Saturday, August 25, 2012
Do you ever feel like you're fighting food, day and night? All day, I've had this insatiable urge to eat, eat, eat. I think it's connected to some anxiety issues I'm going through right now and I will talk to my therapist when I see her next week. At the solid age of 67, I know that no one has a magic answer for me. It is not easy to deal with compulsive overeating. At least I overeat healthy foods like apples, not boxes of cookies like in the old days. I think it really comes from wanting to hurt myself and that often happens when I feel trapped in life. I watched the movie "Catch Me If You Can" tonight and it made me very sad. I know it's based on a real life story with two great actors playing the lead parts. The "con" artist is such a damaged young man. I suspect a lot of people would say, "Oh, grow up!" Nonetheless, I've always felt even when I was quite young that until you walk in someone else's shoes, you can't really condemn that person's behavior. Fate gives us all a journey to travel and that journey constitutes our life. Or so I believe. Life can be very painful at times and thinking pretty thoughts definitely does not help. I know because I've tried it many times. For those of us who were severely damaged as children, life presents some real difficulties along the way. I detest it when people call them "challenges." The latter means something else entirely.
Thursday, August 23, 2012
It all started yesterday after lunch. I was so exhausted. I couldn't force myself to go to the Y to workout so I went home and took a nap. Since then, I haven't used Nutrition Tracker. My partner has been quite ill and we're having to share one car for the next few days. I don't cope with change very well. I hope I will get up early enough to make it to the gym tomorrow and get home early enough for my SO to make it to her doctor's appointment. I also hope I get up early enough to have a healthy breakfast and put it in to the tracker before I leave for the gym. I just feel rather crummy. I feel cranky and the air quality is supposed to be lousy tomorrow. I really have a wonderful, abundant life but I just don't feel so hot right now. "This too shall pass" the sooner, the better. Yuck!
Wednesday, August 22, 2012
I think it's sad that the Spark Coach function requires payment and, even worse, is what's called an "automatic" renewal in the wonderful world of marketing. In other words, they set up an EFT using your credit card and then keep renewing automatically. I would actually go beyond the trial period if I could purchase one month or even three months without automatic renewal. Personally, I think not having this function available on a pay as you go basis is somewhat sleazy. I know many gym memberships function this way and then they make it very difficult to cancel. It sets a very bad tone for a very wonderful website. We know this requires money and it's obvious that advertising revenue is one income stream. I am way too old to authorize automatic renewal on anything and I think it should be offered as one way to pay not the ONLY way to pay.
Thursday, August 16, 2012
Although it takes a but of time, I still think this tracker is the best motivation tool for me. Of course, I won't really know until my next monthly weigh-in. The scale doesn't lie. I know some people don't even weigh but "some" people are not me. I am just relearning the right way for me to eat at age 67 with a thyroid condition and a carbohydrate sensitive system. The nice thing is that info is so readily available on-line. Remember the "old days" when we had a little (well, not so little) book of calorie content for food, many of which I never ate.
Thursday, August 02, 2012
Although some folks advise moderation as the key to success, I've always been an "all or nothing at all" kind of person. At age 66, this is not likely to change. Therefore, there are certain foods I avoid entirely. I call it my "no" list. Since I've recently gained a few pounds, I thought it would be helpful to revisit my "no" list and add some I will no doubt have forgotten as I focus again on healthy living one day at a time. NO sugary desserts of any kind, no muffins, no bagels, no pizza, no bacon, no fried food (makes me sick, anyway). No high calorie bread, no real whipped cream or real half & half, no granulated sugar, no grapes, no dried fruit except raisins or craisins counted out as portions, no sugary sodas, no candy bars or pretzels.
Having named all these foods, I'll close by saying this leaves literally thousands of foods that I CAN eat. I often eat the same things daily because it's just easier to track my nutrition and I'm definitely a creature of habit. Nonetheless, just think of all the fruits I can eat: apples, peaches, bananas, strawberries, blueberries, etc.
I hope someone somewhere will appreciate my list. And no, it doesn't make me want to run right out and eat "forbidden fruit." My biggest problem is portion control. I own a food scale and I always read the nutritional labels on food. It's up to me to eat less to return to my goal weight and at my age, it may take a while. I've got time.
Best wishes to all.
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