Saturday, May 10, 2014
I've known this for a while. I turn to food for everything, and the more carbs the better. I try to eat in moderation, but it always is short-term. I'm at my highest weight ever. I don't want to continue on like this. Life is passing me by.
Last night I found the foodaddictsanonymous.org website and started reading. This is what I found: "Food Addiction is a biochemical disorder that occurs at a cellular level and therefore cannot be cured by willpower or by therapy alone. We feel that food addiction is not a moral or character issue. We are not addicted to foods in general, but specifically sugar, flour and wheat. In order to recover from the disease we abstain from these substances.The disease is a physical one."
The idea of abstaining from sugar, flour and wheat scares me, which to me is the biggest indicator of my addiction. But today is Day 1 - the day I clean out the cupboards and fridge and freezer and start from scratch. I have a feeling they'll be pretty empty, especially the cupboards. I need to do this though. If I can stop buying cigarettes and quit smoking, I can quit buying products with sugar, flour and wheat and can lose my dependence on food.
For those who pray, please pray for me as I start this journey. Also, if there's anyone who would like to take this journey with me, I'd love a buddy or two or three...