Wednesday, February 27, 2013
At the end of August 2012 another significant event occured in my life. I won't go into details here. Suffice to say that I have suffered some setbacks. My mental focus changed completely for a time. It was like a switch in my mind had been turned off. Perhaps that was my body engaging in a fight or flight response...a personal defense mechanism to keep me safe. I'm not sure what happened mentally, but I DO know that for a time I just didn't give a damn. I went to counseling and that helped. I did what I had to do to survive. I seriously struggled with existing day to day, let alone monitoring my food, exercise and water intake! I was not in a good place. I ended up gaining back some of the weight that I worked so hard to lose. Not all of it, but more than I would have liked. As a result of this event my life has changed, again...completely out of my control - and it will never, ever be the same. It hit me so hard - I was completely blindsided by it. I see the world through different eyes...again...for the third time in 20 months. And I have learned a lesson. An extremely valuable one. The way I reacted? The way I took care of myself? That is OKAY. I did what I needed to do and now the seasons of my life are changing again. So now I need to get back to it. And I'm doing it - one day at a time. On Monday, February 18th, 2013, I made the decision to flip the switch back on! *I* made the conscious decision to stop the spiraling out of control and get back on track. I am delighted to report that it was MUCH easier than I anticipated! Hooray me! :)
Tuesday, January 24, 2012
I absolutely did NOT want to jump on the stationary bike at 5:15AM...but I did it. And just like ***EVERY SINGLE TIME*** I don't feel like exercising, but do it anyway, I started feeling AMAZING! My body was in motion, my muscles were warming up...and before I knew it, 30 minutes was up and I had ridden the equivalent of 7.6 miles! HOORAY!
The more I hear this, the more it really, really sinks in: No one EVER regrets ANYTHING that is done for the good of self! You never have to worry about eating right or exercising and looking back on it and saying, "Gosh, I wish I hadn't done that!"
Monday, December 19, 2011
I continue to encounter things that BLOW my MIND about this weight loss journey I'm on! Someone else told me I didn't need to lose all that weight. I just don't get it...I am really struggling to understand all this! Today I saw a recent picture on Facebook of someone who is also on a better health and weight loss journey. We started about the same time. He and his wife are good friends of Rick and mine. They're both doing great and someone posted a comment on his photo. It was something like, "Gosh, eat a cheeseburger or something!" Maybe I'm reading too much into this. I suppose that comment *could* be taken as a compliment, but it just sounds kind of backhanded to me.
Do some people feel threatened somehow because others have had a bit of weight loss success? Why isn't everyone on board? It's all very confusing...
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