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I'm a medium!

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Sparkpeople is probably the only place that I can post something like this and have all the ladies here understand exactly what I feel. Whether you've gone from a XXL to an XL or an XL to and L. It feels good to go down. Coming from a place where I weighed 276 pounds and was wearing a snug size 24 from Fashion Bug to be able to buy a size Medium pants is like taking a running leap and hurling myself across the Grand Canyon and landing feet first on the other side unscathed.

So there I was getting ready for Zumba this morning. Got my nice warm clothes out of the dryer and headed upstairs to get dressed. Lately my size L yoga pants have been fitting a little loose but not bad. My workout pants that have the pull string are still an XL but I just cinch them up tight. No biggie. Okay...back to the fresh outta the dryer yoga pants. And we all know what fresh outta the dryer means. Oh yeah that's right. They need to be re-broken in. Well I headed off to Zumba and was bouncing around my pants were sliding down. I had to keep holding them up. Seeing as I am getting certified to teach Zumba on Jan 9th my instructor has been having me teach a song to two every class to get my jitters out. So I'm up there doing my dance to Pink's Funhouse and I have to hold my pants up. We all had a good chuckle and my instructor said she noticed I was a little baggy today. Maybe I should get a smaller size. I never thought of that. I mean really never thought of that. I am 5'8" tall and a very big boned Irish girl. I always though a large was as small as I would go. I left Zumba and headed to Old Navy for some more "Goga Yoga" pants. I do still have my tie pants but I hate how the tie makes my shirt stick out in that certain spot. Makes me look like a "happy" guy...know what I mean? I picked up the mediums and walked around for a while before I tried them on. I was just too nervous. I kept telling myself that a medium probably wouldn't fit. I finally made the dash to the dressing room and low and behold they fit and looked nice. Now I don't mean tube of cookie dough fit. They actually fit. I am on a major high right now. People don't need to do drugs I swear...just workout and get fit and the high will last all day.

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MADDIE_CAT 12/31/2011 10:59PM

    So happy for you! I can not wait for the day that my pants are too small for me. =)
I stumbled across your page while scouting for a Zumba group to join & noticed that you are an instructor. I live in a very small town & amazingly enough we have zumba classes. Not many but we do have them, & this Thursday (my day off) I plan on marching straight over there to find out how much the classes are, & hopefully can get good enough to become an instructor myself. =) You are such an inspiration, & as hard as losing this weight has been (and probably will be for quite some time, lol) the thought of joining a group of like-minded people on the journey to "thin & healthy" is so wonderful, & the thought of starting a career in fitness is such a motivation. Tell me, how nervous were you the first time you taught one of your classes?
Thanks again for being such an inspiration. =)

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COOKWITHME65 1/4/2011 1:53PM

    That is so fantastic. I just happened upon your blog. I'm from the Boston area also. I live on the south shore. Good luck in your cert. I will check in to see how you are doing.

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HJFOGARTY 12/14/2010 6:44PM

    WAY TO GO!!! you are such an inspiration - not only for your new size smaller - but for standing up and taking charge of your life and making it happen for yourself! becoming an instructor is awesome and you are well on your way to being the best fit person you can be! thanks for sharing and thanks for being a great inspiration to those around you! you are awesome! enjoy your day! and your new size too!

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BETSEY_T 12/14/2010 2:44PM

    Congrats! That's awesome! So happy for ya. emoticon emoticon emoticon

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Pee Injections

Saturday, December 04, 2010

Give me a break!


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ADMETOS 12/4/2010 10:02PM

    Apparently you can drink it too! They sell the stuff on eBay.

Hmm... My daughter is pregnant... Maybe she can make a few bucks...


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THUNDERCAT 12/4/2010 8:23AM

    Ummmmmm? speechless. For those bucks you can hire a private trainer.

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JOHNWBROCKSR777 12/4/2010 8:02AM

    Oh my!

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EMILY-THE-GOOD 12/4/2010 7:57AM

    ugh, that is disgusting and weird. some people will do anything to avoid proper exercise.

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ELSEEBEE 12/4/2010 7:40AM

    Just when you think you've seen it all....

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I hit and passed my goal weight and yes I CRIED!

Friday, December 03, 2010

I know it might seem like I am obsessed by numbers but really I'm not. I started this journey almost 5 years ago. Since then I have had a mental picture in my head of seeing the scale say 160. For two days now it has been stuck at 160.2. Some people might count that as a victory. While I did cover up the .2 and just savor that 160 I was just a smidge away from the goal line my app shows me. Today the scale said 159.2. Holy sh*t! I did it? I did it! Just being able to say I weight one fifty whatever feels so good. It took about 5 minutes for it to sink in then I started crying. I couldn't believe it. I wasn't sad but happy and overwhelmed. I have cried happy tears before but this was so different. It was tears of validation. Tears of VICTORY! I DID IT! I did it without gimmicky pills or by starving myself. No surgeries (for some people that's a really good option so I'm not judging) or any tricks. It was all pure hard work and knowledge. I learned how to do it right and keep it right. I don't feel like cute little pudgy caterpillar anymore. I have emerged out of the cocoon and am a beautiful butterfly. I want to spread my wings and share this joy with everyone. If you think you'll never see that goal weight...that it's just too hard please stick with it. You can do it. I did. You are worth it. You are important. Please keep on going...never stop.

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MOMTO6PLUS2 12/5/2010 7:23PM

    Congratulations on beating your goal!!! That's so emoticon

I'm so happy for you!!

It truly is an amazing feeling-- I beat my first goal on Nov.17 by losing 90lbs-- and now I've set a new one. (I'm calling it "phase 2"- 14 more pounds, and focusing on more concrete fitness goals.) I didn't weigh myself for the while week prior to the goal date-- because I so wanted to see THAT DANG NUMBER that I picked in January. Did you step on and off of the scale a dozen times like I did? lol

Spark on,

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TDKENT 12/4/2010 7:44AM

    Congratulations!! emoticon

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MOTIVATED@LAST 12/3/2010 8:21PM

    Well done on all your hard work in reaching your goal!

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YUBYUB31 12/3/2010 5:44PM

    You are amazing.

Well done

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BORNAGAINBRAT 12/3/2010 5:28PM

    emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon emoticon

I am so very happy for you! It must feel amazing.

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RUBYTOOSHOES 12/3/2010 5:13PM

    I'm the same way, I want to get at least 1/2 lb less than my goal to feel successful ...good for you! emoticon

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S_FEHR 12/3/2010 5:01PM

  Congrats to you! Amazing job!!!!!!!! emoticon

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Thanksgiving slimdown and confessions of a compliment whore.

Monday, November 29, 2010

A bit of a blended blog.

So the Sunday before Thanksgiving I went to a Patriots game with some family who KNOW how to tailgate. I had my protein shake that morning and headed out the door weighing 161.4. I stayed away from the obviously bad stuff and had some chili before the game for lunch then only a coffee during the game. When we came out after 8 we tailgated some more. I had more chili and some crackers and dill dip. The next day I was up 2 pounds. I know I know..it's just fluctuation. I wasn't hard on myself. I just want to see that dag nabbin goal weight. So in preparation of Thanksgiving I was really good all week. Sticking to my calories and staying high on my protein and just one coffee a day. (I'm not a caffeine addict but I use it to get over that mid day slump.) We planned some side dishes for the big day that would be almost guilt free. I also made some things from the hungry girl web-site that helped us enjoy the day. (Cornbread muffins and deviled eggs HG style). The next morning I was up to 165.8. Again I wasn't hard on my self. I wanted to enjoy the holiday and I did. Well today I am 161.2. It might only be 2 ounces less that last Sunday but less is less. I meant it when I said I will lose weight through the holidays. It's my gift to myself. I have some parties coming up and I feel good when I slide into my favorite jeans. That ugly sweater contest will actually be fun for me instead of uncomfortable. I crave the compliments more than food. I know I started this journey for health reasons but I'm not gonna lie. I LOVE when people tell me how good I look. I LOVE running into people that haven't seen me in a while and their jaw drops. My favorite was the question that made it's way back through our friends. It was from a wife of an old friend that I had met on many occasions. We were shopping and my husband and I passed her on our way out and her way in. She said the quick "Hi, how are you...blah blah blah." She thought my husband had a new girlfriend. Now I played it off like no big deal. Secretly I was loving it! Like some weird small little victory. As much as my husband said he loved me I just felt like he deserved a better wife. Healthier, slimmer, more active. Inside I just felt like a slob. (They're my feelings I get to have them). I finally feel like I am a better person today. I always felt pretty on the inside but trapped by my outside. Now I feel like people see the me I knew was in there. So I'll take those compliments and savor them like a great piece of chocolate. I'll store them away and pull them out when I'm having a down day. I'll wrap them around me like a supportive warm sweater. They are hard earned and very well deserved and I thank you.

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MOMTO6PLUS2 12/5/2010 7:37PM

    Okay-- so I'll confess to you that I'm a compliment whore too! Not only that, but I actually write some of them on my journal/ calendar-- on the day that I got whatever great compliment-- along with a note of what I was wearing at the time. Ugh--

It's not because of a huge ego, or something-- but I use those compliments as motivation. They are part of what keeps me going. I know there will come a time when I won't get compliments like that because people will just remember the current version of me. Like you wrote-- "So I'll take those compliments and savor them like a great piece of chocolate." :)

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RD03875 11/29/2010 11:04AM

    Way to go all around! I love compliments too and I hope I get some when I lose more.
I love HG too, I'll have to check out her Deviled eggs.

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Looking for your opinion. Loser, gainer, loser.

Friday, November 19, 2010

As of today I have lost 113lbs from my starting weight. Well the weight I was when I stopped getting on the scale. Anyway. In October of 2009 I weighed 172. I had another laporoscopy for endometriosis and shortly following that I was placed back on Lupron to be in a medically induced menopause. After the surgery I tried to get back to working out but the pain inside from the surgery took a long time to go away. Longer than the other surgeries. That combined with the menopause symptoms made me miserable. I was so fatigued that I could barely get up and dressed. Forget the gym. I gave up. By the spring of 2010 I was back up to 196. I got my act together and am now 162. Here comes the question. Would you do the math and consider it a weight loss of 137 (275-172=103 196-162=34 34+103=137) total pounds lost or stick with the math of going from my highest to my lowest? (275-162=113) Not sure how to look at it. And I'm pretty sure I just confused myself with all those numbers. :)

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EYES_ON_THEPRAZ 11/22/2010 11:15AM

    I wouldn't count the same pounds twice.... in my case I would have lost over 100 when really I've only lost 30 because I seem to have lost and gained back the same 5 lbs endlessly! Congrats on your success!!

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CARMINACG 11/22/2010 10:41AM

    I think through this journey we loose and gain alot of things - weight yes, funny stories, clothes...etc. The thing I have found that keeps me on track is keeping the number current and trying to look objectivly at the journey. I dont focus on what I have lost more about how far I have come...and what is another 5lbs right?...thats how I keep going.

Its super important to give youself the pat on the back you deserve, but it will help you to stay motivated more in looking at CurrWeight : HighWeight

I wish you the very best of luck in reaching your next goal! You CAN do it!

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YOOVIE 11/22/2010 10:26AM

    I go from the highest weight I ever recorded to the lowest. I cant lose the same pounds twice. Congratulations on making it soooooo far with so many obstacles. that is amazing!

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RD03875 11/19/2010 5:22PM

    CONGRATULATIONS on the weight loss!
I would go from start weight to current weight too.

Good luck on your journey!

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BORNAGAINBRAT 11/19/2010 12:33PM

    I would go from highest weight to current weight.

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