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Flipping The Switch

Wednesday, February 27, 2013

At the end of August 2012 another significant event occured in my life. I won't go into details here. Suffice to say that I have suffered some setbacks. My mental focus changed completely for a time. It was like a switch in my mind had been turned off. Perhaps that was my body engaging in a fight or flight response...a personal defense mechanism to keep me safe. I'm not sure what happened mentally, but I DO know that for a time I just didn't give a damn. I went to counseling and that helped. I did what I had to do to survive. I seriously struggled with existing day to day, let alone monitoring my food, exercise and water intake! I was not in a good place. I ended up gaining back some of the weight that I worked so hard to lose. Not all of it, but more than I would have liked. As a result of this event my life has changed, again...completely out of my control - and it will never, ever be the same. It hit me so hard - I was completely blindsided by it. I see the world through different eyes...again...for the third time in 20 months. And I have learned a lesson. An extremely valuable one. The way I reacted? The way I took care of myself? That is OKAY. I did what I needed to do and now the seasons of my life are changing again. So now I need to get back to it. And I'm doing it - one day at a time. On Monday, February 18th, 2013, I made the decision to flip the switch back on! *I* made the conscious decision to stop the spiraling out of control and get back on track. I am delighted to report that it was MUCH easier than I anticipated! Hooray me! :)

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CATSPANK 2/27/2013 5:40PM

    Getting back in the game is what counts. emoticon

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Attention: Transformation in Progress

Friday, February 17, 2012

My weight loss has all but come to a screeching halt in 2012! I am maintaining my current weight very well, but the pounds are not flying off as easily as they did last year. And I am okay with this.

My body is still changing. I am eating better every day - I'm making better choices for myself all the time! I am still working out every day. I am now beginning to notice changes in the way I look, other than weighing less. I have better definition in places I've never noticed before! When I run, I feel stronger than ever. My speed is increasing. I LOVE ZUMBA...and the elliptical! I ALWAYS feel better after I work out. 100% of the time this is true. I feel WORSE when I don't get up and DO SOMETHING. Talk about a change in focus from a mere 14 months ago! And I feel better - consistently - on a daily basis...than I ever have in my entire life.

Friends, this is not about a quick fix. I am in this for the long haul. And even if I don't SEE things changing, I STILL FEEL DIFFERENT. A little different...a little better...a little STRONGER - every single day.

When you get discouraged, look for those little things. We need to rely on those for the times when things SEEM slow. But mark my words...keep working your program. Don't give up. Don't EVER give up.

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SPARKLISE 2/18/2012 2:47PM

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PUDLECRAZY 2/18/2012 6:36AM

    Nice blog!

The irony of ironies is that once you have lost a certain amount of weight, the slower the weight loss seems to be. That actually IS progress.

As for exercise, the more you weigh, the more calories you burn. So as you lose weight, you don't burn as much calories as you did when you weighed more while doing the same exercises.

You are right. Don't give up! have fun, fun, fun with Zumba and keep watching those changes.


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HEIDISHOPE 2/17/2012 5:39PM

    Thank-you for those words of encouragement! I needed them this week as my own weight loss journey has slowed A LOT, just when I've lost 60+lbs since May with only 20 to go. emoticon

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COBABIES 2/17/2012 11:53AM

    Good for you! You recognize the positive things and are not giving up. Way to go! emoticon

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Keep On Moving!

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I absolutely did NOT want to jump on the stationary bike at 5:15AM...but I did it. And just like ***EVERY SINGLE TIME*** I don't feel like exercising, but do it anyway, I started feeling AMAZING! My body was in motion, my muscles were warming up...and before I knew it, 30 minutes was up and I had ridden the equivalent of 7.6 miles! HOORAY!

The more I hear this, the more it really, really sinks in: No one EVER regrets ANYTHING that is done for the good of self! You never have to worry about eating right or exercising and looking back on it and saying, "Gosh, I wish I hadn't done that!"

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Answer Me This...

Monday, December 19, 2011

I continue to encounter things that BLOW my MIND about this weight loss journey I'm on! Someone else told me I didn't need to lose all that weight. I just don't get it...I am really struggling to understand all this! Today I saw a recent picture on Facebook of someone who is also on a better health and weight loss journey. We started about the same time. He and his wife are good friends of Rick and mine. They're both doing great and someone posted a comment on his photo. It was something like, "Gosh, eat a cheeseburger or something!" Maybe I'm reading too much into this. I suppose that comment *could* be taken as a compliment, but it just sounds kind of backhanded to me.

Do some people feel threatened somehow because others have had a bit of weight loss success? Why isn't everyone on board? It's all very confusing...

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ANN777 12/21/2011 9:24AM

    Yes, definitely, jealous, threatened, something like that. Some people just don't like to see people succeed at anything really.

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PUDLECRAZY 12/21/2011 5:54AM

    Backhanded. For sure.

I do think many people do not understand the commitment and work involved in reaching, then maintaining optimal health. I think some people find their lifestyles 'threatened' by seeing other people reach their goals.

I ignore those kinds of statements. Certainly, over the course of my life, I have made thoughtless statements as well.

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BUTTERFLYAT38 12/19/2011 8:45PM

    I think that as we get older most people ignore the health and fitness thing and stick with the easy things..comfort food..and related sedentary activities..Another thing is if the friend/family is used to see ing the person a certain way...they may feel threatened for whatever reason by their own personal issues.

One thing I do know. You will never know exactly what other people are thinking or why. Ever. Thats why at the end you are doing this for YOU. Being active and eating healthy nourishing food is what your body craves...and its such an easier route shortterm to go with the bad stuff. But the truth is every day is a challenge and you will not only look better but feel better too. Do it for yourself. Don't worry about knuckleheads. and the next time you see that couple give them extra love. emoticon

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POETLKNG2LOSE 12/19/2011 10:38AM

    It could be that they don't want to be reminded of how unhealthy they are eating or to see someone who is looking better than they are physically. they don't want to change so they would rather put you down to make themselves feel better. My friend sometimes does that.

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HOLLYJAE 12/19/2011 10:04AM

    NellJones - thank you for saying what you did. I never even considered that as a possibility.

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SPARKLISE 12/19/2011 9:52AM

    I think it's because they're used to seeing you bigger so it kind of looks weird to them.
I've had that said to me also when I had lost weight.
Just keep on going. They'll get used to it! emoticon emoticon

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NELLJONES 12/19/2011 9:29AM

    I don't know if people feel threatened, but I do know that a lot of people (me included) handle a situation where we don't know what to say by saying something stupid. How many times have I cringed wondering why I said THAT. It works both ways.

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Thursday, December 01, 2011

Rick and I had dinner with my sister last night. Before we went into the restaurant she mentioned that I looked fantastic and asked me how much weight I had lost already. I told her and she was impressed. I said I had started a 5k My Way program through SparkPeople so that we could go jogging together on the local greenway this summer. She seemed genuinely excited about that! And, I am too! My sister has managed her weight well over the years where I have constantly struggled with mine. For us to be able to go exercise together is a HUGE deal to me.

We got inside the restaurant and she asked me how much I was planning on losing. I told her my goal was to lose 100 pounds total. She literally stopped in her tracks and told me I didn't need to lose that much weight. She said I already look fantastic and losing more would cause me to look unhealthy. I told her that I was going by recommended medical guidelines for someone my height and she wouldn't hear it. She repeated once more that I didn't need to lose that much weight.

As I let that interaction sink in, I realized something. For the first time in my life, I am not doing this because of how I *LOOK*. I am definitely enjoying the benefits of being lighter than I was before in many facets of my life. But I am honestly doing this because I want to be healthier.

I really do appreciate her point, and I understand that she is actually concerned for my health and well-being. But for me, this is about a lifelong commitment to health. It is about minimizing the health risks that I CAN control. It is about being the best *me* that I can be.

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ANN777 12/7/2011 7:48AM

    That so great, when it's not about how you look right? Yay for people noticing too!

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BUTTERFLYAT38 12/3/2011 8:44AM

    its funny sometimes family will be the ones that struggle with the change that will come and they resist it under the guise of another concern. You will know as you lose what is healthy. Don't let anyone sabotage your goals no matter how well meant. emoticon emoticon

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PUDLECRAZY 12/2/2011 8:09AM

It is lovely to get such recognition for the results of your hard work, but even better to have the realization that your are now doing this because of how it makes you feel.


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