Saturday, February 08, 2014
Even though it's only mid-morning, today is AWESOME!:-)
Today I woke up without the medical condition affecting me - yay! I only have about 3 days per month like that, so I'll take it:-) Of course, it might hit later, but that's okay...
I went to the Wellness Center to do the routine that the trainer gave me. I had to skip a day yesterday. Even though she said I can do it daily because I'm using my body weight instead of weights (doesn't she know my body weighs more than any weights I could use? lol), I could tell I needed rest yesterday. It might take me a bit to work up to doing it more than every other day, but a year from now, who cares as long as I'm being consistent?
While the items she has me do seem unconventional to me, I'd say they're working:-) I already feel better. I worked out for about 50 minutes, including cardio and ST. Okay, I know that's no much for those of you who work out for 2 hours or more per day, but this is HUGE for me!:-) I feel awesome, I feel happy, I feel like I could fly!:-)
I think this has to help me medically. Even if it doesn't, it still makes me feel better. And I think that will definitely chase a lot of the blues away.
It's been a while since I've worked out like this. I guess it's been since I was in physical therapy after my hip replacement surgery. But I hope I continue like this the rest of my life - it's worth it 'cause I feel so awesome!
Happy Weekend, all!
Wednesday, February 05, 2014
I realized last night that I've been depressed the past couple of days. I really, really hate to feel that way - I try very hard to be positive. So it makes it something I don't want to see in myself when I get depressed.
I know it's a combination of the medical issue I'm dealing with (chronic pain eventually gets to you) and some of the medications. But I still don't like it and sometimes feel like it's a character flaw. And it's so hard to reach out when I feel depressed - I feel so isolated.
But I'm reaching out now. Just getting in and seeing the comments and goodies makes me feel better - thank you, my spark friends!
I am trying to resist the urge to head to the quilt shop:-) That makes me feel better but it always costs me money:-) But I suppose it's better than turning to food......
Monday, February 03, 2014
I am writing this blog to apologize to my fellow Starfish. It has been so unusually cold here the past few weeks, and especially last week, that I hibernated. There - I said it. I am so sorry that I wasn't here to support yall last week - this week will be different.
I suppose hibernating in the cold comes natural to me. I can think back to some of the cold climates lived in (CO, NE, upstate NY). During recess at school, they wouldn't let us stay in - we had to go out no matter how cold it was. I was one of the girls huddled in a group on the side of the building where the sun was shining, trying to stay warm but not really succeeding.
Again, I apologize. I did okay until last week, but it was so brutal (the lows two nights were -2 and 1 - very unusual for us!) that I just hibernated.
P.S. I took a sneak peek at my weight this morning, and I'm going to have a loss this week:-)
Tuesday, January 21, 2014
I took some time to type in a blog about how I'm not "starting over" - again - but how I'm living the lifestyle I was born to - and it got lost! So here goes, again:-)
I don't feel like trying to re-do what I had written, so the bottom line is this: I'm getting more active, eating better, and living life between the many days that I'm sick. (No, I don't want to talk specifics) What if it doesn't get better? I have to live within the confines of what's going on.
So I'm proud of myself is really the bottom line. I rode my bike late this morning, did a set of weights (day 2 - woo hoo!), went to the Wellness Center that I just joined to walk on the treadmill, and plan to have another bike ride later today. None of these has been for very hard or very long - my aim is to create daily habits, not to run a marathon today. After all, I have to start where I am today, which is pretty much at the bottom and then below that:-)
And I'm trying a new approach for eating. No, I won't get into specifics, but we'll see if it produces positive or negative results:-)
I'm thankful for the 5% Challenge that I just started on Saturday - go starfish! I confess, teammates, that I didn't do such a great job this weekend. I met my new grand-nephew on Saturday so we were out of town. Such a cutie!!! And a snuggler! On Sunday, I was sick most of the day in bed.
But that's life. Things happen. I will STILL choose to be as happy and as healthy as I can be. That means learning (at age 50) to take care of myself. I WILL do it - that's the lifestyle I was born to have:-)
Wednesday, May 15, 2013
...even when you're not having fun:)
I can't believe it's been almost 4 months since I've sparked. I'm actually on a medical leave of absence from work. I'm having migraines daily. Ugh. Today is the first day in over 2 months that I haven't had one - woo hoo! Party, party! (hopefully I didn't jinx myself and have one start now:-)
I've been to my PCP, had several tests done, and she sent me to a neurologist. He doubled then quadrupled the medication I'm on to "prevent" migraines. No improvement. I thought for sure that quadrupling would have "some" effect! He then switched me to a different medication. I'd say that not having one today is an improvement (!) but that still means I've had a headache 6 days out of the last 7. Sigh. I go back to him on Friday afternoon.
I think the biggest result of daily migraines is that I honestly feel like I've lost my mind. I can't think of things. I see things that I have seen before and they are brand new to me (think 50 First Dates, only not quite that dramatic:-). So when I saw the neurologist last month, I asked him about it (wanted to see if it's related to the headaches, the meds, or if I'm starting alzheimers). He said that when you have daily migraines, your brain doesn't have time to gel the pieces and parts together before you have another one, so you do feel like you've lost your mind. He assured me that it isn't alzheimers and that once we fix the headaches, my brain will return to me. Very, very difficult to be so very "stupid" when all my life I've been intelligent (even when I had nothing else)....a 3.98 in high school and a 3.90 in college but it feels like I couldn't get a 0.01 lately:-)
At my doctor's request, I started Weight Watchers. The only problem is that I don't know from day to day when I'm having a headache, so it's not feasible for me to go at the same time each week (I do better with it in person than online, unlike SP - weird, aren't I?:-). I really struggled with doing what I need to do - when you have a migraine, what you eat and working out aren't exactly a priority.
But when the quadrupling of my prevention meds didn't help any, I realized that I need to live my life as if this is the way it's going to be. No, I don't really think that (!), as my neurologist told me that there are lots of options and we just have to keep going until we find the one that works for me. But by deciding to see it as if this is how it's going to be, it helps me to try to take advantage of the couple hours per day I don't have a headache. I'm going to keep it simple. I think I'll start with walking regularly (even if only 1/2 mile), getting in my water, and making sure to have at least a couple of fruits/veggies per day. I'm also going to lower my weight loss expectations. I'm thinking maybe 3 pounds per month, instead of the "more" that I really want to do. Even if it takes me 3 - 4 years to lose this weight, I'd be halfway there if I had been doing this the past couple of years. I truly want to change my habits.
It's very difficult for me to ask for help, but I'm asking. I was able to lose about 40 pounds a few years ago on SP. I need to lose that 40 again (!) and the other 100 or so. I may not have many brains most days, and I may be trying to find ways to remind myself of simple things that I want to do, but I KNOW that SP works, and I really would like your support.
Most of the time, the headache is gone by 6 p.m. at the latest. So I should be able to spark in the evenings (now watch me have one tomorrow evening:-).
I look forward to getting back on this journey to a healthy lifestyle with my spark friends!
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