Monday, November 29, 2010
A bit of a blended blog.
So the Sunday before Thanksgiving I went to a Patriots game with some family who KNOW how to tailgate. I had my protein shake that morning and headed out the door weighing 161.4. I stayed away from the obviously bad stuff and had some chili before the game for lunch then only a coffee during the game. When we came out after 8 we tailgated some more. I had more chili and some crackers and dill dip. The next day I was up 2 pounds. I know I know..it's just fluctuation. I wasn't hard on myself. I just want to see that dag nabbin goal weight. So in preparation of Thanksgiving I was really good all week. Sticking to my calories and staying high on my protein and just one coffee a day. (I'm not a caffeine addict but I use it to get over that mid day slump.) We planned some side dishes for the big day that would be almost guilt free. I also made some things from the hungry girl web-site that helped us enjoy the day. (Cornbread muffins and deviled eggs HG style). The next morning I was up to 165.8. Again I wasn't hard on my self. I wanted to enjoy the holiday and I did. Well today I am 161.2. It might only be 2 ounces less that last Sunday but less is less. I meant it when I said I will lose weight through the holidays. It's my gift to myself. I have some parties coming up and I feel good when I slide into my favorite jeans. That ugly sweater contest will actually be fun for me instead of uncomfortable. I crave the compliments more than food. I know I started this journey for health reasons but I'm not gonna lie. I LOVE when people tell me how good I look. I LOVE running into people that haven't seen me in a while and their jaw drops. My favorite was the question that made it's way back through our friends. It was from a wife of an old friend that I had met on many occasions. We were shopping and my husband and I passed her on our way out and her way in. She said the quick "Hi, how are you...blah blah blah." She thought my husband had a new girlfriend. Now I played it off like no big deal. Secretly I was loving it! Like some weird small little victory. As much as my husband said he loved me I just felt like he deserved a better wife. Healthier, slimmer, more active. Inside I just felt like a slob. (They're my feelings I get to have them). I finally feel like I am a better person today. I always felt pretty on the inside but trapped by my outside. Now I feel like people see the me I knew was in there. So I'll take those compliments and savor them like a great piece of chocolate. I'll store them away and pull them out when I'm having a down day. I'll wrap them around me like a supportive warm sweater. They are hard earned and very well deserved and I thank you.