Tuesday, November 25, 2014
The other day I finally realized a problem when I overeat. There are times when I eat too much. I feel at these times that I am stuffing myself like a camel. Camels eat and drink a huge supply at a time to survive long periods of drought. The result a hump that stores fat for times in need to prevent starvation. My mind is like this. When I am at mealtime I find that I am unsure of the next meal. I think destructively that if I eat alot that I won't be hungry later. Fast food restaurants are a disaster for me. Eating a bulk portion thinking it would be a waste if I didn't eat alot of food. Again storing up...Trying to save time and money in a way. However, this is destructive. I need to realize that I will have food and to not worry that I do not know where the next meal is coming from.
As a child, we didn't have much food growing up and I was thin. There wasn't much to choose from in the fridge or cabinets. So, when there was food, I'd store up like a squirrel preparing for winter. So, there's a hidden fear to this day that I will not have enough food to eat. But changing my mindset is psychology that I have discovered. To self talk at meals and realize that there is food to eat and plenty of it. And to eat very little each meal and not be afraid. And to feel secure that there is another meal after this one. I think that as an adult there has been plenty of opportunity for food to eat. Maybe a little too much.
I found that planning meals and snacks really helped alot with the fit food challenge. I felt that I was full and I couldn't believe all the food I ate. At least it felt like a large amount for the day and helped. So, maybe I'll do this challenge again in the future. I did lose weight when I was doing that challenge!! So, I didn't realize why it worked but it helped me to think that there was plenty of food and I felt that I didn't have to overeat and they were nutritious!!
I am still doing the 28 day bootcamp but my diet is off. so , Ive been able to maintain my weight at least. That is a positive thing and I'm beginning to show some muscle. So, a little progress and discovery is better than nothing. And I have learned something new that will help get me closer to an actual goal.
So, if you are like this too please message me and respond and maybe I can relate to what you are going through as well.