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Major Mojo Madness

Friday, September 12, 2014

We all do it. (no, not that...)

We all say we're going to get going, but something holds us back. Whether it be our newest excuse, life, time, or just simple lack of motivation we get ourselves in our own way.

I'm big on it.

and I'm just big.

I have been struggling for months now on regaining my mojo. I've invited my friends to Spark and watched them leave. I've joined teams and although I'm active on Spark, I'm just not active. for all the reasons listed above.

This morning as I watch our California temp gage creep up towards the 100 degree mark again I thought "well, running's out" but WHY? Why was it automatically so easy for me to just cancel that thought?

I can say it's easier. It's NOT easier waking up at 1 am with my heart pounding in my head because the sodium was off in my already high pressured blood stream. It's not easier walking hunched because my back aches from my sedentary lifestyle, but the MOJO is lacking, and that makes it easier to say "no".



That's right. I do have mojo. It's just hidden somewhere in my mushy arse called "cellulite land". I'm betting those pesky mutant ninja fat cells have them taken hostage somewhere.

I will find it.

and I will win this war!!



What is my victory? MY Victory will be showing all of you Spark peeps my gun show ... I've never been to the gun show....ever. Ever seen a middle aged freckled female with guns? Well you're gonna!

Victory will be my abs smaller than my boobs. Okay, this may never be possible without surgery or seriously padded bras, but at least to not look like I'm permanently pregnant would be cool.

Victory will be saying "I completed C25" "I completed 21 day fix"

I do love the feeling of saying "I did" over "I will"



So.... It may be reaching 100 degrees today, but I can still do major housework, I can still mow the lawn, AND I can still begin the completion of my 21 Day Fix. I have got to begin my mojo in the morning...not after I've deflated myself before bed.

I noticed the one thing I had last time I was on a good streak was my Vision Board. It was unique and hanging on my bedroom wall to see every morning when I awoke. I haven't had one since I left the apartments for here. I think it's time to bring that back.

What first step will you do to find your mojo today?


  
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MOCHA2470 9/20/2014 5:50PM

    You make me laugh! Just know that cooler weather is coming and hopefully we will be able to take walks in the evening and sleep well. that always help me to stay on track. Hope you have an awesome day!

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LYNSEY723 9/17/2014 1:29PM

    Great blog! I think I lost my mojo in the same place the dryer loses the socks... It can't be found anywhere!!! You can do this! You can take us to that gun show!!!

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BIGPAWSUP 9/13/2014 3:45PM

    You can do this!!! I have faith in you.

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JAZZII4 9/13/2014 9:53AM

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CAKAROO 9/13/2014 8:29AM

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ADARKARA 9/12/2014 5:44PM

    guuuuuuurl you can do this!!!!

My doctor actually recommended speed walking at a super store, like super walmart or super target. They keep the stores cooler because of the groceries, so it's better than going to the mall. Me, I just jog at my desk. Cardio is cardio! You can DO this!

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KNIBARG 9/12/2014 5:37PM

    You can do this!

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CHANGINGSEASONS 9/12/2014 1:45PM

    I'm right there with you! I felt a nudge to do the workout DVD that I just HAD to have. Lol. So I did it and felt great. Good job on still doing the things you CAN do!

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S'up

Tuesday, September 09, 2014

After texting back and forth, hubs and I did talk. I explained why I was so hurt by him. He said I was complaining about job, life etc for a week and it was too much. I explained I listened to it for over six years with support and expect the same. He actually listened and replied with "I was kind of an ass then huh"

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so, that was amazing...I am also taking the advice of a Sparkfriend and getting some things checked out. It was something I had wanted to do for a while but awaiting his new job and insurance.

I'm not going to stop the running though. I have said it all year that I want to finish ONE goal: to complete SOMETHING and gain consistency. I still want to tackle that. I knew I wasn't going to be able to get in the run yesterday so I walked at lunch during work...I am ONE light short of a Glo Getter. I even jogged in place while watching Once Upon a Time to try and get that last dot connected, but I went to bed a few steps short I think...

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Today, however, I will get my Glo Getter, a run, and maybe take the dogs for a walk. My cavalier's white leg is getting stiff again and as she is still a pup, means she desperately needs a walk.

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and here's a weird thing:

So one of my co workers comes in and says "you just HAVE to look at this house!!!" and so I did because I just had to, right?

Only my girls fell in love with it.

I told hubs about it and was like "eh, not a good move if we plan on moving out of state in a few years...." he says "up to you babe" I hate that answer

but then his parents saw it and told him he HAD to buy it..

So now, the financial guy is looking at our finances and the Realtor is pulling comps on ours AND that house.

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I'm going to go work on my poor house. I don't want anyone seeing it or taking pics until I get my poor neglected garden and laundry done.

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The girls have been giving me grief over dinners and I was exasperated because they won't tell me what they want. All I get is "food, mom...healthy good food!!" but when I make something I get the "look".

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So I made the youngest make a few meals ... I'll show her how easy it is, right?

She made this awesome kale torte, then a veggie scramble and it hit me

Light clean eating recipes to the rescue! My girls were after that only couldn't express it.

Tonight I'm making a Clean Chicken Salad in Pita bread with a red lentil soup.

If they gobble it up, I'm going to feel like a real proud dummy.

LOL

but I'll have a plan from there.

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I scored a P90x for $50 at a yard sale. UNOPENED!

but first the 21 day fix challenge

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LAURIE9404 9/12/2014 1:12PM

    You certainly have a plate full of stuff going on here! At least things with the hubs are getting resolved and everything looks like its going in the right direction. And remember, the best thing about running is the beer at the end of the race!!!!

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CHANGINGSEASONS 9/10/2014 9:07AM

    Isn't it amazing how important good communication is??!! And, a lot of times we disregard it or don't feel like putting in the effort if it will stir up trouble. But, it's HUGE. In me and my hubby's relationship it really all boiled down to lack of good communication on both of our parts. We would just keep stuff inside and feel resentful and angry. Now, we make the effort even if it ruffles feathers initially. Love that you guys did some quality talking!

lol we just finally bought our 'forever' home like a month ago. Oh my gosh...from selling ours to getting to this point was so long and stressful..but totally worth it! And, it's like God really wanted to challenge and test us because it got so funny at one point because ANY house we put an offer on...someone else immediately put another offer on and would beat us out. Even houses that had been sitting with NO offers at all for a year. But, it was all God's plan. And, I'm thankful. So, good luck on the house selling/buying..its a roller coaster but totally worth it in the end, if it's meant to be.

Bravo for continuing to run. I like that you just want to complete ONE major goal this year. I hear you on that. I tend to complete non weight loss/diet/health related goals just fine but haven't completed one of the diet/health related goals for probably 8 or 9 years now. I'm going to keep pushing.

I hope you have a marvelous day!

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CAKAROO 9/10/2014 6:14AM

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HEALTHYLU1 9/9/2014 10:08PM

    Hope, this all feels like good news! Congratulations on all you are managing. emoticon

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MARYANNSQUEST 9/9/2014 7:25PM

    .I happy that things worked out for you and hubby! I ordered the 21 day fix, and it should arrive tomorrow. I've heard good things about it. Hope the house works out. If all works out for me we are suppose to close on my fathers estate next week. The waiting has been the hardest of the sale of his house. Sending lots of Hugs!

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ADARKARA 9/9/2014 2:08PM

    Glad things are working themselves out!

P90X terrifies me! LOL

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CHRISGETTINGFIT 9/9/2014 2:04PM

    Sounding great, girl!!

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LYNSEY723 9/9/2014 12:39PM

    I'm so happy to hear that you and the hubs worked things out! I read somewhere recently that sending an email when you are fighting can be so effective because your SO cannot interrupt you and they get what you are saying without distracting you from your point and going on another tangent. It sounds like it worked out for you too... YAY!!!!

Awesome about the house! I hope everything goes smoothly with that!

And let us know how dinner works out for you guys tonight!!

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Saddened September.....

Sunday, September 07, 2014

I ran today.

I mean....it was slow. Was the slowest run I've done in a long time. But I did it. I got out and I was like not thinking....I think that's what I was after. Just the golden, dead and brown views contrasted next to the blue sky and nothing in my brain but the tunes that I tried to recognize from the iTunes.

I had a big fight with the hubster. The kind that I broke down and cried. I hadn't cried like that since we split up three years ago. I had reached out to him and he told me to get on meds.

So I ran.

and it felt good.




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I can't believe I haven't posted in a month. Where did time go? I don't know, but like every blog I've read completely lost time...

ugh

back on it I guess..

I hope...

maybe hubster and I just need to fight more...

then I can run without thinking.

  
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SHERRY99992 9/8/2014 9:35PM

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Good job with the run!!!!

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KNIBARG 9/8/2014 4:28PM

    Running is great for clearing the head - way to have a positive reaction to a negative event!

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ARUNNINGKAT 9/8/2014 3:07PM

    So sorry about the fight! Running sounds like the perfect way to deal - turning something nasty into something good.

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LYNSEY723 9/8/2014 1:37PM

    I'm sorry to hear about the fight! I hope things are better now.

On the plus side, at least you took your stress out on the road and not on cookies!!

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BAZOOKABOBCAT 9/8/2014 9:56AM

    I am glad to hear you had a peaceful and beautiful run. I am not glad to hear that you had a fight that hurt you so badly.

Hopefully you and your husband have had a better talk, one much less hurtful.

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CHANGINGSEASONS 9/8/2014 9:01AM

    Hopefully he said more than 'get on meds' when you opened up to him. Otherwise that would be really heartless and mean. And, you deserve to be treated better than that by far. That said..

I have no idea what you're going through and what feelings and issues that you and/or your hubby have going on. But, when my marriage started really falling apart I went on a low dose anti-depressent and it's one of the best things I have ever done. For years prior I just felt kind of nuts. Sometimes I felt VERY nuts! I was constantly offended or upset or hurt or angry, at somebody. Super touchy..super emotional. I had a couple issues causing that. One was my thyroid. Totally out of whack. I had to have it removed. Then, even afterwards I felt better but still not totally 'right' or 'normal'. When we had marriage problems(honestly it was mostly caused by my behavior/craziness the previous years even though my husband was to blame also for not dealing with it in an appropriate way..like talking to me about it.) and things were falling apart I just couldn't take anymore and insisted my Dr. put me on an anti-depressent. I even cried in her office. After a couple weeks when it built up some I felt NORMAL!! I felt good again. Like my old self that I loved. Not the whiney, lazy, always hurt or offended, grouchy mess that I had become and hated.

So, that's just my own perspective. It may not apply to your situation at all. I know everybody's situations are different. But, I honestly wouldn't take away all of the hurt and marriage problems if I could do it over. It was the most HORRIBLE thing I've ever went through. But, when my husband moved out(ok I threw him out), I got myself back. I tend to give give give give everything to my husband and kids. I want them to have wonderful happy perfect lives and if I have to suffer and sacrifice then I'm fine with that. BUT, that's not the way to be. I didn't have ANY identity of my own aside from being a wife and mother. And, when the wife part was being ripped away from me I felt panicked and lost. Because, I no longer had my own identity. BUT, I got it back. And, we worked things out along the way also and are very strong together again now. That doesn't always happen but I'm very thankful it did for us. We were always a great team before and we are again. But, I still have to force myself to not fall back into giving up my identity for them. Thats why I went back to school to get my degree! That's just for me and I'm really enjoying it.

So, I know this is more like a book but I just want to tell you that YOU need to be happy in YOUR life because it's the only one you're going to get. You deserve to be treated kindly and with love and respect. And, maybe you do need to try some type of med. if there are issues there..but only if YOU think you need to. I KNOW I needed to. Didn't need anybody to tell me, I could tell something was off with me. And, I'm def. not a 'pill popper'. I kind of hate taking pills but this one really did save my life in a way. I wish the best for you no matter what happens. Hugs.

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ENDUROVET 9/8/2014 8:58AM

    Sept is "sad" round here too... My son wrecked his car (thank God he's unharmed, but it seems to me that it didn't make a deep enough impression upon him, so my Mommy-Sense is already fearing that he'll DO IT AGAIN...)
I'm so sorry your hubby was cruel to you - my marital disconnect feels more like a gaping void: the image I come up w/is like a tug o' war - I pull & pull on the rope, but then it comes up slack & empty... I didn't accomplish anything despite all my efforts!
Congrats for running instead of diverting to some unhealthy behavior... I'm getting better at avoiding mindless snacking instead of just "feeling my feels" & getting past it! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ADARKARA 9/8/2014 6:49AM

    I'm really sorry to hear about your fight. I hope you don't need fights in the future to run, but at the very least you chose a healthy escape from the stress. It could have been food or alcohol, but you chose exercise.

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CAKAROO 9/8/2014 5:32AM

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LILHOBBIT29 9/8/2014 2:13AM

    Darling... in my mind your a hero to get out and go running after such a spat. After such a tiff (I suppose we all have them) I'd normally be down and out in my bed for a day or so at least!
I dont know what else to say, so am sending a big hug! Take care and keep your spirits up!

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MARYANNSQUEST 9/7/2014 10:22PM

    emoticon Corrine, My thoughts and Prayers are with you! I am so happy that you were able to run and see the beautiful colors that God gave us to look at when we are outside! Take Care my sweet friend. Sometimes we just need the me time to be silent! Lots of Hugs,
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NELLIEC 9/7/2014 10:02PM

    Well, it sounds pretty drastic to think that you need more fights to be able to run without thinking.

In my case, I am not running, except in cases of emergency. I walk, but I look around me and notice those little beautiful details that God has put everywhere in the world.

I am putting you on my prayer list.

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Starbucks Starbucks Starbucks!!!

Sunday, August 03, 2014

In keeping with my veganized eating I had made a lunch. I LOVE me some hummus so it was smart wraps, with hummus and kale. It's one of my favorite go tos.......that I left at home.

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So I says "self....I'm not the in the mood for a local veggie taco so I guess a Starbucks veggie bowl will do" and I drove to my local drive through

$6.95 later I head back to work and when I get back to work I read "Zesty Chicken Salad"

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As I only have a half hour lunch I text my boss and explain the situation ...

I drive BACK to starbucks and the conversation goes like this:

emoticon "Hi, I asked for a veggie bowl and got a zesty chicken. I'd like to exchange it"

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emoticon "we have Santa Fe Chicken if that helps?"

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CHANGINGSEASONS 8/31/2014 4:54PM

    Geez Louise. Makes u wonder. That would be super frustrating though. Maybe u could stash some food in your desk for emergencies. My boss kept multi grain cups that u just add hot water. Like the special k type.

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FANGFACEKITTY 8/24/2014 12:46PM

    emoticon Gotta watch those big multi-syllable words like vegetarian, they'll trip you up every time!

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SHKIRK 8/11/2014 5:03PM

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ADVENTURE-GIRL 8/9/2014 5:15PM

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BLONDEDOG 8/8/2014 9:18AM

    Wow....

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ARUNNINGKAT 8/4/2014 12:05PM

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JAZZII4 8/4/2014 11:33AM

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BA5454 8/4/2014 7:26AM

    emoticon emoticon What idiots! Vegetarianism is nothing new, why don't people know?

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CAKAROO 8/4/2014 5:52AM

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MARYANNSQUEST 8/3/2014 9:54PM

    emoticon Hope you got your money back! I could imagine your look when he said Santa Fe Chicken! emoticon
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BIGPAWSUP 8/3/2014 3:06PM

    I get that A LOT at different restaurants. Exactly when did chicken become vegetarian?

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TEACHFIRST268 8/3/2014 2:30PM

    LOVE your sense of humor!
Hope you got your $ back!

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HMBROWN1 8/3/2014 1:25PM

    I guess it was that "vegan" Sante Fe Chicken! Lol

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Sorry Cori...but thanks for sharing the laugh!!
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Successes in my failures

Saturday, August 02, 2014

Alrightie everyone!

How'd your first go?

Me?

I guess it depends on how ya look at it.

I went for a run.

I went at 10 am so it was cooler as we are experiencing 100+ weather here in dead and brown California....

It was 88 degrees

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I did half my work out, but I was sweatin' like a BEAST I tell ya...

I mean, look at that magnificent face!!!!



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I was NOT however, able to do my 21 day fix or Jillian and I'll tell ya why.

I went to a swim party.

with the girls

which leads me to my other goals:

stay vegan/no wine

yeah...well here's where I thought "aw man" then went " well, no wait" because I have these conversations with myself see so sometimes it's hard to understand even what I am saying to myself let alone ...

wait...

sorry...

WHAT I was saying is this:

Even though I DID have wine/beer I only had a couple and completely flooded it with water in between. I mean like 4 ox wine ... 12 oz water

I was completely sober when I had my daughter pick me up

WIN!!

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As for the vegan thing.

I kept it real all day. Followed my plan. When I got there I saw Ms. Maha had fresh raspberries (score) salads (score) and guacamole (totally doable in small amounts)

so I loaded my plate up...mmmm spinach, strawberries...mushrooms...wait, that's not a mushroom...that's ....that's chicken??

aw crap.

but see, I still consider it a win because I didn't KNOW it was there. Of course I didn't like spit it up or whatever...I ate it but for where I am ... it was good.

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Now my peeps....do I consider August 1 as a "rest day" for my DVDs and carry on or should I double up the workout on Sunday? hmmmm

I'll play that one by ear.

FIRST I have to work.

like really, go to work

all day.

I know

whoas me.

Happy Saturday Spark Peeps!!

Go get your "rowr" on!!!

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_MSAPRIL17_ 8/22/2014 9:41AM

    Nice work!!!!

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ENDUROVET 8/22/2014 8:52AM

    Heh heh - I love the quote from Scott Pilgrim vs The World: "What do you mean Chicken Parmesan ISN'T vegan???"

Good for you - as I just wrote, I'm NOT gonna sacrifice all my pleasures either!

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CAKAROO 8/3/2014 8:29AM

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BIGPAWSUP 8/2/2014 6:25PM

    Awesome!!

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