Thursday, June 14, 2007
She is supposed to be my friend, my reflection, my likeness. Then why do I treat her so unkind at times? All I see so often are her imperfections, her flaws, that bit I think could look better. I judge her, comment on her skin, her clothes, her hair, a wrinkle here, a buldge in the clothes there. Everthing is under my watchful and critical eye. Would a friend want me to act like that? I don't think so.
If I was like that to a close friend I don't think they would want to be around me. I think they would avoid contact, of finding something else to do instead of hanging around with me.
Time to take a better look in the mirror, let her know that she is beautiful, that she is kind, she is attractive, she wears her clothes great, her skin is radient, her smile has a twinkle, her eyes dance, her hair shimmers. Yep, time to be more gentle to her, to love her, treat her with respect and believe all that I tell her. After all, that's me I'm talking to. So the journey continues and the two of us are making great progress!
Tuesday, June 05, 2007
He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying."
– Friedrich Nietzsche
Something I need to remember. I think at times I just want to head over to the airstrip, jump in the plane and soar. Nope, can't just take off. I've got to go through the proper growth to be able to soar with the eagles.
I wasn't born with wings, I'm a creature of the ground and how can I expect to fly without an evolving process? I can't. There is much involved in flying, it's not as easy as standing, and then becoming mobile by walking. Then of course running takes even more skill. The breathing for one thing has to be mastered. It's not a flat out sprint either, it's a gradual bit by bit more at a time. Then as practice leads to progress, distance, stamina, speed are added.
Climbing and dancing are also added to the ability of walking and running. Additional mobility. Alternate ways of moving. Then, it's time to soar. Practice lessons, trial attempts, and then at last, flight. But short flights, return to base and then refueling, check equipment, and time and time again a little longer flight. Before I know it, I'm out there. But I have to remember at any time I can crash and burn.
It's a humbling experience to know that I am always needing to take progress bit by bit. Not to run and jump into something but let myself learn, and relearn if/when necessary. I am a continual work in progress.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007
Has it really been over a week since I last wrote on here? Actually it's been 12 days! It has all been a blur. I've tried to get so much accomplished lately that where has the ME time gone? Have I let it all fade into the rush of what I "must" get done?
I think the answer to that is a big YES! Time to get it back into focus. The IT being my time, my getting through my day.
Food and exercise hasn't been the problem. I seem to eat right, get out there and do the running that I enjoy so much. It is the mental stuff that can cause my mind to buzz and blur with all the things going on. I have so many ideas that I want to act on. Making of list of what is of most importance can help.
Just keeping it a day by day thing helps to not let the lens of life blur out what I really need/want to get done. I work better when what I want to do is written down. My husband is great at this, he is the master of the list. So organized!! I've learned alot from him.
So for today, I work though the must do first, then down from there. The food is planned, the exercise/run will be tonight with the WRN, and I have already written on here and my other running blog. I feel good about that.
The paperwork is the next thing awaiting. I WILL get it finalized today.
I think behind alot of what plays on me is the lack of consistent down-ward movment on my weight. I do see a change in my face, my belt and all that other stuff. The numbers play with my mind. They dance between 174-176 from one day to the next. Am I stuck on a setpoint for my body that it just doesn't want to leave??
Well, I will just keep my head down, and like on a tuff hill keep putting the feet infront of another. I will get to the top as long as I don't stop!
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