In The Mirror

Thursday, June 14, 2007

She is supposed to be my friend, my reflection, my likeness. Then why do I treat her so unkind at times? All I see so often are her imperfections, her flaws, that bit I think could look better. I judge her, comment on her skin, her clothes, her hair, a wrinkle here, a buldge in the clothes there. Everthing is under my watchful and critical eye. Would a friend want me to act like that? I don't think so.

If I was like that to a close friend I don't think they would want to be around me. I think they would avoid contact, of finding something else to do instead of hanging around with me.

Time to take a better look in the mirror, let her know that she is beautiful, that she is kind, she is attractive, she wears her clothes great, her skin is radient, her smile has a twinkle, her eyes dance, her hair shimmers. Yep, time to be more gentle to her, to love her, treat her with respect and believe all that I tell her. After all, that's me I'm talking to. So the journey continues and the two of us are making great progress!

  

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SIRENA3 6/17/2007 9:50AM

Thanks for putting into words what some of us feel!!! I do make a point, on a daily basis, to look at myself and find positive things. I guess I have trouble with the concept of aging gracefully... ;-) Report Inappropriate Comment

WANT2LUVMEAGAIN 6/15/2007 1:28AM

truer words were never spoken. is it allright with you if i print it out and post it everywhere so that i will have a constant reminder? andra Report Inappropriate Comment

HEALTHYWRITER 6/14/2007 11:19PM

This is a reflection worthy of copying and posting near the mirror. ;) They say that imitation is the sincerest form of flattery... perhaps if I smile at the face in the mirror, she'll smile back. Report Inappropriate Comment

HOPE81 6/14/2007 6:32PM

Very nicely put! We can all relate to that. Hope Report Inappropriate Comment

W8FALNOFF 6/14/2007 6:30PM

Wow, that's deep. I really enjoyed and can relate, thank you for sharing yourself and your "friend". Patty Report Inappropriate Comment

BLUEFISH2 6/14/2007 5:45PM

You are a gifted writer and I really enjoyed reading your blog. Congratulations on all of your success. God bless. Report Inappropriate Comment

CYNTHIAS50 6/14/2007 5:20PM

Very powerful words! I loved it, and I really need to look in the mirror too! They say a person is their own worst critic! Thanks so much for sharing! God Bless, Cindy Report Inappropriate Comment

LOVELIFE01 6/14/2007 1:05PM

WOW! if that couldent be more impactfull!, that brought a tear to me eye, I will have to copy this, did you write it?, that was beautifull, thanks, love ya and Godbless. Report Inappropriate Comment

MISSJCISRUNNING 6/14/2007 12:10PM

Beautiful words that I so needed to hear!!!! Thank you for the reminder!! Have a wonderful day! Jackie! Report Inappropriate Comment

Friends

Thursday, June 07, 2007

Can't imagine life without them. Miss the ones I have had to leave along the 'lay-bys' of my life. So thankful for those that are walking along side me on my journey.

I can remember when I moved to a new location and had to leave the close and dear friends I had made in only a short year of living someplace. How my very core ached and hurt. It had not been my decision to move, but rather one that I reluctantly was forced to agree to. That made the pain of leaving good girl friends even deeper.

I don't think I ever really get over the moves I have made and leaving my life friends. I know that over time the contacts lessen but I can never forget the times spent with them. They were/are a part of me. I have the memories, the pictures of our times together. I am thankful for that.

So that is how it is now. I don't have that many close friends over here, but thankfully there are some. Running the Race For Life last night and having two women there with me made the entire evening a golden memory. To finish hand in hand with someone I have known for 5 years and for the past 3 we have run this race together and finished together is awesome. I didn't think that would happen this year as she was a bit ahead of me, but as she tired I caught up to her and with a shout of encouragement she started running with me. We laughed as we crossed the finish line, hugged and were elated. She thanked me for being her inspiration and encouragment to get her involved with this race.

Yep, friends......there are those that are like crayon rubbings; only surface type. And then there are those that emboss themselves to the fabric of your life. I'm thankful for those who have taken the time to emboss my life.

  

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JEANAC 6/7/2007 6:43PM

sometimes it seems like to much effort to keep making new friends but Im glad i've made the effort as there freindship has paid off in so many special ways.Im a much better freind to both old and new friends. jeana Report Inappropriate Comment

A Work In Progress

Tuesday, June 05, 2007

He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying."
– Friedrich Nietzsche

Something I need to remember. I think at times I just want to head over to the airstrip, jump in the plane and soar. Nope, can't just take off. I've got to go through the proper growth to be able to soar with the eagles.

I wasn't born with wings, I'm a creature of the ground and how can I expect to fly without an evolving process? I can't. There is much involved in flying, it's not as easy as standing, and then becoming mobile by walking. Then of course running takes even more skill. The breathing for one thing has to be mastered. It's not a flat out sprint either, it's a gradual bit by bit more at a time. Then as practice leads to progress, distance, stamina, speed are added.

Climbing and dancing are also added to the ability of walking and running. Additional mobility. Alternate ways of moving. Then, it's time to soar. Practice lessons, trial attempts, and then at last, flight. But short flights, return to base and then refueling, check equipment, and time and time again a little longer flight. Before I know it, I'm out there. But I have to remember at any time I can crash and burn.

It's a humbling experience to know that I am always needing to take progress bit by bit. Not to run and jump into something but let myself learn, and relearn if/when necessary. I am a continual work in progress.

  

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ANNE7777 6/5/2007 9:51AM

Waxing philosophical--humble is good, but you have every right to be PROUD! Keep it up STRONG WOMAN! {{hugs}} Anne Report Inappropriate Comment

Flaming Tire Tracks

Thursday, May 24, 2007

Thursday and a rainy drizzle type of day. I did get out there and do my 13 miles. Ouch!! Yep the hip and butt muscles were hurting on the right side after 8 miles. Oh well, I guess this is something I live with. Biomechanical situation that all I can do is work through with stretches.

The lengths I go to keep doing what I enjoy. Why do something when it causes discomfort? Why not stay comfortble and safe and warm and just content?

I've been in that world, of playing it safe, of just doing what was necessary. Of sitting by and watching. Nope! I want to live this life to its max. I want to leave this planet with skid marks . Makes me think of the Back to The Future movies when the car disappears into the time warp and all that is left are tracks of flames! Yep....I want that to be me. Having used up all the time I have been given and nothing remains but a firey trail.

So I will keep my food going as it shoud, keep the exercise level to where I am ready to run my races and my training to increase. Live an accountable life. As long as I keep going forward, positive results will occur. I keep Believing......It WILL happen!

  

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ANNE7777 5/29/2007 12:11PM

Hi Mary! No more sitting and watching! This quote is foremost in my mind, and is the most influencial item I've gleaed from this site--I have learned this from you!!! We will all have ups and downs. Stick to it, you know what to do, and I have faith in you. Good on you for sticking to the stretching--very important. I'm sure you are already planning your next run......see you!!! Anne Report Inappropriate Comment

Blur

Tuesday, May 22, 2007

Has it really been over a week since I last wrote on here? Actually it's been 12 days! It has all been a blur. I've tried to get so much accomplished lately that where has the ME time gone? Have I let it all fade into the rush of what I "must" get done?

I think the answer to that is a big YES! Time to get it back into focus. The IT being my time, my getting through my day.

Food and exercise hasn't been the problem. I seem to eat right, get out there and do the running that I enjoy so much. It is the mental stuff that can cause my mind to buzz and blur with all the things going on. I have so many ideas that I want to act on. Making of list of what is of most importance can help.

Just keeping it a day by day thing helps to not let the lens of life blur out what I really need/want to get done. I work better when what I want to do is written down. My husband is great at this, he is the master of the list. So organized!! I've learned alot from him.

So for today, I work though the must do first, then down from there. The food is planned, the exercise/run will be tonight with the WRN, and I have already written on here and my other running blog. I feel good about that.
The paperwork is the next thing awaiting. I WILL get it finalized today.

I think behind alot of what plays on me is the lack of consistent down-ward movment on my weight. I do see a change in my face, my belt and all that other stuff. The numbers play with my mind. They dance between 174-176 from one day to the next. Am I stuck on a setpoint for my body that it just doesn't want to leave??

Well, I will just keep my head down, and like on a tuff hill keep putting the feet infront of another. I will get to the top as long as I don't stop!