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Losing 100 pounds didn't make me cry, but this did...

Sunday, September 18, 2011

Labor Day weekend, I hit the 100 pounds lost mark. I was happy, but not as happy as I thought I would/should be. For the last couple weeks, I've been dealing with some really weird emotions because of it. Last week, I decided I needed a break. At first, I was going to take a break from the ENTIRE weight loss journey, but decided that would be a HUGE mistake. Seeing as how I've been dealing with these crazy emotions, the last thing I needed to do, was to throw all food sense out the window. Instead, I opted for a workout free week. I was drained physically and emotionally, and I felt like I needed to do this. From Saturday until Sunday I didn't do anything. No walking, no gym, no Zumba, nothing and by Wednesday, I was going crazy. However, I was getting a lot of needed sleep. I go to the gym at 4am 3 days a week, so I really enjoyed sleeping in until 6am. Also, I wasn't asleep on the couch by 9pm either, which hubby really enjoyed! So how did it go... well, because I wasn't going to workout, I ate at the VERY bottom of my calorie range, and I've lost weight. We'll see how exactly much at tomorrow's weigh in. Although, I DID need sleep, I really missed the workouts. And the longer the week got, the more worried I got about not wanting to get back to it. This afternoon, I was SO excited to go for a walk, I was like a puppy jumping around by the door. It felt great, but I'm a little stiff, so it'll be an interesting week.

So if I did so well this week, why am I crying? Well, yesterday when I got home from the zoo, it was pretty chilly in the house. I looked for a sweatshirt, which I don't have yet, and found one of hubby's pull over fleeces. I yanked it out of the closet, saw that it was only a large, and thought "I'll never get into this, but I'll try it on, it might be good enough." IT FIT!!!!!! The large fit!!! Mike is 5'10" and weighs about 170, I've never weighed less than him, let alone fit into anything he owns. Instantly, I broke into tears. I called my mom and she couldn't figure out what was "wrong" I was sobbing AND laughing so hard. I finally got it out and she kind of laughed at me and said "You weren't this happy when you lost 100 pounds!" I didn't want to take the fleece off. Even when I put fish in the oven for dinner and it made the house hot... I just opened the windows! This has meant so much more to me that ANY milestone I've hit so far on this journey.

  
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STUCKNIRAQ 11/18/2011 9:29AM

    Wow. That is amazing. When did you start your journey?

I am trying to lose 60 lbs by April.

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TRAVLNWOMAN 10/19/2011 10:10AM

    The scale lies to us so often on our journey to fitness. Its no wonder you didn't cry when you got that final pound off to make it a hundred total. Clothes seldom lie to us. (We lie to our clothes saying "those pants must have shrunk in the dryer" when it was ourselves getting bigger.) Putting on that shirt that never fit you hit the home run in your mind proving that you are getting smaller.

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ELLABELLASMOM 10/6/2011 2:33AM

    That's great. Way to go. it's amazing how our emotions work.

Enjoy the feeling of accomplishment! you deserve it. Congrats on the weightloss!

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LETTINGGO85 10/4/2011 12:03PM

    Amazing! Way to go!

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REBELBLITZ 9/27/2011 11:37AM

    Good for you! Those are wonderful happy tears!

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JENNYBAKER247 9/27/2011 7:54AM

    Amazing! You have made me cry too! FANTASTIC! It really isn't about what the scale says, it's about what you can and can't do. What you can and can't wear. How other perceive you. Absolutely fabulous!!! Go Holly, Go!!!

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LENKA763 9/26/2011 3:04PM

    awesome!
isn't that weird that sometimes those little things are more fulfilling then the facts?

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ERIN4771 9/26/2011 1:14PM

    this brought tears to MY eyes my friend!! how awesome!! congrats!

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1FORME2 9/25/2011 7:12PM

  Way to go little girl!

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KIPPER15 9/25/2011 3:06PM

    I now have stolen one of my hubby's shirts to sleep in. I have warned him that I will so be stealing his T- shirts, His jeans will always be safe as he is 6 ft to my 5 ft. I know how cool it was when I stole his shirt. Great job!! emoticon emoticon

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NSPIREME 9/25/2011 11:49AM

    Way to go! I can't fit into my husbands clothes either. You're an inspiration! Thank you.

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KIN59VARA 9/25/2011 5:35AM

    Good for you!

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APURPLEPRINCESS 9/24/2011 9:15PM

    That is just wonderful! Way To Go! emoticon

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ON2VICTORY 9/24/2011 11:06AM

    that is sooooo awesome, way to go my friend. :)

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IGSBETH 9/23/2011 12:18PM

    Woohoo!

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AMJSATURN 9/23/2011 1:21AM

    Bravo for you, please love yourself or the success you have made. emoticon

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FITNESSHEATHER 9/22/2011 10:56PM

    Congrats! That is awesome. I hope to have that feeling one day.

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JMARIES51 9/22/2011 7:50PM

    That is really fantastic. Sounds like maybe visualizing 100 pounds gone is more difficult than visualizing what it means when you see it in something familiar, like your hubby's clothes. I hear it often takes time for the mind to catch up with the body image. Great blog! Thanks for sharing.

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MRS.DR.SHOT 9/22/2011 6:53PM

    That was fantastic. Thanks so much for sharing!

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BLONDBIKEGIRL 9/22/2011 5:45PM

    Awesome! This actually made me cry as well! Way to go sista - I've also gotten smaller than my guy and I have to admit it's really empowering and I feel ultra feminine because of it!

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LADYBUG643 9/22/2011 5:20PM

  CONGRATULATIONS! And thank you for being an inspiration for me to keep going and not give up.

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JENN26POINT2 9/22/2011 3:12PM

    Awesome non-scale victory and victory party afterwards! Tears of joy! So happy for you! 100 lbs is amazing. Congratulations and keep up the amazing work you're doing for yourself! You deserve it!

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ANEWMECOMING 9/22/2011 3:04PM

  Way to go!!!! The 100 pounds was really significant and impressive, but it is a number. Putting on that fleece was the REAL impact of that number. A milestone that is visible that you probably thought you'd never reach. So congratulations!!! Claim that fleece as your own and never forget how you felt when you put it on. It will help you get through future emotions that make you want to take a break from it all. emoticon emoticon

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LORIENABANANA 9/22/2011 2:27PM

    Now I'm going to cry when I see fleece, too!! emoticon

I love the imagery. Thanks for posting!!!

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CHLOESUE 9/22/2011 1:59PM

    Congratulations on your 100 pound weight loss and being able to wear your hubby's size Large sweat shirt.What a great feeling that had to have been for you.

Hope you had a great weigh in.I am working on weighing less than my hubby but have about 20 pounds to go yet.

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JULIEBURGESS1 9/22/2011 12:12PM

  congratulations on the 100 lb loss! and congratulations on the wearing of the fleece!!! totally understand the emotions you felt!!!!!! so happy for you.

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-PAULA 9/22/2011 12:01PM

    Congratulations! Thanks for the inspiring blog!

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Congratulations on your success!



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CHEERCOACH6 9/22/2011 11:09AM

  congrats!!! that is awesome!!!!

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MSMANDA16 9/22/2011 11:08AM

    I completely understand. I could care less what the scale says but, the fact that my jeans fit better is amazing!!! Congratulations on the 100 lbs and the fleece!

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SPORTSMOM03 9/22/2011 10:45AM

    Congratulations - it's the weirdest things that make us lose control over our emotions. Way to go!

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TERESANAVARRO 9/22/2011 10:41AM

    Congrats on the weight loss and the downsizing!
And what a great lesson to all of us that sometimes we do need to take a break from the workouts but it doesn't mean we have to give up all our good habits.

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FLYING2007 9/22/2011 10:39AM

    That is so awesome! I have never weighed less than my hb either or at least not for 20 years! Good for you!

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SWEETNEET2 9/22/2011 10:31AM

    Tears of joy! Congratulations girl! emoticon

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SUZYDVB852GO 9/22/2011 10:26AM

  Wow I loved reading your post. It makes me hopeful that I will be there someday. Congratulations emoticon

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52WEEKSLAURA 9/22/2011 10:23AM

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I'm one that loves the journey and as soon as I reach my destination--I want to go back 'home'!

I've had a few of those moments! The other day I realized I was getting dressed without having to sit down! Those little milestones are the best! Enjoy the ride! This is the first day of the rest of your life!

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CHLOEGRACE1 9/22/2011 9:58AM

    Congratulations on your loss; and your cry! The number on the scale is only a number on the scale; the clothes fitting you made it real!

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CARLYDK85 9/22/2011 9:56AM

    That's great! You're amazing!! I'm also trying to work my way to 100+lbs lost and it's so encouraging to hear stories like yours!! Congratulations!

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BEGONIAC 9/22/2011 9:25AM

    Isn't it wierd what pushes your buttons? For me it was getting a regular size bath towel wrapped around me and staying up! It still gives me a thrill...
Congrats on your incredible success! And congrats on making it through an off week without losing your way. You're doing great things for yourself! emoticon emoticon emoticon

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MSTEMM1 9/22/2011 8:50AM

  You go girl. What ever works, to help you release the pent up emotions.
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THRICEBLESSED 9/22/2011 7:49AM

    Congratulations!!! emoticon emoticon

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KAJIRA_CALLA 9/22/2011 5:11AM

    great story thanks for sharing i need to get back on track again although not sure if i can or not emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CUDDLYPOLARBEAR 9/22/2011 2:23AM

    Great post

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AWESOMEIN12 9/22/2011 12:36AM

    A good HAPPY cry! Good for you!

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BIONICMONARCH 9/21/2011 11:48PM

    WOOHOO!

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SPAYYOURCAT 9/21/2011 11:43PM

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Thanks for being an inspiration!

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SJBAILEY1 9/21/2011 10:27PM

    I totally understand!!! It is one of my mini goals, to weigh less than my DH! emoticon

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KEIJAN 9/21/2011 10:12PM

    My Hubs is about the same.....5'11" and weighs in the 160 range and I have never been close to weighing less than him.....but if one of his shirts fit me comfortably, I think I would cry too! GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!!

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    awesome story. thank you for sharing it. emoticon

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I can't thank everyone enough

Saturday, September 10, 2011

for supporting me last night. All the personal garbage came to a head yesterday and of course, first instinct, I wanted to eat. Man, when does that stop? Comfort in carbs... So I came out on the other side after, 2 lean cuisine french bread pizzas and a skinny cow ice cream sandwich. Not the best, but that's where it ended and I tracked it all. No M&M's, oreo's, or late night runs for "real pizza." I went to bed, got a pretty good nights sleep and was up to go the gym. This morning, I feel better mentally, but physically, I'm not doing so hot. I feel pretty gross right now, and thought I was going to vomit the whole time I was at the gym. I'm bummed that I turned to food, but in the last 15 months, I can honestly say I've only done that a handful of times. In the past, I stuffed ALL emotions down with food, and to be able to count on one hand how often that's happened since I began this journey, I'd say I'm doing ok. It's not healthy, I need better ways to deal with things, but I'm a lot better now then I was a year ago. Again, thank you all for your support, I really appreciate it.

  
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JENNYBAKER247 9/27/2011 7:56AM

    Sooo proud of you! You ROCK!

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COACHKRYSTIE 9/15/2011 10:19AM

    Yay! So glad you made it threw it!!! Proud of you

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JENNIFER_67 9/13/2011 9:12AM

    So glad you made it through. And, more importantly, you realize how far you have come. No, you may not be perfect. Who is? But you dealt with the issues without going overboard. And recognized it for what it was.

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COMPASS_ROSE 9/10/2011 9:19PM

    Whew! You made it through and that is all that counts! I'm really happy for you. Enjoy all victories -- no matter how small. Like the others have said...at least you didn't "wake up with a cookie stuck to your face in a stranger's bathtub." Now that would have been rough! GREAT JOB! Tomorrow is a whole new day!

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LITTLEKIM4 9/10/2011 1:38PM

    I'd say you've made tremendous progress in this regard! You're such an inspiration!

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LETTINGGO85 9/10/2011 12:55PM

    You are amazing. Let go of last night, it sounds like you did great. Sometimes it gets stressful and we overeat, in the big picture of what you have accomplished one night means very little. You got this! You are worth it!
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WONDERBUG381 9/10/2011 12:19PM

    Your doing great. So very proud of you.
Think of how far you have come.
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JAMIEU86 9/10/2011 11:51AM

    I had the same kind of day just this week, i have gotten past that day thankfully. It use to be one day that turned in to many and it would throw me right back to the begging. Its a good thing you still kept to tracking! And that your back on track this morning! I know that we can both overcome our emotional eating habits. It is hard, but nothing is impossible!
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BCAVAIUOLO 9/10/2011 11:00AM

    You are amazing! I come to your sparkpage (and a few others) to get my daily motivation! Sometimes I look at your results and think...wow she's a super hero! But your blog last night proved to me that your very much a regular human who has the same "issues" with food as I do, and now that makes me look up to you a whole lot more! Its because of your blog last night that when my own person issues came to a head and very bad stuff happened that I didnt turn to food. I came to my room turned on my computer and came to sparkpeople and I saw your blog! We are all human and we will fall, but just know that you have friends and family who will be there to help you before or even after you hit the ground! Keep up the awesome work you are doing, and THANK YOU for motivating me (even if you dont know you do it ) Have a great Saturday

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CHANGING4ME49 9/10/2011 10:56AM

    I'm an emotional eater as well. When things get tough food is the first thing I will think of. Lately that hasn't been the case and I am so THANKFUL. My first line of defense is get away from the kitchen. I will go in my room to read or I will do a craft, scrapbook page, etc. Anything to get my mind redirected. I am so glad you got through the night. Now you are that much STRONGER. emoticon

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SUSANS_TURN 9/10/2011 9:48AM

    You rock! You ARE so much better than a year ago and you just keep getting better hon! Everyone has set backs and bad times to push through but you are an amazing person that will keep going and reach all of your goals before you know it!
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TEMPEST272002 9/10/2011 8:36AM

    I read a blog recently that suggested we track the calories we chose NOT to eat. M&M's = 240 cal/package, 9 oreo cookies (cause we know 3 wouldn't do it!)=1080 cal, and each slice of that pizza is 270 cal, so the 3 slices you'd likely have in a binge would be 810 cal. Wow, you saved yourself 2130 calories last night by stopping before you really got started! Proud of you for dealing with those emotions differently. Hugs.

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 9/10/2011 7:19AM

    I'd say that's pretty dang good considering how bad it could've been. You could've woken up this morning with an Oreo stuck to your face and a stranger in your bathtub.

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YIWEN39 9/10/2011 7:10AM

    You did great emoticon I'm proud of YOU!!!! emoticon emoticon

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-POOKIE- 9/10/2011 6:18AM

    *hugs*

Im really glad you found support here, and meh... you did great... dont you dare play down your success! Think how BAD is could have been!

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If I make it through the night, I'll be surprised...

Friday, September 09, 2011

I am really struggling with some personal issues right now and all I want to do is eat. I haven't eaten dinner simply because I know once I get started, there'll be no stopping me. It's a terrible feeling and I'm not sure how to deal with it. I'd go for a walk but it's raining. I already went to the Wegmans and Walmart trying to deal with it. I'm starving, but I just know it'll get ugly. And of course, an apple isn't going to satisfy me. This sucks!

  
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JENNYBAKER247 9/27/2011 7:59AM

    I'm sooo sorry that you are taking strain Holly! Hang in there! YOU can do it!!! YOU are awesome!!! YOU are worth it!!! I'm 100% behind you!!! Take care, YOU will overcome!
I'll be praying for you.
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LETTINGGO85 9/10/2011 12:49PM

    You can do this! I know the feeling of wanting to escape into food, our old friend. But food is not a good friend in a crisis, as we have all learned. We are all here for you. You have come so far and are such an inspiration. Don't give up on yourself! I am here if you need support.
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AYABA18 9/10/2011 12:02PM

    Sorry you are going trough a difficult. But i am cheering for you. emoticon

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ANGELEYES67J 9/10/2011 11:25AM

    Sending hugs to ya, Holly. I hope things get better for you soon.You can do this....

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TIME4AMY 9/10/2011 10:30AM

    Maybe we can just be blubbering messes together?! haha... I'm struggling with some things in my life and am determined to not veer off, because of it. I have slurged mor than usual lately (a week or so) ever since the electricity went out. Things that I would've allowed myself once in a week, but instead there were many rolled into one. Hasn't seemed to really effect me weight wise, but my mind isn't right. I'm bummed. I'm lost. I'm missing my family. Ugh!

Still on the right track. I haven't given up and logged out forever. That in itself is a good sign! We'll get past this and learn how to deal...

I'm here if you want to share via email (private). Cheer up buttercup. The sun is shining here and it's my son's first fall ball baseball game that I am going to go to for a short time before work. Regardless of the want to crawl under a blanket and forget what is really going on...I'm going out for some sunlight and cheer!

Mwah!


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SUSANS_TURN 9/10/2011 9:37AM

    emoticon that is such a rough time period to go through. You know that it's emotional but still, that doesn't help. I know that you are an extremely strong person Holly. 100 + pounds lost proves that you have what it takes sweetie!

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SJBAILEY1 9/10/2011 3:22AM

    I totally know the feeling. I've been dealing with this for a couple of weeks myself.

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-POOKIE- 9/10/2011 2:42AM

    *hugs* how did things go?

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KT-NICHOLS-13 9/10/2011 1:14AM

    Big Hugs to you! I certainly hope things have improved or that you've found an effective way to deal with it. I also hope you were able to eat something that satisfied your physical hunger but didn't trigger your mental hunger. Hang in there.

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BRENDABUNNY 9/10/2011 12:05AM

    Holly hope you feel better and get passed that feeling quick,personal things in our life are really nagging on our efforts sometimes but you will shine thru emoticonBrenda

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HOTRODSANDY 9/9/2011 11:51PM

    Oh Man, sorry for that! Hoping you can find something that you can eat but not binge on. Others have said it as well, but skipping a meal could just make you have the physical desire to eat as well as the emotional desire.

But maybe before you eat something healthy a warm bath or a cup of tea would help calm some of the emotional stress?

Hang in there! You will get through this!

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WONDERBUG381 9/9/2011 11:27PM

    BIG BIG HUGS
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I am so sorry you are having a tough time right now, but please don't skip a meal. it will make things worse.....eat some dinner and sip some hot tea or something to try and relax.
I know you don't want to binge, but just remember IF it does happen tomorrow is a new day.
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GOLFGMA 9/9/2011 9:59PM

    We're all rooting for you! We know you'll make it. Don't starve yourself . There are many things you can eat without ruining your progress. I think a baked sweet potato is very filling and the greek yogurt sure fills an empty spot.

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ESHERRILL3 9/9/2011 8:30PM

    Oh no! I so wish I could be there for you. It's so hard to focus when you feel that way. I agree with YIWEN39...is there something you really want? That you could eat slowly and savor every morsel? emoticon Did I see you say pumpkin latte? With skim milk and extra hot so it takes longer to drink?
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COMPASS_ROSE 9/9/2011 8:19PM

    You have to eat dinner. Skipping meals is the worst thing to do. Fix your plate and put all of the remaining food away. Don't allow anything extra to remain out to tempt you. Once you are finished. Clear the table and wash the dishes. If you are still hunger start guzzling water or chewing gum. You'll be in the bathroom all night but you'll fill up one way or the other without going overboard on the calories. Hang in there!

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YIWEN39 9/9/2011 8:06PM

    maybe you should eat something you actually want, just make sure you can't have too much. Could you get a mini bar of chocolate? a mini whatever you crave?
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NOTABOUTHEFACE 9/9/2011 8:05PM

    Hang in there. Eat dinner, skipping is going to make it worse. Eat something portion controlled and know that no matter what kind of poop storm is going on in your life now, FOOD is NOT going to make it better!! Never has, never will.

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-AIMIE- 9/9/2011 7:56PM

    Man that does suck!!! Why don't you go get yourself a big thing of assorted fruits....maybe watermelon??? You can eat a lot of that and feel full and satisfied without major calorie overload. Maybe journal about your emotions or call a good friend and talk things out. You have been so successful so obviously you know what works for you but skipping dinner altogether seems kinda extreme to me. I am sorry that you are dealing with such stress. Just breathe....drink lots of water... and then girl -- - I'd still eat my dinner! :) I hope things get better for you!!!
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An emotional weekend.

Monday, September 05, 2011

This weekend I hit the 100 pounds lost mark!

100 pounds of fat!!!

To celebrate, my daughter, Katy, and I got pedicures. She was so excited and she looked so grown up. Of course, she giggled like crazy, while they were massaging her feet, and she just had to have 2 different colors on her toes. We had a great time and I can't tell you how much I enjoyed it. Obviously, mine's the one with the tattoo!


I don't know what I expected to feel like when I lost 100lbs, but I do know it's been an emotional roller coaster. There was no music, no parade, I can't even tell you that I was "thrilled." The first thought that popped into my head was, "Ok, about 60 more to go." REALLY?!? How I can I NOT enjoy this? This is what I've been working on, for the last 15 months. Never, in my life, have I lost this much weight. Hell, I've never even lost half this much. I'm not sure if anyone else has had these feelings, and I'm not even sure why I feel this way. Why am I not screaming from the rooftops? Standing on the scale, I started crying, but they weren't joyful tears. I'm not sure what they're for... exhaustion, frustration, knowing I have another year or so to go? I'm not complaining, I've lost 100 pounds, and I have sparkfriends who need to lose that and more, I just don't know how I feel.

I know I've accomplished a lot in the last 15 months. I've lost 32.5% of my starting weight. I've lost 53.5 inches. My BMI has gone from 59.2 to 39.2. I've completed 14,168 fitness minutes, which is more than I've done in my entire adult life. I've had 8 or more glasses of water for 273 days straight, more fruits and veggies than I ever thought I'd want to eat, and I've developed a love for working out that I didn't think was possible. All of these numbers are great, but there's something about putting on those "fat pants" that really made it hit home.




These jeans used to fit, um... VERY well. They're 28's and now I'm in an 18.

I also had a HUGE surprise this weekend, besides my brother having a baby, YAY!!! At the picnic last night, I told my dad I hit the 100lbs, and he said "Time for a shopping spree." I laughed and enjoyed the rest of the picnic. While I was cooking breakfast this morning, dad showed up asking if I was ready to go shopping. Apparently he wasn't kidding. He wanted to buy me a bunch of clothes. Well, I didn't want to be rude, but I work in an office where the attire is jeans and T-shirts (love my bosses). When I'm not at work, I'm in workout clothes. With me losing weight, I have to get a few new shirts every couple months, but nothing like he was trying to buy me. I told him I needed other thing besides clothes and after purchasing 5 new shirts, he let me get a new hand mixer, a grill basket for veggies, a new GIANT skillet for all my stir-fry, and a new set of knives. He said if that's what I really wanted, it was my "shopping spree."


Then he took me to lunch at "Famous Dave's BBQ", where I don't even want to know about the calories, but the food was SOOOO good. Pulled pork, ribs, corn bread muffins, garlic mashed potatoes, and drunken apples... OMG, delicious!

On the way home we started talking about my weight loss, and it got pretty heavy and, again, emotional. My dad and I are VERY close, but no one in the family gets too mushy, so this was a bit of a moment for us. He's so proud of me and I'm so blessed to have family that is so supportive. Between my family and my "spark" family, it's not a surprise I've been so successful. I couldn't do this without them and all my sparkies, I love you guys! So here's to the next 60.... or so!


Just a reminder of why I'm doing this! First day of school!

  
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DRAGONFLY79 10/18/2011 9:44PM

    Oh - that is so sweet that your dad would do that :) Congratulations, and good job on all your hard work!!

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AMBER281 10/12/2011 1:43PM

    Congrats on such a huge accomplishment!!
Thank you for sharing your journey!

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DIABETICVIP 10/11/2011 11:32AM

    Conrats on this wonderful feat in life. emoticon

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NELLBELLA26 10/7/2011 11:36PM

    What a beautiful blog. You are one amazing person! 100 lbs lost. Embrace it and enjoy it. I love that your dad wanted to celebrate with you by taking you on a shopping spree. I love what you ended up getting as well. GOOD CHOICES! Way to keep the healthy choices going.
Oh and most of all, LOVE the Steelers shirt. GO STEELERS! ( and go you!!!!!!)
Awesome!


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HHB4181 10/7/2011 1:37PM

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you should be so proud of yourself!!! that really is amazing!
even if you are a steelers fan......

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ANGELEYES67J 10/6/2011 7:16PM

    Congrats. You have done a wonderful job. You inspire me every time I read your blogs. Keep up the great work.

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ANNMH16 10/6/2011 6:02PM

  Congratulations on such a HUGE accomplishment! emoticon

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DVDFETISH 10/6/2011 4:43PM

  Congrats! That is a major accomplishment!

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GOIN4GR8 10/6/2011 4:40PM

    That's very, very interesting, the emotions you did and didn't feel when you hit that big milestone. I wonder how I would feel. I sure hope to find out someday. :-) I wonder if it's just because 100 is not that different from 95, and 98, and all the other HUGE milestones you've already passed.

You look awesome, and I love that your dad took you shopping. What great stuff you chose!!

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STRUMERCAT 10/6/2011 10:34AM

    Great job on reaching the 100 pound milestone! Thank you for sharing your experience.

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DEWENTON27 10/6/2011 9:55AM

    amazing. dont be so hard on yourself... just live in the moment and keep pushing forward. God bless!!

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WELSTEACH 10/4/2011 8:30PM

    Your dad did the right thing! Encouraging you with the spree AND the emotions. You go girl. 100 pounds is nothing to sniff at. Imagine putting it back ON! emoticon

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GINNYK50 10/4/2011 11:58AM

    emoticon emoticonGood for you, and how lucky you are to have a Dad that would do something so sweet! It really becomes REAL when you pull out the old fat jeans and see how far you've come- 100lbs is an amazing accomplishment. Keep up the good work.
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LORILEEPAGE 10/3/2011 8:01PM

    I'm rewarding myself for each pound lost with $ to save for clothes when I've lost the weight, but I never thought of using the $ for cooking items to spur me on to keep the pounds off. You have just given me this great idea and I may just copy you!

Congrats on the 100 pounds!

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RAINCITYLIZ 10/3/2011 4:33PM

    Congratulations on your awesome accomplishment. You inspire me. I have not been dedicated, so I have not been successful. YOU DID IT! 100 pounds is a great achievement and I am sure you have all that it takes to go those final 60. Way to go!

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DENRNAJ 10/3/2011 7:12AM

    I like that your Dad was ok with getting you the cooking items. It shows that he is proud of you and cares about your life. You are blessed to have him in your life!
Kudos on your healthier living and thank you for posting so we can celebrate with you!!!!!
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CHANGE4THEBEST 10/2/2011 4:24PM

   
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Congratulations to have come this far. It was lovely to read about your shopping spree with your dad. Keep at it, you will
hit the next major milestone.

Cute kids!

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BARBIE779 10/2/2011 4:03PM

    Congratulations! That is awesome!

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HDHAWK 10/1/2011 9:53PM

    emoticon What a great dad you have! What he got for you will support your goals for a long time to come.

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JAKEKATY 9/23/2011 3:16PM

  I am so proud ever day of your and want you to know I love short fat skinny whatever MOM

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APPLESBANANAS 9/20/2011 3:38PM

    Wow. You just brightened my day with this blog. You are very inspirational, and you deserve to be so excited! I love the pics with your jeans hanging off of you, all I can say is wow.

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JEN-LOVES-LIFE 9/20/2011 9:05AM

    Your dad sounds like a great guy. That was so sweet of him to get you some clothes, but then go ahead and get you what you really want/need. To have the love and support of your family certainly does make a huge difference.
Your kids are adorable!

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FIFIFRIZZLE 9/20/2011 1:41AM

    Wow what an achievement. You deserve to be very proud of yourself.

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LILLI56 9/18/2011 7:05PM

    I haven never heard of a drunken apple. Congrats on the 100 lb loss. Your family looks beautiful and your father sounds awesome.

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MOONBIRD 9/15/2011 10:03AM

    Your kids are so cute! And, I can totally relate to the feelings you have..of OMG I lost this much but I still have so far to go. You're happy, but it's scary too. Somewhere deep inside me I have this fear of gaining weight back, so when I was up and down in this 3 pound range for a few weeks it freaked me out. I've been so emotional lately and just stressed. I am proud of you, and so glad to have you as a friend!

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LYNNIERN 9/10/2011 10:32PM

    Congratulations on your success! I think it is so awesome the support you've received and that your Dad wanted to help you celebrate your success! emoticon

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LINDABENEDICT 9/9/2011 11:00PM

    WOW !!!! What a great accomplishment ! And your kids are just adorable !!!! Way to go !

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FIZZYBALL 9/8/2011 8:50PM

    Congratulations on your incredible weight loss milestone....dedication, hardwork and consistency always pay off. I hope to join the elite club of 100 pds lost one day,thanks to great stories like yours.

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CHANGING4ME49 9/8/2011 11:57AM

    You have come so far. emoticon This is a wonderful blog. Enjoyed the pictures. Your kids are beautiful. You are truly blessed to have a close family and to share such a wonderful relationship with your dad. Treasure it!!! And keep up the fantastic work my friend, the last 60 lbs will be off before you know it. emoticon

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BETTYM11 9/8/2011 10:10AM

    You look amazing! This blog brought tears to my eyes. When I seen the picture of your children it really hit home. Thank you! You are inspiration to me! emoticon emoticon

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SUSANS_TURN 9/8/2011 7:31AM

    WOW! You look amazing!! So happy you made your 100 lbs down! Too cool! Your dad is so incredibly sweet! I love the fact that you and your daughter got pedis! It's one of my favorite things to do! You rock! Keep it going sweetie!
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YIWEN39 9/7/2011 11:23PM

    You look GREAT!!!! emoticon emoticon emoticon
I agree with LosingK, that security blanket thing... but you will adjust, that's for sure :-) emoticon emoticon
I really am SO happy for you, you made my day!!! emoticon

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TIME4AMY 9/7/2011 9:27PM

    oh, by the way...

What the heck is that on the table?! Is that 100 lbs. of fat?! At first I was like...hmm...cantalope... boneless chicken...no wait, there's a bowl lookin' real tiny! What the...



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TIME4AMY 9/7/2011 9:26PM

    I completely understand the fact that even though we have accomplished so much, we are still feeling burdened by more to lose! It's emotional...maybe because we are pissed that we allowed ourselves to even get to such a point or maybe because it's just such a long and tiring journey. Either way, it's a long journey that I wouldn't want to take with out you by my side.

You are VERY lucky to have such wonderful support at home, as well, but your family should be all the more lucky to have YOU... large, medium, or small. emoticon Keep up the good work...so they can enjoy you for as long as possible! A healthy heart is a happy heart. Take good care of you, my friend.

Mwah!

Ps. You ran sacked a whole darn isle! haha...

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LOSINGK 9/7/2011 6:11PM

    First of all, congrats on 100lbs! That's amazing!

Losing a large amount of weight is a very personal experience. Some people get excited, some get sad, some even feel depressed. I think a lot of it has to do with why a person put the weight on in the first place, ie: some people use their weight as a security blanket and it can be scary to let it go.

You look great in your pics - not just size-wise, but you genuinely look happy. Keep up the great work! emoticon

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FITFABJENN 9/7/2011 5:56PM

    Woo hoo! Kudos to you for reaching this marvelous milestone. You have so much to celebrate and so many reasons to be proud. Good work!

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COOKWITHME65 9/7/2011 4:38PM

    Congrats on your 100lb loss. That is amazing. Such a wonderful dad you have to take you out shopping. Love what you bought.

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LUVDOGZ 9/7/2011 4:16PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticonVery inspiring! Congrats on all your hard work!!!

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ACCT1908 9/7/2011 4:12PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon What an awesome accomplishment! Yes, those feelings are REAL. No parades, no drums....BUT PLEASE CELEBRATE!! YOU DESERVE IT! YOU ROCK!!

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DRKEYEZ820 9/7/2011 3:34PM

    Congrats ! What an inspiration! You just LOST 100lbs!!!! Thats CRAZY amazing, so the 60 will be nothin ;) haha
Be SUPER proud of yourself, you deserve to be healthy and happy not only for u but for those beautiful children you have!

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CORINA81 9/7/2011 3:27PM

    So motivating!! you look amazing!

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ARTPRINTER 9/6/2011 9:55PM

    That's so awesome that your family is so supportive and is celebrating with you as you pass the milestones of your journey.

Congratulations!!! Keep going!!

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KT-NICHOLS-13 9/6/2011 2:14PM

    The photo's you shared are great for so many reasons. Your moment with your dad was touching and what wonderful gifts he gave you, plus the support.

Congratulations on your successful journey thus far.

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MYLIFEMADELITE 9/6/2011 1:37PM

    It's so hard to forget how far we still have to go. I'm glad you found something that made you celebrate where you are today. Awesome job! emoticon

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AMYSRUN4LIFE 9/6/2011 11:20AM

    Girl, I don't even know what to say! You are such an inspiration in every way! You look ABSOLUTELY AMAZING!!

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RECOMMIT2ME 9/6/2011 10:23AM

    YOU.ARE.AWESOME! Congrats girl! Other than the Steelers shirt, you look amazing! :p And even better, by comparing your "before" pics I can tell you feel amazing. I can't tell you how much you inspire me...reading your blog was just what I needed today. I'm so happy that your dad took you out to celebrate and you were able to hear just how proud of you he is. We all are! Keep it up...those next 60 pounds are nothin'. You got this! :o)

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ESHERRILL3 9/6/2011 10:20AM

    WOW!! WOW!! WOW!! I think that about covers how I feel for you. Thanks for sharing your special momment with us.

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CHANGINGSAM 9/6/2011 10:04AM

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JENNIFER_67 9/6/2011 9:55AM

    emoticon You are doing fantastic!! I know it can get frustrating thinking about how far you still want to go. I try to focus on how far I've come, and that helps a lot.

It's great that your father and the rest of your family are so supportive. That helps so much.

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A friend's challenge!

Sunday, August 14, 2011

My friend SALLIE51, just put a new challenge out for herself and I think it's a great idea. She wrote a blog about her "20 week New Years challenge", and I LOVE it! It's 20 weeks until New Years day, what can YOU do by then? My goal is to weigh less than I did when I met my husband. That would mean I have to lose 30 lbs, that's 1.5lbs a week. I can do this, it's great motivation for me, thanks Sallie! Who's with me?

My starting weight will be posted after weigh in, and I'll keep updating here.

8/15 - 210.5 I've got 20 weeks to meet my goal!!!
8/22 - 209 ( - 1.5)
8/29 - 208 (-1 fell short this week, have to make that up!)
9/5 - 207 (-1, still behind)
9/12 - 205.5 (-1.5, still behind. I need a REALLY good week)
9/19 - 203 (-2.5)
9/26 - 207 (+4, CRAP! I may have to revamp these goals)
10/3 - 205 (-2)
10/10 -
10/ 17 -
10/24 -
10/31 -
11/7 -
11/14 -
11/21 -
11/28 -
12/5 -
12/12 -
12/19 -
12/26 -
January 1, 2012 -

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

SOUTHPONDCAMP 8/29/2011 1:10PM

    I love it...and that fits with my general goal to lose a pant load before the new year.

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MEMEME75 8/29/2011 9:08AM

    Love this idea. Of course, I am just reading it now and will need to start at 18 weeks until New Year's. I am going to post this as well and set my goals. Thank you!

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DRFALCO 8/19/2011 12:17PM

    count me in !! Twenty weeks = 40 pounds...I want to lose 30 pounds by January 1, 2012 :) emoticon

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KIKI0531 8/17/2011 12:04PM

    That's a great challenge. My overall goal from my first day on Spark in March was to lose 100 lbs by January 2012. SO, I will just keep plugging away over here and keep you posted ;) 36.5 more to go !!

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PEGGYMAS1 8/17/2011 8:46AM

    I'm in we can do this I'm going for 20 by the 1st of the year emoticon

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WIGIME 8/17/2011 7:35AM

    Good luck girlie! I KNOW you can do this! I am cheering for you!

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SCOUTMOM715 8/16/2011 10:06PM

    30 lbs is very doable. emoticon Count me in too!! emoticon

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TRUE-NESS 8/15/2011 1:31PM

    I am with you!!! Great challenge!! My week will start Saturday, August 20th! YAY!!! I can't wait to check back in with the progress!

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ESHERRILL3 8/15/2011 11:44AM

    I've been looking for a challenge. By golly, I think I found it. Count me in too! emoticon

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CHANGING4ME49 8/15/2011 10:16AM

    emoticon You can do this! 30.5 lbs is a wonderful goal and very doable. We each are going to be forces to be reckoned with come New Year's Day when we meet our goals. It will be a great way to begin a new year. Best wishes my friend!!

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MADTHENURSE 8/15/2011 8:01AM

    I am with you!!! 30# by the New Year!

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ELISOS 8/14/2011 10:30PM

    great idea!!!

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MOM4407 8/14/2011 8:25PM

    I am in with you. I am going to post the challenge on TOPS Friends.

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SUSANS_TURN 8/14/2011 6:21PM

    Great idea! emoticon emoticon

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PWAYLA 8/14/2011 4:08PM

    This is GREAT! A medium-range goal is a nice step for those of us who have lots to lose. Good luck with your goals -- I will also be participating!

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TEMPEST272002 8/14/2011 2:39PM

    emoticon Countdowns are a great way to stay focused!

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SAILING2GOAL 8/14/2011 1:27PM

    Count me in!

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HOTRODSANDY 8/14/2011 12:21PM

    What an awesome challenge. 20 pounds in 20 weeks seems very doable. However if I could lose 29.6 I'll find myself in Onederland! Now that would be an awesome feeling to ring in the new year below 200 pounds!!!
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LISAWASHERE 8/14/2011 12:07PM

    I'd like to at least weight what I did before my baby boy was born - 20 years ago! That means as of today, I need to lose 35 lbs. I don't know if I can lose quite that much by then, but I'd love to get pretty darn close. I could weigh less in 20 weeks than I have in 20 years!

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POOKASLUAGH 8/14/2011 11:39AM

    What a great challenge! Hm, for me, in 20 weeks I would want to lose at least 20 lbs, which would put me at 183 and weighing less than my husband - that would be awesome! I might just join you guys.

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LOSTLIME 8/14/2011 11:27AM

    I am in. I can do this. My goal is for reaching 172.

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LETTINGGO85 8/14/2011 11:25AM

    Love this idea. I am going to check out her blog and come up with my goals for a "20 week New Years Challenge" Thanks for sharing this.

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MUGGLE_MOM 8/14/2011 11:16AM

    I love this idea! I have to go check out her blog now.
I am so in for a 20 week challenge. Count me in!

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JENNYBAKER247 8/14/2011 11:08AM

    I'm in. We CAN do this!!!
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LESLIES537 8/14/2011 11:06AM

    emoticon You can do this!!

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TIME4AMY 8/14/2011 10:50AM

    20 weeks huh?!

That's about 4 months...at an average of 5 lbs. in a month (lb./wk.), when I'm not in a gym routine...which equals about 20lb loss...even more if I'm more active...

That would bring me to 262lbs. I like the sound of that, but I WANT MORE!!

Looks like my challenge will be to pump up my game plan! GYM GYM GYM AND MORE GYM! Hoping to take off more than 20lbs. by New Years. That's my challenge!

I'm in!!! emoticon (I hear cans a crashin' down!!!!)

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FIZZYBALL 8/14/2011 10:48AM

    Wow. Really? Only 20 weeks left to new years. Where does the time go? But I like the challenge. I am in. I will set a goal of 20 pounds. Thanks.

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MICHELLESMILES_ 8/14/2011 10:38AM

    I am 1000% with you! That was a great blog she wrote. :)

My goal for the end of the year is to be in under 220 so that puts me needing to lose 37 pounds.

Lets do it!!!!

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