Sunday, April 07, 2013
I have been SO down in the dumps... in a terrible funk... just plain blah... I know the weather has a LOT to do with it. Living in Erie, PA has a lot of ups... we live 6 minutes from the lake, we have an amusement park, and tons of things to do ALL the time. The down side is... we could have nearly 6 months of winter, or at least it feels that way. I can't complain too much, we don't often get sub zero temps, or more than 4-6 feet of snow at one time like other parts of the country. That being said, it can still be REALLY crappy for a REALLY long time.
When I was 300+ pounds, winter used to be my favorite time of year. I was hot all the time, so 16 degrees was the perfect temperature for me. NOW, I'm cold all the time and often wear jeans even when it's near 70. I've been looking forward to warm weather for weeks, and it just hasn't shown up. I've been depressed and that's just given me an excuse to stop working out and start eating... we all know where that gets us... even more depressed, more food, and even less movement... if that's even possible.
I posted the other day that "I'm tired of all of it" and I truly am. I'm tired of feeling like garbage because I'm eating garbage. I'm tired of looking like garbage... well, because I'm eating garbage. I forgot just how BAD things are when I'm not taking care of myself. I feel bad, I look bad and I'm just plain cranky!
Everyone has been so encouraging and supportive, and I really appreciate it. Being a part of this community makes this whole journey a bit easier. It's helped me, once again, WANT to continue the fight. I'm not just doing this for for me and my family anymore. I'm doing this to help anyone who has any doubts about losing weight or getting healthy... it CAN be done.
So when you feel this bad about things... what can you do?!? I don't know about anyone else, but I went shopping, lol! Yep, a little retail therapy does a body good! Oh, AND I filled the house with GOOD food again. Saturday, I decided enough was enough. I NEED to get things rolling again. I have events coming up, and I want to feel good and I want to look good. I'm going to South Carolina in 10 days, I've got multiple 5k's planned, and I've got a Dirty Girl to train for... I HAVE THINGS TO DO!!! I need to stop feeling sorry for myself and just do it!!!
I've been batch cooking all weekend and I have my workouts planned for the rest of the month... 3 miles already today, thank you very much. I'm getting things in order for the kids while I'm out of town, and I'm planning my outfits for my trip... want to see?!?
both came from Old Navy
this outfit is from Dots
the top is from Dots, the rest is from Wal-Mart
See, shopping really IS good for the mind, body and soul, lol!
The MOST EXCITING event I have planned this year, is the Dirty Girl Mud Run. I'm doing it with a few of my favorite Sparklers on September 7, and I NEED to be ready for it! I refuse to be disappointed in myself, and lately, that's all it's been... complete and utter disappointment in myself. NO MORE!!!
I've got this!
Tuesday, March 26, 2013
I don't know... You all must think I'm the wishiest, washiest person on this site, and I don't blame you. I weigh just what I did one year ago and I'm up 4 pounds from my lowest weight. I can't say that I've been busting my butt... I can't say that my eating has been stellar... the ONLY thing I can say is that I've maintained my 137 pound weight loss for 1 year.
Don't misunderstand me, I'm SUPER happy about it, but I'm frustrated because I can't find the motivation to go any further. The excitement of being "this size" is gone... I've been this size for a year. The thrill of being able to "do things" is over... I can do things I never thought imaginable... and I've been doing them for a year.
I get all excited, get back into things, it lasts a whole week, and then I'm all... eh, what ever... What IS that?!? Where's my drive? What happened to the girl who was SO dedicated that she freaked if she gained 3oz? NOW, I gain 6lbs, and shrug it off. Work out, eat right, it's gone in a few weeks.
Have I given up? It's hard losing the last 25 pounds... Am I happy with where I am? I'm not sure... Do I think my goal is unattainable? Maybe... Do I REALLY need to fit into those size 8 jeans? They don't look nearly as small as they used to...
Maybe I've just gotten lazy. Maybe I really don't want or care to lose the rest of the weight. I've already changed my life and I'm healthier than I've ever been. I know this is a lifestyle, and I think I've been able to actually live my life for the last year and maintain that healthy lifestyle.
Maybe I just need to adjust my thinking. Maybe it isn't about losing weight at this point... maybe it needs to be about getting stronger and faster. Maybe I just need to continue eating right most of the time, continue to ST and keep up on my 5k's. Does it matter if I lose another ounce... I don't know...
If anyone's still reading, I love you guys
Sunday, March 03, 2013
My son, Jake, is currently a student at a local Martial Arts Academy and they do a TON of fundraising for our community. They've done toy drives for Toys for Tots, food drives for the homeless shelters, and recently, they did a break-a-thon where the kids raised money based on the number of boards they could break, for the Asbury Woods Nature Center.
At the end of April they are participating in the "March for Babies" which is a 6.2 mile walk for the March of Dimes. Jake was premature, being born at 35 weeks, so this fundraiser is particularly close to my heart. We were VERY blessed that Jake didn't have any health issues at birth, but there are a lot of babies that aren't so fortunate.
This is the link if anyone would care to donate.
I wasn't sure if I should do this or not. I want to make sure everyone understands that every penny goes directly to the March of Dimes, and Jake doesn't get anything from the Academy for raising money, it's just a great fundraiser.
Thanks friends, and wish me luck!!! I've never walked 6.2 miles, and Jake has never done more than 1.5, it should be interesting = )
Sunday, February 17, 2013
***I received this DVD free from SparkPeople but did not receive any form of payment for my review***
I was very hesitant to do this because of my total dislike for all things strength training. I asked a friend of mine, Lisa, to do it with me, and this worked well for 2 reasons. Being an SP outsider, I could get an honest opinion from her, and if we did it together... that meant I HAD to do it!
Like I said, I hate strength training... any and all forms of it. It's my biggest downfall on this journey. I've tried all kinds of DVD's and free weights, bands and balls, still hate it... until I got this DVD... I can honestly say that I LOVED it!
As with the other SP DVD's, the girls are modestly dressed, there are varying levels of intensity for each exercise, there is a warm up and cool down for each section, and no one is yelling at you to "come on, one more, do it!"
Inside the DVD there is a booklet with several SP recipes. We tried the Bluegrass Jambalaya and it was awesome! There is also weekly workout schedule you can try which incorporates all 3 of the interval workouts on the DVD.
There are 3 workouts on this DVD... Barre Body Blast, Body weight Burn and Sizzle-sculpt. I've done all three multiple times to give a fair review, but the 2 that I enjoy the most are Body weight Burn and Sizzle-Sculpt. Combined, those 2 workouts last about 45 minutes. The routines were easy to follow and I really feel like you're getting a good workout. I didn't get bored like I usually do with ST and I think, maybe, it's because there was a bit of cardio involved and you just weren't standing still.
My friend Lisa, who has been on her own fitness quest for about a year, has done P90X and Insanity, so I really didn't think she'd enjoy this, but I was wrong. She really liked the fact that you took your time and did each move "in a controlled manner, instead of jumping around from exercise to exercise like a chimp on crack." Her words, not mine! She was also pleased the "the woman had clothes on and looked healthy and fit. Normal people aren't built like the ones in P90X."
I've only been doing this DVD on a regular basis (2x/week) Since January 1st, but I can feel and see the difference. My clothes are fitting a bit better in my thighs and upper arms, which are my biggest issue. I haven't lost any weight, in fact, I've gained a few, so I have to say it's because of this DVD. I haven't changed anything else with my routine... my food is the same, and my other workouts have been the same, I've just added the DVD.
I'm not sure that this DVD is for beginners. You need a bit of balance and coordination to to do these moves. You don't have to be an acrobat, but you're doing squats with your arms over your head holding weights... I'm not sure I could have done this 2 months into my journey. This is, however, an excellent DVD for people who want some excitement to their ST and aren't diggin' the likes of P90X.
The DVD is available now at www.amazon.com and Target, along with other retailers which you can find at www.sparkpeoplecom/tbsdvd. I'm sorry, I'm not technologically advanced enough to add any links. However, you can earn 250 sparkpoints for buying the DVD at Target. If you go to your "start page" you can click on Coach Nicole's smiling face and you will be whisked through cyberspace to purchase your very own SparkPeople Total Body Sculpting DVD! I Highly recommend it, and I promise you won't be disappointed!
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