Thursday, May 14, 2009
Determination, frustration, commitment, fatigue, perseverance, disappointment, resiliency... Add to that a bit of stubbornness and that's my mind set for the most part. Just as the words go up and down so does my day to day journey. Life is NOT an even flatline! It's the continual rhythm of an ebb and flow, a fading from light to night or of a clock's pendulum's back and forth sway.
Remembering this and applying it to my life journey makes a whole lotta sense for my physical, mental and emotional health. My days are going to be the "good and the bad" the "up and the down", the sunshine and black clouds. Just expect that to happen and when it does, it won't seem so out of place.
So like today, when I'm torn between staying in and getting the stack of paperwork trimmed down, or going out on a windy, coolish and partly sunny afternoon for at least a 4 mile run I can expect that. So this is when I turn to the voice telling me to stay in and get caught up (somewhat) on my paperwork, housework, correspondence, hobbies...and on and on... that all those things will still be there when I return, and that's ok. However, the sunshine and today will only last a short time and play time is important.
PS (I got that run in and feel great that I took the time to go, and yep, all that work is still waiting, and it looks like rain)
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Kick start, jump start, kick butt, just do it, etc!!
Are you ready? set? GO!!
Phrases to get the mind in gear to get the body moving or even to get the mind moving. After all, when the mind moves, the body if given enough motivation, WILL follow.
That is where I am today. My mind is kick starting my body. It's motivating me to see there are things in my "long enough life" that I am taking aim at! It is a resurgence, a renaissance of movement, a cascading of the spring thaw to the mountain snow left dormant over the cold and freezing winter months. It's a free flowing of activity and focus.
I needed a bit of time in my cocoon of preparation, my own "fortress of solitude" to bring me to the radiant sunlight of today. The realization that I want more of life than where I have curled myself up for the past 5 months!
Huddling on my own is over. Over is excuse making, goal setting is in full swing. I have decided on a fall marathon and it's one of the "big ones"... Berlin! Yes I am excited, I am formulating my plans. I have put pencil to paper and words to monitor. September 20 I hit the asphalt of Berlin and before that the roads and trails of NW England. I know what it takes to prepare for this type event... I've done it 5 times already.
So here I will put down my thoughts for the 5 months that await me. My focus will be to prepare myself, mentally, physically, and spiritually for the days, weeks and months ahead. Once again I thank all who I have met on this site that have been voices behind my monitor to urge me on. I hope that I can count on you to spur me on once again. My hand is out to you and together we are gonna kick some serious asphalt!!.
Tuesday, April 07, 2009
Time to resurface, to uncover myself from all that has gone on before
Time to not let what has gone on before keep me from what can go on now.
These past 3 months have been so very intense for me with the course work that engulfed my mind, my time, my life. I have competed the course, but won't find out if I passed until June. I'm not dwelling on how I did because there is nothing I can do about that. The test papers were turned in and now it's time to focus on some other things...like getting back to committing to taking care of me.
I found out that I don't do more than one major project at a time. If I attempt to spread myself too thin over a range of things, I don't do well at any. So with the course work put aside, I can now resume my running to the level I have missed, I can get back to the spark teams that mean the most to me, and I can once again re-examine my health issues.
It's time to dig deep inside and find the enthusiasm I had a year ago, to find a direction that I want to put these feet towards. I'm not signed up yet for a marathon later this year, but that is a goal to check off my list within the remainder of this month.
It's time to realize that this is Not a quick fix, it's a slow burn. It will take time to accomplish the goals I am setting. It will take take patience, determination, dedication. I have the time for those. Thank you for taking the time to read this, it's a precious commodity, and I value you for giving me some of yours.
Wednesday, March 11, 2009
A year ago I was training for my second London Marathon and my fourth marathon in just 2 years. The excitement and determination filled every day as I would log in my food, my run, my day.
The marathon organizers sent out with the acceptance magazine, a pair of red laces that if worn while crossing the finish line would provide £1 to the designated charity. I remember with excitement replacing my Nike laces with these motivating red ones. It was like wearing a badge while out on my runs to let other marathon training runners know that I was not only "in" the marathon, but was doing my bit for a cause. When out on my training runs I would scour the feet of other runners to see if they were similarly dressed, sporting THEIR red laces. I recall shouting "nice laces" to just one other runner as he was out on his Saturday long run.
Fast forwarding to this year and this month; there is no marathon training, there are no red laces in my shoes and the motivation and determination to even train with dedication for the half I am running in Liverpool in just a bit over 2 weeks is not at fever pitch.
Life has gotten very hectic with taking on a major course work load, additional business work, the weather had been terrible, I've got a cold, the flu, my thyroid is playing up,blah blah blah... the list goes on and on. I can look at those as excuses for not doing what I so enjoy and bring it all back to me. I lost my red lace mentality, my motivation, my edge, my determination, my grit....and on and on.. Whatever you want to call it, I lost it! Well, maybe I just laid it down and looked at it and haven't quite picked it back up, till now!
Today, I know is all I have. I can only plan for this day and this moment. I am taking time this morning to put these thoughts down in the determination that they will carry me forward. To put red laces back if not in my shoes, but in my heart. To me they are a symbol of what I have worked so successfully for, of what I can accomplish. I am looking at that again and seeing that I have so much more I am capable of. I have so much more I want to live and do and see.
Today and every day will be a red lace day, may it be for you as well! these are from my FIRST London in 2007, there is another set from 2008 as well.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
It's a morale defeater when someone tells you that you look like you've put on a few pounds, or your just not as lively as you used to be. Perhaps the person is blunt enough to say that what you are wearing makes you look awful! or maybe just asks "What were you thinking of!? in relation to anything you try.
What makes it even worse is when that person is ME! Negative self talk can destroy my positive state of mind in no time! Being honest is one thing, but kicking myself in the teeth is not necessary.
Taking care of me, in a positive loving way, is similar to when my cat comes up to me and rolls on the floor asking me in her language to rub her tummy, pick her up and cuddle. It's showing her she's lovable and I appreciate her.
I know there are many areas in myself I'm working on, and I am a work in progress. I will have down times, and to remember NOT to beat myself up when I am in those. Finding positive resources to help me climb out of the mud puddle that I want to stay in enables me to move forward. To wash myself off, comb my hair, and get right back into this game called life.
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