Thursday, March 06, 2014
I'm just not in a good mood today. I'm sick of people treating me like dirt. I tired of trying to please everyone around me. Why do people say being a mom is the hardest job you will ever have? Because children don't treat you well. They use and abuse you. Some DH feed off of that and don't help, only make it worse.
BEAM ME UP SCOTTIE!! I'm tired of being on this planet. But if I were to go some place happy I'd probably only mess that place up too.
My self esteem has CRASHED! I'm spinning out of control. Why? Can't do anything right. Just ask my family. Oh not just the one I live with but my extended one too.
Feeling as blue as my page.
Apparently I can blog with out SP being glitchy but I can't seem to do too much else without issues. URRR....The ONE thing I've decided to do for myself. I CAN'T !!! URRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm thinking my bad mood has gone to angry.
Tears and more tears. I don't want to be this way any more. Don't know how to fix it.
Saturday, March 01, 2014
Yep, got bullied. Tears involved. Why do I deal with these people? Diplomas. One and only reason times two. One for each child. Will be glad when I don't have to do this anymore.
This too shall pass.....but not soon enough to suit me.
A friend of mine rescued me and my lack of teckieness by emailing pictures for the yearbook in jpeg form for me.
I asked my DD to write her bio for the graduation program due tomorrow. She couldn't seem to find the time until I wrote one for her which she HATED. I said, "If you hate it so much do it yourself." This is what she came up with:
Hello my name is DD. I love nature, animals, and exploring all that life has to offer. After I graduate this year, I plan on pursuing all of my whims and interests. I do plan on going to college, just not necessary straight away. I do not know what I want to study or dedicate my life to; I don’t think that anyone does really. All of our plans come and go, changing as our lives go on. Nobody needs to have it together or all figured out wither they are 18, 25, or 43! Life is about pursing happiness and the things that make you happy are always going to vary. Sure, I could have a plan to jump straight into college and graduate in eight years with some big, fancy degree and then work hard until I can retire but what fun is that? Nobody’s plans are going to stay the same as life goes on. Nobody’s! I want to get out into the world and see what it has to offer. Maybe I’ll dread my hair and backpack through Europe, or possibly move to California and life in a tent on the beach. Life is about enjoying what is around you; living, learning, and growing. “Not all of those who wonder are lost.” J.R.R. Tolkien.
I thought it was well done. I had to do a rewrite to shorten it to only 150 words. Which one do you like better? A or B.
A) My name is DD. I love nature, animals, and exploring. I plan on pursuing my whims, interests and going to college, not necessarily straight away. I don't know what I want to study or dedicate my life to. Nobody needs to have all figured out whether they are 18, 25, or 43! Life is about pursuing happiness. Sure, I could have a plan to jump straight into college, graduate in eight years with some fancy degree then work hard until retirement, but what fun is that? Nobody’s plans stay the same. Nobody’s! I want to get out and see what the world has to offer. Maybe I’ll dread my hair and backpack through Europe, or move to California, live in a tent on the beach. Life is about enjoying what is around you; living, learning, and growing. “Not all of those who wonder are lost.” J.R.R. Tolkien. 151
B) "Hello, my name is DD. I love nature, animals, and exploring all that life has to offer. After I graduate I plan on pursuing all of my whims and interests. I plan on going to college, just not necessarily straight away. I don't know what I want to dedicate my life to, I don't think anyone does really. Nobody has it all figured out, weather they are 18, 25, or 43! Sure, I could have a plan to jump straight into college, graduate with some fancy degree and work hard until retirement, but what fun is that? Nobody's plans stay the same, nobody's! I want to get out into the world and see what it has to offer. Maybe I'll backpack through Europe, or move to California. Life is about enjoying what is around you, living, learning, and growing. "Not all of those who wander are lost" J.R.R, Tolkien" I think that's 150...
Jeepers 1am again. No wonder I can't loose weight no matter how hard I try. Well at least the Bio is done except for the voting part and emailing it in. I'll do that tomorrow after I help clean the Croft House at the Zoo. I get to help make it all pretty for the spring busy season. I won't be getting there early enough to pet a horse but I'll be able to sleep well I hope.
Friday, February 28, 2014
Today is school sign ups. Yep, that time again. We home school. Planning for next year started 2 weeks ago. Now to go to our group, get a number, be herded like cattle, all so we can get the classes we want.
I also have to get van through inspection, tags, Walmart--need a copy of a picture that has to be turned in today, (thought I did that already), pick up kids by 2, have 1 dropped off at 5 - picked up at 7ish, get uniform ready to work the Zoo in the morning, make sure DS has his Scout and other things ready for his early day tomorrow.
Need to coordinate transportation for DD to a from a class in the early afternoon tomorrow. Why not let her do it? She doesn't want to go to this class in the first place.
I'm tired and I haven't left yet. Yep, still in pjs. LOVE MY PJS! Can't we just pretend we did it all already and climb under the covers where its safe and the people in my head are all friendly?
Just to give you a fun fact about sign up day at our school group: People are rude, hateful, unkind, unsmiling, condescending, back stabbing, .......Why do we go here? Because in the home schools in this area you end up with a GED. NOT this one. A real live High School Diploma is the carrot at the end of all this grief. Yep, that's my motivation. My eye is on the prize. So get out of my way. I've been preparing for today for a month. I have on my boxing gloves ready for the fight today. I plan to leave this day victorious. There will be no tears from me today. I will not lose my temper. I will be sweet unless pushed too far. I WILL STAND UP FOR ME AND MY KIDS TODAY! I WILL NOT BE BULLIED BY THESE PEOPLE.
Now to go into the ring.
Tuesday, October 15, 2013
Doing a gallbladder flush starting tonight. Please pray for me. I'm a bit...ok...I'm concerned it won't end well.
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