Wednesday, October 24, 2007
How to measure achievements? How to feel like I am getting someplace? What do I feel like when I only use one form of standardÖthe scale and it doesnít reflect a downward slide?
If I was to only use the scale to mark my ďsuccessĒ with becoming a healthier person I would really get upset. And when I DO use just the scale I DO get disappointed. I really wish I lost weight quickly and consistently, but with my health issues the reality is I donít. I loose weight at a snailís pace and I can put it back on like a jet plane.
Therefore, I need to look someplace else than the scale to measure my ďachievementĒ. Just this week Iíve been noticing these even more. When I put on that great leather belt with the fancy buckle, I will need to put a new hole in it to have it fit me properly. It's doesn't have any more to use.
With the colder weather I put on a running jacket that I havenít worn since the early spring, and it fits so much better at the hipline. (I remember when I first bought that jacket 3 years ago, it was very snug at the hip and the only way I could wear it was to open the side zippers at the mesh inset to allow me extra room, now I donít need to do that.)
The gold wrist bracelets are looser and can even slide off without being unfastened.
I enjoy my running and have noticed that my speed has increased with the races I have taken part in this year; in fact I have been pleased with the several personal best times I have achieved. My breathing while out running seems almost effortless at times. The hill repeats that I challenge myself with are enabling me to run better.
Itís a good thing that I sew and have a sewing machine because when Iput a skirt on that I havenít worn since last winter, I am going to need to take the waist in at least 2 inches! (right now the safety pin is holding it together!)
When I look at pictures of myself from just over this year, I see a dramatic change. There is a glow that radiates from a more toned face and body. I donít even need to take my measurements, because I know without numbers, that I am achieving.
Friday, October 12, 2007
Why do I do what I do? Why am I determined to be a healthier me. Why do put my body through the miles and miles of training for running the various races I run? Why do I choose not to eat certain things?
I am selfish, that's why!
I want to be around for as long as I can. I want to feel the wind on my face and see mountains, and valleys, and hot air balloons. I want to run lakeside trails, paved streets, rural rambling roads and I want to test my abilities to see what I am capable of. I want to see my grandchildren have children.
I want to hear my children tell me of their achievements and dreams. I want to feel the electricity of their joy, give them hugs when they need them. Be a shoulder, and a friend to those I meet. I want to let people know that someone is there for them and remind them how fantastic they are.
I want to sit and listen to my husband play his guitar and hear the stories of what life was like for him growing up an ocean away from me. I want to enjoy his company for years and years and years.
Yes, I am selfish, and that is why I do what I do. I want every bit of life that I can get. I want to wring it dry and then pull every bit of moisture that is left out with my mouth. I want my passing to be like a sonic boom! I'm leaving this place with vapour trails and burning tire tracks. I'm not going quietly. Nope...I'm leaving a legacy that will continue. I'm making the most of everything that is given to me. Grabbing on with both hands and yelling a loud YEEEEEEAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!
Thursday, October 11, 2007
What does that word bring to the mind. I close my eyes and I see someone standing proud and tall, shoulders back, eyes penetrating, focused, concentrating. There is an energy from every fiber of their being. They are ready, anxious, but quietly confident. No need to speak loudly, they know, they have a peace, an energy, a strength.
The warrior is poised and can move in a whisper.
There have been times that I have entered into that warrior mode. The picture I have chosen is one of those times. Even though two years have passed since, I can recall the concentration, the energy, the determination to finish that race in a record time and with power and energy blazing from my feet. I was assured that I could do the task at hand. No questions, no doubt, no fear!
Yes, I DID do a record time and I savoured the entire experience. So I will bring that warrior out again this Saturday when I run another Half Marathon. This will be a race that I will be running on my own course, in my own area. It will be up to me to stay motivated, focused, determined. I can call upon that warrior within me at any time and when I do, I am empowered!
Monday, October 08, 2007
Coniston Trail Race 2007 was great! The weather was perfect, I was pumped up and ready to repeat the distance from last year, BUT do another PB!
The course is beautiful, challenging, 15K in distance, well marshalled, and fun. I had been working each week doing hill repeats and speed sessions to be ready for this day. I wanted to see how far I could get along the course before the faster partcipants in the race caught up with me. Both years past they had got me at the 8K point where there is a shale quarrey and the underfoot is quite tricky. The incline is steep, lots of shale bits about and not much room to manuver through.
I am so pleased with the outcome! I got a good start, tired a bit for mile 2 and 3 (steepest bits) and by the time the first racer caught me I had cleared the shale and was at 10K! I even passed some others in the challenge and felt like I was dancing as I needed to leap over some of the rocks.
My finish time was a fantastic 17 minutes under last year. AND, I had the honour to see former Commonwealth Marathon winner, Boston Marathon winner and a man who has a running streak of running every day since 1964....Ron Hill... finish his race. I even got a picture with him before he got surrounded by well wishers. (his achievements are much more than I listed) I've caught up with Ron at other venues and he's such a nice man it was great to see him again.
Doing these Trail Challenges/Races up in the Lakes gives me a wonderful change from running around the streets. I'm looking forward to next month and the very first Ullswater Challenge/Race.
Sunday, September 30, 2007
Be not afraid of going slowly; be afraid only of standing still.
Progress keeps happening as long as I keep moving. To stand still is to stop, to not proceed, to be motionless. If I stay motionless, the world keeps moving and I may start to slip backward. I don't ever want to go in that direction again.
I like the signature I have gleaned from a book I read. " Run when you can, walk if you have to, crawl if you must, just NEVER give up! There are many times I have crawled, and I know there will be many times I will crawl again. However, I am NOT going to put up the white flag and surrender. I'm not going to be a captive ever again. I have come too far to just stand still and stop, or even sit down and wait.
No...a forward motion, no matter how slow, how tiny the steps are, WILL get me to that goal. It is like the races and runs that I do, as long as I keep going, I will get to that finish line, that mile marker. It may hurt, I may have to slow down, the hill might be too steep or I am too tired to run, but I can walk. If the trail becomes to cumbersome and I can't even walk, then I will pull myself along, I will crawl until I reach that finish.
I maybe able to walk again, or even run to the end, but that really doesn't matter, as long as I crawl, I am going ahead, I am going to finish. I will NOT give up!
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