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Sunday, February 22, 2009

It's a morale defeater when someone tells you that you look like you've put on a few pounds, or your just not as lively as you used to be. Perhaps the person is blunt enough to say that what you are wearing makes you look awful! or maybe just asks "What were you thinking of!? in relation to anything you try.

What makes it even worse is when that person is ME! Negative self talk can destroy my positive state of mind in no time! Being honest is one thing, but kicking myself in the teeth is not necessary.

Taking care of me, in a positive loving way, is similar to when my cat comes up to me and rolls on the floor asking me in her language to rub her tummy, pick her up and cuddle. It's showing her she's lovable and I appreciate her.

I know there are many areas in myself I'm working on, and I am a work in progress. I will have down times, and to remember NOT to beat myself up when I am in those. Finding positive resources to help me climb out of the mud puddle that I want to stay in enables me to move forward. To wash myself off, comb my hair, and get right back into this game called life.

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BETINA10 2/22/2009 3:17AM

    What a lovely reminder to be our own best friend... instead of the alternative!


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Love is whatcha need!

Saturday, February 14, 2009

A love of yourself can go a long way.
A love of yourself can keep you from harming yourself
A love of yourself can cause you to stop, think and choose another path.
A love of yourself can bring a smile to your lips, a calm to your soul, and a purpose to your life.
Love yourself! Today and every day!!

000____________________________ 000
000_____HAPPY VALENTINE's____000


Nothing else

Friday, January 30, 2009

Just a regular weekday for me; feed the cat, the dog, make breakfast for hubby and me, start the laundry. Working from home I take care of the office work and today was payroll day and I had just completed that with a morning run in the plans.
Phone rings, it’s my husband, he had just received a text; Linda’s mom. Oh no, no I am barely able to say with the lump in my throat increasing with each word. I had just the day before received an email including the information on the upcoming Race For Life. Impeccable timing I realized.
Memories of my own mother washed over me and tears flooded my eyes. I sobbed with the thoughts from her battle with Cancer and her unfortunate passing 19 years ago. I phoned Linda and her sobs pierced my heart. “I’m so so so so sorry” was my feeble attempt to express my shared grief at her loss. Words were minimal as she needed to get off the phone to take care of arrangements with her sisters and Dad.
Again I cried; for the years I have been motherless, for the life events I have been unable to share with the woman who gave me life, for my children and now grandchildren who either were cut short their relationship with her, or who never got the chance to be touched by her life.
What can I do to bring honour to these women? What can I say to a wonderful friend and fellow runner who now knows the pain and heartbreak of loosing her mother to a relentless killer? How can I celebrate their life with my life?....... I can run!
I can give my time today and celebrate their accomplishments with my own. I can feel the wind on my face, the rain on my jacket, the puddles dancing with my foot strikes. I can push myself a bit harder as I climb up the hills and feel the freedom of almost freefalling down the hills. I can realize the discomfort of regaining my fitness after a month off from illness is nothing compared to what so many are dealing with. I can rejoice in the knowing that my life is rich in so many ways that don’t include the monetary.
With resolve, I changed to my running clothes, I tackled the hills, I coasted the declines, sweat mixed with tears, I melted into the moment, I ran. For you see, there was nothing else at that point in time I could do…so, I ran.

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RHYNIC 2/4/2009 7:53AM

    wow Mary, I haven't seen you in a while. I am so happy our news showed pictures of snow in England, it reminded me of you. You wrote a beautiful blog. I will subscribe to your blogs so that I don' t lose touch again. gail

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    We run for all those who can't!!! I will run a mile during my 1/2 marathon on Sunday in honor of Linda's mother and OUR lovely moms who are there to meet her as she takes her final lap!!! Not only are we WARRIORS on the road but we are WARRIORS in every aspect of our lives!!! Stay strong my friend!!! Love you!!! Jackie!!! emoticon

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New ME!!!

Wednesday, January 07, 2009

Yes, I'm doing the new ME bootcamp challenge and it's been a bit of hit and miss. BUT I'm not letting that stop me. I sometimes think it's gotta be 100% or just forget a bout it! Nope, I'm doing the videos and finding them great. I have missed half (only 4 days gone by) but 50% is better than 40%!!

Every bit will help and that is progress...It's a foggy day in NW England right now so cardio will be something inside.. Hmm maybe another video???Going up and down the stairs, jogging in place...lots of options!!

That is how to look at things, find the positive, the options that work and then work em!! Steppin and smiling along the way!

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JILLWILSON2102 1/8/2009 11:02AM

    Mary you always set such a wonderful example for the rest of us. Have a wonderful day steppin'.

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TLB513 1/7/2009 12:22PM

    I, too, am at 50% of the Bootcamp challenge, and glad that I have been able to do that! I'm having some issues with my right knee and foot...and the 5 hours at the 2nd job seemed to have aggravated it. So... not sure what, if anything, I'll get done this evening...
The most important thing...I'm still trying, and I have NOT given up!!

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It's a new day, it's a new year, and..

Monday, January 05, 2009

..I'm determined!
Ahh.. yeah I know the lyrics don't go quite like that, but I'm singing MY song today.
The new year is almost a week old and I'm finally getting to blog about it. It's been that kind of week already.
The flu bug got me just a few days before Christmas and I'm still fighting it and trying to keep from a reoccurance. Cough is getting less and that is a big plus.

I'm not going to stare back at 2008 and say things like, "why didn't I" I wish I had", "I SHOULD have." None of that will help meand will only serve to make me feel bad about me. It's best to turn around and face 2009 head on! I can see the blank days ahead that way and am able to color them as they approach.

There is only page in front of me, and it's labeled..TODAY. I have my pallet of colors and my brush in my hand. I'm taking time to fill the canvas with as radiant a swash of color as I can. I'm determined to make TODAY the best possible.

I've taken time for me by planning my food, making a to-do list and working on through it, setting an appointment time for exercise (going to the gym and boot camp) and also making sure there is time for a bit of fun.

I like having a plan for the day, I like being productive, I like looking at my painted canvas at the close of the day and say..AHHH, now that was great!

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JILLWILSON2102 1/5/2009 10:04AM

    Mary - how wonderful you are. I love the idea of painting on a blank canvas. You get to choose exactly how you want the picture to look. Have a wonderful day!!

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