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Anniversary Weekend

Sunday, October 21, 2012

How different our anniversary weekends have turned out. We used to do things like... go out of town to a little B&B... or spend the weekend in a jacuzzi suite right here in town. This year, we spent all morning at the kid's cross country race and all afternoon at the fall festival... and I wouldn't have changed a thing.

Saturday, however, was a little more grown up. We got to go to dinner, and spend the evening alone watching movies while my mom had the kids. This morning, we got to have breakfast WITH our coffee, and no one was fussing about not wanting to eat what I made. How dare I make eggs, and poatoes when all anyone should want is cereal and peanut butter toast???

So this morning, after a delicious breakfast, we went and got the kids for their first race.

pre race

Jake finished his mile in 12:01

and Katy finished hers in 14:53

post race with their ribbons... I didn't get a pic of their post race feast... pizza, cookies and orange drink, oh my!

After the race we went to the fall festival. It's a "free" festival that ended up costing us about $15, lol! It's not a ton of money, but when something is supposed to be FREE, you shouldn't chrarge for the "cool" extras. You know, face painting, hot cocoa and pumpkin carving. ALL the things the kids just HAD to do, lol! They do have lots of free activities like witches hat ring toss, pumpkin bowling, crafts, and a hayride. All the games come with candy prizes and who doesn't love a hayride?


Katy loved her butterfly, but Jake wouldn't do it. He's more of a bowler...



there were pumpkin guts everywhere...


popcorn witches hands...


and lots of hot cocoa

Today is our acutual anniversary, and some people might not think this is great way celebrate 12 years of marriage, but I had a pretty good time!

  
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CHRISTINA791 10/26/2012 4:30PM

    Happy anniversary!

I think it's fantastic that your kids are into cross country. What a great activity for a healthy family!

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SCOUTMOM715 10/24/2012 6:40PM

    What an awesome family weekend!! Love the pics & your daughter's butterly!

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CATDUG19 10/24/2012 4:38PM

    I love the way you celebrated, so active , so fun!! PS you are looking so great in your picture, congrats hot moma

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SAINTBETH 10/24/2012 11:14AM

    You are blessed with a beautiful family!

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MOJIMAK 10/23/2012 8:57PM

    Sounds like a lovely anniversary. Great pics too :-) Congrats....

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PATIB13 10/23/2012 7:51PM

    I think celebrating your anniversary with your husband is the best way to spend a day and then to have a great time with the kiddo's what could be better. Our 9th anniversary was on the 10th and we spend the morning sitting down by the lake with some hot chocolate and our books, then we drove to spokane and went to a little wine tasting place and then picked up our son from preschool (yes we sent him to school and went and had some fun) and took him with us to dinner. IT WAS PERFECT. Happy anniversary to you....may there be many more filled with happy memories and with your loved ones. emoticon

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KELLY19770 10/23/2012 2:55PM

    Happy Anniversary! And great fall pics of the kiddos! emoticon

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GODIVADSG 10/22/2012 5:50PM

    How wonderful!

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TEMPEST272002 10/22/2012 4:14PM

    Happy Anniversary! Looks like a great time to me!

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DIANER2014 10/22/2012 4:09PM

    Looks like you all had a good time! Great pics! emoticon

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KIBAISREADY 10/22/2012 3:48PM

    AWWW HOW AWESOME! YOU ALL LOOK LIKE YOU HAD A BLAST! SUCH A BEAUTIFUL FAMILY emoticon emoticon

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SAILING2GOAL 10/22/2012 11:33AM

    I LOVE doing non-traditional events on special occasions! Fantastic!

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CHANGING4ME49 10/22/2012 11:29AM

    What a nice way to spend your anniversary. Loved the pics too! Happy Anniversary!

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SAMBIDEXTROUS 10/22/2012 10:27AM

    What a fun way to spend time together!

After 23 years and 4 marriages (to each other...no divorces...we are just wacky) we don't do a huge thing for the anniversaries.



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NOTABOUTHEFACE 10/22/2012 8:37AM

    Happy Anniversary! Looks like you had a wonderful weekend!

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ELLISH 10/22/2012 8:35AM

    Totally Awesome!! In every way!! ;)

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BONOLICIOUS2 10/22/2012 8:05AM

    Awwwww what a lovely post! You have such a beautiful family!

Congrats on 12 years! What is the secret? emoticon

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CLPURNELL 10/22/2012 4:43AM

    Glad you and the whole family had such an awesome Anniversary Weekend!!! You deserve it!!!

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-POOKIE- 10/22/2012 3:07AM

    I think its a beautiful way to spend it, you had both alone time and time with the two little wonders your marriage has made.

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NUOVAELLE 10/22/2012 1:43AM

    Happy anniversary! It's funny how our ideas of fun and celebration change through the years. It's a great thing you had the best of both worlds. Fun with the family and a little private time for the two of you.
The fall festival looks like so much fun!
Enjoy your night and many wishes for a lot of beautiful and loving years for the two of you together!
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ILOVEMALI 10/21/2012 8:50PM

    Happy anniversary! So glad you had so much fun1

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POOKASLUAGH 10/21/2012 8:46PM

    first off, happy anniversary! :) Second, I think this is a great way to celebrate! I miss real fall festivals and pumpkin patches and all that from up north! It's still so hot here! Been around 90 the last few days. :( Of course, it's going to get cold jsut in time for my 5K this Sunday, haha! Supposed to be 40 degrees! And raining. Gah. Ah well, at least it'll feel like fall! Which, speaking of, looking at your page makes me think it's time for an overhaul on mine. I need to update from late summer to fall now. And this comment has been scattered all over the place...

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 10/21/2012 8:39PM

    That sounds like a pretty good celebration to me! For our anniversary, Ken and I both worked, then he took the boys to football practice and went to darts. We didn't see each other at all! But my birthday was a few days earlier and we went to a move and then dinner as a family so that's good enough for me. :) Great pictures!

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HSMOM2FOUR 10/21/2012 8:39PM

    I think it's fabulous to celebrate the beginning of your family with a family weekend!!
Sounds like a lovely balance of couple time & family time, healthy activities, and fun food! So glad you had a great weekend & congrats on 12 yrs of marriage!! We've been married for 17 years, and it's awesome!
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YESCURLYCAN 10/21/2012 8:31PM

  Lol@ about the "free" part. I am glad that a nice time was had by all. Plus I am a fan of all things unconventional, so good for you guys going outside the box.The pics are great and I am a fan of the butterfly too *wonders if I could get away with that*
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I guess I can't complain...

Friday, October 12, 2012

I've been on this journey for 29 months... I thought I 'd be done by now... I've been at the same weight since March...

I started looking back through all the trackers. Food, exercise, weight loss, trying to find SOMETHING to help me progress. I didn't lose an ounce this week. Food was good.. True, I missed 2 workouts, but 5 out of 7 isn't bad. But I would think I'd get some kind of loss out of it.

Of course when you start, you lose TONS of weight right away. It wasn't abnormal for me to lose 3-4 pounds a week. Now, I go an entire month without losing 3-4 pounds. Do I eat more, do I eat less, do I workout more or less... It's all a guessing game. I don't care what the numbers are. According to my numbers this week, I should have lost 1.3 pounds. Last week, I should have lost 2.2... You can't predict anything.

After being crabby about it for about 35 seconds, and looking over everything, I jut know I need to be consistent with food and exercise. That's the only thing that's going to help me continue to lose weight. As much as it sucks for not losing any, I know I have to be consistent.

If you look at the big picture though.. I realized that over the last 29 months, I've lost an average of 1.17 pounds per week. I guess I can't complain... It's enough to keep me going anyhow.

  
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HLTHYRNRMOM 10/28/2012 2:46PM

    Holly! You rock, period end of sentence! I completely get it! I only lose 1-2 lbs occasionally a week, I feel like it should just fall off faster. Two things that have stuck with me posted by other sparkers is....


SLIMKATIE-" I don't do anything I'm not willing to do the rest of my life"

FITFOODIE806-"Not all calories are created equal" "when I focused on real food and not processed stuff, is when I started losing consistently"

YOU CLEARLY know what to do, I just thought I would put my 2 sense in, LOL

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GOPINTOS 10/28/2012 1:00PM

    I've also started zig-zagging my calories. I changed my macros and include some starches again (according to Perfect Health Diet for weight loss) and the scale is moving a little faster again! emoticon

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TINAJANE76 10/28/2012 12:51PM

    I know it stinks to not be losing as quickly as you did when you first started out, but averaging more than a pound a week is fantastic! Unless you have a medical issue that's holding you back, your slowing progress could come down to the fact that now that you weigh less, your body requires fewer calories to function. If you do Weight Watchers, for example, you get fewer points the less you weigh. Scaling back your calories could be an option but you might be happier keeping them at your current levels and losing more slowly. Another thing to consider could be making some changes to shake things up. Do you eat the same things all the time and do you follow the same exercise routine every week? Sometimes a change can be the shock our systems need to reboot and restart the weight loss process after a period of plateauing. You're in the homestretch now, so stay patient with yourself and try experimenting with some different things. You'll be at goal before you know it!

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RECREATING_ME 10/20/2012 1:13AM

    I wish I had some words of advice for you, Holly. Given that I am not even remotely close to where you are, I don't. But I keep looking at the pictures of where you were when you started and where you are now and am blown away by your transformation! You are a rockstar in my book :)

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SAINTBETH 10/19/2012 8:40AM

    Another Sparker said she tried zig-zagging within her calorie range: one day eat the max, next day eat the minimum. It's working for her and I'm just beginning to try it.
We can do this!

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-POOKIE- 10/17/2012 11:27AM

    Urgh its the consistency thats getting me.

I can be wonderfully perfect all week and insanely blow it at the weekends... Its swings and roundabouts.

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CLPURNELL 10/17/2012 6:49AM

    You know I am in the same boat we have to keep chugging along!!! This is a LIFESTYLE change there is no real finish line we just keep doing the good habits and we will get healthier!

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KIBAISREADY 10/15/2012 1:53PM

    OH HOLLY, GIRL I COULD HAVE WRITTEN THIS PRENATAL. I WAS LIKE THAT EATING RIGHT AND EXERCISING, BUT THE WEIGHT WASN'T COMING OFF. THE GUESS GAME WHAT TO DO, WHAT TO TRY DIFFERENTLY, ETC. I DIDN'T GET A CHANCE TO FIGURE IT OUT, BUT I TRULY THING IT WAS HORMONAL WELL AT LEAST FOR ME. YOU SEE WHEN I LOOK BACK AT THAT TIME I WAS PREGNANT AND DIDN'T KNOW IT YES SO EARLY STAGE THE BODY KNEW THOUGH LOL. SO MAYBE SOMETHING IN YOUR BODY IS GOING ON MAYBE IT'S HORMONAL AS WELL OR SOMETHING ELSE (NOT SAYING YOU ARE PREGGERS LOL JUST SAYING THERE MIGHT BE SOMETHING ELSE GOING ON)

WISHING YOU THE BEST AND FINDING WHAT WORKS AGAIN.


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POOKASLUAGH 10/14/2012 6:00PM

    I know exactly how you feel!!! This wall is KILLING me! It's gotten even worse over the last few months, until I have stopped losing no matter what I try. I"m so frustrated. Nothing helps. I have no idea what I'm doing wrong. Sometimes I think we lose so long that our bodies force us to stop. :/

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YOUCANDOITPAULA 10/14/2012 3:36AM

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keep pushing , you have come so far and have inspired me a lot.

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FUSIONFITNESS3 10/14/2012 2:20AM

    You can complain because it is frustrating when the numbers don't budge and you work so hard but don't let the number on the scale control your mood for the day, or the week. It isn't worth it. You're doing the right thing putting it into perspective. Look at the big picture. You have accomplished so much over the longer period of time and you are an inspiration to me and others. That's something to be proud of.
You may not be loosing but you are maintaining your weight and that's the greatest challenge. Keep it all in perspective and keep up your positive attitude.
You're amazing.

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NUOVAELLE 10/13/2012 2:02AM

    Think positive! You're not losing but you're actually maintaining!!! And believe me, that's so much more difficult than losing! After all, we all know that the closer we get to our goal weight, the harder it is to lose.
You're doing great, Holly. You're here, you're trying and you're a wonderful, supportive Sparkfriend. You've changed your life and your views on food and exercise. That's really the most important thing of all!
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NANAGO1204 10/12/2012 8:20PM

    ...nah...go ahead and complain...just a little...it gives the rest of us an opportunity to delight in your progress and be a little more patient with our own...while also appreciating the success so far! emoticon
It is all worth it! Look at you...keep up the awesome work as your body slowly approaches the goal line and is prepared to stay strong after the victory dance! emoticon

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MOJIMAK 10/12/2012 7:36PM

    It's been really hard for me to lose weight the past couple of months too. It seemed like the scale would never budge. It finally did and by 3 or 4 pounds. It will get harder to lose weight as you have less to lose. You just have to follow your plan and not get discouraged. You have done a fantastic job :-)

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MOONBIRD 10/12/2012 6:52PM

    I haven't lost much since spring myself, and I think when you don't have a ton left to lose it's just harder. My body is not allowing me to lose like I was either. Sometimes I know I have eaten too many calories here and there, and other times I can't figure it out. I know this: I am only getting fitter, and I know you are too! A month or so ago I tried on a dress from a wedding I was in back in May, and even though I'd only lost like 8 pounds, the dress was much looser! I think as this journey goes on, being able to maintain your weight within a few pounds is a HUGE accomplishment. Think of how many people lose it super fast and gain it back rapidly. I too thought I'd be done losing weight by now, but I'm not. You are right that we just need to keep eating well and working out, and eventually the weight will come off. Lately I seem to go weeks without losing a thing or bouncing up and down the same 2 pounds, and then in a week I suddenly lose 3-4 pounds and then this pattern repeats itself. Weight loss is not an exact thing for most people I think. Think of how much our bodies have gone through in the last couple years. I think sometimes they just decide to take a break and so we end up maintaining. I know recently I am starving all the time from the half training and I end up snacking too much, but you'd think me running 6-10 miles and several other 3 and 4 mile runs that I'd still lose. It's nuts. This time of year is hard too. There is food everywhere and last year I didn't lose much between Thanksgiving and the New Year. Anyway, I totally understand how you feel and I think you've done amazingly well and accomplished so much. We may not be at our ultimate goal weights yet, but we've met SO many goals and our lives are so much better now. Hang in there. We'll do this together!! emoticon

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2BEABETTERME 10/12/2012 5:57PM

    I think, despite the frustration of not losing like you'd like, you are succeeding. You've contained to keep exercise, health and weight loss a priority. You have not given up or gained it back.

As much as we would like results on our timeline, things happen at the pace they were meant to happen.

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 10/12/2012 5:53PM

    Girl, I am WITH you! Except I haven't lost any weight for over a year. Since July 2011. Oh sure, I lost about 5 pounds at the beginning of the year but that's back on now. Very frustrating, but at the same time the fact that I AM still at the same weight is so much better than gaining it all back. Hang in there! Who knows what's in store - but here's to NOT gaining. Hugs!

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ILOVEMALI 10/12/2012 5:33PM

    What an accomplishment!

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WILLPARKINSON 10/12/2012 4:31PM

    Our bodies are amazing, but very frustrating, things. Continue as you are and let your body guide you. Encourage it, but listen to it at the same time. :)

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KELLY19770 10/12/2012 4:13PM

    Keep on truckin'! You've done so well, hopefully this plateau will end for you soon.

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KARENDEE4 10/12/2012 3:47PM

    I have not lost much since March/April Either. It sucks cause I was also at 3-4 pounds a week. I would love 4 pounds a month right now.

I have to hope for both of us it will happen eventually.

You have done great and you are still trying! That is success.

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JSKIPPY11 10/12/2012 3:41PM

    At least you have a positive outlook on it, showing what you have lost over all.. That is what is hardest for me, is finding the positive in the situation. Thanks for an inspiring blog!


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DAUGHTEROFTWIN 10/12/2012 3:41PM

    Beautiful Holly, you are where you are supposed to be. Focus on the lifestyle and non-scale victories instead of that scale. Watch your skin tighten and become more taut as it is conforming to your healthy, lean muscles. Track your time as you run and watch the numbers shrink as you increase your strength and stamina. Focus on your health and vitality and the scale will do what it will. I don't know what your "perfect" weight is, but at some point I think that number becomes mythology and we have to switch to a different tool of measurement to gauge our success. I wish I were where you are now. I'm not. I still have a long way to go. But I'm watching and listening and trying to figure out 1) Where exactly it is I want to ultimately go and 2) How the heck I'm going to get there. (Silly me, I think I really want the taut hardbody of a 20 year old with my 43 year old brain).

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YESCURLYCAN 10/12/2012 3:34PM

  Oh yea do I know how you are feeling right now. I am much bigger and have been doing it "for real" for the past year and a half. This morning I realized I have only lost 30 pounds this year. Shouldn't I have lost more I ask myself? Especially considering I am still 300lbs. I know that food is the focus for me (I have a suspicion it is for you as well). Sure the exercise helps and is wonderful; I love being able to hit new fitness feats. I just know when I am consistent with food, on track with sodium, calories, etc. then my numbers are good. Mind you though, sleep and water are absolutely essential (for me) as well. If I have a great week of rest, ooh wee my numbers are awesome. Real talk.

All of this is to say, that maybe you have to look at all aspect of your journey (battle for me ;-) Are you sleeping enough, drinking your water and being mindful of sodium levels? Just a thought. emoticon emoticon

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FORMYDARLINGS 10/12/2012 3:30PM

   

Lovew to see you accepting the stubborn scale numbers, knowing that it is ALL part of the process. You will always be a winner in my books. Whoo Hoo for you. No weight gain means you are doing it right. WOnderful!!!!


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SAMBIDEXTROUS 10/12/2012 3:22PM

    I remember this feeling when I lost the 150lbs the first time.

I started looking at weighted vests and such because the scale seemed to be stuck (it wasn't....I checked....)

I have to say that one of the main reasons that I gained all the weight back was complacency. And all that came with it.

I wish I had read "Half-Assed" before I gain all the weight back. She talks about the frustrations of having lost most of the weight and now what??

Also, she talks about the people the constantly ask what you did and when you tell them the boring way they ignore all your advice....until the next week. When they ask you again.



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Her Times 5k

Sunday, October 07, 2012

My best friend came to town this weekend to spend some much needed time together and do a 5k on Saturday. We had a fantastic time together this weekend, and this is the second year that we've done the 5k together. It's for woman only and it's a great race to do if it's your first one. It's a completely flat terrain, and it's a nice walk. Last year it was about 50 degrees and very rainy. This year, we lucked out. It was 51 degrees and NOT raining, lol! There were a lot of woman of all shapes and sizes, which is great to see. A lot of them looked liked seasoned runners, but I'm sure some were running their first race. It was a sea of hot pink, and even a few tutus. When did this become race gear?

Here are just a couple of pics...


my friend Rachael, me and Katy, and my BFF Melissa


Katy "warming up" for her 1 mile run


umm, still warming up?!?

And, I would have had a picture of her actually running, except some j@ck a$$ stepped right in front of me as I was about to take her picture.


and, after the race, just to prove everyone survived = )

That's it friends, just a quick post about the 5k!

  
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CHICA125KML 10/11/2012 10:19AM

    Awesome!!

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SAMBIDEXTROUS 10/9/2012 10:34AM

    Love these pictures!!

And, yes, tutus are everywhere! There was a guy this weekend that ran the 1/2 marathon in a tux.
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SCOUTMOM715 10/8/2012 10:34PM

    Isn't it fun to do a 5k with a friend! Love your daughter's warm-up. You look fantastic Holly!! emoticon

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2BEABETTERME 10/8/2012 3:21PM

    How nice to have someone to race with! I'm going to have to try Katy's warm-ups before my next race. emoticon

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TEMPEST272002 10/8/2012 3:03PM

    I loved seeing your race pics! Looks like you had a great time & you are looking fantastic too.

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MOONBIRD 10/8/2012 12:55PM

    I am glad you had a great time at the 5k! It's so fun to do them with friends and family. I think the tutus look kind of fun, but I wonder if they'd be annoying to run in.

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RECREATING_ME 10/8/2012 12:52PM

    I suppose it is important to warm up the face. Don't want to pull a cheek or eyelid muscle ;)

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VICKYMARIEC 10/8/2012 10:38AM

    i LOVE Katy's warm up! It gave mea good chuckle...lol

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ILOVEMALI 10/7/2012 11:45PM

    Well done!

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HSMOM2FOUR 10/7/2012 11:43PM

    woo hoo!!!! good job!!

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YESCURLYCAN 10/7/2012 10:36PM

  Love the pics Holly and Katy's warm up is too cute. You know you have come along way when you are doing healthy things with your best friend versus sitting around drinking margaritas emoticon emoticon

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POOKASLUAGH 10/7/2012 8:26PM

    I think I need to adopt her warmups. :D

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It's been a day...

Thursday, October 04, 2012

It started with my daughter having issues with EVERYTHING this morning. From breakfast, to what she was going to wear, to cross country practice after school. Usually, she acts VERY mature for her age. SO mature, that when she acts like the 7 year old that she is and has a bit of a fit, I just don't know how to handle it. GREAT start to the day, but we got through it.

My one and only co-worker is off on maternity, and it's starting to get to me. I'm a social person, and it's hard not having anyone to talk to all day. The first week or two was fine, I was extremely busy fielding her phone calls and forwarding all of her mail to corporate. Now, her phone has stopped ringing and she gets very little mail. So it's me and my computer all day. Don't get me wrong, I have plenty of my own work, but it's lonely. Thank God for Slacker radio, but I'm actually starting to talk out loud to myself. That can't be good.

The bradycardia (that low heart rate thing) has been bothering me today. I've been really tired and my heart has felt fluttery. I went to the doctor, and he said he may need to put me on a monitor for a few days to see what's going on because it doesn't bother me ALL the time. They want to see if there's some kind of pattern as to when this is happening. All of the blood tests and things were normal, so I don't know what we're going to do about this. I'm still being told "it's normal" but there is medication if it continues to be a problem.

To top it all off, I'M STARVING! I don't know if I'm bored, if it's the stress, but seriously, I just want to pour a mixing bowl full of cereal, shredded mini wheat's to be exact, and eat the whole box. AND because of the bradycardia, I can't workout tonight. If I could occupy myself with a workout, I could probably keep my mind off of food. UGH! Sorry team, no workout points from me tonight = ( Can I get points for eating?

And, to round out this craptastic day, tomorrow is weigh in and I'm not optimistic. Sorry this is such a downer, but it's been that kind of day. Tomorrow will be better regardless of the scale. My BFF is coming to town, and we're doing a woman's only 5k on Saturday. Something to look forward to.

  
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MOONBIRD 10/8/2012 1:11PM

    I'm sorry you're having a hard time. I find myself feeling hungry all the time! Moreso than ever, and it is making me crazy. I have basically been between 180-183 for the last month and it's frustrating. My daughter has been so difficult lately, and I think it's just from adjusting to school. Anyway, I hope your work days get better and that everything is ok with the heart rate. I didn't realize you were having ongoing issues with that.

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CHICA125KML 10/7/2012 11:49AM

    emoticon I hope that your 5k and bff's visit is going well

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ILOVEMALI 10/7/2012 1:24AM

    Give yourself a little something to look forward to. It will help. emoticon

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TSOWELLS07 10/6/2012 11:50AM

    Hope you are having a great wkend. Good luck on your 5K today.

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CLPURNELL 10/5/2012 5:26PM

    I had a real rough day yesterday too. So believe me Holly I understand. I am sorry things were so rough yesterday I know it can get lonely at work all day. Can you use an IM program at work. I have one of my best friends on im and it helps alleviate the boredom and have random chit chat. I hope you figure out the low heart rate thing that sounds scary but glad all the blood work was positive. I saw you dropped a pound today so that was great news!!

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CATDUG19 10/5/2012 3:07PM

    I have had those type of mornings with my kids and that really sets up for a great day.

Have no one to talk at work would drive me nuts. Keep blogging and talking to yourself its healthy


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PATIB13 10/5/2012 2:19PM

    Yes, it is fun for a little while when you are alone at work but then it does get boring...only get worried if you start answering yourself in a different voice so you think it is someone different....then there is a problem! Looks like you still loss even with all the junk going on, sorry to hear about the medical stuff, never any fun when you are trying to figure things out. Hope it gets resolved soon...
Hey I say a mixing bowl full of shredded wheats is better then a mixing bowl full of ice cream or chips and salsa (which would be my choice)
have a great day!!!

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BONOLICIOUS2 10/5/2012 11:02AM

    But I saw you weighed in and you did great!!!!!!!!! Chin up buttercup!

Some days the odds just feel stacked against you. Some days are better than others. It is hard to remember to keep rolling, rolling, rolling (remember that old Walmart commercial song? Sing that haha!)

And the even better thing? IT IS FRIDAY! WOO HOO! Hope you have a great weekend!

(and DEFINITELY get that heart stuff checked out! You kinda need that heart, you know?!)

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ENDERLI 10/5/2012 10:46AM

    I know what you mean about the social thing...I work with a guy who is a total introvert....I mean a real introvert and I am 100% extrovert. It's lonely. Pandora is my friend too. So I know how you feel...also with the cold weather hibernating feed issue.
It could also be your body trying to "fix" the heart rythym...like it "thinks" just feeding you will help? I dunno. But here's to a great weekend!

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VLKSHA 10/5/2012 7:32AM

    Hope your time at work alone can do fast. It does make for a really long afternoon. Have fun with your girlfriend and enjoy the run. Post pictures if you get a chance of the race. I was really inspired by the ones from the Mother's day race.

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I hope today goes better for you! Enjoy your time with your friend, and you ladies have an awesome 5k!!!

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RECREATING_ME 10/5/2012 12:00AM

    Our daughters must have been channeling each other this morning! I don't remember fretting about clothes when I was 7 -- I can't figure out why it is so important to her at this young age...

So sorry to hear about your heart issues :( I hope the doctors are able to get it all worked out for you.

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SCOUTMOM715 10/4/2012 10:38PM

    Hope tomorrow is a better day Holly!! emoticon

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YESCURLYCAN 10/4/2012 10:10PM

  So to read that your day wasn't a good one. Hopefully tomorrow will be a lot better. I hope the doctors are able to give you a more definitive answers about your condition. Wishing you luck on the scale despite today's crappiness emoticon emoticon

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POOKASLUAGH 10/4/2012 8:50PM

    Days like that suck! I'm sorry things are going weird with your heart. :/ I hope they figure it out quickly.

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NAYKNITS 10/4/2012 8:38PM

    The only direction from here is up, right? :) (mood- not weight) Heres hoping the weekend is better! Hang in there.

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DIET_FRIEND 10/4/2012 8:12PM

    I saw on the national news today that a significant area of the USA is going to be experiencing colder temperatures. Where I am, it's still going to be warm but we have had a tremendous amount of rain. Maybe your blues can be attributed to barometric changes in the weather. I say make yourself a cup of herbal tea and cozy up on your couch and watch some funny TV shows.

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ELLISH 10/4/2012 8:07PM

    Hang in there Holly! Tomorrow is another day and this weekend will be a blast!! I understand you being concerning with your heart, I would be freaking out on my doctor!

I with you on STARVING today! I had to make vegetable soup this evening to get me some potatoes in. I seen that Beef Stew on SP and had to have something solid. Waiting right now for an hour to pass so I can do my workout.

Hang in there my friend. The weekend is almost here! ;)

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 10/4/2012 8:02PM

    Sorry you've had such a crappy day. I hope tomorrow is a better day! emoticon

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FORMYDARLINGS 10/4/2012 7:20PM

   

It can't be all good days or we wouldn't recognize the bad ones. hehe. What? My mom used to say that to me. I don't know what it means. Anyway. Have a craptacular day today and then get back to work tomorrow or at least by Monday. Don't go way overboard just kind of veg, as in veggies, out. Take it easy and then back to business or you'll be dragging that big ole A$$ of your back to work every day instead of your nice petite self. Get on board!!!


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An Honest Conversation with... Myself

Friday, September 28, 2012

So you haven't lost any weight since... well, let's be honest, since June 15. You've been in the 170's since March 9 ... and your lowest weight was 170, ALL the way back in July. WHAT have you been doing? Not a whole lot, huh?!? This entire summer, exercise has been, meh... and there have been a LOT of liberties taken with food... So you think that by being "this way" you're going to get to goal? I don't think so! Do you even want it? It's doesn't seem like it.

Oh, but wait, you say you've gotten "back on track." You've been exercising at least 5 days a week and have reeled in the food monster... well, ok, let's talk about that. You SAY you'll be starting the "Supreme 90" workout on October 1st, and it's a 90 day program, which will take you to the end of the year to finish... that sounds good! THAT means you have to do it EVERY day. No skipping workouts. Not even if you end up with the plague from standing in the rain watching the kids run cross country. Not even on Holidays, when you're "too busy" to do it. NO EXCUSE! The food has always been tracked, good OR bad, but it has to be more good than bad ; )

Ok, so it sounds like you're back on track. Now, how are you going to STAY motivated??? I have a great support system at home and my sparkpeeps! Also, I've joined a new team. It promises a new challenge, with logging your daily calorie burn and a weekly weigh in. Again, all good! So, to jump start the motivation, lets stroll down memory lane, shall we...

Everyone LOVES a good "before" shot! Then to put the icing on the cake (the ONLY cake you'll be having for a while), we'll put your measurements on here too!


December 2009 AGGHHH, I HATE THIS PICTURE!!!
You were wearing a size 28 pants and a 4X shirt and 307 pounds, probably more! You didn't start your journey for another 5 months.

Yes, but you're not THERE now... you will be if you don't get your crap together! Right now, you're here...

Here you are wearing a size 16 jeans and an L shirt at about 175 pounds
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May 2012 LOVE this pic!!! Katy and I on our first run together.

Ok, so I've done well, and I have a little ways to go... don't forget the analogy of the hill at camp... it will be hard, but not impossible.

Oh, wait, the measurements... In 2010 when I started, these we're the stats...
waist 60 /// hips 59 /// neck 16 /// thigh 34 /// calf 19 /// upper arm 20 /// with a BMI of 60.1

Right now, this is where I'm at...
waist 34... in 2010, my thighs were as big as my waist is now... that's something to ponder
hips 42 /// neck 12.5 /// thigh 23 /// calf 16 /// upper arm 15 /// with a BMI of 33.7

Ok, so THAT's why I'll be doing Supreme 90... Alright, conversation OVER! It's all there, black and white, get it done!!!

  
  Member Comments About This Blog Post:

MOONBIRD 10/8/2012 1:05PM

    I've never heard of the supreme 90 before. I really need to do something different, and I plan to once I am done with the half marathon. I think my problem is that with the increased mileage, I am hungry, so I eat more. I figure when I burn 1300 calories that having an extra snack or helping of potatoes at dinner won't hurt me, but it does. My body is unforgiving! You have come such a long way and I am proud of how well you have done. Thanks for always motivating me.

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SAINTBETH 10/4/2012 11:17AM

    You have come a long way! I would never have guessed the before photo is you.

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SPSPSP1 10/4/2012 1:02AM

    Good for you for being honest and getting back on track. But, it seems like you are also beating yourself up when you "stumble".

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NAYKNITS 10/3/2012 1:02PM

    I third what chicka said- YOU GO GIRL!!!!

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ENDERLI 10/3/2012 10:34AM

    You are Awesome! You have done so much! You can do it!

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VEGAS2010 10/2/2012 3:37PM

    I am with chica o this!:) emoticon emoticon emoticon

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CHICA125KML 10/2/2012 2:11PM

    You may feel like you are stuck but you are an inspiration to me! Thank you

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SNOWYOGA 10/2/2012 11:51AM

    I know what you mean, I don't do pictures, but you look great and it helps us see how far we have come! emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

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RECREATING_ME 10/2/2012 11:18AM

    Wow -- just wow. You are truly an inspiration. Thank you for putting this in perspective, not only for yourself, but everyone who reads it.

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WILLPARKINSON 10/1/2012 3:58AM

    I wanted to say something smart and pithy. Everything I typed, though, came out sounding wrong. There is no need to be at all hard on yourself. Honesty is great, but as others have mentioned you need to give yourself an extreme amount of credit for what you've accomplished. Always look toward the future, but keep an eye on the past as well, because that will help you moving forward.


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LETTINGGO85 9/30/2012 11:29PM

    Great plan but don't forget to give yourself credit for how unbelievably far you have come. You will get there!

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MAMADWARF 9/30/2012 10:50PM

    i like the plan and I k now you will do it. cause you are YOU!

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SENIOR62 9/29/2012 3:53PM

  What a great blog.You look great. You should be so proud of yourself. Keep up the great Awesome

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JDUNCA82 9/29/2012 12:59PM

    Great blog! It's hard to evaluate ourselves in such an honest light. I know that I have trouble really examining my habits and admitting that when it comes down to it, the reason my weight has been staying about the same is because I just haven't put in the effort and pushing myself to really see that scale continue to go down! Love the way you did this and congratulations on such awesome progress! Your journey inspires me emoticon

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PRINCESSCHUBBIE 9/29/2012 7:01AM

    You have come so far, its really inspiring...keep up the good work. You can do it. You look great!

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TEMPEST272002 9/29/2012 1:11AM

    Those are some crazy numbers for the measurements! You really have come a long way. If you're like me, sometimes the brain can trick us into forgetting what an accomplishment this kind of weight loss is. Great conversation you've been having. You can do it!!!!!

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FIREFLY4407 9/28/2012 10:04PM

    Your progress is so inspiring! Don't lose focus, you have come so far. We'll be rooting for you for the 90 days!! emoticon emoticon

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ROSET491 9/28/2012 7:44PM

    Think I may have to think about that 90 day challenge! Scale isn't moving for me either! But let's hang tough and take this on!!

Rose

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MOJIMAK 9/28/2012 7:43PM

    I think all of us have had conversations like that with ourselves! You are on the right track :-) You've done an amazing job so far and I'm sure you will have success with your 'supreme 90' challenge :-)

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ILOVEMALI 9/28/2012 7:12PM

    You look great-- and you are committed to succeed!!

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FUSIONFITNESS3 9/28/2012 7:02PM

    It's so easy to get comfortable where we are and then before we know it we aren't where we thought we were anymore. We have crept up.
Good for you putting it all into perspective by looking back and comparing Day 1 to today.
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ONELBATATIME 9/28/2012 6:20PM

    You have come a long way! I love the conversation with yourself. It sounds like one I need to have with myself.Thank you for your motivation emoticon

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FORMYDARLINGS 9/28/2012 5:24PM

   

You've come a LONG way Baby!!! Take this time to decide where you want to go next.


Gini

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CLPURNELL 9/28/2012 5:10PM

    Awesome Holly! I need to have one of these with myself!!!

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LIFEFOUNDONARUN 9/28/2012 3:50PM

    Right on!!!! Wonderful blog!!! emoticon

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POOKASLUAGH 9/28/2012 3:48PM

    I had one of those measurement WHOAs recently - realized that when I first started taking measurements, about 30 lbs from my highest weight, my upper arm was the same size as my thigh is right now. !!! That's really crazy to think!

I'll be rooting for you on the S90!!

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CHRISKENANDKIDS 9/28/2012 2:36PM

    You ABSOLUTELY can do this! No excuses. I can check on you every day if you want. Hee hee! :) Maybe we should check on each other! Hugs! Rock on my friend!

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TRACYNOTGIVINUP 9/28/2012 2:27PM

    Nothing better than a good self talk. you can do this Holly and look at this numbers amazing girl. be strong

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HLTHYRNRMOM 9/28/2012 2:20PM

    emoticon You might not be at goal, but have done amazing!!!! Cheering you on!

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SHAUNAD30 9/28/2012 1:42PM

    Way to go! I love how you put it in perspective. I need to give myself a swift kick in the rear too!

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WINSLOWGIRLS3 9/28/2012 1:20PM

    That was a great blog!!! You can definitely do this!

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YESCURLYCAN 9/28/2012 1:14PM

  emoticon Love your conversation! Now that you have gotten the real talk out of the way, its time to put in the real efforts. Get it done! Your stats show you have what it takes to make it happen. You are one of my Sparkpeeps I check on when I need inspiration. Now its time to get yourself inspired. You can and will do this. Rawr! emoticon (there was anything more ferocious than that lol)

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KARENDEE4 9/28/2012 1:13PM

    Love your blogs!!!

I know you can do it!

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NOTABOUTHEFACE 9/28/2012 12:57PM

    Heh, heh. Get ready to HATE the little dude with the Napolean complex that likes to hear himself speak.

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ELLISH 9/28/2012 12:54PM

    That's RIGHT!! GET IT DONE!!! Make every day a Holiday!! That's right!!

A HOLLY DAY!!!! BUSTING IT!!! I'm no exception! I'm THERE!!

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NO PANSYS ALLOWED!!! LETS DO THIS!!

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