Friday, January 08, 2010
Trying to look beyond the snow lately has been very hard. That’s because it is everywhere!! I mean EVERYWHERE!!(just look at the view of the UK from space!!) The side streets in my village are snow packed and almost sheets of ice in places. The gritters have only come down the main roads which thankfully our cottage is on. Having a 4x4 has also allowed us to get out and about during these 3 weeks of frigid temperatures and snow day after snow day. I have cleared snow off our car and our back garden countless times.
For the past several months my husband and I have gone over weekly to his parents so he can take his mom out grocery shopping and I stay with his 87 year old father who is in the earlier stages of Alzheimer’s. So today being Friday and grocery day we set off mid morning.
Having not been over since the last snow fall, I knew what would be waiting me….a driveway full of snow. Two weeks ago I cleared their driveway and I didn’t expect that they would have taken care of clearing the latest 5 inch accumulation. As we drove the 2 miles to their neighbourhood, the side streets in their area were as covered and packed with snow as ours. When we approached their house I could see the white soft 5 inch blanket of snow with several trails of footprints.
My husband and MIL left for the groceries and after I greeted my FIL I went back out to begin my task of clearing away the snow. I took on the task with the mindset of “Here we go again!” and wondered why didn’t some enterprising young kids that wanted to make some money come around and completed this job before we came over??? I could have been spared the discomfort of doing this.
I was making pretty good progress and had nearly half the driveway cleared when a neighbour came walking along the road, and as he passed he made the comment, “You’ve got a terrible job don’t you?” I just commented back something like it wasn’t even my house.
I continued shovelling and let my mind wander and it returned back to this stranger’s words….a terrible job….. Was it really? Was it really a terrible job? If I just looked at the all that snow, then yes it was a terrible job... a job that was going to take me over an hour to complete, a job that had me breaking out into a sweat, a job that caused me to shovel evenly from side to side as to not hurt my back. BUT, if I stopped and looked beyond the snow…..
If I looked at what each shovel of snow being removed symbolized it wasn’t a terrible job at all.. It was a job of freedom. Removing that snow was freeing my 87 year old in laws to walk out of their house without stepping through a snow drift to get to the road, it was enabling them to have people come to their house and walk on a cleared path. Once the snow was removed, freedom of movement could take place. But as I removed that snow, my mind also became free. Free from the negative thoughts of when I started and clear to see beyond the snow, to the clear path of freedom I had created.
So when I am faced with an obstacle that blocks my life-path, I will choose to look beyond that obstacle and see the freedom that moving that obstacle will provide me. I will not only be more free but also stronger and wiser from the experience.
Wednesday, December 30, 2009
Today has been a relief from the past couple of days! I've been having to complete a major health and safety project for work. It meant going over what I had already submitted and supplying additional information, templates, records, etc etc.... and with a good friends critique I was pleased to email it off to the assessor last night!
I should have been able to relax this past week and enjoy being off for Christmas and the New Year. However, I HAD to get this project done because work tenders rely on it. Here's to praying I've submitted everything that was needed.
So back to the smiling woman.... I see her everyday and some days she just gives me a slight glance, or half a smile. A lot of the time lately I've been receiving a shrug or sigh and a shake of the head. I know she has been having a tough time lately and by the lack of energy at times she may even be sleep deprived. Stress with her work may have gotten to her or she might even be worrying about her children that don't live near by.
What made today different? Why the smile and praise? Could it be she caught up on her sleep? She's been able to relax a little? She heard from her family? She's been able to budget her time a little bit better? She was wearing some new Christmas gift clothes?
Not quite sure, could have been all of that, or none...but for one thing when I saw her smiling....I made sure I smiled back and it made me feel better too. After all, she lives in all the mirrors I look in, and she deserves all the smiles she gets!
Make sure you smile at your woman in the mirror!
Saturday, December 26, 2009
It's Boxing Day over here in the UK. For those of you not in the know, NO it's not a free for all fist fight here. The history of the day goes way back...kind of related to voting, ballot boxes and the like.
Anyway, moving on...Christmas Day has passed, the presents are hung up, put in drawers, on bookshelves, given to someone else to eat (ALL that chocolate!!!) and the snow is still melting (but more may be arriving next week).
The meltdown I wrote about in my last entry passed and all got accomplished with time to spare...a very amazing feat!
Now I'm peaking back through these past few weeks to help me plan for the next one. A quick ponder of what is in store this day after.
A week from now it will be a new year, a new decade, with some of the same paths to trod. There will be responsibilities to take up again relating to work, family, organizations, etc. There will/are goals dancing around in my head that will/are grabbing hold of my mindset and pushing me onward to more.
There is one definite and, with finances allowing, a second marathon to accomplish during these upcoming 12 months. There is a training program outlined for me to jump into beginning 5 January! There is a commitment to planning, logging and sticking to a nutritional plan to see the positive results to enable me to be as fit as I possibly can for the training laid out before me.
It's time; the doorhandle is in my hand, the deep sighs of excelling breaths leave my lungs, my eyes close and the muscles in my arm and shoulder tense as I am about to yank open this new and awaiting 2010. What I will find on that other side is up to me.
I'm thankful that I am at least looking towards what awaits and what I am moving toward...becoming a better me. There is always the opportunity to do-over, to start again, to pick ones self up after dusting off the errors, mistakes, falls, lapses, relapses of days passed. I am doing just that this day after. Not replaying tapes of "why didn't you do better with where you wanted to be by this time of year, why aren't you finally at a normal weight for your height, why aren't you faster, healthier, leaner, more toned!?!" Yikes, erase those tapes, rip them up and burn them quickly!!! Today is a new day, a bright day-after-day, a new beginning day, and that kind of day doesn't have to be the start of a new week, a new year or even a new decade...it starts any day....it starts TODAY!
Thursday, December 10, 2009
Yikes! Is that really me babbling, about to cry for no reason, feeling tense and ready to bite a hunk outta someone????
Yep, that's me stressing out over the list of things to do around the house, the list of things to finish up so I can mail out to family, the items to be baked for the employees, the cards that need to be addressed and mailed so they get to the USA before 2010! Should I go on??! No, it's not a pretty sight and not worth describing.
This is what happens when I work without a plan, without putting my goals to paper and my to be finished by notations!!
So how do I regroup at this late date? How do I salvage my frizzing fissling overflowing mind? By taking things one at a time and make that list NOW and follow through with it.
Prioritize what I need to have done and work through that list. The gifts to the employees do not have to be finished today as they aren't getting their goodie bags till next Thursday, BUT the gifts to the grandkids need to get finished as they need to be in the post so they arrive BEFORE Christmas!!
BREATH....take some time to do AHHHHHHHHHHHhhh and get out of the house for a bit of exercise. The time spent away from the to do things is well spent so that when I return I have clarity of mind to get back to the next thing on my list!
Yes, I was fraying off at the ends yesterday and I may again before all is accomplished, but at least I won't puddle up on the floor and sit babbling in that puddle!! I'm getting through one day at a time!
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Not only is today Thanksgiving... but it's my 58th Birthday! YIKES!!! Just saying that almost makes me gasp! But the excellent news is, I am a much healthier 58 year old than I was a 48 year old!
Being over 3,000 miles away from my US family and friends doesn't mean I don't take time out each Thanksgiving to celebrate and today won't be an exception. The day is extra special because I am thankful for it being my birthday.
I've thought about how I want to get the day started this morning and thought how cool it would be to celebrate it with you reading this. Let's do a bit of a challenge...why not celebrate the day with me? OK, I know you can't physically get yourselves over here BUT we could do something healthy to celebrate!
Yes, it's a busy day, yes you have tons of things to do and yes the day will just zip by. But, why not give yourself just 58 minutes to join me in a run, a walk, a sport of some kind? How cool to spend the time together being thankful, celebrating a birthday, and being good to yourself all at the same time!!
I'm heading out for a 5.8 celebratory run on a favourite route of mine this morning. I will most likely get rained on, but while out there, I'll be giving my thanks for the ability to do this, for my friends and family near and far, and for all of you fantastic folks here on SP!
May each of you be blessed today and let's celebrate!!!
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