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I'm going to WALK WITHOUT PAIN by July 4th!

Wednesday, April 07, 2010

This morning when I woke up I was not in too much pain as long as I didn't move!

Well as it happens, one can't lay in bed in one position for the rest of his/her life, so I had to get up.

The left knee wouldn't bend, then it wouldn't straighten so I had to use some effort to get it to move. The doctor said the x-rays were good, no arthritis, or cartilage loss and no visible injury. So I told my knee that...it didn't listen!

I hobbled into the bathroom for a bath (usually a soak with melaleuca helps my knee and sciatica). In order to turn on the faucet, I had to bend over and that set off the sciatica to the extent that I crumbled onto the side of the tub, clinging there in agony and feeling sorry for myself. I can't describe the pain, but its worse than child birth. I think its right up there with kidney stones (yes, I've had them).

I could take drugs for the pain that would make it a lot more bearable and I probably should; but, I'm just not a pill popper! I'm a rebel! We live in a country that wants to fix everything with a pill. Nobody wants to find and fix the problem; everyone just wants a pill...all except for me. Yes I broke down and took a couple pain pills on Easter, but it was so it would dull my senses because it doesn't help sciatica pain. Nothing does that I've ever taken. The pills were old, from my surgery on 2007, but they helped keep my head in a fog so I could socialize, kind of (oxycodone). I'm glad I kept them. It was good for an emergency and that was an emergency. Fortunately I was able to sit with pillows propping me in 'just the right position' to avoid the brunt of the pain, and I had my trusty heating pad. It was a painful day regardless of the fog from the pills.

From the year 1999 to 2009 I could barely get around and could only walk from one room to the other because of the pain. I'm not going back there again! Ever!

I dried my eyes and blew my nose and reminded myself that it is all oppression. I decided to fight back! I was walking without pain or a cane last summer and I am determined to walk that way again by this summer. I didn't use any drugs or therapy last year and I'm going to stop doing the physical therapy. I'm done with being a guinea pig for the therapists. They haven't a clue for how to treat a defected spine (spondylolisthesis) and all they did was make it worse again. I shouldn't have ever gone, but I thought that by now, there should be something that may help. I was wrong. I had been through this before several times and each time I got worse and worse with each passing visit. I'm done with that nonsense!

I managed to sit in the tub for approximately 15 excruciation minutes then I had to get out because that is not a comfortable position for sciatica pain. But a 15 minute soak is better than nothing.

Fifteen minutes was all I really needed to remind myself that I don't have to submit or even give in a little. I can fight this. I must!

On my own, I am determined to walk without pain or a cane by July 4th! I can do this and I will, or I will die trying! This personal goal far surpasses any other drive within me. I can and I will walk again!!!

88 days starting from today and counting!

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SUMMERSILK 4/9/2010 11:54AM

    Good for you Dusty, attitude does have a lot to do with it! You can walk by July 4th, just hang in there and do it! I don't blame you for not turning to pain pills every time you get a pain, I'm the same way and don't plan on changing anytime soon either. I will keep you in my prayers, you can do this!

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UMTONDO 4/8/2010 3:12AM

    Thats it show us your fighting spirit. You can and will do it. Will also pray for you.
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TODAYSAGIFT 4/7/2010 6:35PM

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I came home with additional owies from my trip to the coast

Sunday, February 28, 2010

. My DH had a great time at the coast!

Ever wonder if you should go somewhere when you know you probably shouldn't?

That's what happened with me. I was having trouble with my left knee and although it isn't confirmed by a physician, the symptoms are that of a bakers cyst (just behind the left knee) and it was (and still is) causing me pain especially when straightening the leg or when I put weight on it.

Then of course, my back has issues stemming from birth but I really took it over the top when I lifted a 40 pound container of kitty litter a couple weeks ago. Dumb! I know! So adding to the birth defect that I was dealt with from birth, more pain! Bringing me to my knees pain. Instead of having occasional sciatic nerve pain on the left side; it turned into sporadic pain on the right side. For those of you unfamiliar with sciatic pain let me give you some kind of idea. Imagine getting a spear thrust into your bum that is charged with electric current so the pain not only affects the bum, but the current sends additional pain down the leg. The part of my spine affected by the kitty litter seems to be the tail bone (which by coincidence I had fractured in the past some 20 years ago). That kind of pain can best be described by imagining some big hurly guy wearing steel toed logging boots hauling off and kicking you squarely in the tail bone. Hard! Yeah...it hurts in spasms just like that. Lets not forget that I'm a wee bit chubby so the additional weight doesn't help.

Now that you have the back ground, let me press on with my story here.

The ride to the coast was a daunting two hours of constant sitting. I don't know about you, but when I sit, my tail bone pretty much takes the brunt of the load, so by the time we finally got there, I wanted to just lay down and relax a few minutes, but the view was breath taking! The whole western wall was glass with glass patio doors leading to a deck and the ocean was right there! There were no buildings, houses or anything to obstruct the view, just a few weathered tree tops and the beautiful ocean licking the shore!

Then...guess what? Stairs! The bedrooms were upstairs. Each step was like having that logger behind me applying swift kicks and that spear being thrust in repeatedly with each step. I finally got down on my hands and feet (can't use my knees because of my left knee) and finished climbing the stairs; later I found that coming down stairs would also be easier on my hands and feet. Then, wonder of wonders...we had the good fortune of having a Jacuzzi in our bedroom! I stared down into the seductive deep tub imaging all those lovely jets spurting soothing water out massaging my back, knee and sore bum. I could almost imagine harps playing in the back ground. I could hardly wait!

My DH and cousins DH went to the store and my cousin was resting so I had plenty of time to bathe.

After cleaning the tub (it looked clean, but I'm a fuddy-duddy, you never know what bacteria and or germs might be lurking in those jets) I drew water and climbed up over the side and into the roiling water. It was a long way down into that tub! I added a bit of antibacterial Melaleuca soap and a drop of Melaleuca Solumel and the soothing fragrance was wonderful and there was just a wee bit of suds everything should have been perfect, right? Think about it; if riding for two hours on a cushioned car seat was hard on the tail bone, imagine a hard fiberglass bottomed tub! Jets or not, it was NOT comfortable in the least and I was having problems trying to find a way to sit in that confining tub that would not involve my tail bone or bum. After about 15 minutes of writhing about, I'd had enough and was ready to get out; but soon I felt very much like a big sardine in a very small can.

I wound up thrashing around trying to get out (I'm chubby, remember?) I couldn't put weight on my left knee because it was already having a pain fest of its own. I couldn't shift to my right because that invisible spear was there jabbing me in the bum. The tub was deep so I couldn't just hoist my chubby self up by hanging onto the sides. I drained the tub hoping that would help. But there I sat, using my hands for cushions, while I waited for my DH to return.

When my DH finally returned, I was still sitting there shivering deep in the bottom of the Jacuzzi. My DH tried to help me out, but he couldn't lift me and I couldn't lift myself! But then I had a vision of my cousins DH having to help and maybe the fire department and those visions motivated me beyond super human strength! I flopped around until I could finally get my weight over my left foot so I could hoist myself up and out! In doing all that excessive thrashing I added more pain to my back that has lasted to even now. That's how I got the additional owie!

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FLAMINGOLESLIE 4/12/2010 12:42PM

    I am so sorry that you are in chronic pain and pray that you are healed! I found myself in a similar situation a couple of years ago when I was housesitting for my son & his wife. They were out of town and I had both of the kids so after getting them settled for the night I thought that a nice bubble bath in their jacuzzi would be just what the doctor ordered! So I turned on the water and added what I thought was the correct amount of bubblebath and crawled in to that wonderful, hot water. Oh it felt so good and I thought I was hearing harps myself! Well the next thing you know, the bubbles were getting taller and taller and soon were above my head and spreading all over the floor! (Thank God it was tile!)I turned the water off and started to get out and guess what?!?!?! emoticon You got it-couldn't get out! The tub was too deep to flop over, I hurt really bad at that time when I turned due to having my chest cracked open from open heart surgery, and I thought I had one bad knee, actually I found out that I have 2! I thought-well I'm not going to wake my grandkids up, besides they were only 4 and 7-what could they do with this beached whale in their parents tub?!?!?!?!? It was late at night and I didn't have the phone in there with me...oh great! Well, I FINALLY pried myself out of there, it took almost an hour to get out! And it was very slippery too. I cleaned up the bubbles (they had the cleanest floors in the world!) and just sighed and went to bed. They asked me to housesit a couple of weeks ago and of course I said yes, but I stayed away from that TOTURETUB!!!!!!! You are not alone!!!! emoticon emoticon

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TODAYSAGIFT 3/27/2010 4:33PM

    Love the pic with the birds!

My mom used to get baker's cysts on her wrists. I've never had any. You have me curious now. Guess I'll look it up on the web.

Thanks for the kind post on my page! Look forward to getting to know you.

Have a great weekend.

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DJ4HEALTH 3/25/2010 10:02PM

    Glad that you were able to get out. I too could not imagine having others there watching me struggle just to get out. I have my family laughing at me as it is but to have strangers laugh too is too much too.

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LPNNURSE051 3/4/2010 3:01PM

    Awww Dusty! I am sorry for your struggles and additional owies. It does sound like a beautiful place though and the pictures were beautiful. Heal soon. May God touch you and remove your pain.
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UMTONDO 3/2/2010 3:43PM

    Hi Dusty, Get hubby to get you a trailer tyre tube. You know the small one just the same size as your seat. This you can inflate to suit your bottom for comfort as well, (not too much),you can use it in the Jacuzzi if you got one at home. Don't use the ring that children swim with, it does not last, too weak. My late wife had the same problem tried cushions but it caught in the wrong places. Whereas the hollow in the tube is comfortable and does not press on the tail bone. Hope this helps.

Here is an old folk remedy to try let me know if it helps.


I believe that most of your moms always tell you to drink a glass of salt water/rinse your mouth with salt water if you have a sore throat because salt can reduce inflammation.

This method has actually been proven (medically) to be really effective and it really can help to reduce inflammation.

They have also tested on other medical values of salt and found out that:

If you have pain in your joints/spine/body, you can simply try out this method which can help to relieve the pain (especially for old people who have rheumatism). Simply fry the salt let it settle down for a while before applying on affected areas. And if you have a problem of Hair Loss, you can simply prepare a pail of salt water and rinse your scalp/hair with it (it takes about 2 weeks to a month). It will not help in growing of new hair but can prevent. After tedious/strenous excercise, soaking your feet with salt water can help to prevent cramps and pain., and also prevent from skin irritation. Hope it will be of help to you.

If you are interested can send you 3 pages of health remedies which have found works well especially the honey and cinamon ones which I use. Don't want to put it on as a blog as may cause complications.

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    Glad you had a . . . good? time. I almost said "painful" time, but, then I couldn't say glad you had a good one. I clean the tub first, too. Hope you get better soon!

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HEALTHY-GG 3/1/2010 2:02AM

    Hello Dusty,
I hope and pray that you find some relief soon! I know your pain and you describe it well!

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SUMMERSILK 2/28/2010 2:49PM

    Dusty, what a beautiful place, but a terrible prediciment to be in! I'm so sorry that happened and I know it sure wasn't funny at the time, but I had to laugh at your story...been there and done that! Oh, can I relate! My lower spine is where I have my problem too and I've also had a Baker's Cyst behind my knee, so I sure know the pain from that as well. Luckily, I fell and mine burst then about two months later the pain began to ease up and I could walk again. I hope you get to doing better real soon my friend! emoticon

Kathy :)

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SHIRLEYX 2/28/2010 2:36PM

    Dusty, I don't know how you manage to do it to yourself. I hope that you are relaxing and healing at home and the pain is subsiding.

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Wednesday, December 09, 2009

Does anyone here have a pattern for toting a casserole dish? Iíd like to make one for myself and my sister in law. Iím looking for one that will carry a round casserole dish and one that will carry a rectangle. I canít knit, but if I have to, I can crochet; but I would really rather sew.

I have checked the free patterns websites to no avail. I don't have time to join the other ones, and I only want just those two patterns.

Can anyone help me with this project?

Thanks muchly!

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2BFREE2LIVE 12/9/2009 2:52PM

    Simple solution when time is short.
Use place mats round ones for the round dish and rectangle ones for the long dish. I have done this in a pinch, just sew them together leaving an opening on one side to slip the dish inside, I usually cover with a lid or heavy duty foil depending on the dish.
You can use a sewing machine or you can whip stitch them together. I hope this helps. emoticonI use seasonal placemats for a little holiday spirit. Sandy

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DEBORAHMM1 12/9/2009 1:01PM

    Dusty, I have a pattern in a craft book I have. Spark mail me how I can get it to you.

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ASCONAMAUS 12/9/2009 4:38AM

Check out knitting pattern central and crochet pattern central. They both have a ton of free patterns and i'm sure you'll find something for that c√Ęsserol you need. Just serch for the sites in your favorite search maschine. Hope you enjoy the sites.

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Thursday, December 03, 2009

Sadly, there is a cartoon in last Sundays paper that I can relate to; itís titled ďMUTTSĒ and it shows two characters lying on the floor on their back and they are so fat their feet donít even touch the floor. They are groaning about how stuffed they were from eating too much; then one mentions that there is one piece of pumpkin pie left. Both characters lift their heads and the next frame shows them pigging down that last piece of pie.

Thatís the way I used to be. I would eat until I was full then eat until I was stuffed then eat until I could barely breathe. That is sick, not funny! I read that cartoon and instead of laughing I thought Ďif it were not for the grace of God I would still be that way!í

The truth is, I didnít over stuff myself (so far) this holiday season, but itís not over yet. I plan on being Ďgoodí throughout the holidays though. I know I can do it. There is a dear lady on my Sparkteam that has a saying that I have adopted as my own (mentally) and it goes something like this, ďNothing tastes as good as skinny feelsĒ. I like that saying. Whenever I get hungry for something sweet, I try to remember that saying.

I havenít weighed myself in over a month, but that is because it is cold in the house in the mornings (56 degrees F/13.3 degrees C this morning) and I now spend the mornings building a fire to take the chill off and making hot water for tea. What do fire and tea have to do with weighing myself? I weigh myself naked in the mornings that way I always have the same thing on; nothing, so it wonít have any affect on my weight.

But it has turned into a little contest for me now; because now I have challenged myself to have a weight loss (any amount) by January 1st. I say any amount because I donít want to sabotage my efforts or make myself feel bad, so Iíll accept even a pound for a loss. Iíve been at a stand still for quite a while tossing the same 3 or 4 pounds around back and forth. I donít Ďclaimí a weight loss unless itís the scales read the same loss twice in a row so my ups and downs donít count. This personal rule of mine will also apply for January.

I hope that you will also join me in a personal challenge to lose any amount of weight by the 1st of the year. Itís always more fun to know someone else is in the same boat; but none-the-less, I will endeavor to accomplish this either way. It IS after all, a personal battle, nobody else can ďmakeĒ me lose this weight; it must be of my own free will.

I want what my dear friend hasÖto taste of skinny again. Not for the sake of pride or vanity or because I want to look cute or any of that, but to be healthy and have more endurance. I want to run again (without affecting the Richter Scale). Iím doing this for me!
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YIGOBUTTERFLY 12/9/2009 6:43AM

    Dusty, I have the same rule about posting and changing my tracker. I usually do it in 5 pound increments but goofed the last time. I hit a new weight a few day ago and then went right back up. Oh, well.
Stay warm.
Jane on Guam

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LADYNASDAQ 12/9/2009 5:30AM

  I am trying to lose weight, any amount before the new year and started to. What happened is that I see how I have slipped up once again but if it had to happen, this is the time to do it imo because I am catching the reasons why and what is happening w/me.
It seems that I am slipping up at work. Not at home at all. Work with stress is once again knocking me to the ground and it has to be noted and stopped. My big appetite comes from stress and it has to be noted and looked at rationally.
I think starting on Nov. 39th gave me the edge because I am facing the obstacles now vs. later as to why I am starting Program and then falling off and I know what it's going to take and I am willing to make the changes.
Also, I thought I was good to start back on the old WW's Core Plan and I'm once again overeating and craving sweets. I have to resign myself to counting points and eating healthier and with more discipline.
Your blog has helped me just pour over what's going on on this end and I appreciate you spending time to help others and include me in this.
zvery helpful!

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1AVERY 12/4/2009 10:19AM

    I will join this also I am also tossing the same few lbs. back and the forth the last couple of months. I am going to do some of my new eating plan in Dec. My sister that usually has the dinners is on a Biggest Loser Challenge so I am sure our Christmas will be healthy and lean. Our thanksgiving was also. I am not buying any chocolate for anyone this Christmas. I am going to help everyone in my own little way for their own good whether thay know it or not.
Together we will do this. Teri

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SNOWFLAKELILYM9 12/3/2009 3:32PM


I will join you in your challenge to have a loss by New Years, any loss. I know you can do it and so can I. I too remember the days I would stuff myself and I can't believe it and I'm so glad I don't do that anymore. How awful to think about. You have done great and you will reach your goal.


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KJOY21 12/3/2009 2:08PM

  I think this is great! I'm right there with you-hoping for a loss by New Years! You are going about this is a healthy way that will lead to happiness!

I wish you the best of luck and I can't wait to see how much you've lost by New Years!

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Friday, November 06, 2009

Inspired by the beauty of fall I have been taking pictures of the great outdoors in all its radiant colors! Even the raindrops on the marigolds give a delicate sparkle to the blooms. The trees everywhere shout out their splendor adornment. Life is most vibrant in its last stages Lets be like Autumn and put forth our very best while we still have the opportunity to do so.

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LOOSING_IT 11/10/2009 2:38AM

    wow amazing! makes me think of home, the parks and forrests there shine in the most beautiful colors, so bright... nature has given us everything we need to shine too, let's be thankful for it and do it! emoticon

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KEMGRIA 11/6/2009 7:24PM

    wow - those are just beautiful pictures!! thanks so much for sharing them emoticon

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VICKYWICKY1 11/6/2009 1:18PM

    I think Mother God has provided us with a spectacular display this year. Thanks for stopping by my page. I was eager to see your pictures and was blessed. Take care my friend.
Bunches of emoticon emoticon,

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2BFREE2LIVE 11/6/2009 1:00PM

    Beautiful photos, I think this year Mother Nature gave us a beautiful show.

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SNOWFLAKELILYM9 11/6/2009 10:04AM

    Beautiful pictures!!!!!!! Thank you for sharing. Everything is gone by here now already. Fall is my favorite season. I loved your captions as well.


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HOLLY_ROSE3 11/6/2009 8:55AM

    How BEAUTIFUL! emoticon

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HEALTHY-GG 11/6/2009 8:29AM

    I love the photos! Fall is my favorite time of year!!
Thank-you for sharing.
Have a happy day!, GG

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HAPPYWALKER 11/6/2009 7:46AM

    I love the pictures! All our leaves have fallen and the trees are baren now. It makes everything look so dead and drab. Oh well, it's the cycle of life and I'll patiently wait until everything comes alive again in April.

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WILD4STARS 11/6/2009 7:22AM

    Beautiful, thank you.
Happy Sparking,

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MARLENE2995 11/6/2009 6:50AM

    Thanks for the pictures! I love autumn and the crisp, clear air. Enjoy it while it lasts!

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