Thursday, July 15, 2010
I started strength training this week and I'm already confused. I know it's one on and one off, but if I change the area of the body I'm working on, does that count as one off? Monday upper body, Tuesday lower body, etc, does that count or do I have to completely give it up for an entire day?
This week has been kind of crazy for food too... the kids have been in Vacation Bible School all week and the church feeds them dinner, which is great, but it's hot dogs and pizza, I don't want that stuff. My husband's wonderful, he goes with them , I'm sure just to get away from the veggies and couscous, and lets me stay home to eat whatever. .. which sounds great, but I've had a hard time wanting to just cook for myself. I've been eating cereal and hummus all week which is good food but, ugh...
I wasn't able to get up this morning to walk, probably lack of nutrients from my cereal diet. That's frustrating me because I've been doing really well walking every morning. It's been really hot around here and asking a fat girl to take a walk when it's 90 degrees out is just plain crazy... at least in the morning it's only about 70-75. Can't wait till I get my treadmill, a gift from my husband for actually sticking to my plan this time!
Alright, enough whining, just keep going and stay positive right? I hope everyone is having a great week! I know mine will be better!
Thursday, July 08, 2010
I'm so sick and frustrated with myself this morning. It's been so hot around here lately, up in the 90 for about a week. We have air conditioning, but my mom doesn't and she's the one who watches our kids all day during the summer. I felt so bad for them yesterday when I went to pick them up... the looked exhausted and so hot. My poor daughter had a head full or curls smashed against her little sweaty face and my son's cheeks were so red it looked like he had a fever. We decided to take them for ice cream... great idea, not for me! I sat there a while and said, "you know what, I'm going to get something." Everyone talks about rewards after milestones (now I'm justifying it)and I've lost 10% of what I want to lose, so I'm going to get a small Blizzard and only eat a little bit (half at most). Yeah, I ate the whole thing... 550 calories. After I'd already consumed most of my calories for the day... what was I thinking, what would make me do that? Was it good? Absolutely! Do I regret it, a little bit, yeah. Will I do it again, definitely NOT! In guess you gotta live and learn for all experiences in life and this journey is NO different. I just half to walk around the earth twice today to burn it off!!!
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
I don't know... being over weight for as long as I have been (and still am) it's really hard to trust the scale. I've never owned one until very recently, mostly because I didn't want to know what it said. Also the fear of it exploding when I stepped onto it! I'm losing weight, the proof is in the numbers 14.5 lbs, go me!!! However when I look in the mirror, I see the same person. My clothes don't fit any better, my face is still fat... I have A LOT of weight to lose and that's probably it. I would think something has to be different even though I've lost so little compared to what I have to lose... it's probably the space between my toes and I'm just not noticing it. When do you sit back and trust the scale and say "yep, that's me! I'm ## pounds lighter?" Don't get me wrong, I'm so overjoyed I can't even explain it and super motivated to keep going. I think I'm going to have to start taking pics of myself every month to prove that the fat is really leaving my body... another activity I've actively avoid the last 10 years. Well, everyone, stay motivated and stay positive. There are only good things ahead for all of us, and for me, maybe even seeing my feet without bending SO far over!
Saturday, June 26, 2010
I've been so stressed out about going out of town for the weekend... where am I going to take my walk? What am I going to eat? I was so freaked out I made all my food last night and packed it up to take with me. Luckily, we're only going to my in-laws, I'm pretty sure they have a fridge and a microwave! My next big hurdle, where am I going to walk? The live in a VERY VERY rural part or PA and walking next to the highway isn't an option... I decided to set my alarm for 5AM and I was going to get up and walk. No big deal except I've never done it. I've always gone out after we put the kids to bed, can I even get up that early, on a Saturday, to walk!?!
Well, I guess I'm finally ready for change because not only did I get up this morning, I was up before the alarm and even walked an extra 1/4 mile. I don't know if it was the cool breeze or the fact that it was a beautiful morning... no, I think I'm finally ready for change!!!!
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