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Hang in there friends!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I haven't written a blog in a while but I've been reading a lot of them. Most of them seem to have a central theme... I'm stuck, I keep losing and gaining the same 5lbs, I'm working out more, and not losing an ounce... any of these sound familiar? It's usually followed by... I don't want to give up but I don't know what to do, I'm so tired of doing this without results, why is this getting so hard?... Hell yes this is hard! If it were easy, everyone would be thin, right? I "stopped" losing weight in January, and up until May, I kept gaining and losing the same 5lbs (where have I heard that?) And since May, my weight loss has been spotty at best. To be honest, I've become terrified of getting on the scale. This from someone who would weigh every day. I've been binging almost once a week, and I'm sick over it.

I know what to do and how to do it, but sometimes, I'm SO sick of doing it! I get that it's a new lifestyle that I'm learning, but weighing and measuring food, counting calories in vs out, and monitoring carbs, fats and protein can take its toll. Don't tell me that there hasn't been a time when you have just wanted to eat until you can't feel your face.

I've been doing it for over a year, I'm pretty sure I've learned SOMETHING by now! The one thing I've found MOST helpful, is logging in here every day for support, information, and the knowledge that I'm not the only one feeling this way. This hard enough to do, I can't imagine doing it on my own. Even when I'm feeling really crappy about my own journey, I can come here and find some inspiration in a blog or get some encouraging words from a friend.

It makes me sad, though, when I know I have friends that are struggling, and instead of putting a few words out there, asking for support, or just yelling about how hard this is, they completely disappear. I get that it's summer and everyone's busy, but when I drop by a page to see how everyone's doing, lately, it's been "I don't know, I really haven't had time to work on it." "not so good, the Holiday's really threw me off." Or, they just leave all together. We've all had friends who've just left without a word.

You've got to hang in there friends, this can be done. It isn't pretty, and it isn't instantaneous. It takes dedication, and hard work and if you can muster it, a positive attitude! We're here because we need help and support. We know what it takes to achieve our goals, we just have to stick with it. Ask for help and offer it to others, and we'll all make it to the other side.

  
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MY2CHIX 7/23/2011 7:21PM

    I'm here....... I am busy and not on the computer much but I have not given up - I'm logging my food through WW and I have been losing little by little. I don't mean to ignore my spark friends but when i'm on here, I am always on here for 2 hrs easily and I am using that time to be more active with my family. You are important to me and I will try to be more vocal on here. I will be without a computer for 3 weeks in August. I'm so happy your sticking with this no matter how frustrating it is. I am pushing through and not giving up either!! YAY!
You are one tough sparkler!!
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KIKI0531 7/18/2011 11:44AM

    This blog was just what I needed. This past week, I have really slacked. Both nutritionally and physically. I don't know what the issue is, but I gotta snap out of it. Starting a new week with a new mindset. I want to finish what I started and sitting on my a** eating chips will not get me to my goal. NO more excuses.

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MICHELLESMILES_ 7/16/2011 8:19AM

    I really enjoyed reading this blog. I know I couldnt do it without your support or other spark friends!


We can do it !

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SCOUTMOM715 7/15/2011 11:59PM

    Love your blog Holly!! So true!! emoticon

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THINBYFIFTY 7/15/2011 9:31AM

    Holly,

KUDOS for a great blog - one that was just what I needed this morning. I have to say, I've been fairly intentional about "staying the same weight" for the past few months...knowing I need to maintain and then burst into loss again this fall. Because I made the decision to back off on expectations of weight loss, I've been able to simply "practice" living healthy.

This mindset hasn't put me in a different place than the many people who are "stuck" but has allowed me to be content instead of frustrated. Have an amazing weekend and, again, thanks for sharing.

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WIGIME 7/15/2011 8:25AM

    I totally agree with you! Thanks for the blog Holly.

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JLITT62 7/15/2011 5:33AM

    Very true! Now imagine being stuck for 2 years. Yup, that's where I'm at. Yup, at times I get really sick of it. But I won't go back & I won't give up!

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SUSANS_TURN 7/15/2011 4:13AM

    You are so incredibly sweet Holly! Love this blog! Thank you for putting it out there! You are absolutely right on all counts. I'm almost afraid to stop blogging and checking in because by not coming on I can ignore what I started and why. That's why I started using the fitness/nutrition/weight & measurement trackers too, it gives me even more incentive to make sure I log in.

This is about so much more than losing a few pounds to look better. This is about our lives and our health. It does get frustrating and at time you just want to feel "normal" again. I believe our minds will keep having that battle until we accept that this is "normal". All anyone needs to do is look for how many people are really on this site, then realize that there are many more that aren't but are doing the same things we are. For the majority of people in the world today this is a normal part of life and it's not a bad life. It's one where we show ourselves self-love and concern everyday by taking care of ourselves. It's one where we show our families how much we care about them by taking care of ourselves.

When you come to the end of your rope, tie a knot and hang on. ~Franklin D. Roosevelt Perseverance is an absolutely beautiful thing! We are all in this together and that is the beauty of this whole site! You are so right on all accounts Holly! Very well said! Thank you for posting!
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-POOKIE- 7/15/2011 3:29AM

    it does take dedication, even when the motivation isnt there, the dedication will carry you through, because really, who doesn't want to be dedicated to being ALIVE?

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BINDY61 7/15/2011 12:26AM

  Story of my life, giving up when it got hard. It's taken me years to figure it out, and realise that quick fixes don't work, but a lifestyle change does. I have been losing around one pound a week, and although it's a litte, I am confident that it's not going back on again. I am being more active, and focussing more on having a fit and healthy body, rather than the pounds I have to lose. I feel better when I am exercising, and when I feel better about myself, I am less likely to eat poorly. I start each day reminding myself of the good things I have achieved, and focus on choosing one positive thing I would like to do today.
When I have gained or lost nothing at all, I don't beat myself up about it, I review the week, and decide where I came unstuck, and move on.


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WONDERBUG381 7/15/2011 12:09AM

    Well said
I am so glad i found Spark & friends like you. It really keeps me going.
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NOTABOUTHEFACE 7/14/2011 11:33PM

    Word up! I've been frequenting weight loss boards for almost 15 years and one thing that hasn't changed from one to the other is when people need support the most is when they pipe down and slink away in shame. That DOESN'T work!

Then the ones that do find their way back feel like they need to go through some confessional process and confess their sins while away. Doesn't matter to me why you left as long as your back and ready to do work, lets get to it!

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MADTHENURSE 7/14/2011 11:23PM

    Thanks chickie... needed a kick in the butt to get in gear... I will.

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MAMADWARF 7/14/2011 11:08PM

    Good job, Holly. We just gotta keep going. I HATE when my friends dissappear. HATE IT! I aint going anywhere by the way. I still got work to do! And so do you! :)

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LESLIES537 7/14/2011 11:00PM

    Well said! I definitely agree that logging in and reading others' blogs is the most helpful thing to keep me on track. Just one of the many reasons why emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 7/14/2011 10:30PM

    The most important thing is to not give up. The further along I get, the harder it is to lose weight. Sometimes I get tired of it all too, but when I think about the alternative... to give up and regain all the weight and go back to feeling awful... nope, that's not an option for me. Not this time.

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HOLLYBELLE77 7/14/2011 10:24PM

    Thanks for this. :) And, while I may get quiet at times, I never disappear. I need to stick around great friends like you!

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LETTINGGO85 7/14/2011 10:00PM

    Great blog because we have all faced those ups and downs and keep trying to hang on. For me if you are fighting with the same 5 lbs you are winning. You are only losing when you give up. As long as you are in the fight you are a champion. It is hard, really hard. But together we will all be successful.

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TIME4AMY 7/14/2011 9:48PM

    Sad to say, but besides my few friends that I try like heck to keep in touch with (used to be a social butterfly)... you're the ones I turn to...you're the ones that keep me coming back...you're the ones who remind me I'm human...you're the ones that allow me to feel surrounded by support, not alone...you're the ones that make me stick to my calorie goal, because IT'S VIEWABLE! haha...

Hol'... you've consistantly been supportive, since the day I somehow (I've forgotten when/how by now...haha) met you. You've given me inspiration, strength, wisdom, support, guidance, and even made me shed tears of joy and sorrow. Joy, because you are there to congratulate me on my accomplishments and sorrow, because we share the same heartbreaking struggle.

I know you understand. You and I didn't have 20 lbs. to lose...nor 50... NOR 100! It's a beautiful thing that we have the ability, but it's heartbreaking that we sell ourselves short at times.

I'm not going anywhere (sure you've heard that before), but I NEED this! I have no where else to turn to...no where else to go... I don't need my mother, being her supportive self. I don't need my fiance' complimenting me on "looking good", I don't need my petite friend, telling me to keep going and "I'm worth it!". I need someone who just gets it! Who feels my pain, because they've walked a mile in my shoes. I need friends like you! Hard to come by... emoticon

Thank you for being you! I'll be here. Fighting. Riding the roller coaster. It's that kind of roller coaster, where it's so exciting that you want to do it again! Anxious about rising, but scared to fall. Good thing is... I'm NOT getting off!

Love ya Hol'!

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BARBIE042 7/14/2011 9:46PM

    Yep I know what your saying girlfriends been there and back and going thorugh it again right now ...ugh seems like a never ending cycle with me anymore . But the thing of it is I am not about to give up the fight , I know I have it in me to do this I just got to make it happen. We Can Do This Girls & We Will !

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MOONBIRD 7/14/2011 9:33PM

    I so get where you're coming from! I feel the SAME way sometimes. All I know is I will not give up and I am not going anywhere. I may not always post as much as other times, like when my husband is gone a lot and I'm alone a lot with the kids, but I'll always be around. :) I haven't had any weight loss since the end of May. I am trying to not discouraged, but I can't figure this out. I know I"ve gone over calories some, but not by huge amounts, so you'd think I'd lose something with all the working out. It is SO hard sometimes, and I feel like not many people in my day to day life get what I am going through. This has truly been a journey of blood, sweat and tears, and I am so proud of how far I've come. Hang in there. You look awesome!

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I don't know what to say...

Saturday, June 18, 2011

to all of my wonderful sparkfriends. You "liked" my 1 year blog and it is now a "popular blog." I'm also a sparkpeople motivator, thanks to you all. I'm honored and excited and REALLY overwhelmed by all of this. I was telling my best friend about how overwhelmed I am about the whole thing simply because I wrote this blog for myself and my 15-20 "close" sparkfriends. I had NO idea this would happen. Because of this blog, I have SO many friend requests, sparkmails, and blog comments, that I can't keep up with it... if I want to get away from my computer. I thank you ALL, from the bottom of my heart. I also want to apologize profusely for not being able to respond to the 400 plus comments on my blog. Please know that I've been reading EVERY single post and they all mean so much to me. I'm really VERY grateful for all of the wonderful things everyone said. I had no idea that by writing this, I would "motivate and inspire" so many people. I couldn't do this alone. Thanks SP, and thanks to my favorite sparkfriends, you know who you are. You guys have been with me through most, if not all of my journey. I love you guys!

  
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TIME4AMY 8/23/2011 10:05PM

    I remember reading this blog and had to find it and comment AGAIN!

I AM SOOOOO OVERWHELMED, due to my last "70 lb. loss" blog. I have spent more time in the last few days thanking EVERY person that took the time to congratulate me! I'm sick of it...haha... 400+ people!!!? Are you serious?! A "sparkpeople motivator"!!!???? Are you kidding me? I need a motivator by my side, let alone being one! haha...

I guess we are doing alright for ourselves huh?! I think we need to remember that! (note to selves)

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CHRISTINA791 6/21/2011 12:21PM

    It's well deserved!

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KIKI0531 6/21/2011 10:33AM

    Your story IS inspiring. Makes you want to think that it is possible to accomplish what you set your mind to. Keep up the good work and we will follow your lead !! Thanks for sharing. emoticon

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SUSANS_TURN 6/21/2011 9:34AM

    You are wonderful and very inspiring! I don't think you need to worry about not being able to respond to everyone. Life is so busy and sometimes you just don't have the time. Plus, you've got A LOT of people to respond to! Way too many! Congratulations!
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MY2CHIX 6/20/2011 4:07PM

    YOU REALLY DO ROCK HOLLY!!! You are a great inspiration to so many including me!! Thank you!!

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MOONBIRD 6/19/2011 2:34PM

    Aww. I am so happy for you. I nominated you as motivational. :) You are awesome and I am so glad we're friends!

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MRSSMITH622 6/19/2011 1:11PM

    You are amazing and deserving. You are doing it and of course that inspires others.

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FERRETLOVER1 6/19/2011 7:06AM

    Congratulations!!!

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TIME4AMY 6/18/2011 11:43PM

    I told you, you were an amazing woman! emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 6/18/2011 9:23PM

    I remember feeling overwhelmed when I had a popular blog post. It makes you sit back a bit & reflect on the connections between us & how we influence one another on this journey. I'm so glad we're travelling together. You're such an inspiration to me - and now you'll be an inspiration to so many others too.

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FIZZYBALL 6/18/2011 7:35PM

    You have done so great...it was just a matter of time before the whole sparkworld found you :)

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HOLLYBELLE77 6/18/2011 7:00PM

    You constantly inspire me so it's not surprising that so many other people feel inspired as well. Enjoy it. Add it to that long list of accomplishments! emoticon

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MICHELLESMILES_ 6/18/2011 6:49PM

    You are awesome and always inspire me!


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RONOSOF 6/18/2011 6:02PM

    congrats and bask in the love:) a newer spark friend! Mary

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JUDITH316 6/18/2011 5:45PM

    emoticon emoticon keep up the great work, congrats on being voted in as a SP Motivator and for celebrating your 1 year Sparkversary..Keep On Sparking, You Can Do It! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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ADALAI 6/18/2011 5:20PM

    You so, absolutely deserve it, and so much more. You are amazing, outstanding, and just one of those folks who are a blessing to those who know you, and get to know you. ((hugs)) YAYAYYAYAYYA for you!

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LYNNDEBLOCK 6/18/2011 5:04PM

    you are awesome, thanks. I'm dripping with sweat because I just finished a TAEBO workout, but I might not of tried it without the help and inspirational stories like yours! you remind me it is possible, wow, I hope I can stick with it every day for a year, I'm still trying to get through the first 30 days...knock on wood


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The Big 1 Year Blog! Lots of pics!

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Wow, I have no idea how to start this blog. This year has been full of ups and downs and a whole lot of sideways. I know this journey has affected me tremendously, so I decided to ask my family what they thought of this last year and my weight loss.

My son Jake, "I like that I can put my arms around you the whole way when I hug you. I don't like it when I can't have potato chips."

My daughter Katy, "I'm glad you're not getting fatter, because you play outside with us more. I just wish we could have chocolate more."

My hubby Mike, "You're so much more active, you're happier, and we get to try different kinds of foods. But, we don't get to have ice cream and candy bars like we used to, and you have to buy clothes a lot more often."

As you can see, it's affected ALL of us, lol!

This journey has affected my life so much, like it has all of yours. I used to sit on the couch... A LOT, and now, I don't think anything about going out to play with the kids, walking down to my mom's (1 mile away), or going for an hour long walk *gasps.* I know, right, So great! I'm not going to lie, I still really enjoy TV, it's just not my life anymore.

I've never been a great dieter. I'd stick with it for a while, lose 30-50 pounds, and quit. When I found SP, I was really glad that they gave me the "secret" to dieting. Eat what you want, when you want, within reason. How easy is that "diet?" So much better than shakes and pre-packaged foods. I'm not a gourmet chef by any means, but I can cook a pretty healthy meal now, and I really enjoy trying new foods. Who knew asparagus was so tasty? I'm not a vegetarian or a "clean eater" but I've learned how to make much better food choices and use portion control (most of the time). I've also learned that a lot of foods, simply aren't worth it. This coming from a girl who used to be able to eat a half a bag of Oreos, a huge package of PNB Cups, and an entire pizza. Seeing that in writing is pretty gross... completely true, but gross.

In addition to the changes physically, I wrote a blog in December about physiological changes. Cholesterol, blood pressure, sugar levels, and triglycerides, all which were great. However, the biggest change that has happened is all mental. I've never had self esteem problems as far as my weight goes. I never thought I looked bad, even at my highest. I used to say I had a body image problem... I thought I looked better than I did. I was, and still am, my biggest enemy. No one is harder on me than I am. No one tells me I can't do something, I tell myself that. My biggest obstacle to overcome, was allowing my body to do something that my mind wouldn't let happen. Do you know, that your lungs won't actually explode if you try to run... do you know, that you're spine won't actually snap while trying to Zumba? These are some of the thing I've had to overcome on my journey. Because I've allowed myself to do these things, I've enjoyed Zumba for the last 2 months, on Saturday mornings. I'm also able to run 1/2 mile without stopping. It's no 5K, but it's a start.

We all know what SP has done for us, how about the good stuff... pics and stats!


June 2010 307


June 2011 218.5

Measurements: Keep in mind the first set wasn't done until July 2010. I would LOVE to know what they were a month prior.

neck: 16 to 13.5
arms: 20 to 16
waist: 53 to 39
hips: 59 to 47
thighs: 34 to 26.5
calves: 19 to 17.5
bra size: 48D to 38B (sniff sniff)

I've lost 88.5 lbs, 66.5 inches total, and TOO many cups sizes, but I'll take it!


size 28 (bottom) size 18 (top)


size 4x (bottom) size 1x (top)


my sister in law's bridal shower last summer looking 9 months pregnant (NOT)


same dress June 2011


my face looked like it was ready to explode


so much thinner

This has been such a great year, and so difficult, and rewarding and hard, I can't even describe it correctly... but you ALL know what I'm talking about. I now I couldn't have done this without SP and the nutrition trackers, exercise logs, and the countless motivational blogs. Most importantly, I couldn't have done it without all of you. You are all so supportive of every every pound lost, fitness minute earned, and all milestones in between. You are there when I binge, and there to kick my a$$ when I'm doubting myself. You are all so great and I hope I've been just as supportive for all of you.

I will leave you with one last image...


I've lost as much, as my best friend's, 11 year old son weighs!!! How great is that?

  
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WILDFLOWERMA 8/24/2011 8:38AM

    Amazing progress - good for you. I absolutely loved reading your family perspective. We often only consider how our weight affects us. Just yesterday, I was thinking how I used to give horsey rides for my nieces & nephews when I was fit. I'm guessing that they probably miss that, too.

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CVALENCIA7 7/16/2011 11:20AM

    Congrats! emoticon

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DANYGIRL40 7/14/2011 10:53AM

    What a fantastic blog, thank you for sharing the past year. Congrats and good luck on your continued success!!!!

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KERLIN26 7/14/2011 9:09AM

  Great job! Keep up the hard work, it's certainly paying off!

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LETTINGGO85 7/14/2011 12:43AM

    Congrats you look amazing. What an inspiration.

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MYLIFEMADELITE 7/13/2011 11:40PM

    emoticonAmazing! emoticon

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SWEETNEENI 7/13/2011 10:56PM

    Dang woman! Great job! emoticon

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THESHELBSTER 7/13/2011 10:31PM

    You look fantastic! What an amazing transformation. So proud of you!

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STAYCXL-NOMORE 7/8/2011 3:08PM

    Great accomplishment !! Congrats !
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MAJOHNSON06 7/7/2011 1:41PM

  CONGRATULATIONS!!! Thank you so much for sharing your journey. :)

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JLYNNSCRAZYLIFE 7/2/2011 9:34AM

    Thank you. I so needed to read this as I get ready to get back to it. Thank you! And job well done!!!!!

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SPANKIPIE 6/30/2011 3:30PM

    GREAT JOB! This reminds me to keep a photo for before/after and to keep OLD CLOTHES! Never thought of that! :)

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MRSSCHENCK 6/24/2011 8:58AM

    emoticon on your weight loss and continued success!

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APPLECAKES1977 6/24/2011 3:41AM

    Wow! Outstanding!

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MELISSAJANEY 6/22/2011 1:46PM

    YOU ARE AWESOME!!!!!

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SHECASPER1 6/22/2011 12:35PM

    Very impressive! You go girl! Keep up the good work.
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PEISHYGIRL 6/22/2011 8:13AM

    emoticon you look great! Keep up the great work!

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TUBLADY 6/22/2011 1:57AM

    Wonderful success. You look amazing.
You son and husband sound so supportive and it's nice to he able to have your son hug you all the way around.
I understand the comment of looking like you have been blown up, I have a picture like that. Stick a pin in me and I would pop. If it had only been that easy.
I experienced the bras size loss too.. I went from a 46DD to a 38C.
Keep up the good work, stay focused and positive.
Take care.
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LUKAMOM2 6/21/2011 9:45PM

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You have an inspiring story. Keep up the great work.

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BRILYNN79 6/21/2011 2:19PM

  So Motivating!!! Keep up the hard work:)

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NATARSHAD 6/21/2011 2:05PM

    Congrats on your success!!! I aspire to have just as much success as you over the next year! Keep inspiring! emoticon

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PUNZIE73 6/21/2011 1:26PM

    Good for you! I know you must be sooo proud! Keep up the great work and continued success! (I too can identify with the loss of boobage...a former 40H myself...now 36DD!) Oh well, whatdya do? Thanks for sharing!

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ATINYDANCER 6/21/2011 1:09PM

    Wow So amazing! So inspiring. Great Job! It is so cool to see what we are all capable of as human beings when we put our minds to it and just go forward! emoticon

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ATGHR10 6/21/2011 12:21PM

  AWESOME!! Very motivating emoticon

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MUFFIY831 6/21/2011 10:49AM

    You're awesome!!!!

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SUGARBABY60 6/21/2011 5:58AM

    woo hoo and congratulations! emoticon emoticon

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0IBELIEVEINME0 6/21/2011 4:17AM

    Awesome Achievement... Thanks for sharing.. Its super motivating !! :) :)
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ALIHIKES 6/21/2011 1:12AM

    Wow congratulations! You are an inspiration. All your hard work has paid off, and you look healthy and happy emoticon emoticon

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LINAYASTEPHENS 6/20/2011 5:52PM

    u have done AMAZING!!!Seeing how you progressed is really motivating me to get on the ball and lose at least 50 pounds by March :) Keep up the GREAT work!!

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NATURALLYJEN 6/20/2011 4:49PM

    Fantastic progress! Thank you for sharing your success with us!

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CAT_TAFT 6/20/2011 4:07PM

    CONGRATULATIONS!!! What a role model to your family and your community you are!

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MY2CHIX 6/20/2011 4:05PM

    I love your blog!! You have come a long way and I'm so happy and proud of you! Thank you for sharing this journey with us! YOU ROCK!!!!
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FUNTIMES2 6/20/2011 3:58PM

    Great, great, great!!! emoticon

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MHAS80 6/20/2011 2:47PM

  Congrat!!!!

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OCCUBANITA 6/20/2011 1:58PM

    Congrats! That's an awesome accomplishment! Keep up the great work!

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RUNNER12COM 6/20/2011 1:51PM

    I love it, love it, love it. Your happiness and success are SO obvious. Well done!

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MARYBETHTOLLE 6/20/2011 1:17PM

    You look awesome and you've made so many positive changes! Congratulations!

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JELLI-LEAN 6/20/2011 1:02PM

    What an inspirational story! You look great! Congrats!!!!

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SHELLER226 6/20/2011 12:31PM

    I'm new to SP and yours is the first blog post I've readactually....and we have so much in common! I started at 302 lbs, size 28, and too have that same distorted body image that I always feel like I look better than I really do, LOL! I'm SO excited to be on this journey for REAL this time. The door has opened and the light has come on....and I'm having a blast this time around. LOVE seeing your transformation after one year. It really is wonderful! God bless you. emoticon

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LUCKYONE60 6/20/2011 12:25PM

    Wow, you are completely changing your life. You should be so proud of yourself. You'll NEVER go back. Good for you and thanks for sharing.

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KEIRASMAMA 6/20/2011 12:24PM

    Way to go! You have done an amazing job and look great! I'm so glad you are reaping the benefits with your quality of life too. It makes it all worthwhile! Congrats on a fabulous year!

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OLDANGIE 6/20/2011 12:22PM

    WOW! Thanks for sharing and great work!!! Keep it up!!!

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SIMPLYMARS9 6/20/2011 11:42AM

    you look amazing! such an inspiration. emoticon

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CARRIERIDA 6/20/2011 11:30AM

    Your blog has been truly inspirational. I lost about 30 lbs. at the beginning of the year on weight watchers (and paying for it out the rear end)...and as soon as I stopped, I gained about 20 of it back. I went to the doctor last week and found the sparks brochure and logged on as soon as I got home. My journey begins once again. This is so much better than weight watchers for multiple reasons that I won't discuss on here. Continue to push on just as I will and together....we...all of us can beat this thing. I call mine killing the fat fairy! For she has came down from her fat kingdom and struck me with her fat fairy wand! Now, I am on a quest to kill the fat fairy and send her back to fat fairy land! Good luck and keep blogging...you have completely motivated me!

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TYCA41458 6/20/2011 10:25AM

    Completely fantastic!! Keep it going! You're doing fantastic!

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KIKIA04 6/20/2011 10:07AM

    emoticon Thank you for sharing.

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PATTILYNN224 6/20/2011 9:24AM

    Thank you for sharing your success and your pictues. A great blog!!

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The memorial walk for my mother in law

Sunday, June 05, 2011

We went to my in laws this weekend for what I was being told was a memorial walk for my MiL that passed away last year. She used to work for Eat-N-Park they were sponsoring this walk and we were all getting T-Shirts, and there were going to be vendors and activities for the kids, etc. I thought, wow, E-N-P really knows how to pull together a function. I was all full of the warm fuzzies thinking this company is doing such a wonderful thing in Sue's memory... well, that was right and wrong all at the same time. We were PART of a memorial walk that Relay For Life was sponsoring in that County. This bothered me because had I known it was part of Relay For Life, I could have gotten donations or something together. I was told it was just a walk and no one even mentioned raising money. I feel bad...

E-N-P provided us with cute T-Shirt's that had their logo on the back and "Suzie's life of smiles" on the front. All of the restaurant staff were wearing them as well.


Katy, Jake, and my niece and nephew Madison and Brady

It was a 24 hour even which started Friday night at 6pm and went till Saturday at 6pm. When we got there at 9:30am Saturday, we saw that they did indeed have all kinds of vendors and things for the kids to do. Katy came home with pink extensions in her hair, so cute! They also had luminaries with the names of loved ones that were lost to the disease. I wish we could have seen them all lit up.



Even though we could have done more, It was a beautiful day. It was 75 degrees and sunny with a great breeze blowing. There were TONS of people, with different companies taking part, each with their own t-shirts memorializing someone. The city is in a college town, and there were lots of kids walking with hand made shirts for their "pappy" and "memaw" which just broke my heart thinking about my own grand parents. It really was a good day.

The track was a 1/4 mile around and they were asking people to walk at least 6 laps. We got around 8 times before the kids had had enough and were hungry. E-N-P was kind enough to buy lunch for the family, and the kids were thrilled.


my husband, not looking anywhere near the camera as usual : )

After, we went to my MiL's grave site to say Hi and I think my daughter picked every dandy lion in site to give to her. The rest of the weekend was spent with my hubby's brother and his family, as well as my FiL. As usual it was a whirlwind of a weekend, but it was memorable.

  
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MOONBIRD 6/14/2011 5:47PM

    I'm glad you had a nice time despite the not so good things. Great photo of you all! :)

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MY2CHIX 6/8/2011 10:14AM

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    What a wonderful tribute to your mother-in-law!!! emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 6/7/2011 12:53PM

    Too bad about the misunderstanding, but I think it's lovely that Mike's mum is so well remembered and that her company wanted to honour this way. The kids are so cute! I love little boys with glasses.

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MADTHENURSE 6/6/2011 1:16PM

    Glad it went well! Sounds like they really appreciated Mike's mom!!!

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MRSSMITH622 6/6/2011 9:44AM

    Love the pictures.

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-POOKIE- 6/6/2011 3:21AM

    *smiles*

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TIME4AMY 6/5/2011 7:59PM

    She would be proud! emoticon

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Where does the determination come from?

Monday, May 16, 2011

I gained another 2 lbs this week, which makes 3.5 in 2 weeks. Not the end of the world by any means, just completely frustrating. Two weeks ago TOM was in town, so I guess that could be explained. This week, I finished week 2 of the "Spring in to shape bootcamp challenge" which caused me to increase my workouts, so I ask you, HOW DID I GAIN AGAIN????? I'm hoping it's a case of "you're not eating enough" which has happened to me in the past. But is it really that fine of a line? If I expend 600 calories and eat 100 too few calories, I gain weight? Come on... I was telling my bff, MADTHENURSE, that in the past, this would have sent me into a downward spiral, and I would have totally given up. Screw it, I knew I couldn't do it, eat the whole pizza!!! I don't know why this time is different... maybe it's because, I've actually had REAL success. Maybe, it's because I've been able to help other people change their lives and get healthier, and what kind of role model would I be if I gave up? Maybe it's because this is the first time I've actually been ready for change. But, more than likely, it's because I've got such bright SPARKlers helping me by lighting the way when the road gets dark. I've never been able to lose this much weight, and I've got a lot left to go, but I know I'm going to do it this time. My 1 year Sparkaversary is coming up in 1 month. I wanted to "lose 100 lbs in 1 year" and I've realized that isn't going to happen. It makes me a little sad, but I've lost 84 pounds to date, and I have a month to go. Whatever I lose by then will be fine with me, because I know I'll never be back there again. This has been a crazy ride, and I'm on the downward swing. I still don't exactly see the "goal line" yet, but I know it's there. A few pounds bouncing around isn't going to stop me or slow me down, it just makes me more determined. I will finish this and get healthy for myself and my family.
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KSP3776 6/23/2011 5:12PM

    You have done a wonderful job and should be very proud of yourself. Remember, it is just a number, not who we are!!!

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CHRISTINA791 5/20/2011 6:28PM

    You've done an amazing job, and you should be so proud of that. A date is just a date... it's nice to mark the milestone in some way, but sometimes date milestones and pounds lost milestones just don't match up. Celebrate what you've done instead - sticking with Spark and making a huge amount of progress is reason for celebration on its own, and 16 pounds difference doesn't change that.

Keep it up! You will hit your 100 pound loss mark and it'll be even more reason to celebrate.

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KIMBALI 5/20/2011 10:20AM

    I thoroughly enjoyed your blog and found it uplifting. I am so new to this and seeing what you have accomplished already is down right inspiring! I am still learning so much and hope that you don't mind me adding you to my friends list.
Have a great weekend!

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JENNSWIMS 5/18/2011 3:59PM

    Your progress has been amazing. I know it is frustrating to come so close to a goal and not quite get there, but your weight loss is truly impressive. TRULY IMPRESSIVE.

As far as getting off your plateau, I can't think of anything other than shaking things up. If you currently eat a lot of carbs, eat more protein, if you currently do very little weight training, start doing a ton.

For me, two a days are plateau busters, but two a days are not fun.

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MY2CHIX 5/17/2011 12:22PM

    You are truly one of the nicest and most supportive Sparkler's on here, and we are blessed to have you as a Sparkler. You've come a long way in a year and the difference this time around is your true determination to not give up! We won't let you no matter how ugly this plateau gets - we are here cheering you on as you do us! emoticon emoticon
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KELLYC_14FAN 5/17/2011 10:45AM

    I have been losing/gaining the same few pounds for a few months. It does get frustrating, but I know it will turn itself around!! My two year anniversary is coming up in July and I wanted to be at my goal weight by then...but I am still about 80 pounds away from it. The weight has come off a lot slower than I ever thought, but I refused to back away...just like you have decided not too!! Which is a great thing.

SparkPeople and all the SparkFriends are so wonderful!!

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TIME4AMY 5/17/2011 6:32AM

    It's great to set goals for yourself, but making it perdy darn close in the long run is a pat on the back, as well!!! People often think that if a goal isn't met by a desired date, that they've failed...but who's life ends on that set date?! Life is waiting...waiting for you to take it by the horns and live it up! Waiting for you to finish what you set out to do! Waiting for you to find your true inner happiness! Waiting for you to reach that goal, no matter how much time you need! 100 lbs. is around the corner...I'm sure you can smell it!! Although, 84 lbs is a hell of an accomplishment! Think of all the big & small changes that you have made by losing this weight, which make such a huge difference in every day.

You can do it! Let's just say its... 20 more lbs. of canned goods. haha... (weird analogy, I know...it's the first thing that came to my mind) I've been comparing lost weight to bags of potatoes...cans...cases of soda...etc. haha...

So...canned goods...haha...They won't go bad! They're just sittin' on a shelf, waiting to be used up! Think of the racket it will make, when you knock em' ovah!!!! It'll wake everyone up to celebrate!!!! (I crack me up...canned goods...haha)

Go get em' girl!!!

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LEAHLEGS 5/16/2011 8:54PM

    Sometimes weight sneaks on as quickly as it can sneak off. I'm sure you've had mysterious 3 lb losses. Just think of it as part of the process, and keep on truckin!

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MRSSMITH622 5/16/2011 5:55PM

    I am so lost. I am having trouble controling my eating.

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MADTHENURSE 5/16/2011 3:22PM

    You are one of the most amazing people I know. From the day we met, I have aspired to be more like you. Your generosity, desire to help others and kindness show through in everything you do. Keep up the good work. Just because you don't meet your goal (in the original time frame) doesn't mean that you won't finish the journey. Like you tell me - think about how far you've come. Let that guide you. You are soooo much healthier than a year ago. You are much smaller. You have more confidence. And you continue motivate and inspire me. Keep up the awesome work you've been doing!!!

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TEMPEST272002 5/16/2011 11:58AM

    Yeah, I'm here with you shaking my head & wondering what it really takes. I've been losing/gaining the same 5 lbs for months. I'm not sure what the answer is - but I know I'm not giving up either. The best we can do is the best we can do. It helps when I keep my eye on the healthy lifestyle vs the scale. I lost 50 in my first year... and I'm thinking it might take 2 years to get off the next 30. I think that 84 lbs in 11 months is AMAZING!!!!

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MAMADWARF 5/16/2011 11:24AM

    Yea I started week 3 of the bootcamp and my weight is up and down too. Its ok, tho. It will all level off. I, too, wanted to lose 100 in a year but I realized early on that wasnt going to happen. I hit the 60 pound mark which is still incredible and I realized it didnt matter how long it takes me, it will come off.

I am proud of you for continuing on, working every day and being able to see the big picture. That is why you are and will be successful. You have done a great job, Holly, and you have made my journey brighter!!

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MONTANA_ED 5/16/2011 11:05AM

    Woo Hoo! Although you didn't hit your "goal" - you are doing fantastic! Every little bit helps and sometimes it's little bits. It's great that you have done so well and I have faith that you will hit that goal!

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FIZZYBALL 5/16/2011 10:16AM

    emoticon I am a lil' sad as well as my 1st Sparkversary is also in a month and I too originally aimed to get rid of 100 pds but it's not happening. I am looking at 60 pds (maybe) and that's ok. That is 60 more pds than in the last 20 years :). I do think Sparkpeople as helped me in overcoming the "deadline/goal" timeframes and to "keep on keeping on" regardless of any obstacles.

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MOONBIRD 5/16/2011 10:11AM

    I so know how you feel! I haven't lost in over a week and have been working out a ton! I did have one day where I ate too much, but I thought I'd have burned it off. Oh well. We just have to keep going and the weight will come off. Who knows what our bodies are doing sometimes. I also had hoped to lose 100 lbs in a year, but I ended up at 85, which I am totally fine with. That is a lot of weight, so I think you've done awesome. :) I am so glad to have you and other great sparkfriends to help me on my journey. emoticon

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