CANDOK1260 3/20/2014 11:08AM

    one day at a time and you will do this

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TANYA602 3/19/2014 8:46PM

    And yet you are here. Where we belong. Not throwing in the towel. I am coming to some realizations about this journey and I truly believe each day is a day that we can make-over ourselves and our goals. There is no such thing as perfection. We falter, we move forward, we lose weight, we gain weight. Health and happiness are first and foremost, so do what you need to do and you will get out of the 170s. Then work hard to stay out of them. You are worth this, AND you can do it.
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BRENJET 3/19/2014 7:11PM

    "Just keep swimming, just keep swimming"....You can totally do this!!!
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THINFITKINDVGAN 3/19/2014 6:16PM

    Straight from the hip thoughts: start journaling. When ever you want to stop, start writing immediately. If you can't write then start talking aloud. You are afraid of something, or perhaps angry or feeling alone or betrayed or all of the aforementioned.

We want change and yet our old self is attached to the self-defeating behavior which is attached to subconscious thoughts we prove and justify by our actions and feelings.

Take a look and do it gently.



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THETURTLEBEAR 3/19/2014 2:54PM

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VONBLACKBIRD 3/19/2014 2:17PM

    Just don't give up. Youre probably at a plateau...just hang in there. emoticon

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ARUNNINGKAT 3/19/2014 1:41PM

    emoticon emoticon I have been there so many times! And I too am hoping, praying and working hard towards this being the time I keep going!

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BAMAJAM2 3/19/2014 1:16PM

  And Spark friends are cheering you on to success---AGAIN--
Support is always here!

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PGHP31CK 3/19/2014 1:15PM

    New day = fresh start!!!! C'mon, teammate -- I KNOW you're gonna do this! 160s here you come!!!

Cheering you on!
Susan

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BAZOOKABOBCAT 3/19/2014 12:13PM

    You're still moving! You're still doing! Keep at it!

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MADMANSMAMA87 3/19/2014 12:08PM

    You CAN do it, Hopeful!
Stay Positive,

Jes

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BIGPAWSUP 3/19/2014 11:36AM

    As long as you don't give up you will win!

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What do you mean it's March?

Saturday, March 01, 2014

Seriously folks, I looked at my last blog entry and it was the awesomeness that was the Superbowl win. **still beaming**

but time burped and we're in March.

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What have you been up to my Sparkie friends? Actually, I do know I have read many of your blogs which I guess is why it astonishes me my last one was last month. wow. really.

Anyway. What I have been up to is this:

My friend and I have begun the 21 day fix from Beachbody. I am putting Hip Hop on hold to do this. I figure my streak is what, 3 days? guess what today is...oh yeah day 3. but here's where it differs. I'm pretty sure.....no

I'M POSITIVE I can do 21 days!!

So how it works is like this. I have these six containers. Based on your weight is how many times a day you can use these various containers. So for me I want 1200-1499 calorie a day so my containers look like this:

3-4 red (protein)
3 green (veggies)
2 purple (fruits)
2 yellow (carbs)
1 blue (cheeses nuts)
1 orange (seeds, )
and 2 tbs a day of either oil or peanut butter if you desire.

Now, those containers I gave you are VERY vague. She gives you a list of foods for each container in her booklet labled from most dense (best) to least dense and some food groups seem to alternate. It's more based on clean eating really with portion control.

Here's where it gets REALLY tricky. It's not very vegan friendly.

See I use spinach, Kale, and broccoli for my proteins (they belong in green containers). Or quinoa, beans (which go in my yellow containers) So in essense it looks like I'm not getting enough protein. but I really am. I had to do some serious searing on the web for ideas and what to do.

This is what I have so far.

Day 1:
As I am doing the challenge (aka I want a t shirt) this package came with Shakeology. Shakeology counts as a red (protein!!) I do that with a yogurt (protein) and there's two of them out of the way.


I also threw in a fruit (half a nanna) for my purple container. That delish looking dish in front of my Shakeology is what I made the girls for breakfast.

Lunch filled my greens, orange, and yellow. White bean pita



and for dinner I doubled my spinach as a protein making it count as a red and not a green. My poor friend was like "I don't think it works that way" but hey, I'm out of tofu. I already did a yogurt dang it. LOL



so that gives you and idea of how I do it. Everyone is different of course and it depends on what foods you like on the list. I use my Happy Herbivore meal plans and take what I can from each section to put in the containers. Not surprisingly Lyndsey (the owner of Happy Herbovire) has it pretty well nutritionally mapped out. I mean down to the wire. She has more carbs than Im allowed but I can see why...it's stuff like quinoa and beans which are also high in proteins. I'll make it work and properly so. Beachbody is supposed to be working with us on ideas so....

The hardest part though is the work outs. I thought "alright only 30 minutes" um...this woman makes Jillian's Shred seem tame. I'm not kidding. What's interesting about that is I hear people say "oh wow, her moves are light in comparison to some of the others we've done" and I'm like

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waaaaaay out of shape.

but not for long cuz guess what?

I'm writing this blog on DAY 3!!!!

and I'm going to break day 3 streak!! and day 4, day 5....and I'm not going to tell you what I'm doing..


I'm going to tell you what I"VE DONE!!

Since it's Caturaday I have to go to work now. So tonight is Lower fix and barre legs. Two things I'm not sure how I'm going to do since I can't even bend to sit on the toilet (kerplop goes me butt!!) But I will do it..

and yoga booty ballet with my daughter. Cuz I'm crazy like that.

and desperate to see 169. So much so, I've given up creamer.

I know.

me.

  
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RUNFORWINE 3/13/2014 2:47PM

    Good job!

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TEACHERCHICK82 3/10/2014 1:06PM

    I am restarting this program again due to alot of issues. I put the calories in for what I eat normally and it's below 1200. Do you find the same? I'm afraid to put my body into starvation mode by going below that.

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TIME2BLOOM4ME 3/6/2014 5:14PM

    What a great plan. Please do some reading on Shakeology. One of their blends has a high heavy metal content. It was posted somewhere on the web. Your workouts sound fun. emoticon

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LYNSEY723 3/5/2014 3:06PM

    Awesome plan - I know you can do it!!!

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BIGPAWSUP 3/2/2014 4:00PM

    I believe in you.

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LYNETTEMOM 3/2/2014 3:08PM

    good for you. A very interesting way to emphasize portion control. You can do this, Corinna; go girl go.
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LIVINGFREE19 3/1/2014 11:49PM

    The time does go so fast and it is hard to believe it is March already!

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JINX6543 3/1/2014 7:17PM

    Seems like one could do a lot with a colored container concept. Hmmm... makes me think about trying to create my own little container system to try.

Congrats on day 3! Keep up the great work!

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JAMDRGN76 3/1/2014 7:13PM

    WOW and WOWZER! that is some hard core stuff. I do like the colored container idea. If you don't mind what is the Happy Herbovire? That sounds very interesting.

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VONBLACKBIRD 3/1/2014 4:55PM

    Love your blog and have missed them.

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THETURTLEBEAR 3/1/2014 3:35PM

    You have a great plan!

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EDENFELL 3/1/2014 2:04PM

    Wow, great plan..I can't believe you've given up creamer - this is serious commitment. emoticon Looking forward to hearing how it goes. emoticon Have a great day.

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THINFITKINDVGAN 3/1/2014 1:56PM

    Well gee wiz sounds like you are doing wonderfully well and having fun doing it. What more could one want. emoticon emoticon

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